NOTE: This is part two of a two-part work that details the marks that have emerged on my body throughout my awakening process. I am finally including this information here in the hopes that if anyone else encounters them that they can rest assured that they are not losing their minds and that all is well. If you are finding this and would like to read the first installment please click HERE and a new tab will open and you can come back to this installment once you have completed the first part.
Continued from the previous…
When I awoke and saw this burn on my hip, I was at a complete loss as to how to explain any of this. How had I managed to burn myself and never even notice? If I had burned myself, I reasoned, whatever had burned me would have burned through my clothing. I would have noticed this kind of burn. It would have been a circular or semi-circular object. I would have clothing that was burned through near the hip. As I searched memory, I had not been in the kitchen or near anything that was hot enough to create a burn like this. It just wasn’t adding up the morning I got up and saw the mark plain as day as I sat on the side of the bed before my feet hit the floor. I knew there was no way I could have gotten burned just lying in bed asleep. No sharp objects, no chemicals had come into contact with my body in the last week. And a burn? I would have noticed it. I would have felt it. I would feel it throbbing, begging me to put something on it to ease the pain. This was a complete mystery!
Over the course of the next couple of days I shot the same mark several different times in a variety of different light just to make sure that I had captured it. Had I been branded? A friend later suggested that maybe I had been branded, but perhaps branded by spirit. Had I been taken out and abducted? Why a burn? And why didn’t it hurt? Why didn’t it behave like a burn? It simply faded over a period of about three days with no marks, no scaling of the skin, no itching, no scarring at all. There was no evidence of bruising or abrasion either. It was a complete mystery…at least as the time.
Below, see a close-up of the mark.
The Second Mark
The next photo is of a mark that manifested in 2012 after I experienced a powerful heart clearing. This was the third such clearing that I was aware of, which suggested to me that this was the third kosha, level, or dimensional aspect to be impacted through the clearing process that kundalini helped to facilitate. In the case of the mark at my heart chakra, it took a number of days before this mark emerged. Prior to that, I felt a powerful magnetic effect of energy surrounding my heart center that I can only describe as a beaming energy that was moving outward from my heart center. It is worth noting that I had two years prior to this had an experience with an angelic being who reached into my heart center in a kind of psychic surgery where he pulled out what felt like a part of my insides. All of this was energetic in nature, but felt very physical at the time. While he had his hand in my heart center, I was on fire with an unbelievable pulse of love that radiated throughout my entire being at a pitch that I could scarcely believe was even possible. It was this experience that initiated a series of powerful heart openings that continued over the following three years that resulted in a number of releases of old ancestral, physical, karmic, and emotional material from my field of awareness. Once the release came that resulted in the mark in my heart center, my heart felt more different than it ever had. It felt as though I had a beaming light shining from the center of my heart.
This mark began as a single circle and over a period of months as my heart center grew or expanded, a second lighter circle developed on top of the first. This had the effect of two hoops or circles making a figure “8” on my chest. I did not take photos of this new or expanding of the mark on my body.
I noticed that when I looked at it in the mirror over that year that the circle took one a look as though it was a circle with many smaller flames encircling it. It reminded me a lot of the image of Shiva dancing and being surrounded by a circle of flame. In fact, this mark was different from the first in that it was more like a series of marks making up a circle. It also has the effect of being like a string of red burn-like marks strung together, which the picture above illustrates. Again, this mark did not come about as a result of a fungal infection like ringworm or psoriasis and has been a mark that at various times reemerges when I am moving strong heart energy. I can in fact feel its presence all the time, but it gets stronger at different times. Besides the burn mark shown earlier, I have never had these strange burn marks that I could not account for. If anything, the marks are more like the result of my body being slightly irritated by the energy across the skin, perhaps more like how electricity might burn the body more than anything. Could this be a reaction to strong pranic energy flowing through the heart chakra? It’s interesting to me that it is so small; this ring feels like it corresponds to the central channel, the shushumna as it transits through the heart chakra because my heart chakra takes up nearly my entire chest now. There is an emergence of the most brilliant part of the heart center that starts at the center of my chest and radiates outward. This ring corresponds to this most intense center of energy (and might be a slight overloading of energy that irritates my skin?).
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What I do find interesting is that in my inner work I discovered a characteristic of prana while working with a Kahuna healer one day. When I am having her work on me, I feel very relaxed and secure and I often drop into a deep trance state in the hopes of facilitating the energy she is moving in my body. As I looked down into my meridian system I noticed something I had never seen before, which was that each energy line was surrounded by a series of other lines, like a bundle of fiber optic cables surrounding a central sheath. The mark on my chest is very similar to how the channel looked when viewed in cross-section (I am able to use the inner eye to get all kinds of views of my body ethereally, including what is essentially a cross section view). But I don’t know if this is connected to this discovery I made with my healer or not, and will be something that I will be bringing up with healers in my area to see if we can develop this further to see if these bundles can be further looked at to work out ways to work with them for moving energy and for healing work. So much to ponder and consider! All of this, no larger than the size of a dime. This is one reason why I think that this mark corresponds to the central channel and not the entire chakra because in both the Indian and the Chinese methodologies, the channels are described as quite small. The Ida and Pengali (which are nadi, or channels, for prana) are said to be as thin as the hair of a boar, for example. Each of the spots or flames are themselves closer to that size while the central core or inner circle is more in line with the shushumna channel size. I bring this all up because this might possibly be a way to study the anatomy of the energy body (until a scientist or engineer gets curious enough to build a device that can detect and read prana in the body!). So given this size of these channels, does this circular mark correspond to the diameter of the center channel, the shushumna?
If you would like to learn about the nadi, which are many, and the larger system of energy that transmits prana throughout the body you can begin with a pretty good wiki article first. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nadi_(yoga)
What I have noticed is that my chest continues to feel different. It even seems to have had an effect on how my skin reacts to this energy. Radiant, glowing almost, there is an abiding presence of all that I have worked to bring forward within myself. The energy, though, seems to have a slight irritating effect, which is mild, but is ever-present. Sometimes it can lead me to want to scratch or rub it, which can also make it sore very easily. I have to remind myself not to touch it, but to be aware of it, to feel what this all represents and the change that it has brought into my life.
Marks Are Not A Given Nor A Necessity
I don’t think that you have to have ANY physical manifestations of awakening in your life to prove anything about your awakening experience. In fact, the central phenomenon of awakening that is most important to my mind is the Presence that emerges and never goes away, which is itself, at least to me, a higher dimensional aspect of who and what we are potentially, and that this Presence can help to bring great change in our lives if we allow it to do its work. This Presence can bring awareness if we can be humble and if we can be honest with ourselves. Then, it burrows deeper into us, integrating and clearing as it goes. Resist, and it too will cease its development, its movement ever-deeper.
I also consider the great likelihood that I may have been a mystic Christian in an earlier life and either knew of, or experienced, some aspect of stigmata before, and this may be part of why I am experiencing these marks as I have in this life. Or not. I will give you a couple of examples of how past life experience can inform our experience in the here and now (hoping its not too far a jaunt off our beaten path of the marks of awakening).
Thirty years ago, in an effort to project consciousness out of my body, I was approached by a serpent with the face of a man where the face of the snake should have been. This serpent was coiled and was floating in the air. This face looked decidedly Mayan. In the projection, I was being told that I needed to project my consciousness into the form of the snake. I looked at it and thought how odd an image that was, because I knew about a Mayan God name Quetzalcoatl, but always imagined it to be a winged or feathered serpent, not a floating serpent with a man’s head. I wondered why it was that I would experience this image, obviously connected to Quetzalcoatl, in the way I had. There was a reason for it, I just didn’t know what it was, at least not right away. Later in life, however, I would have a series of dreams that revealed to me that I had lived as a Mayan in the Yucatan Peninsula and probably had some experience with this same god. In my studies in art school, I came across a nearly identical image of Quetzalcoatl I had not seen before in the Museum of Natural History in Mexico City that depicted him in just the same way I had seen him during my projection work. I also read later about Quetzalcoatl and found out that the priests who worked with this being were said to be visited by this god and would be taken on spirit journeys. Curious, that, I thought. It was exactly what I was being told to do when I was younger, yet I knew nothing about Quetzalcoatl. Not at least in this lifetime (and not until I took a course in college later simply because my curiosity had been piqued). And in still another interesting turn, that lifetime spent in the jungles of Palenque would bear upon many things that would take place in a life in the future which is the life I am living now with the whole “end” of the Mayan calendar-round in 2012. Life is not without its interesting coincidences, and seems to be woven into a dynamic fabric where one life informs another in useful and coherent ways.
In an odd twist, I also found out a year after my experience with the seraphim that visited me while reading up on Christian mystics that there was an account written about a seraph who visited one Christian mystic which was strikingly similar to my own experience. The mystic was St Theresa of Avilla. Theresa wrote about her experiences, and the account was similar, right down to the side that the angels would come to her and how the seraphim had pulled her insides out of her while she was “on fire with a great love of God.” While Theresa offers no insight into why the angel did this to her, I suspect that this was nothing short of a kind of “operation” performed in the etheric with the matter of the meridians, prana, or chi as the substances or systems that were being worked on. All of this sounds crazy of course, unless you have seen and felt these systems for yourself.
Ecstacy of Saint Theresa by Bernini, Santa Maria della Vittoria, Rome
What I am saying is that I think that we may have a predilection toward certain experiences over others depending on our own turn of mind, reincarnation background, beliefs, and our constitution. Some of us may need this “surgery” while others may not. Some of us may “remember” the lost or ancient gods and goddesses as they seem to make a return to us in this age. If I could count the number of people who I know who have had some significant experience with Isis, I would have a large room full of people who all know an important aspect of this woman who once walked the earth, who taught, and who was revered above mere saint and reached goddess status. Lying deeper within us are these memories. We are often just too busy or unaware that they exist. Awakening can be enough to shake them loose in us and bring us face to face with these forces in the healing and resurrection that is this experience.
For some time, I have resisted putting these images up because I suspected that there would naturally be those who would be skeptical. However, I know I am not the only one, and I place these images not for the skeptics, but for those who may have had unusual or baffling physiological changes taking place within them that might seem alarming or strange to them. While all of this takes place in the context of a grand sort of unraveling and rebirth and a coming to know one’s self in a new or expanded way, we also remain physical creatures with our own frailties sometimes. Everything is as it should be. And things will continue to change along a path that is certain and for your own betterment. Believe in yourself, your own inner voice, and the authority placed there by the divine! The universe, while neutral, is set up to allow you to succeed if you just know how to be authentically in the world. Others might not understand it, or might not even get it. And this is, in its own way, part of how things are.
Finally, and lastly, I would add that for some time I considered that this phenomenon might not be unlike some of the burn marks that are common amongst those who have experienced abduction phenomenon. I hesitate to put it too front and center in all of this because of how loaded all of this is. Having a few things in my own past experience that have made me wonder about the nature of my et experiences in my earlier life, I often consider the very possibility that some of the et encounters are themselves not entirely physical and belong to a range of experiences not unlike those experienced in awakening. That is, that they may be a form of out of body experience, or inner “synthetic” reality which the ancients knew and wrote about at some length. Now I know that for some people, these are traumatic experiences and it can be hard to hear someone suggest blithely and perhaps unknowingly that they might not somehow be entirely physically real in the normal sense. But I ask you; what is real? Do you actually know what is real? It is curious to me that the early Christians (Jesus in his “secret” teachings to his disciples) knew about these beings and described them as a spiritual agency that behaved more like spiritual parasites than god-like beings (although they behave in both cases as if they are on this kind of level). While mainline Christianity barely mentions them, the newly discovered documents in the Nag Hammadi do, and it is there, in the Hypostasis of the Archons that so much can be discovered about them and how similar they are to our modern et experience in certain strands of the phenomenon. What books like this describe is a phenomenon with beings that fit the modern et abduction scenario perfectly, and are too similar one to the other to dismiss out of hand. I suspect that in these cases, we may have a presence that is psychic or spiritual in nature that could be so present and powerful enough to create effects in us in just the same way that hypnotists have been able to cause burn marks to emerge on their subject’s bodies. It is also likely or possible that what we have seen is a kind of transiting between dimensions so that physical dna can be taken, while in other cases, their presence is more of an internal nature. What is sure is that these beings behave more like shape-shifters than anything we normally know in our world.
I know that such a mention might seem far afield to you, but I suspect that all of these things may cross at a place where body and mind might have a lot to tell us about ourselves and the capacity for us to release or express hidden or submerged memory, emotion, or knowledge when a thought or feeling contains sufficient force to manifest in these ways. And it is here that burn marks emerge along with a few minor other types of markings as well. We may yet be only on the edge of understanding the full breadth of what all of this means or is about.
So the marks of my awakening are my own. Others have experienced them, and still others may experience them in the days, months, and years to come. I simply want you to know that all is well, it’s just your body expressing a truth or a knowing or awareness that it needs to get out for your conscious mind to see. In the case of my first burn mark, this took place just prior to the full rise of kundalini. However, I will remind my readers that my awakening was gentle and gradual (taken in phases or steps). I had a six-month period where the full power of awakening was released in distinct stages through my own inner practice and hearing a voice inside of me that guided me. I was brave enough to not think I was going crazy and I listened to that “voice” or inner prompting. As a result, it led to what I think was a much gentler form of awakening that could help others to awaken more peacefully and with less worry or fear. And still, even then, it was quite a wild ride because….well….kundalini.
Finally, in sum, I would like to add one small point that might be why the first mark emerged as it did. Ten years after that mark emerged on my right hip, at a time when I had removed layer after layer of piled on junk from my consciousness, I found myself at a place where I felt like I had reached nearly the end of the material I had worked so diligently to remove after this decade of inner work. As this vista came into view, I have noted that it is in this same location in my body that the single most difficult block has remained. I have learned a lot about what this represents in the esoteric systems that describe it. This is the point, an acupuncturist once observed, that resided along a meridian line that was tied to the gall bladder. Being solar in character, it could create specific digestive problems aligned with this hot or solar energy (which I have had throughout awakening related to bouts of nausea and even diarrhea in the first six months of the awakening process). Here in the hip, so close to the root chakra, along the yang energy line, we have masculine energy stuck in a realm having to do with nurture and a sense of safety, and personal abundance. Here, too, is very likely the emotion of both fear as well as anger, stopped up in a block, held in tension without a place yet for the psyche to know how to let it go, and which can be felt as an almost physical sensation which no physical doctor would be able to ever detect unless the block were to manifest as a physical condition such as illness. So in the last few weeks I have received guidance on the inside that has told me what next I need to do to neutralize this last block. This is ultimately bringing in the feminine yin to balance the masculine and neutralize the block and to heal this last rift which has been so stubborn. I suspect that blocks can be this way; the easiest and least activated are likely to go first while the more dug in and most activated ones remain until the end. But by the time that day comes and one block remains in a field that has been cleansed, having even the stubbornest of blocks does not feel like an impossible feat to remove. I know that when I can bring up all the right feelings that I need to both acknowledge and move through, this block, like the hundreds before it, will also go into the ether as it is transmuted back into a clear and brilliant body that has been my life work here these past number of years. And maybe the crescent holds some symbolic meaning for me. It might have been the image of the seers of old, or emblazoned on the heads of priestesses and priests in Atlantis, Egypt, or pre-Christian Europe. Perhaps once this cycle is complete, I might just find out. Until then, it’s for me a sign of the times playing out on the intelligence of my body.
Until next time…
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