Update…

For the last month or so, I have been publishing my large backlog of draft posts in order to stay in something of a regular schedule….without being too silent.
But life has been taking so many positive turns calling up some of the most unusual experiences. None of which I am nowhere near being able to put to word. Synchronicity keeps turning her mystery wheel in order to show me just how arranged, timed, and scheduled this life can be. There was a time when just mentioning these odd occupancies would put a stop to them….for a while. Now, finally aware of their deep connection to our own inner matrix’s of energetic purpose, they barely skip a beat. They come bidden through simple acts of intention (think it and it happens). It’s just that now they occur with a clarity and alignment to this life I am growing into, through, and out of. Minutes or days instead of months and years. 

But life is also unbelievably busy with multiple projects all pointing me to a new chapter in my life. Now, with this freedom to be, I have had this lively shift taking place that shows me how I used to take on other people’s discontent as though it was my job to bring people their joy or peace, or security. With my life moving so far from all of this, the dysfunction in others could never be more apparent as their own. And my issues, I joyfully get to embrace them and dug painfully into these mysterious places within that are now like mysteries needing illumination. Without it, society remains discontent. I’m busy setting up a new stream to be in life.

On one front, I am moving and setting up a studio space where I can have ready access during all hours if need be. On another, I will be testing new materials in my creative work expanding out of utilitarian objects to fine art. I will begin working to produce sculptural works that speak to my experience with awakening by addressing identity in relationship to nonduality. I have so many ideas that need to be worked through and developed. All the while, I will be developing work in clay for some trial balloons. If successful, the work will take me where I most want to be; swimming in the seas and oceans to capture visual material for the sculpture I will be developing.

I have interviews that are all typed and edited with some interesting people who were willing to sit down with me to talk candidly about their lives and how things changed for them once awakening came along. I hope to be getting those ready for publishing later this summer. I will be devoting a new page to these interviews so those of you who are interested in adding to the base of material can take part by preparing writing prompted by a series of standard questions that I provide most people taking part in this effort.

On other fronts, I am considering the idea of receiving formal training in massage and body work in order to bring my gifts forward for the first time since entering into a conscious awareness of the human energy field and how we can heal through it by considering the whole individual. As yet, it is more an early “intention” without any manifestation….yet. I began to consider it was time after finding a flow of energy my being through me spontaneously that I later read about that is called reiki, which is laying on of hands or energy healing. During the same period of time I received a gift of a reading from a dear friend with essentially the message that it’s time for me to get moving with my gifts. It’s part of why I’m here. I know it sounds vague, but it’s not intentional. Once I form the bud of a thought, events begin to take shape around this idea in a way where I don’t actively seek out the opportunities, they instead come to me. So I’m in receptive mode keeping my eyes and ears open.

I’ve been having some experiences tied to a set of ancient Christian texts involving what may have been a past life that involved seeking to preserve these texts by hiding them.I have two chapters written about how Christian dogma was changed early on in the process resulting in a huge loss of esoteric knowledge that Jesus was teaching his inner circle. It’s the greatest story never told. I’m hoping to have time in my evenings to do more work on that project.
Probably sometime next month, after I am more settled and I have completed a second renovation project at a new location, I will do my best to begin conveying more about what has been happening this last month. Until then, I will continue plucking more writing from the vault….

I hope Summer is great for you!

-Parker 

Healing 101

Your energy body is a perfect reflection of the totality of the universal truths of existence. The seven major chakras represent seven major aspects that make up the seed of all creation. In you are seven major chakras which are like an octave, a totality. When you can clear these seven chakras of all of the shame and guilt and repressed emotions, you can begin to really know by direct experience what creation is because it has been seeded in you. This is the “divine spark” the Atman, the higher self. 

This “seed” has within it the power to know truth (crown chakra), see the truth(third eye chakra), speak the truth (throat chakra) love the truth (heart), be the truth (solar plexus), feel the truth (the sacral chakra) and create the truth (the root chakra). When these centers are clear, you no longer repress the truth but experience it cleanly. As long as you have repressed emotion in a part of the light body, so too will the truth be hidden from your direct experience. Clearing these centers is an act of clearing karma. You might think karma is tied to your actions, but I ask; what is the root of your actions? This is what clearing karma is, and it closely aligned to the concept of sin (which means anything that harms your soul). It clears away bad memories, bad knee-jerk behaviors that keep you in a cycle of pain and spreading that pain to others. It clears you so you know who you truly are beneath that mountain of dross. This is the true freedom, it is true peace. 

When you reach this place, you see clearly that anyone behaving in anything other than their highest is simply acting in accord with this mountain of things. And while we are human, and imperfect, we also can step into, and remain, in a fully integrated self that calls on all aspects of the self, including the super self. Yes, the world is imperfect, but to bring perfection it is incumbent on you to reach it first for yourself. This can only be done through a process of inner inquiry, observation, and radical self honesty. You have to want truth more than you want the mountain of things.

How you do this clearing work can be found on this blog by using the Search function with the keywords “clearing blocks.” There should be more than 30 posts that speak to the techniques that are most effective for doing this work. There are techniques for clearing this blocked or stored energy using TRE, movement, breathing, and eastern methods like Qi Gung, just to name a few.

One if the biggest blocks we have as a species is in our root chakras. Here, our ability to give and receive nurture exists. It is where our creative fire is initiated, whether for creating new life in the physical or for that next new idea or way to help create your day in a new way. Creativity is so much more than an artistic pursuit as it is a way of being and living.

We are all so tied up with root block, and it shows! It shows in how we have so little regard for creativity in our culture (save for technical pursuits). It also shows up glaringly in how we treat sex. It is pushed down, made dirty by taboo and “kinks” in our being. As a result, we never get to experience our creativity as the wildly powerful thing that it is. We regulate, control, and turn it down because we think it’s inappropriate to ooze with it, or let it fill our life with its vitality, wonder, bliss, and the awe it brings. It is our collective shame that most everyone here is faced with dissolving and letting go. It is our shame that literally attenuates or blocks our full experience with the divine within. The divine does not move with these kinds of shackles. 

Getting to the root is substantive work that when cleared makes the rest of the work easier, but it’s most often the last center to clear in people. Why? It is so foundational. It leads us to what we are: co-creators. Most don’t want that kind of responsibility, so we shirk it by saying our problems are because of our parents, our loved ones, our society and its institutions. But ask any co-creators and they will tell you, your misfortunes are all entirely self made. It’s because this is so hard to face that many don’t, preferring instead to blame an event in childhood as the cause. But it isnt the cause, it is a symptom.

I know this is hard to believe or trust us true, but if you apply this awareness to your life, you will progress much quicker and be much happier.

This is why it is only a symptom….

You chose your life and your parents. You chose them in order to set up events that would challenge you to both create and to heal. No true learning comes by way of a mental understanding of how bad something is that needs to be healed; you have to know this through every inch and atom of you. No exceptions. This is how the divine is; it is not a half measure of itself. It is a full measure. It only got to be that way by not falling for anything but the best of itself. It has made itself and it is unwavering in this. This is why when you try to heal and reach into the divine that you are that you can feel a lot of tension inside building up. You are dragging your mountain of things into it, and you can feel the chaos and tension and difficulty with just trying to remain in that superstate. Eventually, you are destined to “fall” from that grace over and over until you learn that you cannot enter your heaven with that baggage. When you awaken you can visit there for longer and longer periods, but your fall is all but promised when you still have work to do. Once you clear the baggage, you naturally and effortlessly are able to remain in this heavenly state with ease. And to be clear; this is a process, so most often, ease comes gradually, piece by piece as the blocks are removed. Its because they block you from something that you really are, deeper down. 

We get tricked into thinking that we are victims of our past or our upbringing as a way of not having to dispense with our brokenness. But the events in your early life are the result of a soul that exists prior to each lifetime. It is a glitch already in you that is creating how you are. No one makes you do or be anything. You choose just as you chose the conditions of your birth. You are here to clean it up. So instead of playing the victim, play the role of the responsible creator-in-training that you truly are. If you adopt this attitude, it will straighten all that is crooked in you. It will make you strong. It will make you more honest. Now be ready to work at it each and every day until it becomes a part of your thinking and feeling; this is true empowerment!

It is for some an inconvenient truth that there are two forces working to make prana and these two are described as yin and yang, the Shakti and Shiva. They are in Jungian psychology the anima and animus. In ancient Christianity they are the father and Holy Ghost (which was considered the feminine aspect before orthodoxy came and obfuscated it’s true meaning). What we are looking at are two forces in us that we experience as archetypes in our lives and our cultural and religious institutions, and eventually they merge into one in order to fuel both awakening and divine union. In awakening, we can experience them as the “lost” sides of ourselves, our twin (a karmic relationship in awakening) or as a side of God that allows us to experience ecstatic union with the divine. This is all there to help us learn not to feel shame about sexuality and spirituality existing together in an unbridled and free way. This happens when the self becomes less divided and more whole. 

Once free, dysfunction is healed. Sexual “kinks” go away, and a desire to use sex for control (men and women both do this in different ways) and what replaces it is nothing short of relief and freedom. Your creative energy expressed through all seven centers (the seed) is free to be.

To get there, though, requires diving deep into the matters of the root in order to acknowledge what’s bent, broken, and limiting you. You can’t feel the divine by doing this intellectually. You can’t do it by leaving any single part of you behind. You can’t know the divine until you ARE the divine, which has no compunction about sexuality or ecstacy as one channel of the seven major rivers of experience which leads us to that one great ocean. To be whole, the whole must ascend together bearing no more falsehoods about itself.

I realized that I was a tantric when I began recognizing that my sexuality had to come along and be okay with complete and total surrender and flow of all that I am. That means, no shame with sexuality. So I have worked on healing this shame and it has helped me to be more grounded, healthy, and happy. I am at ease with my riotous creativity. I also no longer hang out with people who don’t understand or value my creative fire and the vast abundance that lies bubbling up from deep within me. Whenever I have been able to dispense with people who are limited in their own hearts and minds, I tend to soar on skies that I know are my own. It isn’t that I study tantra or even practice sacred sexuality,  because the truth of tantra at its core is this idea I have been telling you about, which is being healed and more fully integrated so there are no divisions within who you are. You are free to feel all aspects of yourself as bliss and the love behind it that supports the universe.

 I promise that dissolving your deep-seated shame will also dissolve the appearance of divisions in the self.

This healing is a critical first step in the awakened experience. Nothing substantive can be done before you clear the dross within. Deprogram, cleanse, heal, and you will find the you you knew existed within you.

Yes, cleansing is a process. It might take years to go through all the levels, but by clearing them, it is rare to go back and reinstitute them. My experience is that some blocks go fast and easy but there are others that are deceptively hard. You can’t B.S. your way through this, you just have to be honest with yourself when you continue having a problem cropping up; you haven’t cleared it yet. Be patient, and be ready to continue doing the work. This is not a race. Give up your misgivings because you created them. 

The conditions of your life are only a symptom that comes from your own inner origin that you have come here to clean up. Once you do, the events and conditions that were in that old life will be gone forever. A more accurate set of conditions of events will prevail. If you espouse the value of “ascension” then this is the process that will get you there.

Until next time….

Anatomy of a Chakra

You can’t see a chakra, so how is it that I am using a term like ‘anatomy’ to talk about it?

Invisible to the naked eye, the chakras are beyond visible perception but have been studied for thousands of years. Chakra is a word from Sanskrit that means ‘wheel.’ While the concept of the chakra never entered into the lexicon of Chinese Medicine, the Chinese mapped the lines connecting the chakra system with such precision that their maps are used to locate and identify the gateways or points in the subtle body system that can be pressed or “needled” by acupuncturists to help release the blocked energy the Chinese call qi and the Hindus call prana. The specifics differ due to cultural inclinations, but they are both describing the same thing, as well as different parts of the same system of energy.

The anatomy of the chakras has been done by those sensitive enough or those most willing to tune into them using energetic awareness and the third eye. For as ancient as the knowledge is, there is still more to discover.

In 2009, I was visited by an angelic being who placed his hand into my heart chakra in what I describe as a form of “surgery” where he pulled out a “skin” or body of old psychic material that I had in my energy body. As this was happening, my system went from feeling like it was running on a 220 volt system to a 10,000 volt system. Everything lit up, my entire being was suffused by a love of God so incredible I had no idea such an experience was even possible. During what only took a moment, a series of extremely rapid communications took place. I realized that I had entered into a superstate. I am telling you this to point out that whenever I have had these transcendent experiences (I actually don’t go beyond—I feel that I am enhanced or consciousness has accelerated), my perception and awareness also is enhanced right along with everything else. 

One thing that I noticed was that I was focused on my heart chakra and saw what appeared to be a beautiful thousand-petaled flower form that emerged into my mind’s eye awareness. As I watched this flower that I knew was my heart chakra, I noticed that behind the flower was yet another flower. As I looked at this, information streamed into me letting me know that the flower in the front of my chest coincided with yang or positive “male” energy in consciousness while the other flower or chakra corresponded to the yin or “feminine” qualities in consciousness. I use quotes because this has nothing to do with gender or sexual orientation, just a quality in all of us. It is also what connects us to the divine, to superconsciousness which is native to all of us and not separate from any of us. It is the yin/yang and the father/holy ghost. These two build the full compliment of superconsciousness also known as cosmic mind, the Christ, and others (described in every major culture).

This second flower was guarded, protected, really, or so it seemed, by its masculine counterpart.I thought how lovely that was, but I also thought that this idea seemed new. I had never heard of two heart chakras before (and I’ve studied energy for years), so what was going on?

This experience led me to inquire more deeply within to see if I could find out more.

What I came up with from my inner study was a little hard to grasp on the surface but easy to grasp in totality. So here goes…

Since the chakras correspond to the physical body, they have the appearance of a given location and form, with two complimentary channels of energy moving through and aiding in the activation or flow(yin and yang). At the same time, the chakras channel this energy called prana which appears to not be tied down to a regular 3-dimensional structure only. As a result their placement in the body, while consistent, also has a few odd inconsistencies attached. For one; it exhibits nonlocality. This means that a discrete particle of energy can be anywhere, or, theoretically, everywhere simply because while it is here in space/time, it also exists outside of it. This correlates with some theories in quantum mechanics which give physicists a hard time sometimes.

In the body there are Ida and Pengali channels in the nadi or meridian system. The Ida carries what is generally thought of as a negative charge with the Pengali carrying what we refer to as a positive charge. These run in parallel along the spine. While this is so, the feminine aspect of the chakra appears to be situated towards the back side of the body. It seems as though this might be an odd bit of “spooky action” at a distance.Perhaps when the energy from the Ida and Pengali enter the chakra it gets “turned” somehow so that this orientation is perceived as being front to back.This is the forward edge of energetic understanding since no one that I am aware of has delved into this issue. It’s curious and I’d like to understand it better because I think it could reveal a hitherto unknown characteristic of the energy that might provide us with a new wrinkle in also understanding ourselves and the super consciousness that “invented” all of this.

Now as I say this, I know that it could also be that nothing is as simple as it seems. It could be that we only feel this orientation due to how our own personalities or Psyche’s are structured. It is possible that I feel the receptive energy more in the core of my being because I am a heterosexual male whose sexual alignment is masculine/hetero while I have a non-dominant series of feminine traits that are more subtle in their expression. Would a woman feel an inner masculine that resides within, situated so because those traits are not dominant? Or is this just how I am oriented? I do note however that the Seraphim when telling me his name showed me his nature in a visual image. It consisted of a tall masculine man with a softer interior. Hard on the outside, soft on the inside. This is very much like how I feel myself to be…so I do wonder how others experience this….

I also found that what I was feeling was that one side of the chakra turned one way based on its polarity while the other side, to the back, turned a different way. That is, the movement felt like it was opposite or complimentary. This created the feeling of two lobes of the same object turning together but using or being affected by different “ends” of the energy. To be more accurate, there was a feeling of this being a torus form where energy would flow out and then back into the center which is the “zero point” where all energy reached no-charge. Positive would turn into negative and negative would turn into positive. The torus itself maintained a magnetic alignment that gave it a sense of solidity, form, and consistency…much like how the physical body maintains consistency even though it is made entirely of energy (E=MC2)

I was pleased to find that the drawing I made back in the day to illustrate this is a nearly perfect representation of images Barbara Brennan has had illustrated in her books about human energy and healing. 

Don’t take the drawing as literal, however. It leaves a lot of subtle material out and is meant to present the idea. It is highly simplified in order to make some principles clearer. The image is below.

And for that matter, this image of a torus viewed on its side (think of a donut shape) could be used (below).

For those interested in learning by doing, or helping to expand our knowledge base, I encourage you to use the minds eye to see the energy body. I know that what I have done is the same perception used by the Chinese that led to their meridian maps or the Indian system of the basis or energy channels.

Once when I was in a deep restful state with my masseuse and energy worker, I found my third eye activated and I was able to look at my body as though I was looking down from my head to my feet. I saw how along one meridian there were a cluster of other points, each coinciding with a chakra in another part of the body. What’s more, my masseuse was about to press her finger on that meridian line and as she felt for it, I saw one of the dots around the meridian was dark. I told her what I was seeing. The point was so small, her finger covered the cluster of points but the very center of her pressure in her finger was about an 8th of an inch off. So I told her which direction to press into, and as she pressed, she also moved her finger over the fascia of my skin just enough to reach the one point exactly. She pressed and I howled in pain; she was worried and I said to keep pressing harder. And boom, just like that, two memories popped into clear view that involved my trauma with the ocean-once as a child in my life now and as a Polynesian. While the details aren’t important here, the fact that I saw something that had never been described before in any manual on energy medicine sure seemed very important. Instead of viewing the energy system front-end, I was looking “down the pipe” (top to bottom) as I call it and saw this cluster of dots that when pushed, cleared energy from another chakra in another part of the body. The pressure point was in my shoulder but the center that released was down in the hip or root chakra region. When I guided her finger to the exact point, it was like releasing a long forgotten memory and the emotions that went along with it.Interstingly this cluster of points looked just like a flower with dots for petals. Each petal, a channel for bliss-filled energy. The implication in my vision was that each chakra is energetically present at every other point. Let that sink in for a while.

You might think if you see a chakra as a flower that this is its literal structure. It isn’t. A chakra might feel like a flower but look like a cluster of meridian lines. But the chakra feels like a beautiful unfolding flower. It’s poetry, you see, a way to tell the truth when faced with something in our world through colorful interpretations based on the association’s we have with objects in the world. The image tells the truth through dreaming.

Dream imagery achieves the same thing; it conveys how we feel about something because our response and our experience are in no way separated from the phenomenon. When someone misperceives me,f or example,  I feel it as a tightening, almost always, because the channels of energy are being affected in that person and I can feel what they feel when I tune them in.  But it is they who are shutting down their energy, not me. I can still feel it. It might seem real to them, but is not real beyond what the energy is doing (constricting) and I know that it is in this constriction that people pull into their own limited story lines about what they think is true instead of what is. So they dream a story and believe it to be real. I do not dream, but feel the restriction. So likewise I saw the chakras as like a peony with endless petals. Beautiful and poetic, with the male “covering” or protecting the female. But this was just an image that I saw that sought to interpret what I was able to grasp in the moment. It was beyond beautiful… it was cosmic… so a peony with its riot of petals opening helped to convey this opening that happened in me with the angelic seraphim. 

To that end, it is an image that describes a spatial and non-spatial phenomenon all at once (something both physical and nonphysical all at once).

What am I saying? I am saying that truths use images to express themselves, but we are the ones choosing the images. The clearer you are inside, the clearer the transmission is. Don’t take images in the mind as the literal truth because there is more for all of us to learn and know (myself included). I’m just showing you whatI have seen, hoping others will get curious and want to do their own inquiry to help move all of us along in our understanding. 

Strange Fire

After months of work and away from blogging (I have published drafts!) I find myself settling into this sense of deep devotion to God, for want of a better term. You see, having touched this presence, I don’t know how anyone would dare call it a person. It is so vast. How do you? I can only grasp it when I surrender so deeply that my own inner ability to feel this love is what builds the bridge to that state.
But tomorrow, as I ready my house for sale, I will be meditating all day on the sacred three, the original Trinity.

But I ask you, do we in Christianity really understand the Trinity? I will tell you that no, we don’t. And why is this? The great hint is the Holy Ghost. Originally it was not part of an all-male identity. Doubt that? You need to begin digging into those books that early Orthodoxy didn’t want anyone reading….

I will be meditating on that for my tomorrow as I go about my day.

Focus On The Third Eye

©Parker Stafford

I remember feeling that dot activate in the center of my brow even when I was little. It was maybe the size of a pea. Okay, maybe half the diameter of a dime, a little bigger than a pea. It always came with this curious sense of pressure there. Like something was just…resting there….a dime, a pea, really it could have been anything. I would wonder if my third eye was activating.

But then I was jettisoned into an awakening, and it began, in part, when this voice in my head told me to close my eyes and focus my eyes along the center-point of my brow line. That changed it for me. It sounds impossibly simple, right? This has been one method used by many people across time and cultures to activate life force so that it flows at a higher level (Egyptian Mystery Schools, early Christians, Hindu, Taoists, and more). I slipped past the mirror and began a journey into a world within that was expressing itself through myriad lives here on earth….atoms, trees, fish, stars, and the ten thousand things.

That dot transformed. I felt it as it changed, grew, then spread across my forehead. I didn’t know that this would lead to awakening, I was trusting in the inner voice that was urging me along. I drew a picture of it as it felt on my head. It was just that vivid. It was no longer a dot, but a double channel of yin and yang energies fueling my inner sight. 

Bands of energy radiated outward horizontally and wrapped all the way around my head. The pressure was intense, but it never hurt. It was an ethereal energetic pressure, and it felt like it was cracking my head open like a nut.

The dot, a seed, really, had sprouted and grew each night as I sat down in bed to meditate before going to sleep. I watered the seed with my attention. You don’t have to think magic thoughts, you don’t have to do anything when you turn your awareness to it. In fact, it seems like you are doing precious little. It is like flipping a switch. But be aware what you are in for. Are you ready for a relentless process of realignment, cleansing and release? Are you ready to go forward one step, crossing a threshold from which there is no return? “Buckle up because Kansas is getting ready to go bye-bye.” There’s no putting the genie back in the bottle. But when you are ready, you are ready.

“Please come take me,”  I wrote in my journal that night. “I am not afraid of you, I know you do not mean any harm. I know you want to open me like a lover opens his beloved.” Unashamed, unafraid, I knew that this was how this had to go. I was to be lit on fire by the Holy Ghost, the Cosmic Fire, the Kundalini. One part of me was the initiator and another was being initiated by this new fire of life. And it happened so effortlessly, like I had come here for this. My ticket had been reserved aeons ago. It was going to happen. 

This is a full third eye awakening, my friends. I thought I knew, but I knew only the tip of its tail, that pea-sized dot. The dot is the seed. Nascent, full of promise, but not fully activated. Maybe that’s why they paint the bindi on their foreheads I thought. They do it because that’s how it feels to them.

When the third eye blossomed in me, it was so radically different, you see, that I had to draw it, recording it both so others could see it and so I could look at it with my  physical eyes, too.

It led me into undescribable bliss. Like a rocket, it took me there until I learned how to reach that pearlesent bliss on my own. It taught me that I had to work to clear my baggage. This took years. I wish I could say it was easy, but it wasn’t. But the inner presence that woke up within me didn’t care; it offered me endless chances with no judgement. While I would feel defeated by my stumbled, it seemed to smile as if to say, “This is how you learn. You stumble, you fall; you get back up and go farther each and every time.”

Some refer to it as “the helmet” some as “a vice.”  I wanted to study it. My little secret is that if you bring your fiery love of awakening with you, unashamed, into the moment and come to your wanting to know more about something, something in the universe opens inside of you, like a blossom, a riotously wild but free blossom that contains just what you want to know. The universe opens its “secrets” to you. I don’t know who is being seduced more, me or God. But it works so beautifully. Just silence your mind and be ready to let your imagination build the images or words or smells to give you it’s truth and meaning….because when you do, you naturally can become the thing you are after to know. What better way to know something than to become it in your heart.

How do I explain to you that you fall in love with the Universe? How do I explain that while this intense live flows, it just gives all of itself to you in the process? It responds to the seductive power that is the human spirit. This spirit, gifted through God, is a spark or piece of God and thus our own desire is God’s desire. How do I explain how when you feel this love you lose who is you and who is God? The gift is that in this live beyond all our loves, all secret hidden things become plain as the scales of our earthly condition fall away…or can…if you can give yourself completely to this love. 

It is this way that I have learned so much. No teacher, no guru, and no need to wade through what parrots have to say. But this was how I began to learn and how I use my third eye as a sacred instrument of knowing. It is. It is part of my inner temple. And we all have that temple in us, that place where we meet the divine. My third eye let’s me see what is important or most immediate in my life. It’s force spreads across my head, a reminder that it’s there. The secret is to keep it simple. Our rational minds stumble and fall in its advancing presence. No, you have to be able to let yourself think and feel in an impossibly big way.Are you ready? It is like an amazing dream, impossible for it to be real, but is. 

I was pleased to see that what I had drawn matched perfectly the Tilak that yogis paint on their foreheads. They too were just drawing what they had felt. Maybe some were just parroting what others had done, not realizing that this was how a fully awakened third eye felt like. Shiva has it always painted on his head. The yogis sometimes don’t have the horizontal bands on their Tilak. Some do. Some have a series of dots with those horizontal pressure bands. It’s all the same, I know, different versions, varieties of the same experience. Below are some images of the Tilak, so you know, so you can see that it isnt just decoration, not merely a ritualized marking; it is an illustration. It describes something. Something real in us…

Look at my drawing again….

So look for this, but do so carefully because if you are feverishly seeking awakening, no one will keep you from it, but it’s good to prepare. It makes things easier. But if you are going to be taken by God, it’s just going to be. This third eye is how they got there. The yogis describe it, Jesus even taught about how to activate it (few even realize that he was teaching about something so esoteric), and anyone who knows where it is that his teaching on the third eye shows up wins a prize! I will give you a hint; it is in one of the canonical Gospels! Verily I say to you, it is true! Let me know if you can find it…

You can travel with the third eye, you can. I was taught by “it” this broad inexhaustible divinity in all things, how it’s to be used (or how I would use it). You can step into worlds through it and glimpse wonders. If that sounds too impossible to you, just remember; it’s already been done, and I do it whenever there is enough of a need. It’s always about something I either need to know or would love to know. Either way, it’s always juicy and perfect. It’s also teaching me how to live my life on the narrow path….which is in truth how to balance between shadow and light so that I might know the depth of love and bliss right here and now. That of course freaks out the fundamentalists, but is understood by the esoteric, the mystics: the shadow we create through our actions does not dissolve until we recognize and heal it (“repent and sin no more”). Until then, it haunts us, taunts us, until we can call on the grace that we are that is God-given, a lifesaving, soul-saving gift. We can be saved, but not until we repent…or recognize that we were doing shadow work to begin with. 

I Ask You….

So how does the third eye feel to you? Has it given you wonders, has it been a curious thing, a mystery? Have felt pressure there? Does it seem inconsequential to you?  Is it a mystery? Do my words seem impossible?

 Know the mysteries. Like stars, they beckon us to adventure. How does it feel, this awakened third eye? Is it a dot? Does it spread across your forehead? Where has it gone? Did it open to you, was your life changed? Has it been hard? Did the hardness show you the way into supreme bliss?

I’d love to know your story…

Sorry to be away so long; so much is afoot right now for me. I’ll write about it later. Meanwhile, how does the third eye treat you? I would love to know.

Swimming in bliss…

Idle Hands

A little handmade humor for your day, courtesy of WTI! 

We See What We Are

When the mirror of the self is cleansed of all pretense, bias, and belief, we are free to begin to truly see. 

More

I was not satisfied with the teaching in church….I knew there was more. I didn’t know what it was, only that it was wanting. I knew this above all else, beyond the explanations of others that I was merely “prideful” or unable to take the teaching as truth. No, there was more, I knew it beyond all else.
When I awakened I was lucky to have seen how there WERE teachings by Jesus himself which he passed on to his disciples in books that spoke directly about a process whereby one entered the kingdom. These were central teaching that acted like a key to understanding everything else Jesus was teaching in his ministry. The problem was that these teaching were demonized and anathematized by the church. These were part of this something “more.” I knew that in fact Jesus was teaching his followers about awakening and that the truth was hidden or obfuscated in numerous ways. History offered up her secrets and laid bare the many ways that contributed to our losing these central teachings. What is so amazing to me is that these teachings are actually the lynch pins in understanding all that Jesus taught about. It’s pretty incredible to look at all of this and know that this went down in the way that it did.
I once wrote about this issue and had some of my friends asking me why I was so critical about Christianity, or why I hated the church. It’s too easy to feel that way when dealing with this issue and to me, it is an easy way out of actually examining things closely and asking some very fair questions. But it’s not out of a deep hate or any of that. In fact, it is quite the opposite. I want a religion that offers the keys to self realization, of actually knowing what this kingdom is. Truth is a curious thing; we can have all levels of it and still be missing key points.

I have done the hard work of inquiring and looking. I have poured through the texts of the New Testament as well as those that were not included, from apocrypha to the Nag Hammadi. I have studied issues surrounding translation, how the contextual nature of Aramaic actually does matter when translating to any language, as well as what biblical scholars are saying that pastors dare not touch. More than this, I awakened and saw that the only books that helped describe my new state of being were the words of Jesus teaching his followers about the kingdom, which fit my experience perfectly….but also happened to have been deemed heresy. They had been cast aside and had never made it into canon.  The more that I read, the more it became clear that what we got was a version of the truth, but not the full truth.  I’m not even suggesting that this was some sort of conspiracy.  It may have been simply a conspiracy of ignorance acted upon by those who had less than the full story.  But even half the story is better than no story, and it wasn’t as if we weren’t getting truths.  We just didn’t get its heart, and this, dear readers, is the hardest one to swallow for some of us today.  It is covered over first by some 1700 years of tradition and then it includes a whole new dimension of thinking added, a great mystery that has been hidden from all of us (for whatever reason).

Since my experience in awakening is the same exact phenomenon as others who have awakened, and it’s all described in the same way by nearly everyone, and is being described in these cast-away texts, it begs the question; isn’t it possible that something very important was missed? And perhaps, then, might this missing piece be important to know the fullness of this man’s great insight and teaching? If you found out that the teaching of Jesus was incomplete, wouldn’t you, as a follower of Christ, want to know? I’m asking you to put your pride aside and get curious and be simple like children, ripe for hearing what might just be really big news.

Awakening, which is the kingdom, brings a renewed way of using the mind. If you can teach yourself to forgo mere rational thought, you can activate more and more of your capacity for understanding, which is truly liberating. It requires humility because there is so much to give up in order to see in this way. There is a blizzard of biases and beliefs that rage in such places, and the very religion that was created to support these teachings has essentially continued to demonize the concept of awakening in some quarters. Once these biases have been cleared, though, the mind becomes a luminous field of awareness in direct proportion to how much bias has been released. But it isn’t just that, it’s letting yourself be shown, led, taken by the presence of the indwelling divine and it’s child which is the Christ consciousness. Others call it Cosmic Consciousness, or Cosmic Mind. It is all the same and emerges in the same way in each tradition because this is what we ALL are, rather than the beliefs we hold. Remember how Jesus said the kingdom is within you? That might just be an important clue to all of us. It’s what’s inside-this does not happen outside of any of us. Where, then, do you think you will meet God?

This more asks me to continually to let go of my familiar moorings to here and as I do, new understanding floods in, mysteries become knowns, and the universe resolves into a greater and greater miracle. But no words can contain this more…you just have to go and see for yourself.

All of this is like a seed that grows into a sprout, then a plant, and then a flower. The flower opens more and more and this flower is awareness. This is how awakening proceeds; it is the smallest of seeds that grows in stages. More and more, it opens, revealing still-deeper layers of comprehension. To get there, I lay aside all rational thought and allow my mind to go blank. Yes, blank. It is here that absent thought a great and ineffable presence grows that is a love unlike any other. Everything I could ever wish to know becomes available in that “space.” If you believe you can’t, you probably won’t….but if you consider it possible, then it becomes possible. I wish this for everyone because it reveals our own foolishness and opens us to wonder and awe. The world so needs this right now.

Until next time….

A New Page: Women’s Spirituality Resource

There is a new page I have put up on the blog, and I hope you will take a look.  I will be adding more information as time goes by, and I’d like to extend to you an invitation to include any books that you have found useful in your journey as a woman as it relates to your spiritual journey.  This is the link:

http://wp.me/P3bZGN-13g

The Field Theory of Psi

Artist Credit: Mark Mawson

It has been widely known by those who have first-hand encounters with it that there is a limitless field of energy upon which our consciousness rides.  Focused in bodies, yes, for this life, but we are also multidimensional beings that are more than just “this.”

To understand psi ability, it helps to understand what the genesis is for your ability and experience.  What we call “psi” is a living energy that moves through all things and all-time.  It forms a kind of body that is part of you and yet your ego makes it possible for you to identify yourself as separate from it, which is a boundless field of energy.  Instead of the physical senses forming your inner senses, the inner senses are part of a continuum of sensory ability that is your native infinite self.  The physical senses mirror a smaller subset of senses that are part of a larger sensory realm of the soul or consciousness. Your five senses are just a few of your fuller sensory capacity. These inner senses are always with you, but most people are too focused on the physical senses to ever begin exploring the broader field of these inner senses. 

The Egyptians identified 360 different senses that were known or described as being part of the inner self and in no way physical.

The way to tap into these senses is to develop the right cognitive bridge for them to your brain, which will assemble the information in a useful way.  The same happens when someone sees an aura, for example.  There is nothing to see because the eyes do not have the capacity to pick up on the wavelength of energy that is the human aura.  What happens is that the brain does an amazing job at creating a representation, most often visual, of what it is that it is detecting.  When you consider just how much information is present in the human aura from one moment to the next, its pretty mind boggling that the brain is able to do this. But it does.  The same is the case with all other inner senses.  For those who can hear or see events from a distance, the information is presented in a highly accurate way even though it is information that is plucked out of the air and assembled into something that makes sense and is accurate. Think of this as being like how a radio set takes radio waves and turns them into a broad range of sound.

 

The more you are able to do this work “cold” without anything to bias you in any way is best.  The more you know about a situation, the more you have to not let that information come into play.  I once was able to remote view a woman’s apartment with amazing detail, getting all details correct.  These were specific details that had to do with how the apartment was situated in a larger building, the type of lighting in the hallways(sconces instead of pendants or ceiling mounted units), as well as the layout of the apartment including the types of windows, their construction (old metal casement)  and their size.  The one detail that I got wrong was the result of bias that I had when I had talked to this person on the phone.  I incorrectly “saw” the size of her living room.  I saw it much larger than it was.  The reason for this, I am certain, was because of the reverb that I heard over the phone prior to my seeing her apartment, that made it sound like she was in a much larger room than she was.  In this case, I would have probably been more accurate if I had not first spoken to her on the phone while she was in her apartment.

 

This is an important caution in doing this kind of work.  Personal thoughts or ideas can creep in very easily.  You have to keep this material out and learn when you are on the mark, how that feels when it happens, and continue to go to that “place” within feeling.  And contrary to popular belief, this place is not  found in a place of certainty.  You have to become comfortable looking first at a blank screen without trying to put something there that doesn’t beling. You begin with a blank sheet and you have nothing to work with at first.  You have to be able to keep your mind neutral even in this “blank screen” place.  You have to be able to not think about what it is that you imagine it all to be.  You actually need to not know.  The more you can do this, the better you can get clear information.  And this is not easy for a lot of people.  People are so used to apprehending information, going out and ‘getting’ it….but the capacity that allows you to do this best is like a mindless state.  You don’t know how on earth you are doing it….except that you are. If you think about it, neither are you aware of the process by which your physical senses operate, but they do.

 

Another big impediment to this kind of work is how the imagination is involved.  What you have to be able to do is you have to enter the gateway of the imagination and go beyond the region where your mind creates things and learn how to use the imagination as the engine for building imagery in your mind.  In a way, the process is the same; you start with nothing and you “image” something.  When YOU are actively imagining something, you are the one creating the information.  When you are seeing psychically, you are not the one who is creating it.  It is a subtle but important distinction. Instead, it often feels like it is being assembled within you as a sensory experience.  The difference is one you do, the other happens to you.  It is a slight difference but it is recognizable.  Ask yourself; am I thinking this, or is it happening to me?  If it is the latter, you will find, if you are doing this right, that this is the authentic material relatively untouched by how you think or feel about it.  You have to clear, and if you have biases about seeing something clearly, you wont.  In fact, I have had people read me who were very obviously drawing from their own insides or emotional material. It is hard to know when you are doing this because it will seem real. Most often a clue will be that you want it to be a certain way, or you are being too rigid in how you think you are sensing; being able to constantly ask yourself “is this true?” and then feel into it with your heart of deep compass of knowing is what I have always tried to do. It’s when I question myself and remain neutral that I tend to get the best results. By not remaining neutral,  you will effectively “cherry pick” the information, and this can lead to a world of distortion.  Again, keeping the mind shut off while feeling it is a critical point here. And it’s important that you can distinguish between your inner stuff that you feel and this inner compass of “feeling it.” Luckily, “feeling it” helps to keep the rational mind out of the picture so the information can stream in unhindered and uncolored.

In my work what I have found over the decades that the energy field, which is always “on” and taking in information, is the receiver.  You have tuned all of this information out and you can begin to tune it back in by using some of the same tools that your mind uses as it begins to go into dreaming.  So instead of a long drawn out explanation with methods, I will suggest that you begin paying attention to the very edge of your sleep before you fall into sleep.  This is where you can learn the most about the inner senses within you and you can begin to learn what it takes to keep the bridge erected within you while you are awake instead of when asleep.

As you begin to fall asleep at night, try to stay in that deep relaxed state and instead of falling asleep, remain there for an extended period.  You will find that you will drift in and out of normal consciousness.  As you do, you will find that you hear voices and sounds that seem to come from the inside of your head.  They might have a slightly “faraway” feeling to them. This is where your native capacity for tapping into these senses emerges.  The only difference between your doing it close to sleep and a psychic doing it while awake is that the psychic has learned how to build a cognitive bridge between different states of mind.  They can have one part of the waking brain fully alert while activating other parts of the brain that are normally associated with sleep. Some of this can seem a little akin to dream sometimes.

When you are awake, you will need to let yourself drift into that place where your thinking stops.  This is a highly charged in-body state that is where you can actually begin tuning in all kinds of information.  Mind you, you are actually already bringing a lot of it in, but you have your waking awareness focused in such a way that it gets filtered out.  It drifts into the background and only comes forward when you shut off your outer perceptions enough to begin to tune in that other part of you that has these abilities.  Everyone has these abilities.

The problem most people have when tuning in is that their sensory information that comes through their physical senses gets their most attention.  There is a certain amount of detachment that is always present in psi pursuits.  Turning off the inner mind chatter is key.  Only once you have done this can you hope to erect the bridge.  Once it is done, it becomes second nature and you do not have to work as hard to tap back into that state.  Many psychics when asked how they do what they do often are at a loss as to how to explain it.  Most often they use terms that suggest they are feeling something, but they can’t identify where it comes from.  Truth be told, if we were concerned with the mechanics, nothing would get done.  The vehicle, the body, makes this process effortless.

When you understand that all information, everything that has been, exists in a field of energy that takes up no space whatsoever, and is itself seeded throughout the universe, access to this information is a given once you know how or begin training yourself.  To do this requires you to turn on your ability to FEEL. You do not think.  You feel.  

Don’t misunderstand; I am not saying emotion.  Feeling is not emotion.  Feeling is a capacity for perception.  Feeling includes emotion, but its more that emotion is a kind of subset of feeling.  See?  When you can dip down into the subconscious self, you can begin bridging the disparate parts of the self and bring in extrasensory experience.  All of this is entirely energetic in nature.  Your energy field picks up this information, tunes it in, and received it, and is paying attention to one piece of information over a vast swath of other material.  This field can be felt by your consciousness and it is felt all through the body.  I am aware that when I am picking up on information like this, I feel it all through my body, less as a perception of a reaction to the information and more as a direct experience of the information as it actually strikes me, my awareness, which is all through my body (not just the brain or head).  The energy vortices called chakras also have some play into all of this as amplifiers of information.  While they can amplify a signal they can also degrade it with noise.  You have to have a still quiet mind.  You need to be simple.  This is how it works.

The stimulation of the various chakra centers is also at work in inner sensory awareness. The third eye is one such center.  As unfortunate as it is that the third eye has been associated with the pineal gland ad nauseam, the pineal actually has nothing to do with it (this idea first emerged with a completely off the wall pronouncement by Voltaire that the pineal gland was the seat of the soul even though he had zero evidence for this at the time, except the idea stuck and has continued to enjoy being used as a mystic center of some kind or another).  Trust me, having a third eye-opening or activation has NOTHING to do with a gland in the head.  This gland is only for physical processes (secretions for the regulation of mood and sleep cycles only).  This is because a physical gland or organ is for working with physical matter.  The energy body is for working with nonphysical things.  And a third eye awakening will make it more likely that you can image things from a great distance. 

The way to open the third eye is also a way to spark kundalini awakening, and anyone who does this need to understand that this can have unintended consequences if you are not careful. Awakening kundalini without preparation can make for a very difficult experience. 

Most often psi work leads to improvement of the individual because developing the senses puts one in touch with a broader range of characteristics of the self that need to be dealt with because of greater awareness of the self as it is.  The vehicle, the light body, is the means for this inner sensing, and this light body needs to be clear in order to get clear transmission.  It also can lead to stumbling blocks for the healer or seer if they are unable to work through their own blocks.  These activities often lead to a more “spiritual” outlook and effort to be more refined.

 

I hope that this provides you with some new insight into this world of inner sensory capacity.  If you aren’t good at it, working on it will help.  If you already have prior experience (often from other lifetimes for example) then it will come more naturally.  But no one is more psychic than another.  When we leave the physical, we will all use our inner sensory abilities to the same degree as anyone else. In fact, you will have to. But beginning now will help to show you how you are more than just this one self.  This is very much at the core of what I feel is important for us to do here….to awaken to all of our capabilities, some of which will lead us into other realities as well as capacities that we all have as multidimensional beings alive in all-time.