The power of self-honesty has been and continues to be the single most powerful force for cutting through the bullshit in my life.
I mean my bullshit.
Through the approbations of ego, we come to think what happens to us is important, especially when we take offense.
I saw someone I know recently say how most things are subject to how we choose to see them, except trauma. Oh, whoah, there, cowboy!
I know few will agree, but especially when it comes to trauma, we choose how we respond. How we respond to events can determine if it was seen through a lense of pain, fear, and hurt. Mind you, I am not insensitive to people’s suffering, but the reality is, we choose how events in our lives are experienced and later seen once in the rearview mirror. There is a world of things that I see people taking offense at daily, and people getting upset about that has little effect on me. Not everyone is the same, one person’s trauma is another person’s challenge. That’s not to minimize the trauma bearers out there because I am one and I feel compassion for it….but it isn’t as monolithic as we might have thought, or absolute.
In my life I have experienced events that could have formed the basis of deep trauma that I simply paid little mind to. As a result, those events hold little charge for me today. I was spiritually and energetically violated early on in my awakening, but chose not to focus on what took place then. No, I have not repressed it. I experienced it fully, I realized there was little I could do to change it so I made the best of it as I could.
As a result, that event lacked the charge we imbue events like this with. I learned from it and was able to be much clear-minded about it than those events around which a strong charge has been ascribed in other cases. The trick is we tell ourselves we have no choice. Truth is, we can all react and respond differently to the same event. Since we do, this can show us how we can choose differently. Further, saying we have no choice puts us in a powerless state with no hope of changing outcomes. A person can struggle to change that belief in themselves.
It’s so easier sometimes to accept powerlesness in our responses. No, this in no way gives the abusers in our past a free pass. Having been a victim of emotional abuse I can say without a doubt that my reaction to the person who abused was that I wished I could have forgiven them a decade ago so I wouldn’t have to go through what I went through all those years. No, no passes at all. But we put ourselves through hell, and THAT just aint right or good.
“I can’t choose to feel differently about what happened to me, or when a bad thing happens!”
Actually, you can. The easiest way to see this in action is to catch something before it can be given a charge by the ego/self. It seems, once invested, we don’t question the effect any given event has on us. It now belongs to the ego and there is no reversing it, it seems. Once ego becomes identified to it, it hardens into a mass and wont move except under heroic measures. While thete are ways to clear this stuck emotion, it seems better to not have it in the first place. An ounce of prevention…
Yes these events are disturbing, and hurtful. No doubt. But we feed those events with our own negative energy so that decades later, we are still holding on, unable to let it go. I have found that the person I needed to forgive most was myself for punishing myself by feeling horribly about something. It isn’t like I haven’t given an action or event a powerful charge, because I have. I told myself I had to because it was a measure of my care. In the end, I tore myself apart. In one instance, I still do, from time to time. It is amazing how a memory can be imbued with trauma and then continue through time to bring up the same set of feelings over and over for years, and decades. I have also seen how we can avoid those problems altogether. To do this, you have to be very honest and clear with yourself about how you feel. If you can, you have the possibility to invest any event with whatever emotional association that you want. You think you have no choice because there is no other way that you are willing to feel about it. The truth is, there are endless choices but we tend to be blinded by our programming here.
There are many stories of NDE’s where people who saw previously deceased family members or friends who had transgressed in some way in physical life was now, in death in complete forgiveness.
What gives? I suspect how ego forms in the physical may be unique and subject to forces that are different here than in the nonphysical. Perhaps we invest events with emotions that then become difficult to reverse because of how powerfully these emotions are tended and maintained through the “language” of our physicality, our chemistry.
Perhaps we are learning that we can make this life into anything we want, that the chemistry of emotion is subject to revision, change, or transformation. We might be able to do it with ease in the nonphysical state, but the ancients have cautioned that we are here to renovate or rebirth the physical in order to change its blueprint for others while changing our own lives too. I have felt the same way.
The physical is full of invisible energetic pathways that exist all around us that get triggered chemically in our bodies only when our thoughts and feelings align to the pathway’s own pattern. We THINK we have no choice, but we actually have the power to stop, pull the cord of the phenomenon until we reach it, so that we are now pulling the cord instead of the cord pulling us…..and in that situation, we can flip the tables and reverse the event. We might not always be able to stop it, but if you allow yourself move into the causal position, you can, by including your will, see each of these for what they are: a dynamic that plays out endlessly the same way for most of your life because you never bothered to believe that it could be changed.
The only real ingredient you need is the desire for it to end. If that is strong enough, you can literally transform something that moments earlier had you tied up in knots. I will also add that there are often two steps involved for a charged event: how you feel about the event itself and then the association or charge you have charged the person with. Most often we tell ourselves that the charge is justified and was probably always there, but in truth, as far as we feel, that isn’t always the case. I lived for years trusting a spouse who wound up abusing me and my children emotionally. I was surprised to discover it. Did I revise my feelings about that person? Yes! Was it all subject to how I chose to invest that person with a certain emotional charge? Absolutely! It doesn’t change what they did, but my changing the charge sure as heck does!
Is it really that important? Yes, when we forgive we don’t change the event but we change how we feel about it. If done honestly, the change is permanent and the self tends not to try and stick that iron back into the same fire as before.
Many years ago I came across a writing that was attributed to a goddess named Inanna. In it she was asking for her lover, Demuzi, to come and make love to her. While reading this ancient poem, I felt the echo of awareness present in that ancient tradition with the power that is within awakening, which I contend, is the result of a unity of the opposites of our nature (and the hemispheres in our brain). I shared it with a friend at the time who was knee-deep in the concept of divine union and she agreed that it was an important chapter. That was about 2010.
Fast forward to 2017. I am corresponding with someone who I suspected I had known whose work I had read online a few times and wound up having a most unusual dream about. Driven by a sense of familiarity, I found that there had been something there, but where and when, I had no idea. Instead of trying to shoe-horn it into a narrative, I did what I do nowadays: I waited. One evening while checking on my glass furnaces in the studio, I heard in my mind a clear voice that said “He was a lead general in the army of a king…” This was my first bread-crumb and it did what tantalizing lead-ins always do: it opened my intuitive faculties wide. Suddenly I saw a space, a bedroom and a window that looked out onto a courtyard. Details rose up spontaneously all around me. There were no glass windows, but shutters. I saw here there, tall and willowy, but dark and rich in body tone and skin. She wasn’t from here, I knew, she was from further North…maybe closer to Turkey, I thought. How I knew all of this, I couldn’t tell you. I later learned that what I was seeing was very much on-point. There she was, like a message from the past, one iteratiin amongst many, and many frustrated until I learned that it’s not my job to pull people out of their own tar pits. Still…there is this love that always moves us to want to help. “They have to grasp what helping themselves mean. Until then, they remain conflicted and in desire.”
The building was massive and tall, and my take was that this was a palace, although this would make it an ancient palace built in a desert country. When I thought about where this was, I found that I could feel it out. Was it Arab? No. Turk? No. Certainly not Persian. Not Judean. Not Roman. Not Greek. And then as I felt into it, there arose a clear thought: “This was in Babylon.” Iraq. Assyrian. Aruk, Ur….I began to see moments, like snapshots, from that life. How dry the land was and what lengths I went to to see that water got hauled up to the palace for bathing and for growing flowers and plants for my wife (later I would learn that we were king and queen of this patch of desert) was testimony to the care present. Yes it was a desert, but I will make it into a garden…
Fast forward two more years and I was doing much the same again, checking on my furnaces late at night, and in a quiet moment, thinking about the memories of this time in Babylon. Up until that moment this memory was completely anonymous, a kind of ghost, something I could not prove one way or the other. As I crossed the floor of the studio in the exact location where I had received the first clue, I received another, which was like hearing a conversation that had been interrupted for a couple of years which I was now getting to hear in its entirety. It went just like this: “….He was a general to a king, who then became king.” With that one extra detail, that one extra data point, a trove of information began to take shape. I had seen the room, I had seen outside. I saw a cast bronze “keeper” that held the shutters open that looked like a bit like a star with many points. I later looked this detail up and saw the same image depicted on relief carvings of the royal family of that time—it was star anise, an herb used in cooking at that time. It was so revered that it made its way into all manner of decoration, it turned out.
I saw plants growing stories below in the courtyard, a place I knew they would not have normally grow. Great effort was made to keep this garden alive in this desert land. I saw myself, what I looked like, a dark-haired man with a barrel chest who was busy keeping a kingdom going. What I realized, too, was with the addition of “..and who became king” I might be able to find this man since serving as a general to a king and then becoming king was akin to finding a unicorn. Commoners, who might serve under a king, hardly ever rise to a royal station themselves. How often does that happen? Right. Incredibly rare, if it happens at all. So I looked it up.
There were plenty of generals that served under Assyrian kings, but there was only ever one general who went on to become king of present day Iraq. That man was the father to a king who was written about in the Old Testament Bible as Nebuchadnezzar II. His father, Nabopolassar, had ascended to the throne by way of what looks to have been a coup, a moment when the new heir to the throne showed some ambivalence about taking power. That was the man I saw in a bronze mirror. It was in that gap that I stepped in and essentially said, to heck with this. We need to take our country back.
At this time in its history, which was around 620 B.C., Babylon was ruled by a king from another region. Babylon was effectively being occupied by those who were not native to the land, Assyrians. Nabopolassar roused his troops, offered them positions in the new government if they helped him topple the heirs to the throne after the king Ashurbanipal died, and achieved it.
The most important take-away from that life was how important it is to appreciate what it is that you have and what you have built. I saw how people, despite how easy they had it, were unhappy creatures, and it has underlined to me today how solitary some journey’s are. While we always want others by our side, there is also an element of the solitary vision that is part of this interesting duality which seems to seek to evolve itself in the breach between the two polarities.
I also knew that my wife, my Queen, knew about sacred union of the kind that was practiced in those days. This was known later as heiros gamos, which is essentially how the ancients “let in” the gods and goddesses onto our plane of existence. This practice would be described or explained as fertility rites where the god and goddess join in union with the king and queen in order to help bring the rains or fertility to the fields. You see this same imagery in the Arthurian legend, for example. In that culture, Beltane was itself a practice whereupon the people would go out into the fields to practice ritual sex because it was believed that this brought fecundity to the crops and guaranteed a good harvest. As I read about the culture at this time sure as shooting, the King and Queen would take part in ritual sex, the heiros gamos, each season as part of their religious ceremonies. Why not all the people? Why just the King and his Queen or a temple priestess? This is something that I have wondered about for ages to be honest because I have always seen this as a fault in our psychological DNA. It is always an authority who told us what was what, or who performed the important rituals. Even today we want others to do this kind of work for us: to tell us the truth, the way to go, the way to meditate, the way to wake up, or once awakened tell me what’s what….just hold my hand and please tell me what to do and where to go!
Why is that? And yes, I was certainly part of that. It may be one reason why I stand for individuality today to the degree that I do. “No guru, no method…” has been my very Van Morrison-esque mantra. All I needed was my Queen, the one whose very presence was electric, whose presence crackled with this magnetic quality born out of knowing herself. It was this person who I instantly recognized today in the writings online of a person I didn’t even know. It was like a needle in a haystack kind of experience…except there are no accidents. What I learned though was how important it was to let others be where they are and not feel like I have to be with them because we were together in the past. Not everyone is the right match either. The desire for energetic connections is very seductive, but without a day to day anchoring in the physical, these unions are like plants that grow reedy and thin like grass under a pail that gets little sun….it arcs toward what it thinks is the light and the energy of the creative gets ever stronger because that is how we are, we are creative beings, so the energy seems stronger but it is because it is trying so hard to reach completion. “Not this time, apparently” said the voice in the back of my heart. So you let it be a grand love but it is one that cannot manifest in the present. In that was an important lesson to me today. It might have been a lesson on offer back then, too, because sometimes our patterns can follow us for thousands of years and through countless lifetimes. I just can’t see how living this way would make anyone happy. Luckily, it is only mind to wonder and not to know. Peace be with the past.
In the wake of this, I have been a little more interested in Babylonian culture and history. What I know about it encompasses what is taught about in Sunday school and touched on in early elementary school, which was how Nebuchadnezzar II created a new dynasty or empire. I realized recently that the poem of Inanna about her lover Demuzi was in fact Babylonian, and I was reminded of my memories. I looked up Inanna and began to realize that she was an incredibly important goddess, a goddess that would be copied by other cultures and would become the Great Mother in Western regions. When you read about Inanna and the hymns written to you, the sense is that the Babylonian culture revered the feminine. I do wonder about this, though. In India, there are more goddesses than gods in their pantheon of deities and yet the culture remains mired in a class system that has a built-in misogyny. I suspect, though, that these beliefs or images emerge through very real beliefs held at one time or another, as cultures tend to be a kind of amalgam of centuries worth of movements that come and go much like clothing styles do. Each leave their mark on the cultural memory of the people such that a period a thousand years ago of fervent reverence for the feminine may be eclipsed, or diluted by other concerns that come along later. I suspect culture, then, is a giant patch-work or anthology of different views and concerns that are the result of particular periods in time.
For Inanna, she appears to be nearly everything to the people of Ur in 600 B.C. and earlier Babylon. What is so interesting is how the name sagurra or even sakura is associated with Inanna’s name in the scholarly works. It looks like to me that sagurra or sakura (as it is alternatively referred to) may be part of her name, but a part that most Westerners don’t know about. These are a bit tricky to find because there has been so many thousands, hundreds of thousands, in fact, clay tablets that have been unearthed that span thousands of years worth of Babylonian culture. Many were carted off by the British and lie in vaults, photographed along with their accession data, but without translation. Many of these tablets were little more than shopping lists, or inventories to aid in keeping records. In some, however, important cultural details are included. The use of sagurra/sakura is curious and there is no explanation about the significance of this name or designation, or its background. This was found in the article published by De Gruyter in 2009 by Åke W Sjöberg Entitled In-nin sagurra. A Hymn to the Goddess Inanna by the en-Priestess Enheduanna
I often wonder if light language as it is termed isn’t in some way tied to this epoch in history. I know it may sound odd, but there is a story about the universality of language that exists in the Old Testament Bible, and that story is tied to the Babylonian culture. What I suspect is that this story is itself an old memory about how language could be made to be universal through speaking in tongues, something referred to as glossolalia.
When I first heard someone speak in tongues in this way, I found, surprisingly, that I could understand parts of what was being said. What I found was happening was that the nonsense of the language made it impossible for me to use my logical mind to tease out the details, and the less rational and larger-seeing part of my mind was then engaged. I found, quite to my surprise, that I felt like I knew what was being said, but it wasn’t because I understood what the person was saying in terms of an easily decoded vocabulary. Instead, nothing was known about this language, but it was (again, I suspect) the sing-song quality of the language that put me into an altered state which had the effect of opening up my own innate telepathic abilities. Otherwise, none of this encounter made any sense to me. I had this whole dialog in my mind that I somehow “got” as a result of hearing this woman speaking in this language…and it was pretty crazy because of what happened next…
Later, the person who was speaking in this language told me what she was going through, and what she was describing in her language, I was stunned to find that I had picked up on all of the main points that she had been “saying” despite the fact that her language had no reference to English or any other language that I am myself familiar with. What I am suggesting when it comes to light language, which I suspect is the very same thing as glossolalia or speaking in tongues, is that the sounds of the language access certain parts of our minds which are naturally intuitive and psychic and those pathways are opened up through the process of speaking in this way. I also suspect that this is an old capacity that we as humans have had and I also suspect that this is what is behind the story of the Tower of Babel, except with a twist.
“Then they said, ‘Come, let us build ourselves a city, and a tower with its top in the heavens, and let us make a name for ourselves; otherwise we shall be scattered abroad upon the face of the whole earth.'” (Genesis 11:4)
I point this out because what it does is it helps to show that we have had periods in our past when we were more developed psychically than we may realize today with our languages that serve to so narrow down experience as to make accessing these numinous realms impossible. What we need, spirit suggests, is a language that can open us up to our larger innate potential, and I suspect that what most people would call “nonsense languages” are precisely what is necessary. If you talk to someone who is familiar with light language you will likely find that what they say is not a normal language in the way that we think of it today, but in some cases is a language that has the capacity to convey states of being or energetic states and feeling states in a single word or term without the customary descriptions that take place with languages that we use today. A word in light language can act as a key to open the soul or energy body to a certain experience. This language, then, can work as a triggering device, a kind of soulful technology that uses sound and “words” but in a completely different way. I suspect, since language is always contained and processed in the left brain in humans, that this language is a language that is used by the right brain and as such does not have the same kinds of rules pertaining to it as English, French, Arabic, or Persian does. It is interesting, too, because Hebrew contains within it what appears to be a memory of this concept for how words could cause things to happen in consciousness. In Genesis certain Hebrew letters were used to spell out the creation. If you dig deep into the Hebrew language you see that there are all kinds of references made to each letter (such as a numerical counterpart for instance) and this all gets very mystical very quickly. When I say this, I mean to say that it looks like Hebrew may have been used in the distant past as a language for speaking to the soul directly.
At this time in antiquity, all the people spoke the same language and their minds were befuddled so that they could no longer understand each other. I find this interesting. is this the memory of an age-old capacity that we have had for a very long time to understand this type of language regardless of the language that we ourselves speak? Additionally, it is commonly known in Christianity how the Holy Ghost is what brings on the speaking in tongues. The Holy Ghost was known to be the feminine aspect with the Godhead and that godhead was not found outside a person but was inside of them. The implications of this knowledge, then, are immense, and also is congruent with the work that I am doing on Early Christianity and how the early dogma started out as something quite different….before it began to be changed or misunderstood or misconstrued. That, though is for another time, but it is interesting that the feminine is found here in all of this because the feminine itself is the quality in each person and is found in the nonlinear right brain. It was in bringing the union of the two opposites together that sacred union was known within the person, this is literally the genesis of being resurrected, or reborn, and also of kundalini, which was being taught in the earliest day of Christianity (yes really). All of this is to point to how the feminine is in all of us and can be honored and brought forward. It is literally the missing link in ecstatic experience and in enlightenment. This is the opposite end of the electrical circuit, not switched into the “on” position.
It is interesting, too, to note that the person who is credited as being involved in the building of the Tower in Genesis was a man named Nimrod. When we look in Babylonian accounts, we cannot find a similar character as the Jewish tradition describes, but what the story does do in Genesis is to explain that Nimrod was one of the first Babylonian kings. What I suspect is that there was a memory of the babylonians having a means for speaking to others who didn’t speak their native tongue and this became, over time, to be thought of as a universal language that all people spoke (and that might be true in a certain sense: we may have had a much greater facility for glossolalia in our past). This story might help to chronicle how human beings fell away from using this inner language of the soul that was a kind of nonlinear and non-rational language. All of this in a place where a goddess was revered.
All of this may look like a giant rabbit hunt (first one path then another), but what I suspect is that as you go back through time you reach periods when the goddess was revered. When that happens, I contend, you find a culture that is much more mobile in its consciousness. Men, revering women, are much more ready to see how the qualities we ascribe to women are also in the male, and vica versa. Inanna was seen as a goddess of love, nurture and sex….but she was also seen as a goddess who could make war. She was a goddess that could make the rain showers come to help plants thrive while also sending storms that could also destroy. If we go back far enough, we likely see a time when the priestesses of Inanna spoke in this language which some call light language in order to reach the states and to convey the information that they would bring back from those alternate states of mind. It is interesting, too, because the priestesses of Inanna would use a drum in their work and it is well known now that certain drum beat frequencies can induce different brain states. It is possible to go into an alternate brain state, such as a theta state through drumming alone. When we see drumming in so-called primitive cultures we also find visionary work being done. Many shamanic cultures utilize drumming or repetitive sound within certain frequencies in order to induce the brain states necessary to begin accessing what many call “vision space.” This space is marked by the lack of any reference to time and as such one could easily see or sense the presence of shamans in that space from other times and places, even thousands of years past or hence. Amongst the Lakota it is observed that when one cries for a vision, the place they enter is the same space that all other visionaries have been. This isn’t because the Lakota have unlocked something special for themselves alone. They recognize something that many other cultures also have recognized, which is what we might call a “field” of nonlocality that has more to do with states of mind as a “location” over their being a “space” in spirit. As such those who long for the days of the Goddess can find themselves very close to her in alternate states of mind….something that is happening to a greater degree today with all of the awakenings.
I will also point out that the Goddess, in whatever form you might take her, represents at the level of the archetype, a quality not just in women but qualities in consciousness itself. When we take the archetype of Shakti and Shiva we see a description of the potentiating of the left and right brains, of the logic (male) and the nonlinear nonlogical (feminine) parts of the human physiology regardless of sex. As such, kundalini, depicted as these two sexual forces (opposites) rise upward to join in union because when the two opposite forces in consciousness reach union it feels orgasmic, hence the reference to men and women as one. In the early Christian mythos, the father and mother join together to create the third, the Christ, in what is seen as a divine syzygy, which is described androgynous and capable of drawing from both sides of the self. These systems are describing not a sexual quality but a spiritual one since both men and women both can experience both sides of this dynamic. This is not a desexualization of the person but instead a drawing together of the two opposite forces (as contained and processed by the left and right brain in both men and women) which results in all of the lights and sounds and explosive qualities that we generally ascribe to kundalini. This is why the twin serpents meeting at the crown were used to describe the experience in the Hindu tradition. The Buddha, upon awakening, expressed joy that he could feel this level of bliss because it mean that the didn’t need to be with a woman in order to achieve this. That was one person, though, and I find that path uninteresting to say the least, but it does speak to what this energy can do. The images below are from present day France, are preChristian and show a man who has developed control over the serpent, his own vital force and energy. This has brought him into a harmony with all life around him.
When we see the goddesses along with the gods you typically will find a spectrum of ecstatic experience and an awareness of what we call awakening. Curious, isn’t it? There is evidence that this was known in Europe with the imagery of the Cernunos, which was found in Gaul (present day France). In Ireland, snake imagery was tied to vital force and was throughout the culture, despite St Patrick’s efforts to “drive them into the sea.” Early Christian imagery contained many references to the serpent in Ireland, just so long as the locals didn’t admit that they were anything other than the one who deceived Adam and Eve in the garden. In the case of the Cernunos, the man is shown in a number of depictions holding a serpent and no other animal.
In ancient cultures the serpent represented vital force and an energy in human beings tied to a mystic realization. So universal was it that we see the serpent even being used in Asia and Meso-america under the same banner as elsewhere. In the case of Quetzalcoatl, the serpent would consume the human in order to take it on journeys of the spirit. On the one hand the serpent could be problematic, but on the other, for one who had mastered it, a path to the divine.
It was Moses who also “raised the serpent” in the desert. We are told that the cast brass depiction of a serpent on a staff was enough to cure snake bites, but it may be that this is an old memory of a time when people were being awakened and by meditating on the image of the serpent, they could complete the process of ascension and find relief since the “serpent” of awakening rises (just as it can also fall or expand out into awareness). It seems unlikely that a person could look at such an image and be cured of snake bites. I suspect that the origins of this action on the part of Moses was lost to the average person and so their best guess has prevailed (albeit one that doesn’t make a lot of sense). The point being that where these images are found we find ecstatic experience and a greater awareness of ourselves as energetic beings that exist beyond this one world. The curtain of perception is pulled back, intuition increases, and insight grows. Since the feminine qualities in consciousness are part of this, we would expect to see female imagery, perhaps in the form of forces in nature or in animals or expressed as a woman herself. In the case of Inanna, she was seen as pretty much the whole kit and kaboodle. The hymn in part follows.
“You alone are majestic, you have renown, heaven and earth…..not….You rival An and Enlil, you occupy their seat of honour. You are pre-eminent in the cult places, you are magnificent in your course…..The great gods kissed the earth and prostrated themselves. The high mountain land, the land of cornelian and lapis lazuli, bowed down before you.” And then a few paragraphs later: “…mercy and pity are yours, Inanna….To cause the heart to tremble,…..illnesses are yours, Inanna. To have a wife….to love…are yours, Inanna. To rejoice, to control…are yours Inanna. Neglect and care, raising and bowing down are yours Inanna. To build a house, to create a woman’s chamber, to possess implements, to kiss a child’s lips are yours, Inanna. To run, to race, to desire and to succeed are yours Inanna. To interchange with the brute and the strong and the weak and the powerless is yours Inanna.”
Additionally, Inanna (Sumerian) is also referred to as Ištar (Akkadian) who is also tied to the morning star Venus. She has an aspect that is dual: she is a nurturer, but she is warlike. In many ways she is a study in contrasts, and it appears to me that her many faces are the result of how the people felt they needed to invest her with qualities that the people themselves wanted to possess.
She is included in the epic of Gilgamesh as a lover who he ultimately rejects because of how her other lovers were cast aside and destroyed. In Babylon, Inanna was part of the “sacred marriage” between king and the goddess, which helped to assure abundance to the land and its people. It is not clear whether this was an actual ritual that was performed by the king each year, or whether it was just an idea, a spiritual construct that the people believed in. I myself have a memory of what this kind of union entailed because I learned about it from this lifetime (among others: it seems that this is a pattern for me where I investigate many different aspects of spiritual union here on the planet).
What we find existing with rulers and the gods or goddesses in the past often wind up being qualities that each person actually had within themselves, but may have been a power or knowledge kept for the ruling elites and out of the hands of the great unwashed. Additionally, scholars have argued that the reason why in graves images of Inanna/Istar are more prevalent is because of her connection to the underworld or the spirit world. What I contend is that this world is not a place we go to but is instead part of a focus. We are focused now as physical beings, but that focus will shift once the body is dropped. Do we go somewhere?
Do our death stories suggest that we travel somewhere? My experience suggests that these are all belief constructs and all depend on the person involved. We experience the tunnel, I suspect, because that is what we experience at the beginning of our physical life, while exiting from the body of the mother and into the light. In today’s experience what do people see once they go into the light? Why, they see “the father” of course! And in our physical life, this is also what we do here, as many births attest to on earth. I was the first person to see my children when they were born as most fathers are. When we die we speak of god the father who we see. It is curious to consider how these experiences appear linked.
Ishtar evolved into Diana and Artemis in Asia Minor and Aphrodite in Greece. Interestingly, Inanna was worshipped by the Babylonians as the “Queen of Heaven” since the virgin Mary has been referred to this also. The belief in Mary as Queen of Heaven received the papal sanction of Pope Pius XII in his encyclicalAd Caeli Reginam (English: ‘Queenship of Mary in Heaven’) of October 11, 1954. Never mind that the Babylonians had beaten the Christians to the punch by at least a millennium! While Christians shrink back in horror over their images being tied to pagan images, I think it is all part of the great mill of the gods: we are all made in lines that are interrelated. We all seem to need our gods and goddesses to represent certain things as part of a larger curriculum of our evolution here on the planet. I know how that might sound, but I think that knowledge of the feminine waxes and wanes as we go through different epochs of development. Additionally, I would not say that the past was necessarily better for women even though Inanna was revered. In some cases, and in some cultures women’s lives were better. In Babylon, the first laws were written to protect people. The idea of a minimum wage comes from Babylonian law as has the concept of a woman being able to own property and to proceed with a divorce. I think there were times when things were better for women, and that our development has not been linear. We are, I think, readying for a kind of explosion into a new realm concerning our identities as humans and not all of it will be good, but not all of it will be bad, either. There will be people who go to extremes and others who will strike a perfect note that will catapult them out of ever needing to come back here for another incarnation.
What we know, though, is that these stories repeat, and the story of the Christ is itself a recombination of a much older story that had already had several incarnations in the world. Virgin births amongst god-men was common. Anyone who had been sufficiently different was said to have not been born of humans in some way shape or form. Inanna was one such god-woman who would serve as a template for others to come after her. What I find so interesting is how it may be that in the old times the concept of speaking in tongues may have been something that didn’t emerge just within Christianity, but was instead a quality in humans of just about any culture. This might also be a nonlinear and nonliteral language that concerns itself more with intensities of states over traditional word formation and symbol usage to help depict sounds, but instead symbolize qualities of consciousness. I have seen the symbols of this language in dream and in vision and what I saw is surprisingly similar to what some have drawn who claim to have seen this language. It’s a rather remarkable thing to have seen it and then you see someone who you have never spoken to who has the language on their site or they blog about it or they mention it in conversation in passing. If you have experience with this, I encourage your input. Am I full of it, or does any of this resonate? I suspect though that because of how the issue of awakening has followed along with me throughout many of my lifetimes, that my time In Babylon included elements of this as well.
Did the priestess of Inanna speak in that unified language described in the Old Testament? Was there a form of communication that was as much a part of the nonlinear right brain as spoken language is of the left brain? I am also reminded of Enki, the Sumerian God who, along with other creator beings, came to Earth to create human beings using a technology that may have been part genetic engineering and part hybridization. The Anunnaki were said to have been off-put by how humans spoke. They made a lot of racket. Was this because the language was so linear in nature? Were the Anunnaki telepathic? Are we experiencing a pattern of awakening and a return of the feminine spiritually that has been seeking to assert itself down through time? If so, I think it is high time that we get it right. We can begin on that path by being thankful, grateful for what we have and for what lies ahead for us to yet create. Being able to expand awareness of this innermost feminine can help the world in many ways. Perhaps Inanna calls to many of us from across the centuries still. The ancients once said that we are the ancestors to the gods….so perhaps it is true that the gods are creations, in part, from our own creative imaginings, or are at least in part at various stages of the process. Perhaps we make the gods and goddesses into our image as much as they make us into theirs…
It is becoming less and less of a mystery to those who have awakened and those who have had ET contact that the two phenomenon are often intertwined. In the work that I am conducting on early Christianity, we now have documents written by Gnostic seers who described a nonhuman (perhaps extraterrestrial) presence that is discernible once a person assumes or attains a more enlightened or awakened state. The writing which was produced close to two thousand years ago, is found in two notable books within the Nag Hammadi Library: The Apocalypse of James and the Hypostasis of the Archons. Between these two books, the “Archons” as they are called, are described in terms that fit the modern ET presence perfectly. It isn’t a vague similarity, though, but a long check-box affair where very specific qualities are noted. I will list some of these a little later, because I want to get to the core of what this post is about. Many contactees, which are people who say they have had contact with nonhuman intelligences over years, are told by their visitors, how important it is to develop their psi abilities. This would, they often assert, help humans to better understand themselves, as well as the nature of reality and the world around us.
The single most moving experience I think that an awakened person can have is the initial realization of how everything is connected, how everything is one. When that happens, when you feel that unity with all things, you naturally want to take care of that unity, or those things that you feel connected to. What better way to save the planet than to have people waking up and naturally wanting to take care of the planet because they feel it as an extension of themselves? Instantly ego gets put on the back burner, we become much more collaborative in our approaches, and we seek ways to help this second part of ourselves, which we call our Mother, the Earth. Such an outlook and awareness would have a profound effect on human culture and how we do business here. How do you do violence to another when you know that other is a part of you?
Awakening, notably kundalini awakening, has shown me that we are like radios, biological entities that produce a low-potential electrical current that shows every sign of being able to act as a transmission medium for more than just signals to the brain in order to operate the body and keep it running. I observe that this energy, most likely the portion expressed as a field (not the particle end of the signal material), is what is connecting us to the cosmos. It connects us, potentially, with each other. I have reached a point in my own experience where I have seen that the ability is real, we just need to learn how to utilize the facility. If I say that your biases and beliefs play into this, you might be able to appreciate that something as seemingly nonmaterial as consciousness could order very real energetic material that appears to be coming into your body and mind. Yes, we can be transceivers, but there is a part of us, our consciousness, which can distort the signal. Knowing how to clear the decks of competing material that might not serve getting clear information is key. I have also made a study of observing highly psychic people over the years (I attract them it seems, which is a good thing). One of the most gifted psychic I know describes her gifts as being the result (watch for it…) of having no filters. This is, for her, a bit of a double-edged sword. She doesn’t seem able to filter out the bad stuff. Instead, it all comes flowing through. For her, I suspect, she has to constantly be working on ways to remain neutral in her work so that she does not become overly saturated with the hard things. If you are reading this and have experience in this area, you too might find yourself in familiar territory. If you do, I encourage you to add your two cents worth in the comments because so much of this is about stretching beyond the known to make sense of what appears to many to be a mystery or an unknown. It is my observation that by using our inner senses correctly, we can acquire information that might take years to get at through the usual channels.
There is a passage in a book written by John Leir who has become noted for his work in removing implants from people who, in some cases, have a history of known ET contact. The book is entitled UFO Crash In Brazil, published in 2005 by Book Tree and available at Amazon HERE. According to numerous eyewitnesses, an unidentified flying object crashed near Varginha, Brazil on January 20, 1996 and at least two beings were reported to have survived. One was taken to a local hospital for treatment and was operated on while the military stood guard. It is here that the most interesting part of the story unfolds. I will point out for the reader that if you go to Wikipedia or any other mainstream source, you will find an effort to delegitimize the events surrounding the case (“there is nothing here!”) and there appears to have been an effort on the media more widely to do little to no reporting on the incident. That said, Dr. Leir interviewed one of the doctors who worked on the ET who was brought in by military personnel. It is interesting to see what the ET did and what it said to the doctor. I can say that for me, the one interesting part of the entire book are a couple of pages where the Doctor discusses his interaction with the ET in the operating room of a hospital in Varginha (pronounced Var-Hinga).
First, the ET took over the motor control of the Doctor and guided his hands so that he was able to help correct what was a broken bone in the ET’s leg. The ET then communicated with the Doctor telepathically. The Doctor claims that he was told a number of things by the ET which he refused to disclose, but one of the things he said that he would was that the ET felt sorry for humans because they didn’t know themselves very well, they didn’t know that they could do what the ET’s could, in terms of psychic abilities. The being also explained that humans were not very spiritual, and were thus not aware of who they were in a larger context. Other contactees have also expressed the same sorts of sentiments, being told by their ET contacts that they need to develop their inner senses more, that this will help to bring about a needed change on the planet. Currently, we are being seen as Planet of the Apes on the part of most ET’s. When we hear skeptics of all things ET say “I’ll believe it when they land on the White House Lawn” they are entirely missing the point. No ET in their right mind would ever bother to land on the White House lawn since they would be shot within minutes by a lone sniper, or taken into custody by Homeland Security and used as research subjects ad nauseum by our own government.
For the record, ET ships did cross through some of the most protected airspace in the United States in July of 1952 an event which was known as the “Carousel Lights” which those in the Pentagon made pains to point out, were not a part of their own secret program. Later on, however, officials would tend towards an official denial of sightings being anything more than weather effects or, as was made into a character meme: swamp gas. The following video covers this incident in some detail.
The policy that our government and the Pentagon has followed where U.F.O.’s in the U.S. are concerned has been one of denial and denigration. Colonel Corso, in his book The Day After Roswell in which he breaks his silence in his role involving the disseminating of technology gleaned from crashed discs from the late 1940’s through to the 1950’s explains in his work that the military and the government at that time did not want Russia to know that it did not have full command of its airspace. The second concern was catalyzed by the recent memory of what had happened when War Of The Worlds Aired as an April Fools joke, resulting in widespread panic nationwide. Corso explained that the military was well aware what disclosures might involve, and part of it could have been wide spread panic. This policy warned people off from becoming too interested, he said, by engaging in an effort to smear or denigrate people who showed too much interest in the phenomenon, or who claimed to have been abducted by ET’s. Americans have lived under this type of programming for an entire generation, so when the subject of ET’s comes up there are often snickers and sneers that come as a result. All is according to plan. Currently, that plan is changing because now the military industrial complex have found a new use for the ET presence, which could become a way to fatten more the budgets of the military by painting the ET’s as a threat.
In May 2010, aerospace engineer Tom Keller wrote an article for the Mutual UFO Network’s journal that said Ben Rich revealed that extraterrestrial UFO visitors are real and that the U.S. military has aircraft capable of travel to the stars. Keller, who worked as a computer systems analyst for NASA’s Jet Propulsion Laboratory, quoted Rich as saying the following:
“Inside the Skunk Works, we were a small, intensively cohesive group consisting of about fifty veteran engineers and designers, and a hundred or so expert machinists and shop workers. Our forte was building technologically advanced airplanes of small number and of high class for highly secret missions.”
“We already have the means to travel among the stars, but these technologies are locked up in black projects, and it would take an act of God to ever get them out to benefit humanity. Anything you can imagine, we already know how to do it.”
“We now have technology to take ET home. No it won’t take someone’s lifetime to do it. There is an error in the equations. We know what it is. We now have the capability to travel to the stars. First, you have to understand that we will not get to the stars using chemical propulsion. Second, we have to devise a new propulsion technology. What we have to do is find out where Einstein went wrong.”
“When Rich was asked how UFO propulsion worked, he said, ‘Let me ask you. How does ESP work?’ The questioner responded with ‘All points in time and space are connected?’ Rich then said, ‘That’s how it works!’ ”
SOURCE: Bill Wickersham, May 27, 2014, UFO Accounts Are Stuff Of Journalists’ Dreams, Columbia Tribune
Our past with the visitors goes back into antiquity. Zacharia Sitchen, who notably revealed how passages in the Assyrian Enuma Elish read more as an effort by ET’s (called the Anunnaki) to engineer humans. In one section it was described how these “gods” tried nine times to get a workable human and failed. The worst outcome took place when the leader told his technicians to take his own material from his arm (DNA Sitchen insisted) only to find that the resulted ended in even worse failure. It begs the question: does this sound like what a god could do?
In the book The Apocalypse of James which was part of the Nag Hammadi texts uncovered in 1945, beings called Archons are discussed between Jesus and James. Jesus is teaching James how to ward off their attacks. He explains that the Archons come in threes when we are asleep or in an unguarded state and once there, take souls by theft.
In the Hypostasis of the Archons, another NHL document these beings are desribed as having a countenance of a lion, the apearance of an aborted fetus, who take souls by theft and who create a form of synthetic reality the seers call HAL. This makes it possible to make these beings appear great when these seers explain that they are not. They are beings who can cause a person to freeze on the spot (with fear) afterwhich three Archons take the person away. Additionally, Archons are always trying to interbreed with humans. All of these details read precisely as an ET encounter, but are being described around (as early as) the first century A.D. In abductions there are almost always three alien greys. They “paralyze” a person before taking them aboard a ship.
The assertion being made by these first century seers is that this race of being is unable to reproduce on their own. Abductees describe how ET’s have taken genetic material from humans in order to create hybrids. In other accounts there are descriptions of how humans were being used to provide a “spark” of conscious life in what were ET bodies grown in tanks, with the theory being that these grey ET’s had somehow lost the ability to reproduce and may be using humans as a way to keep from going extinct.
For as incredible as all of this may sound, ordinary people from all walks of life have reported seeing and experiencing these same scenarios. I have corresponded at length with a contactee who described this “tube” concept years before this imprinting process was disclosed in the ET literature. It is possible that we are seeing a technology far advanced of our own, and it is also possible that ET’s have been with us for a very long time. Many of these stories sound incredible and were missundertood in their day and were likely dismissed. Clearly, our ancestors saw these beings as antagonistic. But are they? Is part of what they are doing simply not well understood by humans who have no conception of the technology of the ET’s and thus appear fantastic or quasi god-like?
I and others in the contact community feel that developing our psi ability may be an important prerequisite to contact. Not just any psi, but psi ability tied or alloyed with spiritual development. We are facing what will in fifty years be seen as a sudden technokogical leap forward. In order to remain balanced during this time, we will need a good spiritual mooring. When humans (or any species or being) advance too quickly, it is possible that we can wind up destroying ourselves, our environment, or both. It is interesting to note that many contactees show familiarity with the elements of enlightenment. In the CE-5 protocol created by Steven Greer, meditation and mindfulness for part of a critical core of human initiated contact.
Now, in the last few years, we have been witness to our military doing an abrupt about-face to begin to disclose what it knows about the ET presence. Excuse me for being just a little skeptical after sixty years of denial of the ET presence by the same agencies who now seem keen to change their tune. If you want to see how belief is created in a populace, study the history of UFO’s in the U.S. As time goes by we have learned, for example, that Project Blue Book, which was dubbed an honest effort to get to the bottom of the U.F.O. question, is now known, through disclosures by whistleblowers, to have been a straight up effort at propagandizing the public in order to create the impression that the U.F.O. phenomenon is largely (although not totally) a nothing burger. Thus, you are crazy if you believe that U.F.O.’s represent a nonhuman intelligence (NHI) visiting Earth. Currently, though, the management of this belief is being massaged and changed, and millions, perhaps billions of people will fall in lock step with what the government says is what is true, which may include casting the ET presence as a threat that requires weaponizing space at great expense. The interesting wrinkle in all of this is that many, perhaps close to all craft that are being filmed and leaked to the press, could well be our own technology which we gleaned from crashed discs.
According to Carol Rosin, who was assistant to Werner Von Braun in the final years of his life, he warned her that the military had created conflicts in order to justify fat military budgets. He laid out the 50-year plan, which in 1972, included “rogue nations” and terrorism, meteor threats, and then a threat from ET’s invading or seeking to take control of Earth. As crazy as his story seemed to her, Carol chose to come forward as part of the Disclosure Project spearheaded by Steven Greer who had the event recorded for posterity in the late 1990’s. The upshot of Von Braun’s warning was that even the Cold War had been created to justify vast spending on a sector of our economy that we were warned about by Eisenhower in his farewell speech.
With ET craft known to disable our missiles in their silos, the message has been clear: “You have a problem. Your problem is also our problem. You need to disarm now before you hurt your delicate environment, which is also our environment.” As I write this, the Biden Administration is pushing the West closer to atomic war over an issue that could have been resolved swiftly by pledging a neutral Ukraine. Instead, we have gotten a barrage of propaganda, and the sad part is that the journalists doing the good work are those not working for the major networks. Yes, Russia invaded, yes it is bad, but the West has also helped to stage a coup in Maidan in 2014 in Ukraine which helped to set the stage of ratcheted up tensions with Russia. The West had promised Russia that NATO would not encroach a “single inch” toward Russia, and that promise was kept until each president after Regan and Bush came into office. We need to get past all of this if we are to hope to move on to the next level. We simply have to just say no to the machinery of pain and strife and to always work for peace harder than we work for war. Making war unprofitable would be a good first step to having the warmongers shriveling on the vine. To learn more about the roots of the current discord this article helps with the history some: https://jacobinmag.com/2022/02/maidan-protests-neo-nazis-russia-nato-crimea
Not long ago I wrote a blog entry in which I made the case for the importance for us to develop our inner senses (psi) as a prerequisite for going out into the stars. Those abilities would provide crews with the ability to anticipate problems before they became catastrophic as well as being able to navigate unknown regions and less than known conditions in parts of our galaxy for instance. Not long after having considered this, up popped a quote from Jane Roberts’s Seth saying the same exact thing, which was an interesting coincidence, shall we say. But one very important reason for developing our psychic senses has a very practical side, which is that we can communicate with races that are not from this planet. When you consider how many languages there are on Earth itself, being able to communicate telepathically is an elegant run-around the language barriers that might exist with other beings that are nonhuman. It is just as possible that some races have never even developed language as we think of it. The vast bulk of ET encounters involve witnesses describing telepathic communication as the norm.
Learning to use the same kinds of abilities that ET’s have shown a capacity for is key for several very important reasons where our hope of becoming a space-faring race which is that it keeps us honest. Abductees as well as contactees who have had face to face encounters (I include Clifford Stone in this group who has come forward to disclose his involvement in crash retrieval of ET craft while serving in the army) often state how these beings knew everything about them and efforts to be dishonest or to hide motives from them just wasn’t possible.
Keeping us honest also keeps everyone safe. By using telepathy as all ET’s appear to do, it is very easy to sense when someone isn’t telling you the truth. This is the first step in learning how to operate in an open and transparent manner, something that government officials do very poorly.
Who wants humans who will be exporting both their paranoid mindset as well as their dangerous nuclear technology and weapons systems out into the cosmos?
I contend that by upping our game and learning how to use our broader sensory faculties (the nonphysical ones), we make ourselves available to a host of key emotional and psychological changes that will be necessary prerequisites to ongoing cooperation with our more advanced colleagues who are interstellar travelers. They have a vested interest in our becoming more equal in some important ways, and some have expressed their regret that we aren’t more further along than we are. I will stress that just developing psychic ability isn’t enough, but that a state of enlightenment naturally brings these latent abilities to the fore as all mystic and yogic traditions have clearly illustrated over hundreds, even thousands of years. In other words, developing advanced sensory abilities has a more advanced world view built into them.
I can say that my awakening has certainly opened up a vast realm of communication for me. In the beginning I considered many of my early results to be nothing more than my imagination, but I was also open and hopeful that my experiences could result in something verifiable in a more or less objective way. I have, in a few notable instances, have gotten forms of confirmation from these efforts at contact. I have also been able to use the inner senses that have activated post awakening to see locations I have never been to nor knew nothing about (I have three witnesses to these efforts). I wrote some months ago about how the use or marijuana may have made me even more psychic when I experimented with it in a controlled setting. Ayahuasca and other substances like it have resulted in the pulling down of a barrier in consciousness that appears to have kept us divided from a part of our natural selves, a part that appears to be psychic.
In other cultures other than the West, particularly India, discussion of psychic abilities is frowned upon as it is believed that it can represent a spiritual cul-de-sac where focus on the psychic feeds ego and is beside the point. I take a different view, which is that focus on psychic abilities is not a distraction along the path at all, but is part of who we are in an enlarging context. To use abilities to gain attention or notoriety can cause problems, yes, but to my mind these abilities were not made to be rare, and as long as they are rare fascination is heaped upon them. Make them commonplace, and the fascination goes out of that inflated balloon of ego and self importance. For me, I find them fascinating because they serve as a tether that guides me to the deepest parts of my being.
These are the primal senses, the ones that preexist before our entrance into the physical and are the senses we will use when we drop our bodies in this life and transition into our next phase of existence. I am as fascinated by them as a child is fascinated by watching a frog hopping across the water, or fireflies in the evening dusk. By opening up to the reality of their presence in our lives, we can begin to learn more about who and what we are…and from all accounts, our cosmic neighbors are waiting there for us.
Psi goes hand in hand with ET contact. We will need to develop these abilities further if we ever hope to more fully know the scope of our nonhuman counterparts’ involvement in our world and the cosmos at large.
This would be a good place to go into how to develop your inner senses and psi powers, but I am reminded to keep it as short and simple as possible, a feat which I am largely unable to achieve! There are though many posts that go into psi ability on this blog, and you can certainly search for them using the search function. Already the day is awash in such glorious energy, that it seems a shame to waste it, so I leave you for now and hope that this is food for thought. I am reminded of something that Rumi once said about there being a “field.” I will meet you there.
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