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I am a guy who is fascinated by how things work. Most of all, I have had a long-term interest and study of consciousness, brain/body connection since I was an adolescent. Once awakening took hold, I felt like I was gifted with insight into the potentials we have as human beings which the process of awakening conferred. While I knew little about the phenomenon before this happened, the returning mind we are gifted with in awakening gave me what I thought were important insights which very often wound up being supported by recent discoveries in neuroanatomy, physiology, and physics. Sounds like something someone who has no idea would say. But hang on..

One of the common sayings or thoughts centered around kundalini is that it is a sexual energy. Not wanting to ever dismiss things out of hand, I have rolled this around in my present experience for years now, and often with changes on how I think I relate to that energy. I have thrashed through this before in previous posts where I thought I had it figured out. Understanding, along with awareness can evolve.

I feel lucky to have a “lab” (my consciousness) where I can go in and run experiments whenever I need or want to. I can ask questions, and sometimes I get answers. I don’t always get it right, though, because as has been the case since day one, my awareness and knowledge keep changing.

To summarize my past writing I would say it goes like this: “It’s an energy alright, and while it may feel sexual, it is much more than that. I’d say it is a creative energy and as a result, anything that involves the creative tends to shoot the energy to the moon. Sex is creative since it makes babies and it can serve as a deep linkage point for people in relationship. But is it primarily a sexual energy as some seem to assert that it is? I don’t think so.” I just saved you many posts and years worth of time searching my blog.

One interesting outcome of a recent meditation that I wrote about related to my relationship to abundance, seems to have cleared a path for relating to kundalini differently than before. To be clear, I had known that this energy kicks off very strong sexual energy, but after the meditation and release work something appears to have come into view more clearly than ever before. Let me see if I can explain it! (It’s really simple)

Instead of prana or chi (qi) being the force that brings bliss (orgasmic sometimes), it is instead a new “arrangement” whereby the body is experiencing a higher than normal level of electrical activity. How this actually happens isn’t completely clear, although we do have very good observations written about by many who experienced it directly over hundreds of years. It seems the simplest explanation for prana and chi is the way consciousness helps to shift how the electrical flow moves through the body. Until awakening (kundalini specifically), how the body handles its electrical energy is limited. I don’t think prana or chi is supernatural, but is instead natural and can be understood naturally. Our electrical production is what plugs us into the universe, which, I will point out, is energetic. Most of us are plugged into our world and don’t even know it. This is a huge story, with mindblowing implications for those who are awake and aware of this energy. I will add that the way you become aware of this isn’t through the rational mind but through the feeling or intuitive mind. But I digress..

In both the Indian and Chinese models, this energy runs through nerve-like channels that aren’t actually physical but are more like very consistent circuits that remain in place with every person (such that it can be mapped either as the naddi in the Indian system or meridian in the Chinese). These are energy channels that currently have not been studied to any significant degree by Western science that I am aware of. In the East, it’s a different story. When you look at an accupuncture chart you can get an idea as to both the sensitivity of the seers and the awareness necessary to draw the lines and the many points that make up the system. It’s a significant kind of work, to identify the points and lines of flow. Invisible, these seers had to use multiple testing methods to identify all of the points including understanding what opening or activating each point brings. Additionally, this system is tied to our emotions as the “gates” or meridian points can become blocked by emotion. When you can master your emotional state through cleansing the system of blocked emotional energy, the system runs much more effectively with greater vitality and physical health resulting. You can’t achieve this state through the rational mind but the feeling state or side. This is why I insist on the importance of being in touch with the feeling self. It seems many try to control themselves via the rational mind, but since it has no real emotional intelligence, the best that can be done is akin to keeping a lid on the garbage within. This is a poor excuse for dealing constructively with this stored emotion. But as this material is seen for what it is, the electrical body begins to operate more efficiently and with less emotional strain than before.

I keep coming back to the electrical hypothesis because it seems the simplest one. I also keep going back to it because of some interesting evidence that points in this direction. My question along with my thesis is does a low level of electrical potential, but higher than among those not awakened, create the bliss effects that are tied to kundalini and other “transcendant” states?

Just recently I heard about a device that a Doctor Maloy used on patients in North Carolina for moderating pain with electrical currents which was found to induce instant orgasms in women. This device has been dubbed the “orgasmatron” and it works by placing electrodes at the base of the spine to stimulate the body’s electrical network. Here we have a low level current that causes orgasm in women (sorry guys, I haven’t found whether this works on men). An article in Wired describes both the initial device as well as a newer one made to stimulate women by adding a low current at a known accupuncture/meridian point: two different devices using electricty that has similar outcomes. The original device involved electrodes to stimulate the spinal cord while the other is at the ankles at an accupuncture point. The article does read how you might expect news of a new sex toy might in the popular press, unfortunately. I’m interested, however, in the coincidence of electricity and sexual energy. This article covers the device originally designed to relieve pain by Dr Maloy.

There is also an account of Nicola Tesla meeting Mark Twain who visited him in his lab near Colorado Springs Colorado where Twain reported how Tesla showed him a new device that Twain was able to experience. When he stepped into the device he felt an extremely pleasant bliss move all through him. The common thread? Electricity. While we don’t know exactly how the device worked, what we do know is it operated on electricity and very likely used a specific electrical potential (volts) most likely in a specific frequency (although we don’t know this for sure). What we do know is that Tesla understood frequency to create a broad range of effects (even antigravity using electrogravitics since his assistant Carr went on to test antigravity devices in California).

There is also a healer who works with sexual energy to help women to heal from past trauma. His method has been to use his own field of energy to induce states of orgasmic bliss in women. He moves his hands over his clients but the effects are felt without any touch. He trained a woman named Sasha Cobra to do the work with men for the same purpose. Nityama, the originator of the method, has stopped giving healing sessions explaining that he was coming under fire by people who have tried to paint his work as somehow taking advantage of women. Sasha continues her work without so much as a blink from the public. What is interesting to me is that both healers agree that it is their energy that does it, that and knowing how to charge and stimulate the field of their clients, a process that leads to release work. I suspect kundalini achieved similar results IF the individual learns the art of surrender. It is interesting that Nityama’s work came under fire while Sasha’s did not (they are the same modality). It seems for now women will have to do the work on their own.

When you consider the power of the energy of awakening to clear blocked emotional energy through a process involving surrender I don’t think it is hard to see the role our sexuality can play as a potent healing force (if you avail yourself to it). In my experience when sexual energy is sublimated or used for healing in higher order energetics, the results can be dramatic. Refined sexual energy? Or is it creative energy that can be turned to a variety of purposes?

Unfortunately for some, the association of healing and sexuality brings up shame and guilt. But when these issues are surrendered, the power in awakening can be used for curing a broad spectrum of blocked emotion (in my experience). We need only learn how to drop our role as victim and embrace our own native healing potential. All of this can be done alone with the presence of the energy as the main catalyst and change-driver.

Huh…

While these examples would not rise to the level of evidence for peer-reviewed research, it does seem to point in the direction of how the body interprets and responds to electrical activity within the right range.

How Electricity Is Made In The Body

Electricity is created at the cellular level through a process called cellular respiration. Ions of sodium and potassium pass each other, respectively, as the cell “breathes” in nutrients and expires waste products, with a small microvoltage resulting. This electricity is used in the body for the neurological system for information processing.

Bruce Lipton recently famously asserted that this means that the body has trillions of volts (because the average potential for cells is about .46 volts) because we have trillions of cells in the body. The problem though is voltage in this case is not cummulative. It’s goid that it isn’t because in Lipton’s model with that much voltage the body would die very quickly. No, the body doesn’t have trillions of volts, but it doesn’t need to. All the system needs is what it is designed to handle. My guess is that what we call kundalini is a relatively small spike in our normal electrical function. Not enough to fry our bodies, but just enough to create stimulation that some of us interpret as sexual. The electrical potential is quite low, but the electrical potential that exists in the physical universe on average is often low also (except for planets with atmospheres generating electricity and stars producing charged plasma). Empty space itself carries a charge, something which Tesla proposed tapping into for energy. I propose that our weak field interfaces with another weak field which is the universe.

But wait, there’s more….

It appears that we can to a certain extent regulate this energy with our consciousness. Awakening is the switch that gets flipped that causes a range of effects from light, sound, or vibration being very common in the initial “rising” event of kundalini awakening or activation. What follows are classic symptoms ranging from joy, fear, bliss, and even depression (depending on how the person responds to the energy and the clearing or cleansing that begins to take place).

I will add one observation that was part of my awakening experience that shows evrry sign of this being an electrical phenomenon. When I awoke I felt a serpentine energy that felt just like a snake moving up through the trunk of my body. I can very easily see this effect as a kind of mild electrical seizure where the energy tightened and released alternating muscle groups up through the trunk of my body. At each center there was a curious sensation of the energy piercing and opening chakra centers in the body, which seemed to open my energy system to carry a new flow of energy.

I will finish with a quote from Jane Roberts who was one of the most well-known mediums for a personality named Seth:

“The universe actively loves itself and all of its parts. The world loves itself and all of its parts. It is not true that energy is neutral or indifferent. Energy is active, positive, propelled by what can almost be called an instantaneous pleasure with itself and its characteristics.”
—The Way To Health, Chapter 3: March 20, 1984

Astro Journal 2022 is now available in paperback and on Kindle at Amazon! 🎉 I had planned the launch for the end of this week but my plans are in shreds because Uranus is in charge, apparently. Well, it is sort of his book since he features so prominently all through next year. My proof […]

Astro Journal 2022 is available Now! — Jessica Davidson

I thought for those interested that THIS might be just the ticket! ~Parker

Learning about this has been one of the most formidable lessons in my awakened life (and it got me into plenty of jams before I got the memo). ❤

Years ago as awakening rustled for the first time I was in the midst of trying to answer some questions about a series of close encounters with what I presumed were ET’s and ET craft. I became a member of an online forum of experiencers and contactees in late 2005. Before I departed the forum I knew personally of five people who I either spoke with at some length or later met who had awakenings. I also saw signs of awakening in others who described what was happening to them at the time. I thought it curious that these things were clustered in a community like this.

Parts of my awakening involved an encounter with an ET who I knew was a “counterpart” of someone who I would develop a tellepathic connection with a couple of years later.

I keep bumping into people who describe anything from “gallactic consciousness” to outright ET encounters of the tellepathic kind in the context of awakenings.

Then there were my recent discoveries of how I was able to remote view and then carry on fairly indepth conversations with an ET stemming from a visit I had in the early 90’s which I posted about in the last year here on WTI. While there was no real way to confirm that my conversation contained real information, the ET did point out that it had a “counterpart” alive on earth who I knew. This ET pointed out this person and I later contacted her telling her parts of my initial conversations. The truly unbelievable part to this was what the ET told me that “she” did as work. When I wrote to this “counterpart” she confirmed that she had memories of having been an ET and that she did the exact same work that the ET had said she did. At no point did I have any conversation with the earthly counterpart about her off-earth memories.

A few years ago I had a dream that showed me that I had a life on another planet and that my work was in a marine environment. A year later I would have an experience of speaking tellepathically with an ET while floating in the Pacific off the island of Catalina California (which took place after some release work that my friend Ali Neville helped me with). It felt like lines were opened in the wake of this healing work that she did.

Curious, I have become part of a newer online forum on the topic of consciousness and the ET issue, whose thesis is that most of the phenomena we term “supernatural” tends to sweep psi, reincarnation, NDE’s and the ET issue as part of a spectrum of related elements (awakening to my mind—a more awakened state). I have also seen the same “coincidental” relationships between the ET’s and accelerated consciousness. Many people (more in the past) haltingly admit that they were or are aware of having been an ET. Many report abductions that appear physical (implants have been recovered from a number of them) while others describe nonphysical abduction-type experiences. A recent regression revealed that a dream in 1977 where I was on board a craft was itself one of this nonphysical “astral” abductions, a phenomenon I had never heard about but which a reader described in the comments section of a recent post about this experience. I have one friend who says, “I’m not into ET’s” and yet she communicates with them and the suggestion is she may have been one in another life.

This begs the question, are we beginning to see greater awareness about humans as ET’s and might this be one way that we will seed earth with a sense of how normal the ET’s are as part of an expanding awareness that we are not alone in the universe? Or is it that it might just be a consequence of how an expanding awareness reveals lives lived not just on earth but elsewhere.

I’m not suggesting that everyone who experiences awakening will always experience the ET issue. What I am interested in is who else may have had experiences along these lines and what do you think about it?

I will toss in one other item for your consideration, which is how the early Christian Gnostics have books, recently discovered in Egypt (1945) that describe a type of being that fits the modern grey ET perfectly. They describe how they look, they describe how they take people and how they try to breed with humans. They are described as being like gods but really aren’t (can move from place to place quickly and can work what seem to be miracles (but aren’t)). What the Gnostics do is they dig into these beings to a considerable degree and make them into a spiritual presence as much as they are a physical presence as well. All of this clustered around a teacher that is put forward as being Jesus. Jesus himself, no matter what side you come down on in regards to his historic reality, shows signs of having been awakened himself. Other documents in the Nag Hammadi find of 1945 show a group who were well aware of awakening (and kundalini in specific). There is a lot of debate about what this may mean for Christianity’s roots and it’s future. Believers dismiss, scholars argue, and I wonder…

Let me know your thoughts and experience because this is one that I puzzle over a great deal.

~Parker

One outcome of my awakening experience was my personal discovery of books from early Christianity that had been largely unknown until a large cache were discovered in the desert of Egypt in 1945. One book purported to be the secret teachings of Jesus to his innermost circle. What I realized, or thought I did, was that these books were describing awakening with a pretty high degree of specificity. It wasn’t only that, but how they appeared to veil the teachings in many cases by using descriptions that made it difficult for anyone not having the experience to even know what the writers were refering to. It was to my mind like a way of coding the teachings just enough that it made it hard to understand. This may have been intentional, but it could also have been the result of not having a specific enough vocabulary with which to do the describing.

This might sound strange, but let me give you an example for what I mean. Not long into awakening, me and a person who awoke along with me (a country apart, didn’t know each other, this all happened from a distance) we both referred to what was happening to us as “it.” That was how sophisticated our vocabulary was. We had no reference point, no context, nor a teaching to guide us. Overnight, innexplicably, we had a tellepathic connection (which was proven numerous times each week). “It” fit though, because how on earth would you describe “this” (we used that term also)? It also kept what was happening to us from prying eyes and ears since who would understand or believe it? There was no real context in which to put it in. When that’s the case, you create a language or vocabulary for it much like people who are dealing with it do today (witness the use of words like “downloads” and “portals” to refer to aspects of the experience). You create your own vocabulary to help describe what is happening to you.

How could it be, I wondered, that these books were described as heresy by certain people within the church when they so clearly revealed a sophisticated understanding of a very rare state of being?

When I first found these books and realized they were pretty clearly describing my state, I considered that it was a conspiracy that they were not just shoved aside, but that in many cases, the books that were part of an unnacceptable take on Christian thought were destroyed. Now however, I am realizing it was little more than a conspiracy of ignorance…and an easy trap to fall for by anyone who was not in the know, who hadn’t had the experience, or wasn’t initiated into the system.

Was it as many scholars have asserted, that these books were jibberish, mere speculation, and could not be tied to Jesus at all? Was it true that as some Orthodox apologists have said, that these people, called “Gnostics” were late-comers? Were they forging documents, slapping Jesus’s name on them in order to give their own “wild speculations and fantasies” more caché?

I have learned that the opposition will say just about anything in order to put a good man or woman down. Maybe this speculation was right, and my initial gut sense was all wrong. There were times when this certainly appeared to be the case.

This question put me on a 15 year journey where I made myself familiar with early Christianity. I didn’t spend years in seminary getting my doctorate in divinity, nor did I learn Greek or Hebrew. I knew next to nothing about the field and I just couldn’t square my sense that these early Christians were on to something of immense importance versus what those in what would become known as the Orthodox church had to say about these teachings. Something didn’t add up.

I have realized that while I lack the background in the history of early Christianity that many scholars in the field have, I have something most (perhaps nearly all) do not: I have the experience of awakening with all of its dizzying effects, signs, and symptoms. I have read at length even scholars who specialize in the Gnostic texts speculating about the meanings of the gospel of Thomas or Philip. My sense from the beginning was that these Gnostics were the real deal, and that these works constitutes a “lost Christianity” as Bart Ehrman has described it. Having said this, I will also say that they go far afield from the words of Jesus as we have come to know them. The difference between an esoteric system and an exoteric one (the Gnostics as we refer to them ate esoteric) is that esoteric systems have much greater production of documents because the followers keep having experiences and writing about them. In the case of these early Christians, they believed that the Christ was revealed to be within a person (some Gnostics considered Paul to be a bit of a hero because he writes in his letters that God revealed to him the Christ which was within him when he was struck by a blinding light on his way to Damascus). For the Gnostics, then, the crucifixion lost much of its importance because they found salvation from the awakening to the indwelling Christ.

I ask you: what teaching by Jesus ever made anything appear to be outside of ones self? The kingdom was all within one, and seeking was done inwardly. Those who “seek him” were seeking a quality that was already there. It is worth noting that this is precisely what most Eastern traditions that describe awakening say. It is also a completely different story that Orthodox Christians have put forward since about 100-130 A.D.

I will say, however, that there were times in my work on this subject where it looked like the Gnostics were a later “invention” or movement and could not be definitively pinned to Jesus. I was, for a time, considering that for as insightful as they were, there just wasn’t a connection to Jesus’s life. I got used to the idea that these were amazing people who spun their own insights into what the Christ was all about. Maybe they were a seperate development that still managed to “get there” even though they came later.

That was before I found out about the work of Walter Bauer who did a study or survey of documents from earliest Christianity, who, in the 1930’s (and before the discovery in 1945 of this cache of early books in Egypt) determined that heresy came first and Orthodoxy came later. Orthodoxy, based on Bauer’s work, placed Orthodoxy a hundred years after the heretics (give or take a decade or two). Source: Orthodoxy & Heresy In Earliest Christianity

Heresy has always been described by the church as that branch off of the “main vine” that represents a divergence from the central truths of the dogma (see church father Origen since he originated this concept). This begged the question: how could this be so in light of what Bauer found? This may have been the result of the church, a group within it, seeking to hide the truth about how things were in the early days of the movement. It could have been as simple as ignorance by another group who didn’t have the deeper teachings (and thus could easily not understand them even when they saw them).

Then there is the troubling reality that Bart Ehrman points out in his book Jesus Interupted which is that most of the discoveries we have made in the last 100 years of Christian documents are nearly all Gnostic (which is used to describe this group of Christians today—gnosticism meaning ‘one who knows’ or who has inner knowledge not attained through books or instruction alone). Ehrman asks pointedly, did the Orthodoxy not have anything to say that there have been so few new discoveries of Orthodox books or letters during the same time period? It is plausible, then, that Gnosticism was far more robust, engaged, and involved in the matters of Christian thought than the early heresy hunters would have us believe. The historical record is certainly showing us this in spades in this regard. In Bauer’s work he points out letters that show that the church gave up trying to convert Asia Minor because the heretics were so numerous and resistant to their message. It would be easy to just say they were deluded and utterly lost, but it hides the fact that this was a situation that had always been described as no big deal by those in the Orthodox wing of the church, something more like a few flies that needed to be swatted away as the Orthodoxy has tried to represent it as. No, “heresy” was much more developed than Orthodoxy was, and at a very early period. It begs the question as to which tradition was the original or earliest one.

When I think about what happens to our leaders today it is easy to see how each side in a political campaign seeks to demonize and dethrone the leader who is in the opposition. Those with the loudest voices wind up being heard and believed. We are well aware of the sentiment that the winners of a war get to tell the history as they want it told.

Orthodoxy won the war of ideas not because their thinking was superior but because they were more worldly and systematic in their willingness to take down what they considered an opponent. You can easily see just how harsh the rhetoric was by reading the writings of these noted antiheretics like Tertulian, St. Justin, and others like them. In fact, we know a lot about early Christian “heretics” because the diatribes about them were so long-winded (and detailed) by those who were opposing them. Christians don’t like the idea that there may have been a larger story here because they have lived with a version of a story they have come to know and love. But to say that a belief system is right simply because we have lived with it for 1600 years or more is not evidence that it is necessarily right or the final word. It only means that one group stamped out another group such that their knowledge base was silenced.

Yes it seems strange and foreign, and yet this is just what archeology has revealed and the voice that was silenced was showing us the very keys to the kingdom. These keys as I call them are a suit of methods that appear in the so-called Gnostic writings mostly found in the Nag Hammadi Libray but that are also found in documents discovered earlier like the Pistis Sophia. These documents describe the same phenomenon as those in Eastern schools of though which describe the process of enlightenment.

I am not suggesting that these people went to India, but managed it on their own and that the “ressurrection” of the soul was achieved by attaining a quality that one culture called Christ while another called it Buddha. As such, this knowledge wasn’t predicated on belief alone, but pointed to a universal quality that every person has regardless of race or creed.

Rumi, the great poet and mystic once wrote about how we all squabble over the names of things and that we try to differentiate the light falling in one place as fundamentally different from the light falling in another when it is all the same source, the same thing. I think Orthodoxy tried to do this in an effort to carve out its own seemingly unique niche when in fact it had discarded important elements along the way that would have enriched it tremendously.

The Mar Saba Discovery

Then along comes Morton Smith in the 20th century. Morton Smith claimed to have made a discovery of a book in Mar Saba near Israel in the early 1960’s that contained writing by Clement, a figure from early Christianity. Clement quotes lines from a book that he calls “Secret Mark” which was, as he described it, part of a private teaching Jesus gave to his closest followers. Clement emphasizes that these teachings were never spoken before the uninitiated, a situation Jesus cautions about even in the synoptic gospels when he refers to swine and pearls, those who were “without.” In this case, Jesus was pointedly obfuscating his teaching so the Gentiles could not understand lest they be saved. The book was intended for the “perfecting” of those who were followers of this Jesus.

Morton Smith took photographs of the document and when he returned later to examine the book again, it had vanished. It has not been seen since. Here’s the thing: forensic examination of the photographs themselves have established that the book is an authentic document of the era. Christian apologists go so far as to criticize the writing as being “too Clementine” which to me may well be enough to prove the point. The writing style is consistent with what historians know about Clement, who has many writings attributed to him. Those within scholarly circles who are Christian apologists set upon Smith in attack after attack, however.

The letter was about one thousand words and had been copied onto the endpages of a seventeenth century book which no one had ever mentioned before. The find shook the scholarly world, although it’s existance made hardly a ripple in popular Christian circles because the letter denounced the group involved as heretical. That seems to be enough for any reasonable believer of the faith, but it raised important questions for many who find the discoveries of this kind to be suggestive of what Bauer had found to be the case and which continuing discoveries like the Nag Hammadi Library texts had done two decades prior, which was whether we have been told the whole story. Here is an excerpt from an article in The Nation about the discovery:

These heretics, as Clement and Theodore saw them, claimed that they possessed a secret version of the Gospel of Mark. Jesus, they believed, had taught his followers that they were freed from the law and could do whatever they wanted without sinning. According to one of their Christian critics, Irenaeus, they actually thought they earned salvation by “doing all those things which we dare not either speak or hear of, nay, which we must not even conceive in our thoughts.”

The Nation, Gospel Secrets: The Biblical Controversies of Morton Smith, January 8, 2009, Anthony Grafton.

It is worth noting that as a result of scholarly research we now know that it was Mark’s gospel that was the earliest of all the gospels. While Clement denounced the teachings in Secret Mark, he did not say that this Mark didn’t exist. Here we have a proof that books like Secret Mark were later destroyed by the Orthodox church, with copies that have yet to surface. Consider what would happen if the prevailing attitudes and beliefs of today were against you, what would you do? Would you perhaps hide away the books that you do have in order to preserve them? If your books were unapproved of, they would be destroyed with fire.

While some scholars like Ehrman have suggested that the Nag Hammadi find may well have been an effort on the part of local Christians to free up space in their libraries by burying the collection several kilometers away, I am reminded of an email from Elaine Pagels recently that the burial of the NHL documents is well within the same time frame as the letter by Bishop Athanasius, written in 365 A.D. which spelled out what books were to be acceptable for use in the church. Every book Athanasius mentioned in his list is contained in the New Testament today. It was Athanasius’s letter that would set the die for all that would follow. Anything else would come under scrutiny and risk being remanded to the flames. Remember, before the printing press, books were copied by hand in what could take many months to complete. Burning one book or two could end an important thread within the early movement. Back then, in the first century, stories abounded about the life of Jesus, an oral tradition, that was only later written down after Jesus’s death.

This article is helpful to gain the full scope of the issue about how the New Testament was formed.

My thesis has been and continues to be that Jesus was a man who attained awakening. The books attributed to his private teaching happen to also describe what is known in India as kundalini. While there isn’t compelling evidence that Jesus had gone to India, there is no good reason to suggest that in order to awaken he would need to study under an enlightened guru either. It’s possible he got instruction locally from John the Baptist, or the Essenes. We just don’t know because for as a man as famous as Jesus is, there is a huge gaping hole that is unaccounted for in his life in terms of time. I never studied under a guru and managed to trigger the first initiatory steps into awakening on my own. Likewise, it is quite possible that Jesus did the same. All he would need would be a quality of intense curiosity and a drive to seek. I suspect that this is just what Jesus meant when he said seek and ye shall find. He sought, and he found. But what did he find? He described it as a world that was within each person. At no point does Jesus ever say that his kingdom was outside of himself. All of this was an inside job. So meditation would have been part of it, something Jews of the time were well familiar with. The right kind of meditation would do it, nothing fancy, but something that would serve to achieve a first release of inner emotional material followed by inner inquiry.

It turns out that I did precisely what the heretical Jesus prescribed, which was to remove what keeps one divided within the self. This is actually a prescription Jesus mentions in the gospel of Thomas and mentions in the gospel of Phillip. The way I achieved this was through a conversation with a holy man when I felt a long-standing frustration guilt, and frustration with the universe, afterwhich everything began to change. I unburdened myself of a giant knot that had me tied up for decades, it was almost like an insurmountable impasse for me at the time.

I suspect that the story of Jesus’s baptism was like this or served a similar purpose for him because in the Gnostic texts he is teaching about how to attain the kingdom by resolving what divides you within, and a teacher always relays to his or her students how they achieved it themselves. The elephant in the room is if Jesus was God why was he going to John to have his sin removed? Why did Jesus need baptism? He obviously felt like he needed it, and instead of seeking the God, according to Orthodox scripture, which had always been within him. It’s a huge leap around the question that Christians never seem to ask. I think that it is a perfectly reasonable question to ask and actually makes loads of sense once the private teachings are known and taken into consideration.

With John, who claimed he could relieve the burden of sin through ritual washing, or baptism, Jesus was relieved enough of his own burden for the first flashes of “the light” to begin showing through. Jesus also spent forty days fasting and praying in the wilderness near where John was located. I will point out that this is the same approximate time that the Taoists prescribe for awakening the secret of the golden flower, their take on the awakening process. Similarly, in Hindu practice the number of 40 to 45 days comes up a lot for a time frame. It takes some effort to break through the veil of the earthly self to attain to the “heavenly” one (regardless of what tradition you ascribe to). Orthodoxy glosses over this precisely because it knows nothing about these practices. Then, when presented with the very means to do so, they cried foul heresy. The kingdom thus was found and then lost within a few short generations. The apostolic era came to an end not because of some God-ordained event with dubious reasoning but precisely because people no longer had access to the teachings that would have kept the era chugging along nicely. All of the signs of the holy ghost, and of awakening, were gone because the knowledge had exited the building.

If Jesus had awakened, the libertine attitude shown in the works of some of the Christian mystics like the Carpocrations that Clementine was speaking out against in his letter mentioned earlier has a very good chance of being true. Awakening pushes you beyond the normally accepted mores of the time by virtue of the fact that the energy of awakening vivifies and stimulates the body in new and novel ways. The Hindu describe it as a libidinous force, a creative current that leads one to new levels of bliss that are experienced and described as orgasmic. It’s not that it is literally so, but that this is the only way to aptly describe it so it can be halfway understood. Awakening absolutely impacts the master glands of the body resulting in high outputs of all sorts of hormones. Kundalini a sexual energy? I have always felt that the energy of awakening stimulates all sorts of things, including libido. Kundalini does much more than just stimulating libido.

Many people who are awakened know about the futility of skirting issues. No, the energy seems to push us to leap headlong into the cleansing fire that is the holy ghost, the feminine aspect, what in India would be called Shakti or the Ida current. All of this is consistent with awakening, and there is no reason to think it wasn’t the case with Jesus.

The problem with the Orthodoxy was that none of the secret teachings made any sense to them. How was it possible that by finding the savior within, the Christ, one washed away ones shame of human sexuality? Or guilt, or any other issue that represents stored emotional material that awakening can help the person to clear? Awakening can do this, though. It cleanses and returns you to a renewed mind and state of being. It is a salvific force.

It is now more likely that Jesus did have a private teaching and that the synoptic gospels represent only a thin slice of a larger picture. While Clement railed against this “Secret Mark” as heretical, I ask the question: says who? On whose authority? Why should I pay any attention to someone who was never included in the private teachings of a realized master? Even when Jesus says “No one comes to the father except by me” Christians don’t consider how that statement could mean something significantly different than what they assume it does. In Jesus’s day he was the only person around who had attained to the level that he had, so yes, Jesus was the only game in town. Like any great teacher, if you wanted to get there quickly, you studied under him like any teacher anywhere who had a grip on the esoteric or hidden things.

It took a bit of courage to photograph and then publish the marks that showed up when kundalini rose a decade and a half ago. It was an odd thing to witness these marks, one on my right hip and another that emerged after a clearing of karmic material tied to my heart center several years later. The posts about this are in the archive. I include one from the heart below.

At first when I wrote about it, there was little comment about them, but after about a year comments began to come in with people describing similar marks who had been running searches for burn-like marks after spiritual events, and voila—they found me. Many tended to be either on the hips or near the shoulders. Then, a few years ago, a Japanese graduate student shared photos with me of his own marks which were nearly identical to my own, also on his hip and another like my heart center mark except at his throat chakra which following a kundalini awakening.

I thought that someone or something had done this to me, but as increasing numbers of people have come forward to describe their own burn-like marks, it seems to me that these marks may simply be what happens when strong energy is being released (because of its proximity to the energetic event tied to kundalini awakening). Intuitively it seems right that the marks could happen when energy is trying to move up the legs to the torso, and vica versa, and like an energy bolt used to traveling in a more or less straight line, it has to make a sudden turn and becomes impeded and marks result (this is my theory at this point). This could result in a burn or iritation to the skin. For me, I know that this is nothing mystical or “woo-woo” but serves as a physical trace of the energy in the physical. I also have not just marks that emerged around the time I awakened, but I have a persistent mark over my heart and recently that mark has moved.

It would be helpful if science were to take an interest in this observable phenomenon. Absent that, I am left to investigate and collect accounts by others with similar effects that have happened to them.

Three days ago, I noticed that the mark over my heart center has moved. It started at the lower sternum as you see in the photo. It has moved up by about 2 and a half inches, and the mark, which has tended to be circular, and which has been constant in its presence for years now has grown three times in size. It is less noticable but can be easily seen in the right light. It hasn’t waned in that time and resembles two semicircles that sit opposite each other along the vertical axis of my torso. The end of each semicircle doesn’t touch the semicircle beneath it, but the effect is seeing a near-perfect circle being formed (or at least suggested). I am observing it to see what it does after this move, if anything.

I often find it hard to describe what I feel because while I know that it became a novel but continuous state compared to how I felt previous to this experience of awakening, its constancy has led me to find it to be a new normal. How do you normalize supreme bliss? I spent years learning how to appear normal while speeding through another world within. It’s progress now that I can keep from needing to sit or lie down for an hour or two because the bliss is so strong. There were periods where I would be so blissed out that I would forget from one moment to the next what I was thinking about or even doing. It didn’t even matter in many cases. I can’t say that I handled it all that well in the beginning, but over time I learned how to carry that bliss while being able to focus on the kinds of things that would normally get wiped away by the thick blanket of bliss.

The effect of the bliss is that it has had a significant effect on dulling or eliminating a lot of pain in my body, and softening emotional pain. While this is helpful, even miraculous, I am concerned that it could make identifying a physical problem difficult in the future. Pain is an important feedback when things go wrong that need attention. I sometimes worry a little about this. Could I miss important signs of my imminent demise? The bliss says, “pipe down, it’s okay, just chill…” What’s behind the bliss? A cocktail of chemistry, I have found. It isn’t all just dopamine, but a good portion is based on my experience and investigation into it.

I disagree with Jana Dixon in her assertion in the Physiology of Kundalini that dopamine does not play an important role in the symptoms of kundalini. I have observed that high dopamine levels are responsible for being able to take part in the release process because while dopamine is a natural pain killer, the effect it had on me psychologically was that it made it possible for me to let go, and to stop “grasping” for the old familiar psychological patterns that were the basis of old beliefs and programming. What I experienced fell neatly into the realm of high dopamine levels. Additionally, I have found that in people with schizophrenia, the condition involves an inability to properly metabolize dopamine, resulting in a build-up in the brain resulting in the psychotic break if nothing changes. I found an online conversation of a group of schizophrenics who had gone off their medication just to see how long they could go without serious problems. One person said that he discovered his symptoms after a week were identical to kundalini. For me, this was proof that at the right level, dopamine is directly tied to elements that makes kundalini feel the way that it does. It may also be responsible for boosting psi ability in the brain by allowing the self to tune out the usual signals through the sensory cortex in favor of tuning in the nonphysical senses. Dopamine, it could be said, gives peoole a pleasant rush at one level, but could do much more at higher levels.

When I read accounts of people who smoked opium (a dopamine analog in plant form) many of the accounts described symptoms very similar to my own experience with dopamine. When the self lets go and surrenders, the chemistry instantly shifts away from the stress hormones of norepinephrine and adrenaline and into the softer more dreamy dopamine/oxytocin range of the spectrum. And who among us haven’t felt intense feelings of love during awakening? I am not suggesting that dopamine production is kundalini, I am suggesting that dopamine is the concoction that creates part of the experience of bliss in the body. This is all being coordinated at the nonlocal consciousness level. Dopamine doesn’t get produced or released until the signal from the consciousness comes. I will also add that I am aware that other compounds are in this mix, it’s just that the effects of dopamine were so easy to identify with some simple online searching. I do think that without a little adrenaline, dopamine tends to make me want to lie down for considerable lengths of time. It slows motor response, it has even slurred my speech and gave me the stereotypical “Buddha gaze” where eyelids are often at half mast. I wouldn’t rule out the presence in small amounts of DMT since in small amounts it has been shown to create bliss. I for one would like very much to test this in a clinical setting to see how DMT bliss compares to my own physically produced bliss compounds.

When this shift in the heart happened, what I count as the fifth in a five-layered process (tied to the koshas—each chakra is like an onion, kosha meaning “husk” and each layer aligns with the five major aspects of the energy body: emotional mental, physical, energetic, and spiritual). This means that each chakra can be cleared by kundalini up to five times as it acts on each aspect of the chakra and its koshas.

At this time, just a week before the change in location, I inquired in meditation to find out the nature of a hitch that I had for most of my life, which is a habitual tendency to move into poverty consciousness. This never made much sense to me in the past because I always had a capacity to get whatever I needed in life, so what gives? Just ask and it will be given.

I realized in the course of the inner inquiry that there were no limits that existed within, and what was causing it was a vestige remaining that came from growing up in a family where this issue seemed front and center. I was myself taken on a very fast journey through a space that I knew was my being and what felt curiously similar to a spaciousness that I experienced in the wake of the third clearing of my heart center in 2008.

In my recent meditation, my inner guidance took me through this vast open space and there was simply nothing there that would impede it (it was completely clear—a vast brilliant white space–my own connection to and experience of the divine white light capable of being anchored here by me in this life). Huh.

This was new to me because over the years this inner space was always cluttered with something. I grew accustomed to feeling the “remainder” of the stuck energy that had yet to be resolved, with the process always being where I saw, noted its presence (after a while of getting used to this process), knew it was there, but relied on the energy to get to it in its own time. I, as a result, never second-guessed the energy in terms of which block it would get to next because it was much better at getting it done than I could ever do on my own. That said, I did practice Qi Gung and meditation in order to ‘soften the ground’ so to speak in a hope of making things go more smoothly for this intelligent energy. It was my “project” and after years of doing this work sudden it became a wind-swept silence of a space.

“There is nothing there” my inner guidance said to me. There was nothing in my way, whatever that hitch was that I had was now gone. Looking back I realize that most of it was the result of other people who either expressed a poverty consciousness, or it was people near me who tried to connect me with it. Luckily those people have edited themselves from my life now and for the last three years I have been actively engaged in bringing my studio business back to life (with the greatest growth happening during the pandemic).

Within days events changed. I had cobbled together work from last month’s production in the studio, held an event, and in 20 years of doing shows and events, this one wasn’t just better than anything I had done before, it was head and shoulders beyond anything that I had ever done since I began the business in 1997. I thought it was a fluke until the next week’s event was just as crazy as the first. This was repeated a third time for good measure and the result was the same. The whole tenor of the business has changed. I am hiring part time help and the truth is, it wont be enough. A new chapter has opened up. The heart mark had shifted during this time, signaling a readiness to step into the next phase of the journey.

The curious thing about this is that I keep hearing that abundance is tied to the root or base energy center. I feel that for me, it all happens in my heart as a pivot point, a mediator, between root and crown centers. For whatever reason, this was the most natural outcome for me. How is that possible? Is it that when we do something with love, it can only really emerge best from the heart? Would it then be an outcome mediated by it?

All of this is the culmination of years worth of work, so while this recent development was a pleasant surprise, it was one step along a long line of steps. And why am I even saying this? It’s to show that there are different ways of doing this work, to convey that the moment someone says that something must happen a certain way, you can know there are many paths that lead to the same summit. The other side is my sense that none of this is supernatural but is, I think, natural. It’s physioligical and driven by an energetic force we unfortunately don’t know much about in a scientific way because so few researchers are willing to delve into it. We do have reams and reams of accounts both current and ancient by the people experiencing the phenomenon. It is described as a serpent in India. Based on how the energy rose up through my body, I can understand why. But there is no snake, there isn’t even a Shiva and Shakti meeting at the crown. Those are apt descriptions to say what it is like, no one thinks it actually is that. This is much the same as Jesus saying the kingdom is like a candle, or a treasure in a field. The kingdom isn’t literally those things, it is like those things. Based on my observations it is more likely that this energetic even is the result of the two brains, the left and right hemispheres finally synchronizing in a very particular way which leads to a sudden rush of energy and bliss flowing into the crown and radiating throughout the body. That may not sound terribly exciting, but how the mechanics sound and how it feels can appear quite different. Prana is just electricity?? It might be that a slight “over-volt” in the body is enough to supercharge the brain and kick the endochrine system into high gear where a host of hormones kick into high gear resulting in better health, sharper physical senses, and an expansion of cognition even into intuitive abilities. Clearly these burns or marks are the result of a real physical force, and the best explanation is an arc of electricity perhaps coupled with resistance at critical points where energy flows from and to the torso to the legs. It would help if someone with a technical background were to take an interest. How to rouse those in slumber?

Personally I suspect that the phenomenon represents an area of inquiry scientifically that would likely serve to challenge materialist views long held about consciousness as arising from matter rather than the other way around (which is what I think this is). It also has the potential to vault us into a new understanding of ourselves, and our potentials If only we can break the log-jam of enlightenment-era thinking (namely Descart who championed the idea that we are just biological machines entirely driven by the matter assembled that we call biological life). The incidence of marks that show around energetic events like awakening is one such example of real physical traces that help to anchor the phenomenon in something more than “woo-woo” and gets us all closer to “how-to” through an investigation of this field as a once-rare event that is fast becoming a more common phenomenon.

I know that it is entirely possible that my heart mark could help show the physical traces and existance of the chakra, not as a belief or notion promulgated by Eastern philosophy and esotericists, but as a reality that could serve to point to the system most directly tied to the forces of consciousness.

Additionally it could help us to understand the size of the chakra in the energy body. The fact that the mark on my heart emerged immediately after a heart clearing event, was the size of a dime at that time (in 2011), only to change size while also moving up my sternum by about three inches may have a lot to tell us about how this system behaves. While we may not have dozens of people for a half-decent study, we may be able to glean information from the few who do exhibit these markings as a response or reaction to the energy. Is this mark, which persists, the result of a strong energetic pathway that opened up in the wake of awakening and the release of emotional baggage? It feels electric to me, so that would be one clue for future investigation. I also sense that what might be increased electrical activity in my body may well be felt or read as bliss in consciousness. I see a connection with this energy serving to stimulate my endochrine system which has led to a host of positive physical results. It also, not surprises, has pushed libido a good deal, and with so many experiencers describing kundalini as a sexual energy, this effect may help us to understand why, while helping us to see how this energy impacts the body in a positive way (while understanding better how to support the physical organism so it has less chance of burning us out or experiencing negative side effects from the energy).

Currently most materialistically inclined thinkers think that the idea of the chakra is just speculative hogwash. I think that by upping our game on this front we could begin to show anecdotal evidence that this is more than mere speculation.

The problem I face is finding the people who are affected in the same or similar ways as I have in regards to the marks. While I have a handful of people who have reported having had simkar marks only one has been willing to share pictures which he took before the marks faded after the surge of energy that likely produced them faded. While I had a hip mark, my Japanese friend developed a mark at his throat chakra which is not that different in size and shape as my heart chakra mark. At this point, these kinds of numbers are not enough to convince any researcher that there is anything to it.

If you have experienced this type of phenomenon, I would like very much to know because it will help us to better understand this phenomenon and without data, there isn’t any interest. If you have images you can send them to info@staffordartglass.com. Your info will be held in confidence for any contacts that you make.

~Parker

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