So this is a bit long, but it begins to lay out issues related to manifesting and the physiological and psychological basis for how this will work for you. Understanding the root of it can help you in knowing how to resolve issues later on down the line by applying these basic principles. All of this has been the result of direct experience, not from other sources.
Sometimes the idea of being able to manifest what you want in life seems like so much woo-woo, right? The rational mind cannot see how any of this is possible. There is a reason for this. In a world where we really have leaned so heavily on the rational left-brained side of our awareness and consciousness, it can be hard for us to realize there might actually be a different way. After all, stories of natives in the jungles dancing to bring rain just sounds like so much silly superstition, right? In an earlier post I wrote about how the medicine man Rolling Thunder was often observed harvesting plants that were not available at the time when he was harvesting them. People would observe how he would need a flowering plant for a healing only to go out and find it along the path he was walking. In my life my daughter has been able to observe this phenomenon as she wishes for a desk that is the same height as her bed only to find one the next day, set out by the dumpster, in perfect condition with a chair that is brand new AND at the exact height of her bed. She has seen how when something was needed, it was found within a day. The last time this happened, I had wished for a jewelry case for my gallery. These are normally a couple hundred dollars used. I walked into my local thrift store, saw a jewelry case up ahead but didn’t have a price on it. With a ratty table for over a hundred dollars sitting next to it, I breathed deep and wished for the case to be fifty fifty dollars after the attendant went into the back to ask what the price was for the case. They came out and put $50.00 on it. Perfect, you see. Even though I knew that the few cases they had in their store were at least a hundred dollars or more, I did not let this affect me. I breathed deep and knew I could have it for less. I simply used a tool located within the feeling self to make it happen. I know it may sound like magic, and perhaps for now we can just call it that, or we can call it the power we all have to manifest things through unordinary methods.
The left brain, seat of much of the processing power for linear object-based understanding is a machine that excels at identifying things. It has been an important part of our toolkit for physical survival. See the threat, and take care of it! Done. Nice left brain. Did the job, brought home the bacon, pat, pat on the head. We have come to enshrine the left brain to a great degree, and I think we have done so at the cost of the other side of our brains and our being. If you know anything about the energy system of the light body, you will know that the right side of the body has been seen as the part of the larger energy system that carries the masculine energy up the nonphysical template of the nadis or etheric energy channels. You may also know that in the physical body the brain and body do a little switch so that the right and left sides of the brain control the opposite side of the body. What you might not know is that the etheric energy also does a cross in the brain or near the crown so that masculine energy goes up into the left brain while the feminine current that moves up the left side of the body runs up into the right side of the brain. This crossing that takes place energetically is the way nature and the cosmos has chosen to assure that your own body and light body have access to the necessary union for a fuller realization of what it is capable of, which is a subtle and overt blending of two different polarities within the body. This happens etherically, and it also happens physically. It serves as a template for allowing a broad range of experience to happen all within our very small frames. We may not have developed a device to show all you left-brainers out there that this energy exists, but we do have systems that utilize an understanding of those current channels such as acupuncture as well as movement disciplines such as Thai Chi, Chi Gung, and even the martial arts of Judo and Karate, just to name a few. Once you realize how movement assists in the flow of energy, then these seemingly woo-woo movements stop being so and take on a broader context. Movement is an important aspect in releasing karmic knots or energy blocks in the body, both energetic and physical. So in the same way that a masculine current runs up one side, a feminine runs up the other. This is energy 101. These energies merge and are used in your awareness to build what you are. You are literally drawing off an infinite source of energy, whether you know it or not, to focus your own awareness and consciousness in the world. This means that one half of the equation, the yin or feminine, has a voice in all of this. You determine how much of each you use based on a slew of factors, some which have to do with your own personality and habits, as well as what feels “right” to you. The only thing keeping you from a full awareness of that point of union of both the feminine and masculine which exists in everyone is AWARENESS. Simply that. No switches, no knobs to turn, no mantras or methods. You were born with it. Anyone can experience huge loads of the feminine energy flowing through them, even if they are male. All you have to do is allow it to happen. The same is true for the masculine. The only thing that is keeping you from feeling them is your own choice and filtering process that is in place. Your own subconscious decisions are all made and you do not even know they have been made, but you can drift away from your normal mode of doing things easier than you might realize in order to experience these energies more powerfully or differently. I know because I have done it ad it has never once resulted in my feeling estranged from who I am, but in many ways helped to clarify what I am and how I feel. The secret is in ALLOWING it, and this allowance is achieved through feeling. This allowing is the right brain, the feminine, the yielding aspect of your personality. If you have a great capacity to yield, you might well find that you have a greater ability to bring in the powers of the right brain into your life
All the gurus who speak of divine union speak of this not being a thing of the mind. It is far larger than anything the mind itself could come up with or hope to mirror. When I say mind, I do not mean brain. Mind is a construct within the brain or within our awareness (which some scientists are saying is actually not all located IN the brain but appears now to be all throughout the body…imagine that!)
The part of your mind that is incessantly talking and rambling, even right now, is the part of your brain that processes language and does so in a highly organized and linear way. This is simply how language and verbal communication is most often. So the left brain is set up to deal with most of this processing. But while it can identify and choose individual words, it falls flat in being able to take in the forest of words. It is not so good at broad concepts or ideas that are of a more transcendental nature. This is why people who try to shoe-horn the rational into transcendental experiences fail miserably. The zen master Taishen Deshimuru observed that monks who were overly mental in their personalities had the hardest time with reaching a state of transcendent awareness. They were simply using their left brains far too much. But like anything, how we are is based partly in habit and you can change those habits to let in a broader range of experience.
I know it is not 800 words and I have not even mentioned manifestation, but I just need to lay this foundation, so hang on there….
When you shift into the right mind, it is such a different part of your being, you might not even recognize it at first. For as good at the left brain is in organizing, the right brain does something very different. And this right brain also mirrors a nonphysical character to your soul, too, just as the left brain does. Two brain hemispheres are thus merged through a large nerve bundle called the corpus callosum, and in the physical this is the point of union for them, something that also happens in a similar place with the etheric energy streaming in. Allowing the two to speak to each other is where inspired states take place. Recognizing right brain activity is the first step in giving it more leeway in your awareness. There is a lot of truth to the sense that the right brain is highly sensual, free, and fluid. The right brain has excelled in bringing us great discoveries and imagining the impossible simply because it is quite simply able to conceive of the inconceivable. This means the right brain can lead you to very revolutionary states of feeling and being, ones that never even existed before. The right brain, also, has the capacity of conceiving the infinite because of how it has developed. It also has a curious ability to not be oriented along lines of boundaries and old repetitive patterns. We like to think of this as a kind of radical out-there woo-woo artsy mind-set, but this is only a result of the fact that so few people actually utilize their right brain in an aware and awake way.
I was speaking with a Chemistry professor who teaches at the same university that I do about this issue. I said it was too bad that we do not teach students how to be creative. By this I did not mean artistically creative, but just creative thinkers. She said “That is what everyone here calls the”he’s smoking weed” mentality!” ” What she meant by this was the sense that when we shift out of the rational mind and into the right brain mode, it is seen as a whole lot of airy-fairy silliness. Or smoking weed. Out there, man! You get the idea. But this is unfortunate, which both she and I agreed because its the incredible power of the right brain that can bring you discoveries that do not always come from the daily grind of testing compounds in order to find just the right one. This method works great, but it is incredibly time consuming. It does not occur to most people that there might be a different way, a way that is the territory of the right brain. We don’t know that much about it simply because we spend so little time working effectively with the right brain to even know its capacities. I will say, though that we DO use it, we just are not used to a more balanced approach. We are kind of holding the dam back in a sense, the little dutch boys of our world. What would happen if we just let that flow move on through? Maybe be brave and bold and not be concerned if people around us started saying “Oh, she is on weed….”
During my awakening process, I reached a place where I was surrendering more and more my old ways of being and thinking. As I let ego go more and more, I found that it curiously sparked my creativity in a pretty big way. I had ideas just springing out all over the place. Books, new designs for work. All of it was almost too much to keep up with. I have a backlog of work right now all based on that activity. I have shifted awareness somewhat simply because it begins to get a little ridiculous for me to have so many ideas and not enough years to make them in. But as I let go of the old way, I relaxed into a very sensual mode where I felt more expansive. I was not as hemmed in mentally. I was more easy, more fluid. I saw that ideas were just pouring in. The tap in my consciousness where ideas came from went from sudden bursts to a steady flow. It became a flow of ENERGY in my body and at any time I could convert it into ideas. All I had to do was turn my attention in that direction and there they would be. I was, in truth, in a state of near-constant inspiration. The right brain allows, the left brain focuses. So let yourself ALLOW this state to be in your awareness and body!
One way to know that you are getting there is you feel a sense of drift. You do not focus on doing this, you ALLOW yourself, and this is important in order to KEEP this going. Where the rational left brain focuses, the right allows. It does not grasp. Left brain does that. The right brain steps back and just sees. It is not making judgements, it is taking it all in. This is important to being able to be a great innovator because in this state you let all of your hidden biases go at least for the time being. These biases govern how you think and behave whether you know it or not. As a result, things that you could not anticipate come to you effortlessly. In fact, they can seem accidental because it was so effortless. This should help you to anticipate the great power hidden in this part of you. Meditation can often lead you there, but one of the most effective means is learning how to either quiet the monkey mind that likes to chatter, or to do what some do which is to not mind that the mind is chattering and to develop a kind of middle focus where you hear the chatter but it no longer bothers you. It is like a train going down a track. You tend to tune it out after a while, or you might wind up just listening to the patterns without paying attention to what is being said. But you tune that out. What you are tuning in is the holy grail of all enlightened states, and I will tell you right here and right now that it is assisted by waking up and using the right brain. ONce you get that part in on the game, you can bring the two hemispheres into balanced action. And all of this enlightenment talk is itself something that is firmly planted in physiology. It is NOT a spiritual energetic off in the ether thing only. The body HAS to register it in order to recognize it.
The double benefit from bringing this on is an acceleration of a force that has the most unusual tendency of bringing things to you at the perfect time. This story is symbolized, whether it happened or not, by Buddha awakening and realizing that he was hungry. Just then someone came by who offered him a bowl of rice to eat. When you begin to utilize this part of the mind the blending of the two vibrations has an uncanny effect of bringing you just what you need in the moment. This is along the lines of dancing for rain, yes. And yes, it works. The more you ALLOW the better it works. This means that you learn to become expert at making a clear wish that has no hurdles within you in feeling or belief that would keep it from happening, and you let it go and not dwell on it. This is important for some reason I have not fully understood, but it feels a lot like writing down your order on a piece of paper and then sending it to the kitchen where the staff work on it until it is done. IN this case, it is the universe working on it. This is the part that seems like magic, and I suppose if you want to use that term, then fine. Perhaps, using that same logic, this has been why we even HAVE the term magic to begin with, which is that we have observed over a long time period that some people just seem to have a knack for getting what they need or want. Some people have the uncanny knack of getting it in the most miraculous of ways. So we call it magic because we do not understand it. But I am not describing something that a magician like Randi might employ, but rather something else that we are taught does not exist even though we see its presence in our lives or in our friends’ lives from time to time…
The idea that you can manifest things in your life may seem like magical thinking until you actually try it. I have found that all the things I needed or wished for I have gotten. I also ask for big things, things that I feel will help me in the major movements of my life. This wishing made it possible for me to go to both undergraduate and graduate school without owing a penny in loans. I simply asked for a way where I would be able to pay for it, to afford something that given my meager means I could somehow swing. I had no idea what that would look like, but in one case it meant being admitted to a school where my tuition was waived the entire time I was there while also being paid a modest amount of money each month. In another case, I had another tuition waiver and also worked my way through school as part of this waiver. As an artist, I did not want to have to pay a mortgage each month, so I asked for a way to have a home without the mortgage payment. I was able to pay for a home in total, no mortgage. These are just a few of the things that I wished for and found coming to my door. In some cases, these were things that I had little or no say in, they just happened. It seems that the less control I have over them, the better able they are to happen in the right way.
In your mind, you must allow the right brain to flow. This is not doing, but allowing. It is not trying to cause the water to break into a wave in your awareness but in standing back sufficiently to let the flow develop and grow. This wave of energy will build as long as you keep your awareness out of the rational left brain. The energy of the left breaks all wave phenomenon. Period. The way you observe all of this will need to change, too. This was the “focus” I learned when awakening came and I have since observed that it is a focus that monks and those who reach higher states use. It means turning off the talking mind. It also means allowing yourself to naturally float into a kind of nowhere place that can take you into sleep if you are not careful. It also involves turning off your need to identify phenomenon while observing it. THIS is very hard to do and seems to be something that takes a while to develop. However, it can be done. It is the very same type of focus that brings on dream imagery as you slowly drift into sleep. Have you ever laid down to sleep and found yourself drifting and beginning to dream and something inside of you asks “Hey, where am I?” And bam! You are awake. The dream stops. The wave of phenomenon ceases. For anyone who has had out of body experiences, similar things have happened. You go into an “altered” state (right brain) and find yourself floating, perhaps standing by a window. You stop and ask yourself how you got over to the window and as quick as can be, you are back in your body. THIS is the same type of drift I am talking about. It is nothing and something all at once. You are kind of dropping into this place within you that is like a vast sea of possibility and as you allow your awareness to let the waves develop, they do, until you bring in the rational mind and ego consciousness, which just breaks everything down into discrete particles and the wave ceases.
You do the same thing with creating events in your life. The nature of all energy is that it attracts more oft itself. If you do not have any impediments in feeling within you, the energy of the wish is free to move out and attract itself in the physical. I see it as a circular motion where the wish is conceived, it moves through your being like a ripple and then begins to affect the world around you.
“But hang on there, chief. You say that I can manifest things in my life. I wished to win the lottery, and that was twenty years ago and I am still playing the lottery without a single win!”
What I would tell you is that you have to be very clear about your feelings. Yes, you may be VERY excited at the prospect of winning hundreds of millions of dollars. Who wouldn’t, right? But very likely, lurking in there, is some competing belief or feeling that disrupts the flow of this energy. Otherwise, you would have had some kind of win within a reasonable amount of time. This does not mean everyone wins the lottery, but it does not bar that possibility either. We just believe it is not possible for everyone to win all at once. So that does not and will not happen. So how do you feel about money? Do you feel like it is something of a curse? How do you feel about other people who DO have money? Do you feel like its unfair that some have it and some do not? Or how about having money leading to greed or lack of caring? Do you wish you had more money but somehow feel like you are not deserving of it? You have to be able to be very honest with yourself when it comes to this part, and if there is anything standing in the way, then it will certainly affect the power of your wish. Even a sliver of a doubt can have a countervailing effect. You want this to be a wish that has nothing standing in its way. Knowing that this is all a matter of clearing up your own insides can lead you to doing the interior work necessary for making manifesting more possible in your life.
During awakening, I had the stirring of a desire to teach more. My studio was to yet at a point where I felt comfortable having the public coming in even though the space was certainly adequate for having large groups in. I had the thought how nice it would be to be able to teach at the college level. I even looked at job offerings with the thought that maybe for a while I might even move somewhere where I could teach. It was about a month after this that I was called by a local community college and asked if I would be willing to teach their sculpture class. I was called at 1:15 in the afternoon and the deal was I had to be there at three to start the first class! No interview, no paperwork. I got that all done in the weeks that followed. I was also told by someone in the community that a position at another school would be opening up for a sculpture professor. I interviewed for it and got the job. I wasn’t really ready to be full-time, but rather preferred to be able to dip my toes into it while still being able to run my studio business. The job was itself part-time. Perfect. This has worked out very well.
So there you go. But it also gets more interesting as you get into the semesters I have been teaching….
When I began, I still had some issues I had to work through that were still very much pressing down on me, which namely had to do with blocks related to authority and personal power. I was a bit of a mess during those days. I was simply not in my own power. The students I had also tended to reflect this, too. I had students who were dishonest and who sought to shift blame for their own shortcomings onto me. I had to look at this issue squarely and learned it had to do with how I was to owning my own personal power. When I was able to do this more and more, I found that the quality of my students changed dramatically. Partly this was due to my behavior having changed. There was no sense that I was a push-over anymore but held everyone accountable which was a direct result of my holding myself more accountable. I wasn’t a hard ass, no, I simply had a better mix of qualities that helped me to keep my classes on a more even keel. The group dynamic changed and students enjoyed the classes more less based on what I was offering and more on the chemistry present amongst the students themselves. This has now led to our doing a group project in glass that will involve my students creating an installation of glass sculptures in a garden space on campus. As I have been able to stand up for what is correct instead of being a push-over as I was due to fear issues, I have found a much better way to be. This does not mean that I have to act aggressively, but to be firm and follow what is true. Those who cannot or will not fall into that type of alignment tend to weed themselves out of my life pretty quickly through their own actions or behaviors. I no longer see this as a loss but a gain. But as long as I allow bad behavior to continue, I am giving it a pass. All of this has changed how things work for me both on an overt day-to-day way as well as on a more subtle level. This has had huge ripple effects, far larger than I could have even imagined, but in the end I know that while I may not see how any given event will work out, it always works out for the very best. I am simply no longer caught in the old way of doing things. And life can get simpler. I am still working on this, there are more layers to peel back and resolve, but it is the kind of thing that I can live with! The more you own your life, the more you own your feelings, the more you work on yourself, the more the world will mirror these same qualities. And this can happen on a dime. It is broad, too. It can affect not just one corner, but all corners of your life.
So what do you say? Want to give this principle a run for its money? I will begin by saying that you have actually been using this principle all along except that you have had some competing material standing in the way. This material is both emotional, belief, and karmically based. It is YOU, but it is the part of you that is not fully resolved. When you resolve it in feeling, you literally clear a path for the energy to run unimpeded. And this is very much what happens with a kundalini awakening within your body. You work with it to clear these blocks. Most of them may resolve without your even knowing what they were or where they emerged from, you don’t NEED to know. You can just let them go in favor of a better way of feeling. The degree to which you are not invested in the old way is the degree to which you can let it go. The less mental you are in your approach, the faster it can be. The more you tell yourself there is “work” to do is the degree to which you delay the work being done….which isn’t work at all. It is a simple realization of what you are beyond what some call “illusion” and what I call “creation.” Because all of this is what we have created. You can call it false beliefs, but I find that too off the mark. They are real, but they do not serve you. they only serve a broken sense of being that you have taken on in your belief system.
Now is the time to start changing it, and the way is knowing that you can!