My awakening came in two distinct stages beginning in mid-August of 2006 and culminated in a rising event the following January of 200. It began by releasing a long-standing issue I had that had been with me since age 18 involving an experience I had that I could not fully understand. When I was able to let that go, everything changed, or began to change. This would be an experience that showed me how there is an important step or stage in waking up that involves the willingness to remove inner barriers that serve to divide the self and which can keep a broader sense of unity of self from emerging.
Often when you read accounts of people waking up you find that all of a sudden they see the world differently. What happens is something inside of them stops putting up this fight to keep control on everything. The first lesson it seems in meditation is to stop trying to make something happen because you are keeping what is most natural from happening!
The result of having resolved what, for me, was like a burning ember in my pocket resulted in the first step into awakening. What it was isn’t that important because we all probably feel like we are here for some life lesson of one kind or another, some inner purpose that often eludes us. What eluded me was also serving to draw me closer to enlightenment or awakening. Once I began to question and ask if this was all there is, doors began to open, slowly at first, then they increased in number and speed. The result was that I was able to let go of a long standing feeling of guilt and frustration that had been with me for years. Within a few days of this release, I experienced my first encounter with what I would later learn is called nonduality.
This state is one where you often suddenly feel how everything is connected, that nothing is truly separate. Less a thought, it is a feeling, a direct visceral feeling that is both in you and now alive all around you. It felt, for me, like a veil had been pulled away from my conscious awareness and I was seeing and experiencing how things really are. We aren’t really separate, we just appear to be because our consciousness is focused in a body. Consciousness, though, is far less restricted, and waking up showed me that. It was not complicated, it was beautiful and it moved me to tears. That one event became a driver for change that happened more or less automatically. You could say what happened was coincidental, accidental even, but looking back I cannot help but see that there was something driving me forward and I was not the one who was in the drivers seat. I was along for the ride, though, and I think that this is probably the best way to look at this. Trust the universe, otherwise you will not enjoy the ride because you will fall for the fear that is in you.
I was soon given a meditation technique by a friend, which led me to experience alternate states of consciousness very quickly. After a week of daily meditation using this method, I was one night suddenly suffused in a brilliant white light. At first, I thought someone had turned on the lights in the dark room, but there was no one there. After this, more events like this began to take place with no rhyme or reason, with no known pattern or purpose. I saw things, I heard things. They would come and go. Events were taking place as if on some other cue from some intelligence other than my own. I entered into a five month period of “high strangeness” which, when I learned more, were all phenomenon that can be tied to awakening. I remained in the dark about what this was called for about a year.
I considered the possibility that there was something wrong with me, and once full awakening came, I worried that perhaps that I might have a brain tumor because the phenomenon was just that new, different, and even bizarre at times. However, for whatever reason, while I had an edge of concern I didn’t feel particularly fearful, and this made me curious about what this was all about. I took notes in case this turned out that something was wrong with me physiologically and I was suddenly struck unconscious. What I learned was that this was natural. Most of what happened to me in those early days are difficult to believe. It took me a year before I spoke to anyone in my family about it.
During the latter stage of this five month process, I began to feel a sensation of energy flowing all over the surface of my body, which was not unlike the sensation of someone brushing me all over with a feather duster. My skin would respond with goosebumps. This was a daily experience for well over a month, and it followed no pattern and was not controlled by my own will. I had the distinct impression that this energy was conditioning my body for something. What it was, I had no clue. One day, while getting ready to leave from work, I stood at the door of my studio and felt the energy that was whipping all over my skin suddenly rush toward the center of my body. It went to a point very close to my belly button. It felt like this energy was diving into me. Up until this time the energy I felt on my skin was only there, doing what it was doing. Now suddenly, that energy was gone. The next day I would feel something rising up in a serpentine manner up my spine, piercing centers in my body as it went upwards. This process was very quick and I had the presence of mind to just watch this like a bystander. After this process completed and the energy had gone all the way up to my crown (the energy did this twice, one right after the other), I felt very different. How I felt is hard to explain, but it was like a light had gone off inside my head and I felt an expansive sense of energy that filled me. This energy was very powerful, intense, and it felt like it was fueling all centers of my body with something more than it had had previously. Anything that I thought or felt was now greatly amplified. There was no abatement of this new state and it took some time to get used to it. My old self often seemed to tire of the intensity, as if you are in a room where the music has been turned up very loud. There was no turning the music down I soon learned, so I figured that I just needed to learn how to cope with this new normal. I guess what I did was I looked at this like one giant science experiment where I would set aside whatever fear I might have and focus on what was happening to me at the time. The other side to this was I felt very much on my own. I had no context within which to place this, no hook to hang my hat on. I can say that when you approach it in this way you pay attention and you can learn a lot about what seems to you at the time to be a mystery. But before this took place there were a few notable things that bear mentioning…
Not long before full awakening, while sitting in meditation, I heard a voice say that I should close my eyes and focus on a point straight ahead and slightly upward (along the brow region in front of my eyes). When I did this I saw a glow of light rise from below me, changing color as it rose. First green, then turquoise, then blue. I could see that this light was coming from a single eye rising up through the center of my vision. When it moved into the position where I had been told to hold my gaze, it stopped and looked back at me. I had the distinct impression that I was staring into eternity as it was staring back at me. It then continued its rise upward, changing color to violet before it disappeared from view. The earth did not shake, I didn’t feel anything except surprise. Something had indeed happened, but what?
The following evening I began to feel a pressure building at my third eye and it felt as though someone was gripping my temples with their hand, like a vice. I laid down and relaxed into the experience. I trusted that whatever was happening, it had a purpose. This pressure grew until I felt distinct bands of pressure move across my forehead. It extended all the way across the side of my head before I fell asleep. The following night this happened again, with a small dot of pressure where the third eye is thought to be, but this pressure quickly spread beyond that bindi-sized dot and spread out in bands as it had the night before. It spread further the second night, though, until the pressure extended all the way to the back of my head. I had the sensation that my head was being cracked open like a walnut. Once this took place, it seemed that the process was complete. I would learn a year later that this was a full activation of the third eye. It is also credited as one of the way in which kundalini often can be awakened. What I know now is that it wasn’t just the third eye meditation, but the meditation that I had been practicing that led me to the altered state that represented a shift in consciousness and resulted in the encounter with the brilliant white light months before. These things, along with my initial release of the long-standing issue from my teen years, all contributed to my reaching this point.
In the wake of the opening of my third eye, I began to be tutored by a presence which would show me images in a portal that now existed at the center of my head where I was told to look initially. I was shown images and I understood that I was supposed to focus on them until I became one with the image. There was never a word spoken, and this process went on and on night after night with about five of the same images shown from different locations, some of which, most of which, I was not familiar with. When I focused on the images, I felt that I was traveling without moving, almost like I was using a teleportation device. In this case, it was my subtle body that would travel, not my physical body. This process was not easy to do since it required a silence and stillness of the mind, with no analysis possible without breaking the wave of the phenomenon. I intuitively understood that I was using a part of my consciousness that was no tied to the logical linear side of my mind (brain) and through these exercises, I was being taught how to use this part of myself. I repeated this until I began to cultivate a “no-doing” state where I was still and with no thought, and yet there was all of this activity all around me. I was shifting from an analytical rational state to a nonlinear one which had no one point of focus. This shift, I learned, was into cosmic consciousness, and has a correlation with the two hemispheres of the brain. The left brain focuses, the right does not, it sees a much larger view. My awareness moved from the literal, concrete, to the numinous. As I sat there, completely stilling thought, I would see that I would appear to be in different places while my body remained physically in the same space. While I was not told the purpose of this, I was curious enough and trusting enough to follow along to see where it led. After spending the better part of my life interested in the nature of consciousness, I was now faced with some very interesting things that were taking place so I payed attention and learned as much as I could from the process.
By January of 2007, kundalini rose in an event that took about thirty seconds, a serpentine movement of energy that pulsed through my muscles, piercing points along the way until I reached the top of my head. After this, I felt my cognition change. How I felt changed. I felt as if I had entered into a new world. The old world was gone. I looked up at the night sky and had the distinct impression that an invisible line swept across the sky marking one life from another, one world from another.
I found that the abilities that I had had before this took place were stronger, or more amplified. I found that I could think about someone that I knew or had a connection to and I would begin seeing their surroundings. The first time this happened it was with someone I knew online and really knew very little about in real life. I learned that this is called remote viewing and I was able to test my abilities early on in the process. I found that I had a high degree of accuracy ranging between 85-95% accuracy during the first few months when I was testing my abilities. I was keen to test because otherwise all of this could just be called imagination. I would go on to experiment with how to see into the subatomic and to learn how to gain greater control over how open I was to the energy around me. I learned that consciousness can be used to observe things that might not be accessible to us physically. For me, this was beyond fascinating. It was like having a new toy, a powerful toy that I used with care.
With my inner senses going off the chart at this point, I often felt subjected to what was around me until I found a way to tune it out. I would walk down the street and I would feel each person in turn as if it was me. This was not always fun, and from time to time I realized just how much people are carrying around with them, the sadness, the angst, and the loneliness (but also the joy and awe as well).
I found that it was through the ecstatic state that I healed stored emotion from the past and through this ecstacy, my consciousness could “expand” or “accelerate” beyond anything I thought possible. It was in this place that I sensed how everything was connected. I also saw that sexual energy, more than any other energy in consciousness, was directly responsible for helping us to heal. The problem that I saw was that most people only touch that energy during orgasm, which is a short event that quickly fades. For me, orgasmic bliss filled my being to a point where I wondered if I could keep my wits about me, only to find that my consciousness would start shedding all sorts of stored emotions. How was it that one of the most important energies in consciousness for healing was treated like it was somehow dirty or bad? How had we as a race gotten to this place? Sure, humans are incredibly interested in the sexual, we are designed for it, but along with all that interest is a lot of hidden shame and tons of baggage that most people have gotten used to simply ignoring until it seems that it no longer exists (except that it is still there, lurking deep now in the subconscious which is the problem!).
I did all of this without a guru or teacher. I used a simple meditation method and once I broke through the mist enough, events began to happen that took me the rest of the way, as if guided. I was free to experience it without a belief system or any built-in bias because I had no idea at first what was happening to me at the time. I was an observer who was dancing along the edge of the known and while I was a bit concerned that something might have gone awry at first, I soon learned to trust the process. If you can do that, I think you are much better off. Many Hindu teachers prescribe “bowing” before the higher self, which is orchestrating this. I also would try to speak to the energy to see if I could learn anything from it. I was surprised to find that it would indeed “speak” to me in visionary experiences, helping me to understand what its purpose here was and what my relationship to it would be. The idea that we need a teacher is not entirely true if you can open your mind and consider that you can get the answers. Imagination is a portal into another world. We tend to think of it as a kind of fabrication device, but that is only in normal consciousness. In this new state, it acts like a portal through which images and information come and go. You open your mind and “it” writes upon the screen of your imagination.
I think people think once you awaken, that’s it, you have arrived. What I have found is that yes you do cross over a very important “barrier” but the arrival on the other side is itself just the beginning. Often most people have a lot of baggage that they need to drop before they can find peace with awakening. I have known people, many years later, who still have not touched some fairly important issues in themselves that serves to keep them from feeling peace after awakening. I was one of those people. I am not perfect. I am just another you. We are all in this together, and when given the choice, love seems better than indifference. We are all on the same ball hurdling through space. We each have something to learn but also something to contribute, to teach the world. This, I think, is just one small step to bring us all who are ready for it to a better understanding of who we are and how best to be in this world.
What do you have to teach me do you think?
Waking The Infinite 
Namaste’ Parker, thanks for sharing your awakening journey on this blog. I just came across it today and hope you do not make it private and can leave it public so that people needing this information can find it. I just sent a friend a link to your article on anxiety / dopamine and adrenals, which I feel will be helpful for them. No one person goes through every one thing, but we have many of the same happenings… I had full-blown kundalini awakening in January of 2006. I published my kundalini awakening as testimonial in a book which I put in common licensing (free) on this website. I just give the link in case you want to check it out or give ideas on writing our own book. http://ourlightbody.com Feel free to delete or not publish these links. I have subscribed to your blog. I’m not currently writing much but also have blog at http://phoenixtools.org and just opened a kundalini discussion group in Facebook. Would be wonderful to stay connected and have you in the discussion group if interested. Lastly, I do promote books I really like, which aren’t so many. So there is possibility after you write your book, send me a copy and I can read and if I like it, I can help with getting the word out there that it is available as I have many kundalini contacts. Love & Blessings, Betsy
Betsy,
You are very welcome to include links. Thank-you for stopping by. I am glad that there is some information here that you feel might help someone.
The site will be accessible to those who are most interested. I am making it private partly to weed out a stalking situation, sadly enough. Seems better to just keep my work out of some people’s eyes for a while.
Thanks for stopping by and keep in touch! I don’t get out much, but I will give your FB a look-see! Best of luck and thank you for your support.
~Parker
Parker, thanks for making contact. I’ve subscribed to your blog and will stay in touch. Betsy
Everyone who has shown interest will be contacted and given the opportunity to be a part of the new site when it is taken private.
My awakening is directly linked to my twin as well. It’s been mind blowing and I am still trying to make sense of it. Now K is full blown and it has only been 7 months since the connection with my twin was made. Totally life changing in every way. Thank you for sharing the story of your awakening.
You are very welcome, and thank you for your feedback.
Extremely interesting. Thanks for sharing, Parker. I can relate to so much of what you have described. I can attest to the fact that the awakening of the kundalini can happen without the help of a guru, without yoga and without any knowledge of Sanskrit. For me it was like meeting a celestial being, my twin flame, who I soon realized was the other half of me, my higher self from another dimension. It happened in 2012 while I was alone, depressed and NOT meditating. I described it briefly in my blogposts entitled “The Future Me” and “The New You”.
I started my blog only a month ago and that’s all I write about since everything else in this world became so insignificant after I experienced this.
I saved a link to your blog as I intend to read more. You express yourself in a language I understand. I really appreciate that because it’s not easy to find. You have my admiration and virtual affection. I don’t usually comment other people’s blogposts but for some reason I can’t stop myself from commenting yours. I feel connected and this is rare.
I think that it’s likely that you resonate with it because what I experienced was very much as you described above. I have written about how, when I asked this presence now residing in me, it explained that it was a future form of me looping back in order to boost my, and it’s own evolution. That was during the first few months of its being present, feeling like an obvious intelligence. It was then that I began wondering what wasn’t possible with this heavenly grace in my awareness. And you know, I look forward to stretching every inch of credulity I might have to experience these “new” realms in awareness. So yeah, I know just where you are coming from! Not everyone has this same focus, and I tend to think that this is just fine because we probably each need it for slightly different things. As for myself, I am really interested in forming groups of men who are up for revisioning the masculine in light of these very kinds of…..accelerations. Now you have me yammering on!
Groups of men who are up for revisioning the masculine in light of this, you say? I’m getting the impression that you and I have been visited by the same spirits (or aliens).
I’m now reading your first post “Awakening Begins” dated February 24, 2013. Expect more comments 🙂
I totally agree that it is a new day and all those belief systems (especially from the East) are only beliefs and watching the awakening in the Western part of the world we have a right to say: “I choose my way”. My path was (and still is) different, going slowly already 10 years with sudden jumps from time to time:)
Same!
I appreciate your real and original story moreso than the rehashed garble that is mostly out there. How has the awakening been going for you?
Hi Mathew, thank you for stopping by. Since you asked, things are going quite well. It keeps getting easier and easier the more material that is released from the dungeons of the subconscious. It is like being handed a new lease on life. Have you had this experience as well?
Interesting blog.. Recently I have been discovering many blogs about spiritual awakening and I am glad to see that more and more people are awakening to their true nature. I found your blog from the comment you made in Anand’ s Art of Dying blog.. I have yet to read your posts in detail but I see that you have a lot of interesting content.
Three years after my own awakening, I have been thinking about creating a bridge between science and spirituality.. But I think it will require collaboration of many people who are spiritually awakened. You can read my whole story in my blog: https://nellaishanmugam.wordpress.com/2017/05/10/the-journey-of-a-seeker-my-story/ . I have been also going through some scientific papers to find out how easy it is to come up with neural correlates of spiritual enlightenment.
Science seems to be an authority these days… I am waiting to see the day when spiritual enlightenment is a part of the syllabus of 10th grade Biology…This way, many people will realize the opportunity they have in ending their suffering and discovering a whole new way of living their lives.
A agree with your sentiments completely, Snanmugam! Keep me posted on what you learn. There is so much I could say, but I don’t want to bury you in a blizzard of words. Suffice it to say that I hope we can make strides in this area of inquiry.
Thank you for stopping in, commenting and introducing me to your blog and interests! Come back often, I enjoyed our little chat.
sure I will.. 🙂 thanks
Oh, and by the way; I see you followed my blog for the work that I do as an artist; I have one for my work in glass and another (WTI) which you are responding to which is the science and art of consciousness and awakening.
Thank you, thank you. This is just beautiful. My process, too, is unfolding, which is why I am here and why I began blogging – and as you said in your own way, people cannot comprehend what they are not equipped to comprehend. Knowing that is important to me because I ask myself if it is ego that wishes to inspire others – so I hesitate even on my own blog. People who know something or feel something wonderful naturally want to share it. And on another note, when your child matures and gets out from the wings of Mom, he/she will claim his/her own ability to evaluate you without others’ opinions coloring his/her perception, and he/she will appreciate you! It’s a good thing that some of us outgrow the drama, huh? Take care.
You are welcome and I am touched that you find it to be of some use (I think I complained a lot in that post, lol!). Truly, not for ego, but to inspire others to wonderful experiences, the deep seeded desire to want others to come along for this really quite amazing ride! Ego I think is always there, and it is such a marvelous teacher….because it never dies, never really goes away, and helps to keep us in check IF we can remain aware. I sometimes think that it doesn’t matter to me anymore, that people don’t really want to know, don’t really want to be challenged, so what I do is I think that I am simply speaking to myself in those moments when I write. I do it to get it out (being an artist by trade)and I don’t worry about the rest. A friend who was in the publishing world said “Parker, if your words can touch just one person, it will have all been worth it…” And it sounds corny, but Maya Angelou talks about how her grandparents took her and her sibling in when she was young, never knowing the impact they would have on generations of her progeny and kind. As a teacher, it often takes years…many years before I hear a student say something really glowing about something that I did. But I like those statements because they have been road-worn, tested, utilized, and have held together for them. Not for my own aggrandizement, but for their benefit, which is what makes me so happy…that what I passed along actually did result in something beneficial. But I say this to someone who is a published author and publisher….so hopefully you will suffer me this little stretch of yammer. 🙂
Yes, I love it! and hope you didn’t think I was accusing you of flexing ego muscles! I just worry about that in myself, I meant to imply, but your reply of minutes ago is comforting; thank you.
Oh no, I didn’t think that. I can flex ego very well on my own sometimes, but….not always, thank goodness.
I am curious about reason of “loosing job”. I noticed K was mainly focused on rewiring body especially brain bones teeths and other parts of the body then finally i felt lot of work in adrenal gland in summer time,causing pain and rise of fear. My Main problem is dealing with mundane issues. K has really big impact on perception and reactions, evwrything seems to be amplified and is hard to sort even essential things. It’s make me sad that 37 years old guy behave like scared baby. Lately i have quit job because circumstances has changed and at the same time we got offer from council to move to new house, i feel like my life is falling to the pieces. How do you see that kind of changes regarding K or you know some stories of people who are going through kundalini who found out where was the problem. I know that God is always round and i have seen a lot of “coincidences” but human part of me always whisper and make me doubt from time to time.
This is one of the most intense experiences. Not like you can just knuckle your seatbelt and get off the ride. There are some things that will help. May I ask if you are still having trouble with adrenaline?
Yep, i don’t feel pain in the back but adrenalin for sure is on high level,really hard to say if this is only because of life situation i have noticed that symptoms appear parallely and i can’t be sure if K cause it or illnes or life issue. In the mean time i feel heat inside and sinuses are letting me know they are there and need my attention.
You answered part of your question earlier by saying how K amplifies everything. If K is amplifying the feelings that lead to adrenaline, what emotions do adrenaline represent most often? Fear, right? So fear is being amplified. How do you manage to modulate or lower fear?
For me, I learned that I had fear and it was irrational. It would never in a hundred years ever make any rational sense. That was my first realization. Second, this all meant that the path out of my dreadful adrenaline experience was simply learning how to surrender and let it go. Until you are able to do this fully, deeply, and unconditionally, there are a few things I want to mention to you that you should consider.
I found I didn’t feel adrenaline at certain times. One was when I ate. I realized that this was a pleasurable activity that took my mind off the pounding fear that drove my adrenaline. Pay attention to those moments when you don’t feel the adrenaline. What were you doing? What were you feeling? Observe yourself and you will gradually build up a series of observations about when you don’t feel fear. These moments will most certainly be about feelings that are about trust, pleasure, joy, and other unifying emotions. Pay attention to those moments and try to reproduce them even if it’s for a few moments, an hour, or day. Keep observing your feeling state and identifying the feelings that result in lowered adrenaline.
I found foods helped some. Melons and curry…both Indian and Thai. I was told by my guide to eat cantaloupe. I learned later that melon of any kind helps calm kundalini. Cantaloupe was perfect at this stage.
I realized I had a lot to fear. I think this drove my powerful adrenaline. I was afraid of what my spouse would say or do to my children. I didn’t feel safe to just be me, to trust and unwind this pent up energy.
I exercised when it was bad and I couldn’t calm it down. I got relief riding my bicycle up and down hills. Sometimes I would ride for hours, anything to give me relief, anything to burn adrenaline.
Since adrenaline comes from the kidney system, supporting kidney health is important. One way to do this is to buy organic concentrate of natural cherry and put it in water to drink each day. It is known that cherry juice, real cherry, acts as a tonic for the kidneys. I ate eggs as a source of protein because I became sensitive to the chemistry in the meat (I could feel the fear of the animal through the chemistry locked into the meat for example).
The most important thing that helped me was in learning to trust Kundalini and to make myself available for healing. I would ask myself how to clear whatever was nagging at me…it was a silent level of awareness about my state of mind and heart that I most often had no immediate answers to, but I trusted in the intelligence of the energy to show me the way. It meant learning to feel deep, right into the subconscious…its possible to do, but it’s not easy. You have to be vulnerable. You have to trust everything is going to be okay, that this force will help you get through this.
Movement could help a lot along with the eastern tradition of Qi Gong. This helps release stored emotional energy. It helped me a lot. See if there is a group in your area. Search this blog by looking for the search box and type TRE. This is a very effective method for releasing stored emotion that can lead to a breakthrough in how you feel.TRE works because unlike other mammals, humans store emotion in the body. TRE releases that energy. It really works. It involves fatiguing the leg muscles so that shaking and trembling are induced. This shaking does the work. It’s being used for people suffering from PTSD.
Finally, if you are unable to shift out of adrenaline you might need to see a doctor for adrenal burn out. What s/he might do is try to restart your adrenal again. Let’s hope it doesn’t get that far, this is such a hard part of the experience for sure!
Your feeling of heat might be hot chi, and if so, this is a very good thing because of how healing it is. Just let it do it’s work. You will know it’s energetic because of how fast the energy can change on a moment by moment basis.
Have you ever explored breathing exercises along with meditation?
Kundalini did change my life, it never asked me to give up anything that fed me in a positive way….and yet ten years later, my life is very different. I learned to let K be my master, to be my guide in showing me the path to bliss.
I hope this helps. If it’s any consolation, it does get better! I will think about this and add anything that comes to me over the next few days. I’m sorry it’s hard right now, but you will move through it. It’s much to strong not to.
~Parker
Thank you for your advice. I will look closer at TRE system. You have mentioned about trust in K and higher force, and i can see that everything i do wherever i am i want to be in control, if i am not i feel uncomfortable and fear emerge rapidly. Even driving outside of my town ( and not far away) i have to check how the route looks like, how many junctions and roundabouts i will pass) i realize its ridiculous and there os no sense in it but as you mentioned we have to see it from different perspective to let the fear go away,and probably K put me in situation where control is not possible. On other hand i do my best to trust God but iam getting a shivers from time to time because of the stories (gopi krishna,ekhart tolle) who had to lose nearly everything before they freed them self . So i feel like between rock and hard place, anyway im glad there are people around like you who are willing to help and give advice. I will try to drink cherry tee on daily basis, i never heard it can be helpful with adrenalin problem.i knew about vitamin C and salt to strength kidneys.
If you resist it will take you apart. But it will not take anything that was not good for you. Learn to let it go…there is great relief in that. Gopi resisted the “feminine” energy in his consciousness and nearly lost it. He found relief by opening to that channel, to that side of our awareness/consciousness.
This thing is opening you so that you can move much more energy and information through you. Ultimately, this very poorly named event some call “ego death” (which I assure you is nothing of the sort) is an important event that leads to great relief from resisting the energy. The more you practice control the harder the road will be. Instead, open to the other side because this part has a broader focus and connects into vast intelligence that can and does direct people’s lives. The forward edge of this are these synchronicities. If you know about the Law of Attraction, you can learn how synchronicities are just Attraction on steroids. Most people are blinded by how special these events are and forget how they are in fact supercharging events so needed things come along.
I don’t advertise for help in my business. Instead, people come along as needed. It’s the most unusual thing. In fact, if I think about how I need help, someone will pop up out of the blue wondering if I would stake them on. The critical thing to realize is that I’m not advertising. Also it isn’t random. I don’t get inquiries when they aren’t needed.
I have gotten work this same way. I have been referred by someone I didn’t know while I was thinking I’d love to do that kind of work. The timing is the part that keeps these events out of the realm of mere coincidence.
Take for example how when I was thinking of turning my journal into a nook on kundalini, I had a voice that told me to go to the nearest body of water. Huh? So I did. I looked around and wondered what the point was. I soon wound up staring face to face with a plaque that essentially stated the thesis of my book which I had been trying to condense down into a singular thought. This came in the form of a quote by philosopher Tielhard DeChardin. Never having read a word of his work before, I would see his work at the next two places I would go that day. It served, this quote, to crystallize what it was this energy is all about and how we are to work with it productively so that we can realize how we are much more than we thought we were.
All of the research on this book was done with me thinking about how I needed some examples of techniques for people to assist in their awakenings and then me stumbling upon it without looking for it or having people just show up telling me about a technique (me never having said anything about gathering research). This goes on and on, and I am convinced it happens as much as it does because I keep myself open to the impossibility of it happening.
I think it’s important to have support during awakening. It is the hardest time ever. But if you lose a job or have trouble getting through the day, it could be a blessing in disguise. When my wife wanted a divorce, for as hard as that was, it made life so much more tolerable for me. I had no one to hold it together for, so my process accelerated significantly. I felt like I stepped out of a fog. It was a relief. My wife made fun of my awakening, did not understand it and said I was just being lazy. But a year before she described me as the hardest working person she knew. The difference was awakening. I so needed support and only found it in others of our kind. 🙂
Let it change you. In the end, you really won’t be altered, but some things will change. This energy has always brought me the best when I let it do it’s work. Everything else in terms of difficulty is just us resisting the change.
You just remind me my first Burst of K. I was resisting mentally a lot. I couldn’t cope with death of my mother. Tension had been rising day by day , i couldnt faced the problem and everyday when i was waking up i was like boiling mental soup in the pot ( sry for weird expression but im not english by orgin) then in the next few months i had another problem to sort leading me to open crown chakra, funny thing is i talked to God in my mind to experience oneness few weeks before and it happened. It was most difficult time for me and nearly led me to madness. Luckly ( not coincidence i reckon ) i was interested in OOBE and different states of mind in the past, it helped me a lot in going through 3 month fully opened crown chakra. After that time i lost some friends who didn’t match “new” point of perception. You just gave me hints to look closer on origin of fear and i can see it’s mainly emotional. Emotions trigger fear then fear force me to react even ridiculous way. I am curious about relation between third eye and heart because in the first place crown chakra was opened then few years later i had to deal with opening of rest of chakras except third eye so i can only gues what is happening when third eye chakra is opening and how it change perception. Glad there is no coincidence in life and we meet relevant people when its needed :).What do you think about sedona method is it worth to try?
Just be careful about trying to understand emotion. The rational mind can only do so much. Some emotions are completely irrational, often based in one singular moment of trauma that then got repressed and stored, only to be triggered or reactivated endlessly through time whenever an event or person reminds you of the traumatic event. This continues until you forgive it, let it go and feel it bubble up and out of your energetic body, never to be seen again. This is what kundalini does if you let it. No more trouble. But you need to learn that you can trust it. It isn’t here to hurt you, but if you resist it, it’s hard. You really must go with the flow. I understand the fear; kundalini is a force infinitely bigger than you. It’s scary in that way. It’s a 300 kilo gorilla….but it’s here to help, not hurt. Learning to adopt a sense of trust makes this so much easier.
After a while you get to a place where all of this is on autopilot and you can more easily go about your life. You probably have to shed a lot of stored emotion first, so having a safe place and someone who is willing to support you during this period of transformation is nurturing and helpful. If not, the universe will help find a way. It did for me. I lived simply, extremely simply and I had no real support. And to be honest, when I could not afford electricity or water and had those cut off, I was able to just let kundalini do it’s work, which it did. It was the best time for me. I hauled water and I used a camp stove. This was for about a 9 month period until I felt ready again to enter the world of work. When I did tjis, I suddenly received offers (2) out of the blue for just what I had always wanted to do…and I got both jobs.
By examining what you believe you are worthy of, you can clear the way for this to happen. If you want something but secretly do not feel worthy, it might happen, but it will likely be troubled, full of problems. The more you clear yourself of those beliefs, the better instrument of creation of your life you are. I’m convinced some of the witches that were burned in Europa were people who had a knack for making things manifest. Most were because they were different, too attractive, or who had deep wisdom…or simply were an enemy…but “magic” is the miraculous and we are living it. My opinion.
Bend to it, let it in. Don’t fear your receptive side. Don’t be hard headed. You will need the part of you that knows how to yield to live happily with this energy.
You might note that those who awaken who are men tend to soften…they discover their more feminine side. Buddha was from this ruling warrior class. He was angular but became soft.
Bruce Lee, the most masculine guy ever learned to harness his feminine side. He would say, “be like water.” Gopi found his salvation by opening to the Ida current. Nearly all who struggle with kundalini do so by resisting and holding on to their old notions of what it means to be human, male, or female. Don’t worry, you are going to find out who you really are and there’s nothing at all to fear with that.
I don’t use methods. I do pay attention to what I relate to in all of these disciplines, though. So I don’t know the “Sedona Method” maybe it might be worth looking into, maybe there is something there worth trying?
I look askance at most methods because I know the error that is in them. Buddha awakened while sitting in the lotus posture. He had been at chasing enlightenment for six or seven years I think when it hit him. So after that, everyone copied him thinking the lotus posture was THE WAY. But no. If lotus was so powerful, everyone would be waking up, no? I was sitting in a car, bad posture, not breathing right and not chanting a mantra without a guru. Sorry, but if you have even one person waking up like this, it casts this notion into doubt about the right ways to do this. It all seems silly to me now.
But you hunger to find what is already in you, this grand land gifted to you and now it’s like the hand of god is beckoning you to step onto it’s vibrant soil. The war is over. Now tell yourself this ten thousand times and keep aiming for those lush places within you. No more dwelling in the dessert. But try things, it could be your intuition is telling you something important!
I hope this helps. I feel for you. It gets easier. Much is about letting go, but you still get to be you and you get to keep what’s good for you. I promise.
Thank you for your advice, simple but powerful. You are not sugar coating about K like many people around promising 24/7 pleasure. For sure i am going to work with trust, i feel like i have nothing to loose because already my life is quite unstable so maybe it’s time to face this lesson (of trust )
I have last question for now. Maybe it’s subjective but i noticed that people around me within last few years experience physical or mental symptoms of kundalini. They can’t relate them to K because they don’t even know what it is but for me it’s clear that sth is happening to them. It doesn’t apply to all People but if there is someone a bit opened to question life for sure will be “touched” by K. How you see it from your perspective and experience.
I and others have observed what appears to be the transmission of K on a number of occasions, so this phenomenon seems to be something that does happen. Is it being transmitted or are people simply falling into entrainment….just naturally vibrating at our pitch? It could be one, the other, or a bit of both.
Years ago, long before kundalini began to move, I noticed that people would begin seeing auras around me. I noticed that each time I was feeling or holding this very specific vibration, a feeling, in me. I saw auras at this time. I had this gift. It was much too many times for it to have been coincidental.
After this, I read about how in India a guru can confer his or her grace on their followers….they gain the gifts the guru does. I think that we do this all the time without knowing it.
I once knew someone who was K active and showed signs of not experiencing bliss. She was very much in a state of chaotic emotion and it showed. I could not be around her because she acted psychotic, no responsibility for her feelings or actions. Instead of being with her to help, I just spoke to her spirit and said things like, “You should start thinking about bliss, it would help you so much, it would be such a blessing.” A few days later she began texting me asking about bliss. It was really kind of odd. I thought she would just go her own way, but began asking me things about it. I had never spoken directly about this subject, not once. So I smiled, answered her question, and went on speaking to her spirit.
All on her own, with no prompting from me, she kept asking more and more questions over vthe course of about a week or two. I had been praying to her soul saying how the grace of bliss would help her so much.
Finally she asked me if I had experienced bliss. I said that I did, that it was nearly constant now. She asked how I did that and I said through dedication to clearing these blocked energies. She seemed surprised to know this.
I said that she should just center and focus her mind and as I texted her, I said to clear her mind and breathe with me. Within five minutes, maybe not even that, she acted surprised saying she could now feel it. She could reach it from then on. I think it helped make a difference, maybe not, I don’t know.
This transmission is a real thing, but how exactly it works, I can’t say for 100% certain. It could be we all exist as physical beings in a nonphysical reality of spiritual energy that takes up no space and thus we can assist others like this by subtle influence or inspiring them to these states. What I do know is that I never set out to do this. I might pray to someone but I never presume to know what is right for them. Their soul decides. That is how I prefer to keep it. As a side note I think it can cause strain on people who respond to this energy. I also prefer to not be around lots of people for this very reason. People just act weird and try to behave as though I am somehow the problem. Until people have matured and thrown off enough of their insanity, they tend to remain irresponsible and emotionally dangerous creatures. 🙂
Very true, we shouldn’t “tamper” with somebodys soul on purpose, i think it would be against universal law. Thank you for your time and attention. I will read whole conversation one more time to make sure i didn’t missed important things. I will contact you again in the next few days maybe weeks or months to let you know what happened or what changed. I am less scared and more curious about what is going to happened so lets see 🙂
Small update.
I didn’t have to wait long till sth start to happened. First i had to deal with my brother ( he has really stressful period and berly can cope it) i had to spend night at his home to make sure everything is fine. Next day i started to suffer with massive pain of adrenal gland and stomach simultaneously. Pain appear firts in spine then it radiate toward kidneys(heat,cold, and feeling of clamp around lower ribs) then it stops and appear below on level of stomach.(nausea,guts movement,heat) There is no chance to do anything except laying bed. Its getting better but still hurt.
As you adviced i am drinkig cherry tea, additionally watter melon juice and electroties. Lemon balm to calm nerval system.
I found as for the fear driving my adrenaline, I realized there was nothing I could do about this deep fear inside, so I began letting it go. I can over think things, so I offered it up to my higher self/power. I also did the things that have me relief. When I did that, I studied it inside and tried to extend the feeling for a few minutes more. Being in nature helped. I exercised intensively to burn the adrenaline. I would ride my bike fast, up hills. It helped. I realized most fear is irrational, not something we can work through, just let go. People who are rational will have more trouble with this over those who are more comfortable with some things being a mystery cantaloupe and curry was a help.
There is also TRE exercises. I have friends who swear by it.
I speak to the energy and ask it what I need to do. I wait. Usually I get an answer….a voice, someone telling me something, synchronistic events, or in dream state. If I can let my mind go blank and meditate on an answer, I can sometimes feel my way to an answer….which usually means letting go. I know that’s not easy when you feel like you are in a vice.
Difficulty with others can be turned around; it is showing you what you need to change in you so you aren’t effected the same way as in the past. Family is hardest because there is so much history, but the difficulty you feel is what needs changing in you. Trying to change the world or people only works when they are ready…so by changing your reaction, you find peace. So maybe it’s how a sibling exerts authority…let them have their authority. They are not your inner authority. Or maybe a sibling is judgmental. Let them have their judgment, this judgment isn’t you. Or maybe you seek approval somehow….whatever it is, by letting it be about them, not you, you can find relief. By breathing deep and slow, you can begin to ground in the body and understand your reactions more intuitively. Feeling instead of rational. Imagine sending breath into the areas that feel tight.
I know it does not feel this way, but kundalini is a blessing, and right now you are burning away the harder parts. Just show up, learn to surrender, to be more like the energy, and as you do, it gets easier. Real work, real results. Good luck!
Hi again, after few weeks i can say that phisical issues are not muche easier than psychological. As we talked about adrenal gland its looks like they triggered another surge of K but this time affecting nerval system.Firstly i had rough night spending night at my brother home. I woke up after two hours with massive heat in my spine, everything seemd to be fine but later on i started to have an issue with solar plexus (vomiting,stomach ache) and higher at height of lower ribs ( pressure causing pain radiating toward heart) its looks like K is hiting against Vishnu knot) pain in the spine was unbearable it feels like the bits of glass were moving in my nerves starting in spine then spreading to front. Hopefully it will go through or slow down. I am nit good in interpreting dreams but maybe you can help me… Couple of weeks agi i had dream ( it looked like cave with blocked entrence by stones and i didn’t want it to be opened beeing woried what happened when water would surge through the hole) and tonight i had another dream. I was in old room. Wall was covered with grass then i noticed plaster was coming of because it was wet, i tried to fix and big pieces fell off then i realized that behind the plaster is hidden window so i started to uncover it)
Boy, things are intense for you right now, huh? I know it’s hard, but trutfully, kundalini is doing it’s work. If you can trust it’s doing what is best for you, it can be easier.
Whenever you have adrenaline, it’s tied to fear, obviously, but the problem with fear is that it is very often irrational. The answer lies in simply not responding to this type of chemistry in your body. The best way is to root out the fear, or at least transform it into bliss. This can take time, but as more blocks are released it becomes easier. Things DO get better!
I’m not you, but if I had the dreams that you had, I would not hesitate in saying that the first dream was about your apprehension about kundalini establishing new channels in your light body. It might well be a dream preparing you for the energy breaking through more blocks and flowing more freely, like water.
The second dream sure seems like it is dealing with our facades, our surface self. That self might be pulling away to reveal something underneath. Do you try to cover it up or do you pull away the old layers. This is, in my opinion, you. This is happening to you this way-it is how you feel. Instead of your being being covered in a material that obscures, you are finding that your nature is more like that of a clear window. You are beginning to see in ways that you weren’t able to. Blocked energy IS being dealt with and quickly! Expect increasing clarity in time.
YOU will always remain YOU, so don’t worry about your being obliterated. Also, we often fear kundalini because how strong it is. Try to let kundalini be kundalini. If you wrestle with it, it will wrestle you back. Smile, and it smiles back. Why? Because it is you. You are, though, split in awareness. Your experience is correcting this and bringing you closer to this cosmic family…this thing you are a part of that kundalini makes you more and more aware of. The universe is interconnected. There is no cause for fear. Fear only taints perception.
You can change your tension and anxiety into bliss joy and calm. It requires you to learn to respond to life differently, to begin making different choices moment by moment. If you do this, even in small ways, it will catch on and grow so that in time, life will take on a different feeling. You just choose positive over chaotic or difficult emotions.
I am learning to put all of my troubles into the hands of the Creator. The nice thing about our having awakened is that we do feel this Presence that is quiet and still but which loves us. Here we are going crazy and it looks at us wondering what the commotion is all about. We look to it, begin feeling it, and in that connection we just imagine handing all our stuff over to this Presence. It is so advanced, so wise, so capable, that as we are willing to let go our grip on our junk, this cosmic mind transmutes it no problem. But we have to be open, surrendered, trusting. And as is so often the case, we don’t really fully let go but it still gets nibbled away at each time we spend time meditating in silence asking for it’s help and healing.
We do a lot to get in our way with this. Universal mind or Creator can handle all of it. That’s my advice for what it’s worth.
Oh, also, try eating cantaloupe and other melon. I was told by a guide to do this and it gave me immediate relief. I know cantaloupe might not be in season, but getting the repeat one and giving it a try. Other melons can also work. Turns out melon has been used by yogis to help with kundalini. Also, Indian curry really helped me a lot with adrenaline.
After two months i came to the conclusion that “illnes” was triggered by adrenal gland but main reason is to change nerval system in spine and sorundings. Nerval pain ( like electricity flowing through all nerves ) was changing it’s patterns. First in area of kidneys then spread to stomach muscle and skin in solar plexus, i wasn’t able to eat properly for over 3 weeks (vomiting, weakness,high bloodpressure, pain was unbearable) then it faded away and appeared in area of lower ribs and sacral chakra, i felt it like someone was trying to push too much air through rubber hose. After all nerval activity bones and muscles were really sensitive like they were broken and overstrain. I have been still suffering but less and especially at night so I don’t try to survive another day. Still weak and no chance to walk more than 0.5km so hope it will sort it soon, funny thing is that few months ago i had oobe and exactly same blow and pressure in area reaching ribs then day before it started again, i woke up in oobe and felt moving “snake like” form along spine reaching throat chakra and it pirced sth in this area with sound of tire with puncture. Still doesn’t know exactly what is happening because most of information on internet give only brief description ( nerval change in spine, pain, fire) but not much about similiar symptomes. I know that some people wake up and can’t walk for half year because of K went through spine but still doesn’t explain what is happening.
It’s what kundalini does, which is abundance of prana/energy. It’s clearing you of blocked areas, clearing out fear (adrenals) and then moving on to the next blocked area, just as you described.
The whip-like or serpentine movements are a reaction to the energy…the body wants to use the energy and it will make you feel like moving or jerking sometimes. This is completely normal. Most everyone will feel this at one time or another.
Being able to move with the energy can feel very good, very therapeutic. It’s one reason why methods like Chi-Gong work so well, they give the energy a thoughtful and beneficial path to follow. Nothing is forced in this method. It is also a method developed over centuries and the Chinese really got it right with moving energy in the meridian system. They work with it, not against, which is why it works so well.
The result often is a feeling of being sick. This flu-like feeling is also completely normal, and from my own inner study is linked to the solar or yang energy in the body. This energy, though hard to take sometimes, is also very healing. It is warmer energy, they say, because sometimes it can feel like heat, but not always. I found it caused a lot of stomach upset…and I still have issues with it to this day. This is because there are more blocks in my abdomen (root and sacral) that are actively being “burned” away. That said, the energy gets smoother and calmer as you go along. It happens gradually, piece by piece as each small and big block is removed. Since you are in such an active stage, this might be hard to see for a while.
Intuition tells me that you would benefit from opening your body up more by stretching gently and by moving freely. I have found that if I let my imagination be used by the energy while I keep my thoughts bright and positive, my body will move in a way that makes me feel very good. It’s like dance, but it’s for me very free swooping movements with my arms and legs, an easy twirling, stretching, that let’s the energy express itself in a harmonious way. The Sufi’s have a “dance” which is twirling. This twirling quiets the rational mind and opens us to the mystery, the nonrational side or feminine side of our consciousness. It is a path to ecstacy. Ecstasy is our true nature, and this energy is ecstacy. If you resist ecstacy, the energy tends to get hard, difficult, and gets channelled through blocked areas because of our resistance to it. The energy does not do this, though, we do.
Trust what its doing. In time, you will react less with apprehension and more with trust. You will welcome it’s powerful waves instead of resisting them. Yes, it’s bigger than you, way bigger…but that is only because of our identification with this one body, one self. In silence with it, it will show you how you and the energy have always been one.
It sounds like you made it through a major hurdle from last you reached out. This is wonderful progress! I’m hoping the very best for vyou in this wild and amazing journey. The secret is in letting go and trusting that what it takes out of you was nothing that ever did your true self any good. I and thousands of others are testament to this (and most of us are still being actively cleared in some ways to this day).
Its exactly as you say. I noticed it rise pain if i feel fear, so i came to the conclusion that nerval system was overloaded but when i was in positive emotional state it didn’t cause pain, all was fading away. Biggest concern is that symptoms for GP are at least weird even masseur familiar with naturotheraphy was a bit confused. There is lot of info about K on internet but in my real life I didn’t meet anybody who knows anything about it so i feel really lonely in my journey.
It used to be so rare that there were only a few on the planet with it at any given time…but this is changing. I know many people now, people who are friends of my family who have been going through it. The nice thing is we have the internet and there are people willing to write about it and create communities online to discuss it. There are all kinds of strands of belief, turns of mind, too. Take your pic! Hang in there…
Im glad we can find valuable informations among milions of topics. In opposition to many many others you serve your help and attention to regular guys all over the world, what is rare this days. Most of “awakened” people forget about purpose and are focused only about their income, workshops yoga classes.
Life is too short. Also, I’m just writing about my experience and making observations that were of help to me.
Thank you again for your advice, for sure i have to work with surrender. I never expected that solar plexus could be so “stubborn” in keeping junks. Funny thing is that surge of K happened to me at rhe same time when i am changing house or job. I know that everything gona be ok but “small me” doesn’t want to give up easly 🙂
It’s a big leap for little us!
I tried water melon but it didn’t work for me, i will try to order veggie curry because i dont eat meat 🙂
Just stopping by to say hello. Something weird happened. I just restarted my blog and had one comment to read – and after I read it I noticed a comment from you dated 2018 in Aug or Oct (can’t remember) so I clicked on your blog link but then went back to my blog to find which date of your posts I had read. Well, I looked all over my blog and could not find a single comment from 2018 (I only posted a few times last year). Anyhow, you have very good articles, and being a k-person myself (full-blown activation in 2016) I enjoy reading material from a kindred spirit. 🙂 PS Personally, I think this was some sort of a synchronicity thing.
I just bought your book! I am looking forward to getting it here. I will make sure I provide a review. That was a weird little thing with your comments thing!❤
Oh my! Thank you for buying my book. Here is a comment you made in reply to someone’s comment: “I sometimes think that it doesn’t matter to me anymore, that people don’t really want to know, don’t really want to be challenged, so what I do is I think that I am simply speaking to myself in those moments when I write. I do it to get it out (being an artist by trade)and I don’t worry about the rest”.
My sentiments exactly. The majority of the poems I wrote in the 70s were channeled – and I can read and understand the wisdom of them a lot better today than years ago. And a number of them are related to just what you mentioned in your comment. Everyone has their own awakening time just as we did. But we artists can inspire and bring light to others which may help them on their journey – just as others help us on ours! That was my main desire for publishing my poems – that they will be helpful for some seekers. PS – In 2012 I was told I was starting my spiritual apprenticeship – and when I asked who my teachers were (all of this info was via my inner voice) I was told, Fritz and Eileen. Well, Fritz has been gone for years now, but back in the mid-70’s he was my boyfriend for a year and was a master glassblower from Germany. He had his own little glass shop in Helen, GA and we also leased a restaurant there for the summer of ’76. He was a mystic/psychic and could read cards like you wouldn’t believe. In World War II out of 136 soldiers he and the chaplain were the only ones who survived, even though the two of them would go out on the field and bring soldiers back – so I’d say he was divinely protected in some way. Eileen was a psychic I met at a Psychic Fair and when I told her about my husband (now late husband) having a PVC (premature ventricular contractions of the heart) she did something (Pray?Visualize? I don’ know). But after that he never experienced, and docs never heard, any more PVCs.
I was just going to say a few words. Goodness! Thanks again for buying my book!
You are WELCOME! And what a perfectly magic journey.
Kia ora,
Hey Parker, is this page still active …?
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Of course. 🙂 This page is one of a number of pages that are part of my larger blog. Might want to check them out!