Today while clearing a workspace I thought about how ritual is used in the world to help us to anchor certain feelings and states of being. If you know me, I am not big on ritual. The reason for this is the result of years of seeking and pondering what it is that is behind the things we do. Part of it, too, is this aspect that is part of who I am that seeks the essence of things, the root cause. But for as much as I live life without ritual, I also know that when used in the right way, it can yield effective results.
So I cleared this work space after finishing some jobs for clients recently and as I did so I noticed how much clearer I felt inside. As I did this I found myself going into that familiar meditative state where I am ever present, yet also in the flow. I stepped outside and found myself pulled to a spot where I felt this wonderful whoosh of energy from the earth flow up into me. It then began a one-two rhythm of moving through my energy body, healing and clearing. I felt the presence of this conscious energy and felt the flow of information as it began answering the questions floating in my mind. Less a hive of busy thoughts and more like, “And the answer to that question you have had in you mind, well….” I was surprised to find myself feeling this energy flowing up through me like this…after all, I have spent years feeling the energy of the earth. It goes to show that we all have so much to learn.
I have always felt how different the earth felt to me in different places. For years I have noted the character of the energy was just so different….the result of the local geology, it’s position on the globe, lines of force near that spot as well as the life upon it, all contributing to an overall feel. When I lived in Kentucky, I could feel the presence of a long standing strife from battles or struggles on the land…..more so than most anywhere else. It felt OLD….only to learn that Kentucky had been fought over….over and over….by rival native groups for generations. It all made sense. Visiting the deserts of New Mexico and Arizona was an epiphany of sorts after living in the lush green rolling hills of the Blue Ridge Mountains of western Virginia. I found Sedona not the be the incredible thing people made it out to be…..a place that actually had some geographical karma of sorts that ATTRACTED a lot of people who were intrigued by its “vortices” never noticing what lay deeper. I suppose we all get there in time, and really, maybe I am a geek where this stuff is concerned.
This, though was different. I felt a series of thoughts move very quickly through me. By clearing myself, I made it possible to pick up on this energy. I felt it come through my feet. Did you know you have chakras in your feet and legs? I was just reading last week while doing some final work on the book that there are seven of them. Hips are tied to lust, knees to retaliatory jealousy. All of these are all tied to very negative traits. While the observations may be correct, not sure I buy that there is only a negative side to all of this. But be that as it may, I felt this tingling surge that felt wonderful as it moved up through my body. It was actually a lot like what kundalini felt like before it fully rose in me. A tingling. It moved right up through my meridians and in the energy I could hear these wordless words…concepts or thoughts that were…..silent….yet also present. As it moved upward it would pause and become focused on parts of my energy body. It explained that two channels in both the Ida and Pengali were long ago injured….all of this was explained in terms of how I have attracted certain things into my life, like people and events. If I was to heal it, I had to hand over the investment in the old hurt in order to feel this force run fresh and clear in me. For the second time in about a year I felt the presence of what I can only describe as the feminine side of all energy move all around me showing me that in letting go, this issue would essentially go into this gestalt energy for recycling……redemption. Letting go of it was the first step, the very most important.
The energy was like clockwork. It rose and fell in a perfectly timed one-two count. So, up for two counts and then down for two. Ebb for two, flow for two. This went on with a regular beat. I saw how the sacred drum of North American tribes was based not on heart scattering syncopation! but on the heartbeat of humans. I remembered how I had sat in on a talk by a shaman who came to town when I was in college and how he explained that this one-two beat was the beat of the earth. I wondered, was this the beat he was talking about?
As I felt all this, the energy in the earth said something like “I am the feminine (winks) because this is how you can best relate to me….but I think we both know I am both feminine and masculine in the same way that ALL energy has it’s positive and negative polarities….with no man or woman being present…..but if it makes it easier to relate, then I can be all of that, more, or different…..”
I continued to hear this flow of information about some incidental things I needed to do that would help me with my energy. It felt like healing, a scan, and a reading all in one. I realized all of this came about because I was clear enough to feel it. I had never felt anything like this tied to Gaia quite this vividly, as though my body became part of an energetic presence all around me. I was standing directly over a strong line of energy in my backyard. When I oriented myself I saw that this line ran very close to north and south. I didn’t have a compass, but with the afternoon sun showing its way to the west, I figured the line as I felt it moving under me was very close to N/S orientation.
This led to including a short two-page chapter in ritual in the book, which explained why ritual can be helpful in finding certain feeling states. All method and technique in yoga and meditation is based in this. Ritual itself exercises both sides of the brain and can help us to feel the right way since feeling is the actual circuitry switch of the universe. When you can flip that switch, you can flow with the world. Sound crazy? To understand, maybe it’s best that you buy WTI when it comes out, because I explain about this circuitry of the universe and how it is native to all things and how you can use it as an effective guide in helping you to identify the challenging parts in your life very quickly I order to heal them. Most often people look at effects and point to them as the culprits, but unless you go deeper to the origin, you will continue blaming the world for your ills and will be like an ox going round and round the same way ox are harnessed to grind grain. They walk miles and never get anywhere. Welcome to the merry-go-round of karma! And it is all yours. So knowing how to change how you see all of this is the sea-change necessary for most folks to begin knowing how to relate to their trials and inner challenges in a more effective way for the simple reason that its means resolves back into the root of what is true; no one forced you to feel how you feel. You made more choices that you may have even realized. You, at the end of the day can argue about how bad life has been, and yet, no one is making you feel this way. The path to freedom from these feelings is simply granting yourself the freedom to be……free. Free from it all! Kind of exciting, isn’t it?
So if ritual does it for you, use it. Use it to direct your imagination…..for imagination is what allows you to expand beyond your physical limits…..paradoxically we also treat it as an unreal thing when it is SO important! Imagination is what frees you to smile, to be seduced, to let go and feel more deeply, to see things in ways your never knew could be. Please doing discount what your imagination can do!
In the course of these happenings, I was describing this experience to a friend who said she had not ever felt earth energy in that way. What she described sounded like an exact opposite to what I had felt. Now wouldn’t it be interesting to find that sexual energetic polarity affected how we related to and felt energy? Well, in fact, in Tibetan Tantra, that is what this is precisely about, which is all a dance of energy. Having felt my polarity “flip” during a past life experience involving a life as a woman some four years ago during a stage of releasing some old stuff from a past life, I found, caught up in rapt attention that everything I was feeling was still bliss BUT just HOW the energy flowed was….different. It was the opposite from how my energy moves in me as the masculine.
The reason why I am saying this is because your results may feel very different than mine. My friend felt drawn INTO the earth while I felt it flowing up into me and through me like I had become a node within a living circuitry. And who knows, it may also be that these energies are so large and complex that you can relate to them in a myriad of ways. Perhaps at a certain level all energy is itself unlimited and relies on the focus of those around it in order to perceive the broader aspects of it’s being. What? Everything is multidimensional. Every atom, every star. When we begin perceiving like this, we do so in a potentially broader way, right? And the enormity of the experience is our touching on this multiplicity of expression in all things. Like a diamond with all these facets. You are one such expression…..and your ego helps to hold back the holy torrent of being and energy from knocking you over…..and yet, when you open the door a crack a trickle comes through.
Trust your instincts…..walk through nature…..practice clearing….feeling your insides being cleared away. And who knows, maybe washing the dishes might do it,or sweeping up leaves or…clear, walk and don’t over think it. Let your intuition have room to work. When it worked for me, It did so without my needing to think about it. I just stopped. Clear, I had nothing else left except to feel.
Spring is on its way! Yes, a few more months of cold and February is for us the hardest, but there is a feeling in the air that tells me is time to transplant the raspberries NOW if I want to triple my crop come spring and summer! Curled, just waiting for the trigger of more sun, bud wait in dream for the moment they begin to break free. Ah! My favorite time of year! Here it comes!