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Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that is formed from the amino acid tyrosine. It is linked to movement and reward, according to researchers. I think it is interesting to read what science thinks it knows with what I have observed in my own body as a result of self-identifying the flush of dopamine in my body as a consequence or symptom of awakening.

You heard that right; self identifying dopamine in my body as the result of awakening. Really, it wasn’t that hard. I asked myself what this feeling was and what kind of chemistry was causing it. I gathered my symptoms and how this state felt, assuming that it had a chemical component, and I went online and found the “culprit” within five minutes. Simple. I of course did more reading to make sure I wasn’t missing something, but it all led back to dopamine as the central player. There are other compounds that are important (oxytocin, for another) but none quite so important to my mind (and experience) than dopamine. So rewind to my initial awakening, the first year…..

Six months into awakening and I am feeling this incredible chemical cocktail. It has numerous facets, and right away I consider that I am feeling more than one compound that is supporting a very cosmic level of consciousness. I have been a careful observer and there was one compound that remained after the initial “three year burn” took place, that period often identified as a sustained peak experience of high levels of a number of key chemical compounds all impacting consciousness. Chief among these, I found, was dopamine.

I identified dopamine early on in the process. What compound makes you feel blissed-out, cuts pain, and drops worry and fear? That’s right; dopamine.

I credit high dopamine levels with my ability to drop Pain Body as well as stored trauma. It also made the process of transformation a lot easier once I learned how to keep a steady flow of dopamine production going in my body. And yes, you can learn how to do this in your practice. Since we live in a world dominated by the idea promulgated by the pharmaceutical industry that the only way to change your physiology is to pop a pill, it us hard for someone like me to state that the body can and will produce any spectrum of compounds you “tell” it to produce without the need of external aides. There is a mechanism in the body that links thought and chemistry together such that the body will react to what the mind tells it.

To get the body to react to thought, it’s useful to know that the body doesn’t react to just ANY sort of thought. The body reacts most immediately to feelings, or thought that is backed by a strong level of feeling. In some cases we call this emotion, but this can be quite subtle and maybe not seen as emotion, even though it is. Now this can be dominated by strong emotions like fear, in which case norepinephrine and adrenaline will be produced, suffusing the body in a feeling of flight or fight edginess. The opposite range of our chemistry can be emphasized, which is the dopamine spectrum and this occurs as a result of an ability to let go, and to surrender. This isn’t easy to achieve in the beginning when most often the self is still dealing with an overburden of stored fear in the body. Busy with producing adrenaline, it gets hard to realize that dreamy bliss is even possible at this stage in the process.

The Advantages

Dopamine can be extremely beneficial in helping speed you to a place where you are less prone to micromanaging every aspect of your life and others. It aids in letting go of fear, and it allows the Dark Night experience to pass much easier. It can also lead to “spaciness” and trouble keeping focused on tasks. Dopamine is responsible for being blissed-out, so when we say dopamine, we are talking about a chemical spectrum that in the pharmaceutical world corresponds to opiods or painkillers. Knowing this, it is easy to see that dopamine makes it easier to deal with pain of all kinds, both physical and emotional. What I found from the experience was dopamine doesn’t kill pain….at all…what it does is it makes it so you just don’t mind or pay attention to the pain. This means that dopamine can decouple you from your recursive psychological pain (that manifests as hot button issues or trigger issues).

There is also evidence in my own work that once you begin initiating states of mind (unitive rather than disconnected ways of thinking and being—if you wonder what this is, kundalini itself is unitive, it draws the self together to initiate a chemistry and process that destroys unnecessary psychological/emotional structures and beliefs that keep a wider sense of union with the universe at bay) that the flow of dopamine also brings on other compounds critical to the awakened state (because awakening cannot be sustained by dopamine alone—I have a theory based on my observations that alone it creates paranoia). These compounds are oxytocin, adrenaline, norepinephrine, and endorphins. While it might seem counterintuitive that adrenaline and norepinephrine would have a play in awakening, it’s my observation that these compounds in small amounts help to counter the “spacy” nature of dopamine, helping to add balance and alertness to the experience. Obviously this cocktail is a delicate matter to be done with the human body, but my work shows me how it can be done by…anybody.

Dopamine Can Lead To A Cascade Of Releases

One beneficial advantage to supporting strong dopamine production in the body is it’s potential to assist in the release of emotional body armoring. The release of this armoring is an important step in the release process that helps dissolve the “false self” so often discussed in spiritual circles.

Drawbacks

One drawback of excesses of dopamine can be increased paranoia. One thing I noticed when I awoke was a sense that the world was not quite what I thought it was, which was itself completely accurate, along with a sense that I was overly focused on seeing nefarious intent behind geopolitical and personal relationships. While this “edginess” was not excessive, I notice that it is present in the majority of those in the awakened community (And who write or comment on blogs, online communities, etc., so that their views are known). My research into dopamine and it’s effects shows that yes, there is a direct correlation to kinds of paranoia and loads of dopamine in the body. Get too much, and schizophrenia results. Subjects who take L-dopa, for example, a synthetic form of dopamine, tended to develop paranoia after a while. This was popularly seen in the book and movie of the same name entitled Awakenings about patients who had become paralyzed by a rare neurological condition that left them unable to move.

I have suspected that dopamine may be contributing to our unique awareness of blocked energy in the light body. This is circuitous, but bear with me. I noticed in my reading about schizophrenia that those who had too much dopamine in the brain would begin to have hallucinations. Since dopamine is a neurotransmitter, it wasn’t hard to see how similar this effect was to the use and hallucinatory effects of LSD. LSD mimics neurotransmitters in the body and brain, resulting in a flood of data flowing through the brain now experienced as hallucinations. It made sense that if dopamine was a neurotransmitter, it could, and would, lead to hallucinations in the so-called schizophrenic. But what about those of us who aren’t hallucinating but who have a wealth of dopamine flowing in us?

Does Dopamine Turn The Mirrror Of Our Awareness?

I have considered that dopamine helps you to become aware of suppressed emotional material by allowing a means for this suppressed emotion to “talk” to us in a myriad of ways. Many show up as phantom sensations of pain, pressure, or tension in the region where the energy is blocked. Now could it be possible for this awareness to shift and turn from referred or hallucinated pain (which is just stored emotional pain, not real physical pain at all) to becoming or evolving into a voice that speaks in your head in the same way as a schizophrenic experiences it? I feel intuitively that this theory is correct and that the voices a schizophrenic hears is nothing more than the accumulation of stored emotional material that the psyche animates in order to make it aware of the stored emotion (except its never seen this way). I suspect that the “voices” in the mind of a sczitzophrenic are part of the same spectrum of experience as the awareness of blocked emotion is in the awakened person. If the self is unwilling to see it on the conscious side of awareness, then it seems it will see it on the subconscious side of the self, and in both cases, it will be expressed either as a hallucination in one case or an awareness of tightness, pressure in the body or even pain (phantom pressure or pain—as is so often expressed by people as happening in a large number of people in their first six months of initial awakening) . Because of this arrangement in the self seeking to bring subconscious material to the fore, it seems the self is not in control of these voices…which in the case of schizophrenia and awakening symptoms (of body pain) is very much true. It is a double edged sword; the price for making the self aware of its own shadow is that this shadow has to go from being subsumed within consciousness to becoming animated in one way or another. The question is to what degree. I think that the person who is awakened is merely experiencing a slightly less intense version of animated painbody (the record of our stored traumas) than the person who is unable to properly metabolize dopamine so that it accumulates and accentuates the symptoms or presence of high dopamine levels in the body.

What is interesting, is while researching the dopamine connection to awakening/kundalini, I came across schizophrenics who described their symptoms as identical to kundalini at a very specific period of their experience after going off their medication. I had stumbled across a whole group who were sharing their experience (on a dating site of all things) and they were actually using the term “kundalini” to describe their experience right up until they would experience a psychotic break, afterwhich, they would go into full blown hallucinations, and would go back onto their medication.

What was so fascinating was how identicaly one person in the group described my own awakening symptoms. Two weeks into not taking his medication, he developed a pressure band around the head (this is consistent with countless accounts of awakening that include a powerful third eye chakra activation which spreads like a “helmet” across the head) as he then began to see events at a great distance in a central portal of his inner eye or mind that looked like a small tv. This was my own experience EXACTLY. As I began to awaken, I had numerous nights where a portal like a small tv screen would open up and I would see scenes at a distance in exactly the same way as the sczitzophrenic had described (Not everyone will have This exact experience, but many experience the “helmet head” along with some kind of inner visual phenomenon. In my case, probably because I was on to something, the universe saw to it to provide me with an account that was identical to my own in order to grab my attention and help connect the dots). This continued in the person describing these remarkably similar events until dopamine levels got too high and created a tipping point into hallucination. But prior to the psychotic break, these people were golden, exhibiting all of the same symptoms of awakening such as expanded sensory capability, psychic ability, and changes in physical chemistry. Until too much dopamine was produced, their symptoms were all consistent with…..kundalini or awakening.

This was extremely fortunate because it helped to prove my dopamine hypothesis by providing what we call in science a negative. When I first identified dopamine as the chief compound that seemed to be driving kundalini, I was interested in seeing if there were conditions whereby a person had too much, or too little dopamine in the body. If my theory was correct I would expect to see a complete lack of kundalini symptoms (perhaps the antithesis of awakening in the case of a condition or disease where the body is starved of dopamine), or in the case of a disease where there is too much dopamine, I would expect to see symptoms with a high degree of correlation or coincidence with kundalini. And I believe that I have. But I’m not a scientist. I am only a highly engaged and passionately involved person who gives a shit about understanding ourselves here on this rock hurdling through space. Additionally, I have passed my findings on to researchers in the field, eminent scientists who have, as it turns out, completely ignored my efforts to contact them and convey this information. For them, coupling their work on sczitzophrenia to kundalini is tantamount to professional suicide it would seem. That world where we are open to all possibilities will have to wait for those who are material scientists. But talk about not being willing to go where the evidence will lead you!

So, to sum, by having a negative, I was able to see what happens when dopamine goes awry in the brain and body. Instead of being completely divorced from awakening, the symptoms were entirely consistent with kundalini or awakening, albeit with the dysfunctional aspect consistent with the condition of sczitzophrenia. Still, I felt that the hallucinations of the sczitzophrenic were just the furthest end of the awakened state (and an imbalanced one in regards to body chemistry—and the body is always seeming balance in order to stay healthy).

The Pleasure Principle

Dopamine is tied into our reward system in the brain. Whatever we associate as pleasurable will tend to be coupled to a dopamine “fix” that the brain delivers in the form of waves of pleasure. The problem is that we often associate pleasure with dysfunctional or unhealthy behaviors. What is so interesting is that awakening often leads to people dropping addictions. It is fascinating to me that a drug that when taken into the body from an outside source (opium, opiates, heroin) can lead to addiction can actually assist in freeing us from addictions when it’s generated in the body.

By looking closely at the compounds that are produced in awakening, we can better understand it’s physical basis and form common sense approaches to dealing with its presence in our lives (which does not automatically mean including pharmaceuticals to try and manage things!). I know that people with severe conditions need medication, but if we each were to learn how to switch dopamine on in the body, we would be much happier and in many cases, be drug free. There is a way. I was able to feel supreme levels of bliss at what should have been my absolute rock bottom when a divorce followed my awakening and my separation from my children whom I loved very much became an imposed condition of my divorce. I know that saying we don’t have control over our bodies simply shows a lack of awareness to the truth, and despite the environment, we can at any time, in any place, find peace and wellbeing. Isn’t this what all the great traditions and their teachers have had to tell us? The takeaway for me is that pleasure can heal. Not just any pleasure; pleasure no longer tied to a person, a place, a condition, or a substance smoked, shot up, or swallowed. Uncoupled from such conditions, the mind can remap itself, freeing itself from the tyrrany of belief and conditioned behavior. It seems, you still must be willing to surrender to it’s mighty power, showing the universe, a silent witness, really, that you trust it to heal you (which it of course obliges).

It can lead you to learning how to take control of your physiology by learning how to modulate your emotional responses in order to reduce certain undesirable chemicals produced (the chemistry of fear, say), while also boosting the output of the desirable chemistry. The question you might have here is, “How do I know which is the desirable chemistry?” The answer is that it is the chemistry that naturally emerges when enough fear and painbody is dropped. It is the natural state. Further, your body does seem to know, or is ready to give you bliss as soon as you give it the all-clear to start cooking up the chemistry of what that bliss looks like. Sadly, there is no one doing this work that I am aware of except for those of us who have had either the clinical background or the desire to make careful observations in order to gather data. Unfortunately the system is biased towards those who have been credentialed in the field. But who dares study this? The answer is no one. We then must fend for ourselves. Make observations, share your findings, develop a body of data.

(Copyright, 2018, Parker Stafford. No part may be copied or reproduced in whole or in part without expressed consent of the author)

Source: https://www.livestrong.com/article/408170-what-are-the-effects-of-too-much-dopamine/

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They don’t tell you this in the sales brochure, but Awakening isn’t all sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes it’s you, marinating in some dank dark oil of your own indefinable misery as you tell yourself that this must be what they mean about “Shadow Work.” Sounded pretty innocuous at first glance. It didn’t stop you from rushing through that door, though, did it? And it hasn’t stopped you from reading this far.

It gets better. I promise.

Awakening for Westerners is proving to be it’s own unique kind of experience. In India, the culture has systems in place that have been developed over hundreds, even thousands, of years all for the purpose of preparing the individual for one thing: awakening. This is in a word, called yoga, a system with multiple rungs intended to somatically clear the naddis (our circuitry for prana) of stored emotional energy in preparation for the emergence of a stronger or higher energetic state which is called kundalini. The results, then, are different for those in India than for most Westerners (with every case being unique). I could say it’s good to prepare, but here we are, Westerners, blank slates where awakening is concerned, now thrust into this new life. It’s a birth that took only seconds in some cases where everything is changed…..irrevocably. Truth is, we haven’t a clue about the kind of prep needed for awakening. But then again, this preparation wasn’t a part of our culture unless you count accepting Christ as your savior or having a meditation practice.

It’s exciting to watch as it takes shape. It can also be a little terrifying. It’s because something quite large is within and it’s running the show. For as freaked out as I was those first few weeks, I came to realize that this force was not here to hurt me. It never has. It has always removed things that in the end really did me no good at all. I thought of it as a chef in the kitchen of my spiritual life, concocting solutions, changing the menu, setting things right. I learned to stay out of the way, watching a master at work.

I lost really important relationships. I was crushed by a woman I was married to and had children with who sought to turn my children against me. It never hurts nearly as much as when they succeed, though. I was taught that some things just aren’t my own, and never were. I was just there, and it could have been anybody, really, the same scenario was going to play out for them. I saw the kitchen door open as the chef showed me the back door. He whispered, “It will be safer for you this way.”

There is hurt, happiness, fear, joy, loneliness, love, and longing. It’s all lit up, incandescent, at least for a time, so you can see your issues and foibles and learn to let them go. Since the truth is that material things don’t ever buy authentic happiness, the shift is into real often “lonely ” joy. It’s this solitary joy that is like entering the Holy of Holies. It is what dying is like, too, which is surprising when death comes because it’s such an expansive process rather than the dark ending that our worst fears promulgate. It grows in freedom the further you go along with it. It has a swirling beauty that is sensual and orgasmic. It is, of course, nothing like the Southern Baptist minister said it would be like. It’s clear that you are blissful now for no reason except that this is what you know about yourself, and it’s unbelievably beautiful. You feel this way because of this realization that woke you and opened you to your true nature as a child of the one great Light.

Even as you know this, you go through bliss to misery, sometimes many time in a day, a sure sign that your buried bones in your subconscious are still there, rattling away, killing the thrill of your “be here now moment.” You wake up one day and you feel paralyzed. Unable to move. The next day, the energy is leaping around the room and you hear voices or see shapes, or angels in the wee hours, or a hundred other amazingly wonderful things. On this day you are a golden goddess or a god,but you do wonder when it will turn to rust. But wait long enough, and you suspect you will be on that train to Paradise yet again. Something in you screams that there is a reason for this rapid cycling, and you’d be right. You make a new promise to let the energy penetrate as deeply as it can, next time, even if it does uncover acts and feelings you are ashamed of or that you have loathed secretly about yourself for years. As a Westerner, you probably have to be brought to the furthest edge of your misery before you are howling in the night, praying for it to come take you from your fucked up madness. And it does. Honestly, this is how souls are saved more often than we would like to admit.

One morning you might look in the mirror and forget for a few seconds who you even are. The disorientation itself is enough to keep your brow furrowed. You might worry that it might be a brain tumor but you think, “No, I’ll just wait” because you dont want to tip your hat to the world that you might be hip deep in a shit creek. Sure enough, it passes, but you get a feel for what a real brain tumor might be like and tell yourself that you’ll have to give to cancer research because what you just experienced was its own special version of a bad morning discovery.

You are visited by angels even as you are haunted by your demons. Its how this is for us; we didn’t prepare. We come to awakening dirty as sin while standing in the temple of our greater spiritual light. Lucky for us, this light is just so glad we managed to show up. There is a bit of muddy water until we begin to get washed clean. It goes on for years, really, but you can’t help but clean a dirty garment of its filth when you live in the water of life.

Over time, and in direct proportion to the amount of material you have released (It’s all repressed emotion from one traumatic event in your life to another), it gets easier. Turbulent intense sexual energy refines into finer vibration. It’s smoother. There are fewer stones in the road. It all takes time, dedication, and a willingness to just let go. What feeds your purpose stays, what doesn’t, goes. The pendulum swings aren’t as great as they were before. You don’t transit from heaven into hell and back again from one day to the next. Swings come, they just aren’t as destructive as they seemed before. We each have much to learn from each other who are going through this trial by fire and water.

It’s just your baggage. Seems you can’t be in heaven with it, so we learn how not to accumulate it here. And awakening is the magical elixir that makes it possible to heal the impossible. It loosens your grip, allows you to fall, it let’s you see that there is nothing except this feeling which is a version of what the great Light feels. It too was once lonely, and it speaks through the very light of awakening in as unobtrusive way as it possibly can. It wants to be with us if we can let it in. Its like how the Egyptian god weighed hearts using the feather as the measure. It isnt that you are damned if you have a heavy heart; you just cant feel or be aware of heaven without that lightness of being. Which of course begs and answers the question all at once that heaven is a state of mind and not a silly tale about a gated community somewhere.

The earthly self is one rung on this ladder into heaven. The Higher self is the second rung. From there, ever higher rungs lead us back into our ancestry, our origins, back to a less complicated way of being, and back to something we call God (note to self: no description can ever describe it).

It gets better. You get to be whoever, but perhaps more importantly however you want…. just as long as it’s your highest. Anything else will always be hard. What is easy is the flow. I know; Westerners look at flow and think “lazy ” but this is in truth learning to partner with physical reality to bring about the manifestation of important events that reveal a hitherto unknown quality for consciousness to join with the physical universe to make small and big miracles happen.

Whoah! That was fricken incomprehensible!

How about this: we are suddenly magical and can make miracles happen when its needed. It’s just co-creation and it has everything to do with how you feel and how your mind has been unleashed. Yes, it gets easier. It takes dedication and a lot of self honesty. This is turning the light back on yourself. What do you see? Yeah, shadow work.

It is lonely. It’s lonely realizing how everyone is caught up in a world that has very little to do with what is here on this planet, or that matters. Sure, you can get people to care so long as you tie it to a 5k Run for charity or you can create a slick meme you post on social media so it gets gobbled up and digested for a few moments. You wonder how anyone wakes up at all.

Can you see how our desire has been eating our planet alive? Car trips spewing carbon just so we can satisfy our desire to see someone we love,or to go to jobs, to do all the things we say and see as important. Plane trips to visit coral reefs in decline. An addiction to plastic that makes eating our Little Debbies so much more convenient but also gets into our rivers and lakes as microplastic, disrupting the guts of fish and their endocrine systems. Yeah. Big buzz kill, right?

The shape of our desire has forced us to live easy but it comes with a price. Again, buzz kill, but it’s true. People who want things so they can feel a certain way….cars, houses, and relationships. We marry so we won’t be alone. We have children because we don’t want to die alone. We buy nice things sometimes to scare away a deeper sense of poverty or fear that we aren’t good enough. Once in a great while we get really honest about what is motivating us, but we usually want what we want. We will take dying rainforests and bleaching coral reefs just to get those Little Debbies and lifestyles born of a desire that is killing our world. And there you sit, on your own, watching this giant pooping machine of hunger turn and move. You are, afterall, a part of it, too, but maybe a little more aware of what’s going on because a channel was opened in you that let you feel the connection everything has with everything else as you can’t help but feel a sacredness about it which leads to grace. But it still won’t change unless we are it’s harbinger, it’s mover, it’s shaker, it’s champion. The loneliness might also come from knowing that the life of desire, the shape of desire as we know it now on average, is coming to an end as it pertains to what we think will make us happy…

Nothing, though, brings as much exquisite….feeling…than the energy in awakening, simply resting in the heart of the divine. And that too is a challenge because it washes away desire for the things of this world. Is it any wonder we demonized it back in the garden by calling it a deceiver who brings knowledge? But still, I challenge you to find anything as incredible as the light which confers a standing wave of orgasmic ecstasy pulsing through every level of body, mind, heart, and soul for days-months-at a time.

It does get better, but it’s a new world. Maybe we need this so badly that it’s coming the way it is…to people nearly unbidden and woefully unprepared. It’s a new orientation, a new world, if we can take it.

Namasté ❤

I have observed that dietary changes is a natural result of listening to your body and feeling where it’s needing you to go in regards to diet. I feel that in awakening your body will absolutely let you know. In fact, some of it will feel automatic at times. Have you noticed this? You wonder for hours on end what you should be eating to help assist matters only to find you have a dream, a sudden craving, or some other odd synchronistic event and blam! Problem solved!

I’ve discussed foods and how they are known to impact your energy by working with the body, so I won’t go into that here now. But what I will share with you is how I discovered, during my “dark night of the soul” a spice that helped a LOT. It still has an impact on me, and I hope it helps you, too. Drum roll, please:

INDIAN CURRY.

I will say that curry hasn’t been a favorite of mine, at least not historically, so it took experimenting and cooking with some inspired friends who really like curry to get in the groove. I think its what you are used to eating. If you have children, trycooking with light amounts of curry; they will likely not like it at first if they are used to traditional Western cooking, but they might find themselves coming to like it better later on.

I really like Thai curries….red, green..all of it…but they don’t do the same for me what Indian curry does. Madras curry is known as the hottest, and curry, being a blend, really varies on who is doing the blending! Today, curry powder may include cloves, cardamon, ginger, nutmeg, fennel, caraway, ajowan seeds, dried basil, mustard seeds, mace, poppy seeds, sesame seeds, saffron or cinnamon. The mix depends on the cook. Curry recipes can be found in the cuisines of India, Pakistan, Bangladesh, Sri Lanka, Nepal, Indonesia, Malaysia, Thailand and the Caribbean. It might be me, my body, and my energy, but it’s also worth a try to consider the Thai curries. I like trying to use it in unique ways as well as in recipes that are traditionally Indian. I’m currently dreaming up some soups to try it in once cold weather sets in here. I’ll also be living with a vegetarian soon, which will encourage me to try this spice melange in interesting new ways without meat as such a steady base. And the great thing is that curry adds such richness that it’s a wonderful compliment to vegetarian cooking.

Curry is a spice that actually is a blend of a handful of spices, so if you find your tastebuds telling you that what you are tasting is complex, then you are catching on. I like to play with its pairing with sweet and savory as a way to use it to it’s fullest advantage, from mild to strong depending on mood, want, or mere adventure.

I have found that the hottest Indian curry wasn’t very hot at all, the chillies added were what made the hot Indian dishes so spicy. But its possible to get curry that is very hot, my lical grocery doesnt have versions that have been exriciating at all (you need the Thai curries for that, or a curry blend with a lot of chillies in it). I’m lucky because I have two very good Asian markets in my area for good supplies when needed, and lots of locals whose brains I can pick for ideas for traditional uses for curry.

So give it a try, but let me know what you think! And if you have already delved into curry and love to cook, I’d be interested in hearing what your favorites are. I know I haven’t given direction on how much curry to use. I feel that flavoring with spices is best left to your taste as you go along. Strong or light? Only you will know!

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Recently I wrote about my experiences with moving through time. I know it may wind up sounding like a boast, so I am going to provide you with some current insights that I feel confident will be verified very soon, a process already underway that will soon get very loud. You get to be the judge to see if I am right.

 

 

To lay this out, let me explain that for the last number of years I have been seeing clearly that there will be an “event” that will affect how we do business forever. My seeing has shown me that this would affect currency specifically, and I have studied alternative stores of value such as silver and gold because my common sense tells me that this would be what happens when currencies go in the tank. As I began studying these stores of wealth I found that physical silver and gold have been heavily manipulated by the big commercial banks such as JP Morgan and Goldman. The purpose of the manipulation has been to suppress the price of silver and to an extent gold. Silver has been suppressed through the massive contracts written by these banks which always short silver. These “shorts” amount to a bet that silver will continue to be low in price….and because JP Morgan has made this bet, the paper contracts flooding the market everyday has sent a signal in the market that silver is not a safe bet, which drives or keeps silver low. In fact, silver has been artificially kept low well below its proportion historically to gold. And why? This is being done in order to trick the market into creating artificially low valuations for silver so these banks can then buy massive amounts of physical silver which they have been taking possession of. This should be illegal, but it isn’t. It is one loophole that the banks can get away with legally. They write cheap contracts shorting silver and then they turn around and buy the physical silver to keep. To understand what we are talking about, we are talking silver in the order of millions of tonnes. Yes, really.

 

 

To see how bad this has been, one bank wrote an order for silver more than the yearly output of one of them largest silver producers in the world; Peru. Imagine the greed involved here. Banks are buying up as much as they can so they can benefit the most when they decide to let loose their grip on the metal and it’s current price (which is artificially low). But this is only the side story, so hold on.

 

 

For the last three years I have been seeing this event coming down the pike,and it’s a biggie from what my intuition is telling me. My wealth, which was exclusively tied up in real estate, was a real concern for me. I knew that if I didn’t sell my home and get liquid, I would miss this opportunity. My senses tell me this is a once in a lifetime event. It’s just that big. My guidance has been saying that this was tied to the devaluation of the dollar, and as I studied up on currencies, I saw that sure enough, the massive printing of money that took place over the last ten years especially, has shot a hole through the dollar. Remember “qualitative easing”? Yeah, nice term that has rendered the dollar worth less and less. Thing is, both the government and the Fed knows what effect this printing has on the value of the dollar, but they don’t care. It means everything is more expensive because your dollar is worth pennies compared to what it was worth a generation ago. If you make something ubiquitous, it loses value. If you could manufacture gold out of thin air, how long do you think gold would be of any value. It has value based on its rarity. So naturally, I thought that there was never a better opportunity to get into precious metals, which always spike when currencies go through a downward spiral. I had to sell my home if I was to be liquid enough to take advantage of this coming shift. And all events conspired in really the most amazing of ways to see that this would happen. It is a story in and of itself that is quite hard to wrap your head around, but is an example of how the right things will happen at just the right time for our benefit. I felt like I was squeezing in under the line when values for homes were at all time highs again, but just ahead of this very strange event that could leave people hurting if they were in the wrong place with their investments.

 

So a few months ago I sell my home, I begin looking at silver, and an odd thing happens. I feel a pause. My inner guidance is saying “It’s like silver, but it’s not silver….it’s way better than silver will ever be.” What the heck? What could this be, I wondered? So I began looking to see if I could find something that fit the bill. I was led out of real money and even hard assets as we think of them. What I found was the world of crypto currencies. Now hang on, because I want to explain something that my guidance is telling me is the decisive factor for why cryptos will be so big. They are a store of wealth that cannot be manipulated the way silver is currently being manipulated. And silver is definitely being manipulated big time, and who knows when the banks will lose their grip on silver. When they do, silver will go parabolic with valuations going from $16-20.00 an ounce to upwards of $200.00 an ounce and possibly higher. But who knows when this manipulation will end, right? My senses were saying this event is taking place now, and it sure doesn’t look like silver is at all involved.

 

 

So I learn all I can about these cryptos. And there it is…gains in the thousands of percent. Coins “minted” that are offered for pennies that go to hundreds of dollars. This is the kind of investing power I was seeing in my mind. Crypto currencies are entirely side stepping physical silver and gold and essentially saying “We are the new store of wealth” and giving the system a big middle finger in the process. The more I read, the more I felt convinced that this was it. Everything is now in place for the system to drive these investments into the stratosphere. That said, these stores of wealth will be volatile and they will be a roller coaster. They will go higher partly because they are an entirely new idea in its early stages and because so many people will ignore them or not see their true hidden potential. This is the kind of investment you will have to put away and ignore for a bit, unshaken by the tremendous highs and then lows they will take you on. But they will trend upwards and those who get in when the prices are low will be the ones to benefit the most. I suspect that within a matter of a couple of years another event will come along to normalize crypto currencies, such as the Fed/IMF (they are now the same if you haven’t heard…a real cause for concern btw) by I think either creating new regulation that slows their growth or by their issuing their own crypto currencies (euro and US crypto currencies). Before this happens, it’s the Wild West for investors and I suspect that its a small window in terms of time.

 

 

Im not here to give you investing advice. I am communicating what I have seen in my own experience as a way to help prove a point, which is that it is possible to carefully listen to your instincts once you have done enough inner work to leave the channel clear or open for this kind of guidance or inner clarity to exist. This is available to all of us and I’m sticking my neck out here since I will begin to invest in these currencies in the next few days, starting with Bitcoin, then using Bitcoin to buy into a whole field of small and big currencies. We will see how Litecoin goes, along with the new offerings that will take place in the next few months.

 

In the last week, all signs are that the experts in the field are saying very positive things for the next few months. While I cannot educate you about the block chain and how these coins exist or how most safely to store them, there are resources out there that can. Yes, this is a radically new idea, but it is built on a very old idea not unlike a contract. It’s just a piece of paper with words or numbers to identify the buyer and seller or the holder of an asset. With fiat currency taken off the gold standard in the early seventies, money itself has been little more than a crypto currency in a way. When we use a debit card, this is not unlike a crypto currency in that nothing physical except dots and dashes are being exchanged between devices…and yet you buy gas with these dots and dashes and you even pay your mortgage with it. Welcome to the crypto world. Except with crypto, it is meant to be by the people for the people, instead of a system that is controlled or manipulated by large banking interests. More and more crypto currencies are being made with algorithms built into them to keep them from being manipulated in more traditional ways. It’s moving so fast most of the banks aren’t able to keep up. I suspect it has taken the likes of JP and Golden by surprise. And who knows, maybe silver makes a surprise move, but I’m not going to wait for it. This event, if I am right, will happen with lightening speed and there is still time to get in early if you can stomach it.

 

While doing some research on another topic on religion for an upcoming post I had the following YouTube video pop up that has nothing to do with my recent activity on YouTube, which has been on crypto currencies. All of my cookies concerning cryptos are all done on a different device, so to have a video by a top predictive analyst like Cliff High is a bit odd. Let me explain that Cliff has discovered that he can predict events before they happen due to what he has found as a subconscious anticipation on everyone’s part of future events. This guy did predictive work for Microsoft for a number of years and he has tended to have a pretty good track record. He has managed to predict a number of market moves not based on normal analytics except watching his predictive patterns he is now known for. While the video I am going. To share with you sounds more rosy than what will likely happen, I feel it will be the closest at describing what this event will be like. It will be, I suspect, a transfer of wealth or the creation of entirely new value where it had not existed before. And it’s huge and hard to believe at first. It helps to know how right Cliff has been in order to understand how he is able to peer into the future for folks now that he is on his own and not bound by confidentiality agreements. That it’s popping up as I go to write this today is nothing short of wild. Here is the video:

 

How green is your grass?

4th of July! The view from my back yard. Feeling blessed and fabulously explosive tonight as I do some teaching on the fundamentals of seeing auras.

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It has been my feeling that when you can learn to use your inner senses that it helps to reveal to you an aspect of the world and of yourself that helps brings wonder and understanding to you.  Not long ago I was talking with my daughter, who for years had been told by her mother that her Dad was off his rocker when it came to my experiences in my inner life.  So I said to her that I could show her how to read auras.  I’d give her the master class over the summer so she could judge on her own just whose rocker belonged to who.  Its okay to be a skeptic.  In fact, its really important that you question the world around you, including claims about psi ability.  However, when you are faced with an ability like reading the aura, a whole new wrinkle in how you may have thought the world works opens up. And it is in this new view into the world that its important to test your abilities to make sure that YOU are comfortable with what it is that you think you are seeing or picking up on.

Let me explain what I mean.  When I first began seeing auras, I was lucky that I had a few friends who also were able to see them.  I utilized one friend’s ability as a type of “control” over about a year period as I tested what it was that I was seeing with my “new vision.”  We developed a kind of code that we used whenever we were out and about and I wanted to test what it was that I was seeing in the moment.  The code would be “What about that guy [pointing] up ahead in the fedora hat?”  for example.  She would then tune in and tell me what she saw.  The method was that I never revealed to her what it was I was seeing, I just wanted her to tune into a given person to test what it was I was seeing.  This was how I conducted a lot of my tests.  However, I also did other types of tests, too.

On the first day that I began to see auras, I was in a college classroom.  I had read about auras and had even known someone the previous summer who could see them, and I was fascinated with the idea that people could do this, so I learned a few things about it before I had begun to see them.  When I realized I was likely seeing them, I noticed some things right away that I remembered from my reading in a book about them.  While I was seeing this guy’s aura in class I noticed that he had these orange-yellow spires coming off his shoulders.  Everyone else’s aura was uniform around their bodies.  I surmized that this may have been the presence of pain in his physical body for some reason.  My classmate did not show outward signs of this pain, he just sat there in class like the rest of us.  Because he was someone from my dorm who lived on my floor, I walked up to him after class was through and said hello and clasped his shoulder gently in my welcome.  He winced and I pulled back asking if he was alright.  He explained that he had been lifting weights the previous evening with friends at the gym and had overdone it. His shoulders hurt!  “Huh” I thought.  I filed this bit of information away for later.

Over the following year I did countless “tests” like these, asking friends about what it was that I say in their energy field after I had seen evidence of something there previously.  I was able to build a rather large bank of information about the nature of the human energy field as a result of this that helped me to understand what I was seeing and also, perhaps more importantly, to show to myself and anyone else, that what I was seeing was beyond ordinary physical perception.

I will tell you that one of the last times that I actively read an aura was when I had the occasion to see Jane Goodall speak at a local school a few years ago.  We were in fairly close quarters in a small auditorium and found that I was seeing her energy.  For years I have not actively tuned in to energy in this way, but when I began seeing the flashes, I thought what the heck….and as I did, I was able to see something that I had seen on a few occasions, which was that I could detect the thought forms occurring in her mind moments before she would talk about them.  This was the interesting part because I was able to anticipate something she was going to say before she said it.  Thought forms are created in the mind as the mind is thinking about a memory or is somehow creating an image in their minds and this can sometimes be detected in the aura.  For years I had never seen such a thing, even though I had read about this in the book Hands of Light by Barbara Brennan.  So As I looked at her, I noticed that I was seeing a hunched form that had a distinctive loping kind of gate, and at the time Goodall was talking about a chimp that was hooting because she knew that another chimp was on its way.  She described the way that I saw the form seconds before she mentioned it as it moved just as she described.  These appeared not as solid objects, but were more like vapor-like forms, like a smudge on a window….ghostly in a way, but clearly present in yet another.

The aura or halo has been depicted throughout the East and West. Below, a Buddha sits with a head and body halo.
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So having said this, I encourage you to test what it is you see.  I also encourage you to learn how to relate, just as I did, to the colors and what they mean.  There are lots of simple and straight-forward charts on the colors and their meanings.  I have noted that in my experience that most of them are accurate for the most part.  However, I have noticed that some colors are different for me than they are in the charts.  And why? The reason is, I observe, as a result of my own feelings about these colors.  In my last installment in this two-part series I explained that auras really can’t be detected by the physical eye, but that, rather, they are the result of a rather miraculous facility the brain has, apparently, for being able to take nonphysical sensory data (psi data) and translate it into usable “physical sensory” information.  This is the root of what happens with all psi abilities I have noticed. Years ago I once interviewed a physiological psychologist who teaches and does research in this area and I asked him if the brain received signals that do not come from the physical senses, will it ever put that data into a sensory slot to make it seem as though it is coming from one of the senses?  “Oh yes, most certainly!” was his reply.  However, even though this all sounds like one big trick of the brain, it is based in real phenomenon that is being picked up on.  Sadly, it is not something that scientists have troubled themselves with looking into all that much. It has been considered a fringe subject, and no one wants that label, apparently.

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Red is most often equated with passion, love, and anger.  In my experience I hardly ever see red in people because I have a problem believing that anger and love can be described by the same color.  Instead, love often comes through as an intensity of a lighter more spiritual color (for me).

Orange- has always been related to anguish and sadness, as well as subsumed anger.  I have only seen orange on two occasions.  One person had been in a bad fight with his son an hour before and the other person was recounting their experience in a Nazi death camp.  I have seen orange as physical pain, but most often it is only a tinge of it.  Your results may vary.

Yellow – this color has always represented what I call the middle of the road type of energy.  It is often detected in auras as a very common color for many people.  it has a relationship to mental energy and being in the head. This tends toward positive energy and is a vibrant color that can be deep or light depending on the concentration and focus within that range.

Green – this has always had a double meaning and is at once spiritual and rooted in the here and now, for the most part, which also makes it a healing energy.

Blue – a spiritual color. This often relates to a strong commitment to what you are doing, that you feel your work or your state of being is tied directly into a purpose.

Violet – this color is likewise spiritual, but with a strong influence of the intuitive.  Often people with this color will exhibit strong psychic abilities.

With the colors in hand, there are a number of different wrinkles that add an incredible amount of variation into the mix.  First, there is the intensity of the color, which I would call brightness.  This is how powerfully focused a person is.  Sometimes a strong color will mean a person is really focused in what the color means, but this can also mean that the person’s energy is simply very strong.  You can detect which is which by observing the person and how they speak to determine which this likely is. I have seen some people whose colors are amazingly light….like a very very faint ice-blue, for example, without a lot of saturation (concentration of color).  Often, this can reveal that the thoughts and feelings are not well focused.  In some cases, it can reveal an other-worldy kind of focus.  How the person is expressing themselves verbally will most often tell the tale if you listen long enough.

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Another wrinkle is the size of the aura. For some people, the inner aura can be very compact and located close to the body.  This often is a strong local focus in the self and the body.  In some cases, the aura can be very large, in which case the person has not only a lot of energy, but a strong sense of presence.  This type of person is NOT a wallflower (usually).  Now having said that, you can get someone with a very strong aura like this who is very quiet.  Now what do you think that means

The other wrinkle is how the aura will shift and change from moment to moment. Does a person’s color change on a dime, or does it stay constant?  This says a lot about a person.
Some are like rocks while some are like kaleidoscopes.

In the image below, Ganesh is shown with the nimbus or aura around his head. This image comes very close to how the part of the aura appears that is closest to the body. There is normally lighter misty color that then surrounds the body, extending outward to about three to four feet.

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The other wrinkle are what I call localized effects that can be striations in the aura such as intense beams of light in certain parts of the aura as well as little bursts of light that look almost like stars.  These bursts behave a lot like little crystalized nodules of light that fly off from the aura or float for a few brief seconds before dissipating.  These are, I observe, the result of intense thought and feeling, and can be determined which they are based on the colors they are associated with and what parts of the body they are coming from (feeling may be more in the body while thinking may be nearer to the head for example).

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The aura, contrary to the chart above, is not seen as a rainbow. The “rainbow body” is usually only detected in people who have released a lot of suppressed emotional energy. The aura is lighter than depicted above. If I saw an aura as depicted in the image to the right, I would expect mental illness or physical illness.

Yet ANOTHER wrinkle are auras that are divided into multiple color zones.  One side of the body can have one color while the other side has yet another.  Not always, but often I have noted that when this happens, the person is feeling out of balance somehow.  this shows up as one side being one color and the other being another color. In other cases I have seen much more localized areas that go from one color to another.  In this case, thought and emotional energy, as well as physical energy is swirling and changing.

Taking all of this in as a whole while looking at the aura will provide you with a pretty broad world of possibility in what an aura can communicate.  Auras are highly personal in how they are from person to person, and this is important to note as you look at people.  I knew one person who never deviated from the base-line color that he had around his body the whole time I knew him except for one instance. And having said this, I have seen people whose “baseline” is to be a world of swirling changing energy.

I once had a teacher whose aura would do this really wild thing, which was so very much about who he was.  I never saw it in quite the same way with anyone else.  His aura was like a capacitor. Do you know what a capacitor is in electronics?  Well, if you don’t, a capacitor will draw energy, store it, and then release it suddenly after a given amount of time.  My teacher would have this aura that would grow in size in a sphere shape and then it would build in brilliance for a few seconds and then as he would say something, a thought in his head seconds before, his aura would flash brightly, after which it would then dim down until he got to his next idea.  What he was doing, I realized, was the WAY that he experienced his thoughts, which was like a flash of realization….moment to moment, though.  He was the kind of person who didn’t always know what he was going to say next, and was always in that moment of working it through mentally, and the moment that he realized HOW he was going to say what he was going to say, there would come this flash! It was at first disconcerting to see, but I came to realize that this was a peculiarity with how his own thinking went.

Now I have also seen similar flashes, many actually, in the aura, and they are often associated with a person thinking and then figuring out what they are about to say next, so this type of flashing can, in my own experience, be tied to seeing a person’s thought process unfold before me.  In fact, it is phenomenon like this that has helped me to understand how some people think and how they link language with the thoughts that they are thinking.  People who are very visual will often wind up with images passing through the aura almost like a kind of etheric television displaying their thoughts in a ghost-like form.  If you watch, you will often see that the flash comes just before the words come out.  In this way you can see how the aura will show you how the person is handling their thoughts, the character of how they think or process information.

Now occasionally, and only on a few cases have I seen dark colored auras.  This has been very rare. However, in one case, I saw a man who had a dark aura with very strange color patterns in it.  Instead of the colors being bright and light, they were…metallic in character.  I learned later that this person was on anti-psychotic medication for some issues he had with mental illness.  I was lucky in this case because I knew to steer clear of him based on what I had seen.

The aura can change throughout the body, from head to toe.  When this happens, you have to be able to intuit what the reasoning is for this.  Is it because of a weakness in one part of the physical body?  Subsumed emotion?  Perhaps blocked prana flow?  Any of these and more might be the culprit, so it is important to continue to view in order to tease out the reason behind what it is that you are seeing.  Being able to determine what “body” the energy is from is a studied ability.  This is not always easy to do, and it is best that you allow your own intuition and experience rule the day.

There are about five different bodies that are expressed in the aura. This is interesting because the Hindu describe five “koshas” a term that means sheath or layer, which means that they conceptualize all of our different aspects as layers or dimensional aspects in the energy body and consciousness and it shows up as these five layers.  In fact each chakra has five dimensional aspects that correspond to each of them. Okay, so the layers and what they are….

These five layers are the (1) emotional body, the (2) mental body, the (3) physical body, the (4) astral/soul body, and the (5) pranic or energy body itself.  All these energies go to form a matrix that make up who you are at any given moment.  Most often I have found that the energy that is tightly focused to the body IS connected to the physical body.  Again, you have to watch and observe, because sometimes this is not always the case! Sometimes when ideas or feeling are very pressing in the moment, I have seen this energy come to the fore and express itself close to the body when it most often plays through the aura more from a distance from the physical body itself.  I know that this all may sound dizzyingly complex, but in time you WILL be able to intuitively tease out which is which.  Experience will also be your guide in the same way that it was for me, but its good to take mental notes and then to also ask questions of your subject.  I recommend having numerous people who would like their aura to be read by you in exchange for communicating to you what it is that they are feeling so that you can learn to calibrate what it is you are seeing with what the person is revealing.  Remember; you are actually feeling all of this deeper down, so if you can learn to forge a good relationship with the part of you that feels (this is not to be confused with emotion….this is your inner sensitivity, which is a different thing).

Still yet another wrinkle in this is how far out you can detect the aura.  How far can you see outward from the aura?  In the beginning you might only see energy close to the body.  In time, though, you may learn to see further and further away from the body.  This tends to get into the subtle or astral body and leads into issues connected to the soul.  The more accute your sensing becomes, the further outward you will most often be able to see.  Also, there are some people whose energy goes beyond ones ability to even see.  Many years ago, about the first year I was seeing auras, I had the opportunity to see a native American healer speak at a nearby college. My friend and I went to see him and we both “tuned in” to see what his energy looked like.  And we both saw the strangest thing; he had no color at all!  In fact, his energy was more like non-colored lines of force that I had seen in natural objects, but not in people.  Not only this, but his energy would build and then it would drop back….it was doing this pulsing thing the whole time he was speaking.  It was as though he was a channel for some energy that was itself on the very edge of our ability to detect.  This man had been involved in some important healing work and was able to draw physical sickness out of a person in a way that appeared rather miraculous to us at the time.

It is possible that when you first start seeing the aura that you do not detect color.  This sometimes is the case for some people.  In this case, I think it is instructive to allow yourself to open up more to let the color in.  I know how this sounds, but you are not dealing with something thought-based but something that is all about feeling….and you most certainly can and do feel auras first and foremost.  As you look at the aura ask yourself where is the color?  Ask yourself to show the color and then wait.  Keep looking, keep observing, and be patient.  The matter is one of tuning in.

If you are unable to see the aura well using the methods I showed you in the first installment, I will tell you about how I first began to see auras, because I think it is helpful in understanding just how much this does not have to do with what you think or anything in your head.

I was late for class.  I had been working in my room and I had to sprint clear across campus to get to class before the bell tolled and I was late.  My teacher had always said that if you are late, don’t bother coming.  He often dismissed students who came in only a minute late to class.  So I was chugging away and running as fast as I could. I sped past the dorms and then the library and then the chapel. I was about ready to feel like I was going to faint when I rounded the steps up to the Art building.  I felt like I was being deprived of oxygen.  Everything I was doing was focused on getting enough oxygen back into my body so I could walk into the classroom. I made it to class on time and as I walked up the steps, I breathed very deeply so I would not be huffing and puffing in class.  What happened during this experience was I was suddenly focused in my body, not in my head.  A shift had happened. It was just enough to bring energy into focus for the first time.  And that was it: I was using my body, not my mind, to FEEL this energy.  And what I know is that when I tune into auras, I feel as though my whole body, my own energy body, is actually the thing that is picking this all up.  I have often felt as though I had this satellite dish in my solar plexus that picks all of this up.  “What does your gut say?” is an apt term to use here.  The idea is that we do not use our minds, we are using the whole of our own energy field to detect other fields like our own around us.

Now I tell you this story partly because it could help you in developing another way to see auras that is based in the mechanics of seeing.  Maybe you might want to work out with some heavy cardio and then see what you see.  Get out of your head and  get into your body.  FEEL.  The other reason I am telling you this is because I told a friend of mine about my aura experience and about a year later he told me the story of a friend of his who also started to see auras and she had told him that she had been running across campus, too.  However, my friend was at a school in Virginia while I was at a school in another state.  There was NO WAY for the woman who started seeing them to have known about my story at all.  I think we both hit upon the same trigger, which is strong exercise to root you in the awareness of the body.  The level of exertion I had was such that I was breathing heavily and I felt as though my heart beat was pounding in my chest, the whole of my body, and also my eyes.  I was completely focused in my body.  So there is that important bit of information for you!

Walter Kilner wrote a book entitled The Human Aura.  It is available from Amazon and while it is not a psychic review of the aura, but rather one that involved the use of sensitizing screens made up of cyanin for seeing the aura, a lot of the shapes and issues he saw while doing his work as a doctor is accurate for anyone who wants more insight. he method that Kilner used was to, perhaps, extend his visual acuity into the range where auras begin to be seen through a sensitizing process.  I suspect that some of Kilner’s observations may have also been of a psi nature mixed with his screen method.  Its an older book, perhaps from the 40’s or so, but is relevant for anyone who wants to know more. There is not a huge amount of information out there on this aside from the now-popular aura photography (which I can’t speak to since I am not familiar enough with it—it may be accurate but it appears to use a different method with different results that are at variance with the color schemes I see naturally).

Djwal Kuhl, who, as I recall, was the name of an ascended master who channeled the book some years ago has a book about the aura also.  My memory is that it is less about mechanics and more about issues related to clearing ones own aura and doing spiritual work (which may in fact be helpful).

The benefit of using your inner sensing to see auras is that in healing work you can keep some energies from becoming entangled in your own.  However, when doing healing work, it is important to realize that the healer should themselves be healed before embarking on healing work or else the imprint of healer or patient can be made.  This is where the healer must work carefully and consciously. if you have an issue that you have not healed, you will often find that you have patients who come to you with the same issue or a related issue. These will also change as you do healing work.  This is based on discussions I have had with other healers.  The law of attraction at work.  So it is helpful to get as clear as you can to be as helpful wen working with energy healing.  The more healed you are, the more neutral you will be and the more effective you will be.

One thing that is possible is that you can detect illness before it manifests in the body.  You can see conditioned that involved blocked energy that if you do healing work, you can more directly address quickly by looking at the aura.  I once knew a doctor who used his ability to see the aura as a prelude to his own exam of his patients.  He never let them know that he saw the aura, but it helped him to more clearly understand the root of the problem.  Unfortunately, in our present day, we think that the answer often lies in popping a pill.  The benefit for seeing energy is that sometimes when it comes to physical problems you can often detect that the problem where the person is identifying as the point of trouble or pain is actually located in another part of the body and that this is creating a “cascade” of other symptoms.  This can often happen with the spine and legs.  Pain in the lower back can sometimes show up in the knees or feet, or even in the shoulders depending on the type of imbalance.  Knowing this can clue you in much more quickly than a “hunt and peck” method.

As I sit here, I am laying back and looking at the energy in my hands and I realize that my own aura has changed over time.  I see now how there is a rainbow of colors that come out of my fingertips and that this relates to something having to do with the flow of prana in my body. I see how two of my fingers are more strongly charged with energy and that these fingers also correspond, interestingly, with the active fingers with meridian lines as described in Chinese medicine, for example. I also see how an emotional issue has effected one side of my body today and it has not yet cleared up in my right hand.  As a result, I focus energy into that part of my body in order to clear up the blocked energy which is just my holding back some emotion.  As I do a simple breathing exercise I can see how the energy comes back into my body since breathing always helps me to ground myself in the body as well as relax me. As I do this, I see how on one side of the opposite hand, there is a strong glow of violet color, which shows that I am tapping into my own intuitive power and my inner senses.  My physical health is excellent as the brilliance of my energy shows.  My color is a changing force-field that adapts to the needs of the moment.  Perfect.

The aura is often described as electromagnetic in nature.  I think that it is certainly this as we have a low level of electricity flowing through us all the time. But prana is a still-finer energy vibration that electricity, and it is this finer energy that shows up along with the field of physical energy.  Prana is itself the energy that records and shows all other energies.  I say this because I observe that it is through prana that all other energies get recorded into the vast field of energy that exists all around us and the planet at any given time.

Beyond this is also energies in nature, in plants and animals and in objects.  Sometimes we leave some of our energy behind us in things.  Some years ago I saw the most amazing thing happening with a tree in my yard.  This took place at night and I had never seen anything like this before, which was that I saw thousands of very fine points of light that were flowing out of the tree and into the night air.  As I watched this I asked myself what on earth this was.  The simple answer was that the tree was “breathing” out energy that it built up during the day and needed to release at night.  I had simply never been able to detect this type of energy before.  I had seen fields around trees and animals, but nothing like this before. The whole earth itself is a living biosphere full of all kinds of energy.  We all exist like fish exist in a sea.  We share it together.  We feel it all together, even when we are unaware or focused in other directions.  Sometimes, when you become adept at picking up on energy in this way, open your mind to the world mind, to the body of the world and feel into that rich sphere of awareness and see what there is for you to see and know.  This is YOUR Gaia.  This is your cradle of life.  What does it mean for you?  What does its energy tell you beyond the mirror of your own thoughts?

Seeing the aura can provide you with a wealth of information that can help you a lot in your life.  You can detect emotional and mental issues pretty quickly in the aura.  It can give you perspective and it can help you a lot in your own inner work by showing you that yes, we are multidimensional beings and yes, energy is a real thing.  It can bring new perspective and it can inoculate you against the ignorance of a strict physicaly-oriented view of the world.

 

Join me Sunday at 3:00 E.S.T. for information on how to sense energy fields.

Soulfully Yours,

Parker

Healing work can only come through a brutal self honesty….also referred to as “radical self honesty.”  This is because of how  adept we are at ducking responsibility for how we react and respond to others around us.  Until you are able to get to this deep level of honesty about what is happening, you will be unable to heal. It seems that only this kind of self examination is the prerequisite to true healing.

Not long ago I was able to heal something pretty important in my life.  I had been told for years that I might just have to find a way to forgive the person who was part of the issue that has been involved.  It sounds reasonable to think this, and I think that in some cases, it works.  But what I have found is that the only path to true healing is by forgiving yourself.  Why?  It seems that karma has to do with you, not the world.  This is the radical side to being honest.  If something was your problem, then forgiving another person would not heal the karma.  The only way is to inquire within not without. If the problem really is about how you felt, then forgiving another is like lying to yourself, the same act as projecting all of your junk on another when that junk should be examined as your own baggage, not the other way around. On a karmic level, it is dishonest to try and saddle another person for your own shit, but sadly this is what we all do at some point or another.  My recent healing was in learning not to be reactive to those who would try to make their own shit my problem.  I simply stopped responding, stopped reacting.  This small simple thing gave me enough breathing room in my spirit to effect the release of something that has dogged me for so long.  It worked because it was true.  The soul knows the truth even when the personality does not.  You can’t bullshit yourself into the truth.  You just can’t.

I was also talking with an old friend and teacher from my college days today.  I had reached out to see how she was after she had gone through a PhD program and went from doing art to a big change into mediation work with inner city kids.  Something told me that something was up and that I needed to check in after a couple of years of being out of touch.  I recently contacted another old teacher in the same way recently to express to him how his teaching had impacted my creative life.  He died about six months after I told him this.  Life waits for no one.  So I jumped on this and acted because, well, you just never know.

We wound up in a conversation about the trials she has been going through with family.  She explained how this other person was the source of so much pain in her life.  Gently, through a series of turns, I explained how important it was to learn to see these things in a different way.  I began with a simple quote by Wayne Dwyer which states that how someone else acts is their karma, and how YOU react to them is your karma.  Do you get that small but important difference?  No one ever makes you feel any way at all, except that we each choose, yes choose, to feel the way we do.  After all, I explained, she could easily have a sibling who, going through the exact same thing might just wave off the same behavior as something not worth worrying about when it comes to that other person.  I see this all the time. I saw it in my family, I have seen it in class mates in college, and I have seen it in my children, too.  Two children living the same kind of life see and react completely differently.  The difference is in how we choose to feel.  Simple.  But people continue to want to see that it is the other person’s fault for HOW they MAKE them feel.  No, no one MAKES you feel anything.  YOU make YOU feel.  That is how things work.  Knowing this and living this truth is the only way to get out of the emotional and spiritual prison that we often find ourselves in, in our lives.

The problem with how we normally go about this way of relating is that we make everyone around us responsible for our feelings.  Normal sensitivity aside, we each have a choice.  I explained to her that by thinking and acting this way she not only misdirected her awareness, she also gave her sibling the power that she now has over her, which she has such a glitch now in dealing with.  It has resulted in a pretty big block emotionally for her, and she wound up revealing the severity of how she felt (which wound up being the most honest thing she could have done during our talk).  But the challenge is that she has this block that goes way back to her past, an issue she knows comes from when she was a small child. And the problem with these old repressed and blocked emotions is that they emerge in our adult lives with the same level of maturity in them as when they were shoved down and repressed to begin with.  Now imagine having a feeling that haunts you that was designed by a three year old. No perspective, lots of drama, and me, me, me. That is the kind of thing you get over and over until the issue is healed.  Can you imagine just how hard it would be to have to deal with the merry go round of feeling  something like this?

Until we can get really honest with ourselves about what is at work within ourselves, these repressed emotions simply keep playing themselves over and over seemingly with no end in sight, no resolution.  People die or move away and so often we feel like they are the people that we need in order to work this out with.  But this is the trick that keeps every  one of us in the game of our karmic entanglements.  She even asked me if she could clean this mess up if one or more of the people involved had passed from this life.  The answer was a firm “Yes!” because even though someone does die in the body, their soul lives on (and besides, the karma is not on THEM, it is on the person who owns it).

To do this, you just need radical honesty perhaps for the first time ever.  Take a moment and stop thinking about how someone pushes your buttons or upsets you and focus on how you wind up reacting to them. It is here, in how you actually do choose to react, that the problem emerges….for you.  Trust me, the way to healing all of this is by doing this.  When you hear yourself saying the words, “But he made me feel so rotten, so terrible….” STOP!!  Stop right there and back it up a little and look at what is happening here.  No, they are not the one who has power over you.  You have the power.  You have the power to find a way to release this so that YOUR issues cease entering into the marketplace of emotion.  You can go from being upset to realizing that this is just their stuff and has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them.  Pity the soul who must make another responsible for how they feel.  How powerless a state is that to be in?

The first step in authentic healing work is to clear up this one issue first.  If you are used to being the victim in life, this will be a hard one to overcome.  It will take time and training your mind to see things differently. But as you do, you will increasingly begin to breathe the fresh air of freedom instead of the stale air of dependency.  We have to be very clear about whose stuff is whose stuff.  My friend described a dream she had in the wake of a difficult encounter with her sibling that involved someone having pooped all over her yard.  Even in her dreaming she was aware that bad stuff was happening, but she was focused on the poop coming from someone else.  In the end, the shit was hers.  By going back into the dream, I explained, and imagining herself cleaning it up without making it anyone’s problem but her own, it would be one important way to cement just whose poop is whose, and then it would change the terms of engagement forever.  But I know how hard it is to shift so radically in order to see it this way.

Now mind you, I was the gold standard in shifting the blame at one point in my life.  I saw where it got me: nowhere.  Even though I did believe that others were responsible for my happiness, I learned that there is a different way, a more realistic way, and it is in our grasp.  When you can do this, this radical reorientation of the self, then things can change pretty quickly.  We each deserve this honesty even as we fear what its implications might be.  But the fear is unfounded.  Why we fear being honest might come from the fear of the unknown, or of upsetting others, or getting hurt by those who cannot or wont hear the truth.  But those who cannot bear the truth are probably not anyone that you could stand to be with in any significant way.  In the end, it is the greatest compassion you can pay yourself, something that might be hard, but is the greatest act of self love you can give yourself.  This really isn’t about anyone else but you, and the buck must stop here.

May you cast a great light in your life….

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