Not long after what I would describe as an over-the-top energy event, I had a new wrinkle that surprised me.
In the midst of feeling like I may have been responding to turmoil in the world by getting blasted with energy, I received some suppliments in the post that I had ordered just before this latest spike. The irony is that one was a human growth factor precursor and another that boosts testosterone. Like I really need it, right? Was I crazy? My intuition said I should get them, sense be damned, it seems.
I began taking the suppliments about two weeks ago and found that they helped to moderate the very high bliss with sensual energy down to something that made me feel more like I was in my body and more grounded. Curiously, this led to less sexual/sensual bliss and more of a feeling of physical energy and groundedness.
It was like drinking an espresso before going to bed in order to sleep. You wouldn’t have thought that would be what I should have taken, but it helped a lot and it has boosted the hours that I work. I’m not sure that is a good thing since I am working seven days a week now and I really ought to take more time off for myself.
I was curious to see if it was just my imagination. After going off the suppliments, the pranic energy came roaring back like before. I found that I missed this feeling of being grounded. Instead, I found myself meditating on a feminine presence that served to ground my energy. I am under no illusion that this is an aspect in my own “subtle psyche,” which is that part of us connected to, or aware of, other lives lived and available for tapping into them for insight and help in gaining awareness into certain psychological states, for instance. In Gnostic terms, this is the szygy, the blend of like-masculine and like-feminine into a unity, that unity that serves to give vigor or life to kundalini.
As the last weeks have shown, a major operation has been underway in the U.S. under Biden and the allies, which has been to induce an invasion on the part of Russia so the U.S. could slap on sanctions and then legally sell it’s LNG to Germany which once was being sold by Russia.
With the propaganda machine being ratcheted up, casting this as being about democracy, the invasion would stop if Ukraine did what Russia has called for for decades: remain neutral and stop attacking the separatists in the Dombas region. Instead, the U.S. has been determined to ignite a new cold war with Russia. The maniacs are in control, and they are trying to play on our patriotism to push their agenda. Meanwhile Condaleeza Rice says on t.v. that Putin invading Ukraine illegally makes him a war criminal. God help us all. Invasions, the U.S. stoking a new cold war, unnecessary actions that suggest a deeper agenda…and all of this perhaps causing the ripples that I would feel as an over the top energetic response?
I am glad to find that my intuition was on the mark in regards to the supplements, I am feeling much more peaceful. None of it made any sense, though, not conventionally. Is it possible to get these effects as we age? I am sure a lot of this post doesn’t make any sense either.
I work weekends so yesterday and today were my days off. While I ran some errands, I wound up back in the studio cranking out new work, working until past nine p.m. when I realized how late it was and that maybe it was time to relax and go to bed. That in fact is what I am about to do. That’s the news from the wilderness…
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Hormones differing, I can say that entering menopause is an extremely grounding situation insomuch as that extra energy is pure Earth and Fire! And it’s a good time for that, given world conditions. When we’re grounded, we stay busy doing things that benefit the Here and Now, and the energy demands that we stay busy. More time sinking the hands into the soil. It’s possible that some of this is repurposing sexual energy. Not sure, but interesting…
I do wonder if I have been getting sexual energy and bliss through dopamine and endorphins, less than hormones. It seems entirely counterintuitive…but stimulate testosterone and it actually calms the bliss…that is what makes me wonder if I’m not just tapping into the energy more than the physical aspects of it. After years of a detached state —it’s been helpful for a bunch of work—it is nice to have this more normal state. It feels like I am in my left brain for a bit but without the restricted feeling. I really don’t know what to think. It’s almost like everything is backwards…except that may just be because of how much bliss I feel on a daily basis.
Don’t mind me, I’m just yammering.
I have found these posts about the energy spike very interesting. Sorry, not merely because of a fascination with your own ‘process’, but because of me as well (ha! ha!).
I have found myself going around some days doing what needs to be done in the external world (well, some of it…..) but almost on automatic. It’s getting done OK, but my mind, my energy, is really elsewhere. Something, or some things, are happening, and I trust that they need to happen, but they are way off the map of ‘ordinary consensus reality’. While it’s always been a bit touch-and-go interacting with the worlds of many other people, it has recently been super-tricky. One voice says that I should simply close off from other most folk, and just get on quietly with whatever.
So I offer no solutions to anything. But I am heartened to read of at least one other person on the planet who might be able to empathise with my own weird happenings (actually, I’m sure that there are plenty of such folk out there).
I’m with you on Ukraine, etc. I sense that the levels of deception which sometimes take place will send many people into cognitive dissonance overdrive! I do wonder whether the discrepancy between inhabited psychic worlds just continues to increase ie the difference between the world you inhabit and that portrayed by mainstream media and believed in by vast numbers of people. And I do wonder whether this creates a kind-of bumpy effect in the consciousness of those of higher frequency, as it is sometimes described.
I guess we hang in there the best we can! Try not to go totally crazy! Support one another., even by simply saying ‘hello, I hear you’. And recall that maybe it’s one of the purposes for our being here in the first place.
There is also the interesting matter of the supplements. I feel that the kundalini energy, and the syzygy which feeds it, are on a different ‘level’ from any dietary or hormonal supplements we may take. Not that they are totally disconnected, either. I recently began taking some simple and basic saw palmetto-cum-zinc supplement for prostate health, and it seems to have had an unexpectedly pronounced effect in a number of ways.
Activation of kundalini energy appears to render me extremely sensitive to what might previously have been very minor changes. Mary Shutan goes into this somewhat with regard to food, and from what I recall spent several months living on nothing other than rice and avocados, such was her sensitivity to foods (yum yum!). I find large meals destructive, but seem to require fairly regular food intake, to avoid a gnawing hunger feeling sometimes.
Also alcohol – and probably other mind-affecting substances. I used to enjoy a couple of glasses of wine with a meal – ah, those were the days. But nowadays the smallest sip of a beer will be a definite downer, as energy dulls down and seems to leak away like mad.
Funny thing happened last week when I saw your first comment, Ian. Something said to me that you weren’t finished…and I thought that that might just be silly of me to think that, but it was JUST enough to keep me from replying. Aaaand….then you responded in part two!
By then, though, I was no longer in a lull with work and back from the frying pan into the fire, so I couldn’t respond! But Ian, I hear you, lol!
What you just enumerated, or described has been just my suspicion, which is that while body and soul are part of a dynamic whole while alive and in the body, I do feel that there is a part that is “elsewhere” that has its own life independent of the vagaries of physical life, and as such, I think that it has its own spectrum of inputs and effects and sensory phenomenon….a world unto itself yet one with many doors that can and do open out into worlds like ours, the world of the physical body.
While I think supplements have done a lot to shift experience for me in the body, there is still this niggling sense that there is a part “out there” or “in here” that continues on its own kind of way regardless. In fact, as I slow down on the supplements, I find myself tapping into what I sense is the etheric and having what I have always found to be authentic contact experiences in that realm of no-time and no-space.
I am still quite convinced that this condition serves to stimulate dopamine along with endorphins and sometimes far too much adrenaline…as well as the endocrine system, which is I think why people call kundalini “libidinous” or sexual. I think that energy (maybe its just a little extra electricity used in the body…who knows really) could be enough to stimulate the body in a very positive way but also stimulate sensuality and sexuality as well. I do note, though, that the supplements that stimulated my body along certain lines also tended to shut down inner sensing a bit, which I think is interesting. It is though nice to see many of the works in the Gnostic thread of Christianity dealing so much with the concepts of union, or “coming from the undivided” and the importance of the bridal chamber and “begetting” in all of this. “We were begotten again in the bridal chamber.” Pretty sure that was Philip right there.
I agree with you about food even…which has at certain times had powerful effects. For me, though, the effect of some foods will be with me for a bit, a season, and then it is as if my condition has changed enough that the old effect is no longer creating the feeling as before. That said, I remember discovering Indian curry along with very spicy food, which, for about 6 months, gave me the most amazing sense of well being and bliss. I suspect that I am a bit like a person on a train…moving through different territory of my being day in and day out sometimes, and this has an effect on my physiology in subtle and overt ways.
Okay, I think I have yammered on just about enough! It’s my day off but I was busy as a bee and feeling bad about not getting back to you. So here it is at the end of the day and I am kind of fried. Time to go commune with the subtle lights I guess. Thank-you for so much food for thought, as always.
I spent five months living on a very bland diet consisting of grain porridges…truth be told I ate once a week for five months and my real inclination was not to eat at all since I had no hunger at all (it just switched off all on its own, no real reason for it – I LOVE food!) but I knew if I did what my body was telling me that I might die. Maybe I wouldn’t. Maybe my body was in a sense clearing the decks at a deep level, who knows, but I ate that one small simple meal of oats or corn for five months until my appetite returned all on its own accord. It also suggested to me or showed me that if I really needed to, I could survive a famine. Maybe that’s what’s facing us with all the elites…anyway…(awkward silence)…lol!
I love your posts about your energy spike. I experienced one in 2020 that has mellowed out a bit. At the same time I have so many powerful uranian and neptunian astrological placements. I’m curious to know if you have any interesting Uranian or neptune placements as well. Meditation has been my go to.
Hey you. Good to hear, I almost didn’t post about it. I think by virtue of my being Pisces that puts me in the realm of Neptune.
This feels like I am for some reason tapping into an energy field. Is it humans as a collective? Is it the Schumann Ressonance? Solar activity? h.a.r.r.p.? I don’t know. But when I do the opposite, going off hormone boosters/precursers the opposite happens (goes high, and Ian commented about something sounding similar). Is that because I have become a giant antenna? I am beginning to think so. Maybe we all are.
I have been working hard to focus in different areas to channel all that…energy…but it seems there is only so much I can do. It seems a little rediculous sometimes…like someone turned up the volume (again). Wait for me to whip out my violin, lol!
So meditation works well for you. Do you find it calms things a good bit? I am considering using these suppliments again.
Thanks for the plentiful reply to my comment! The topic of diet, and your five months on grains porridge (even more of a yum! yum! than Mary Shutan’s rice and avocados!), leads to another wondering that I have had. This is that, under certain circumstances (especially kundalini-related ones), the body’s requirements become very different to what is typically believed. For example, you should have died if most modern nutritionists are to be believed. No vitamin C, no vitamin this, no vitamin that. But here you are….
Another area with related belief is ‘sleep’. You should get eight hours’ sleep: this is the main mantra. I recall a visit I made to a homeopath about five months into my initial kundalini awakening. It was pretty much at a peak, blasting through here, there, and everywhere. ‘So what about your sleep, Ian?’ was one of the homeopath’s questions. ‘Well, I don’t really do sleep these days’ was my honest reply. This normally dispassionate homeopath opened her eyes wide, and her jaw dropped. This didn’t fit in with normal notions of balance, harmony, etc. I reassured her that I was fine, sometimes dropping off to sleep for a few minutes, and I felt no lack. I don’t know what she really felt about it all.
There is, I suppose, some kind of reality about these ‘eight hours a day sleep’, ‘five portions of fruit and veg a day’ sayings, under more typical circumstances. They may help to point some people in the right direction, though they are lamentably one-size-fits-all in nature. But the human organism refuses to be contained within such parameters, and is capable of far more weird and wonderful things. Wim Hof is an obvious example.
I hope and pray that your ability to live on grain porridge never becomes a survival necessity in the future! However, you are right, I wouldn’t rule it out….. Aaaargh!
I am the same I feel like a giant antenna and like I am tapping into a field as well! Well put. I can resonate so much. I take amino acids, I’m on a gluten free diet but it’s energetic I know exactly what you mean. Yes to me it’s like my energy body wants to go completely monk mode. That is so beautiful that you’re a pisces. I keep thinking it’s connected to uranus and neptune for some reason. Oh yes these things are fascinating. Thank you for being so honest about it. It’s refreshing.
A friend said to me a number of years ago that I couldn’t just become a monk. What this has done has been to turn me into a stranger in a strange land. I remind myself that the change has been absolutely worth it. Maybe this is the genesis of cosmic reach or grasp. The cosmic bliss tribe.