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I was not satisfied with the teaching in church….I knew there was more. I didn’t know what it was, only that it was wanting. I knew this above all else, beyond the explanations of others that I was merely “prideful” or unable to take the teaching as truth. No, there was more, I knew it beyond all else.
When I awakened I was lucky to have seen how there WERE teachings by Jesus himself which he passed on to his disciples in books that spoke directly about a process whereby one entered the kingdom. These were central teaching that acted like a key to understanding everything else Jesus was teaching in his ministry. The problem was that these teaching were demonized and anathematized by the church. These were part of this something “more.” I knew that in fact Jesus was teaching his followers about awakening and that the truth was hidden or obfuscated in numerous ways. History offered up her secrets and laid bare the many ways that contributed to our losing these central teachings. What is so amazing to me is that these teachings are actually the lynch pins in understanding all that Jesus taught about. It’s pretty incredible to look at all of this and know that this went down in the way that it did.
I once wrote about this issue and had some of my friends asking me why I was so critical about Christianity, or why I hated the church. It’s too easy to feel that way when dealing with this issue and to me, it is an easy way out of actually examining things closely and asking some very fair questions. But it’s not out of a deep hate or any of that. In fact, it is quite the opposite. I want a religion that offers the keys to self realization, of actually knowing what this kingdom is. Truth is a curious thing; we can have all levels of it and still be missing key points.

I have done the hard work of inquiring and looking. I have poured through the texts of the New Testament as well as those that were not included, from apocrypha to the Nag Hammadi. I have studied issues surrounding translation, how the contextual nature of Aramaic actually does matter when translating to any language, as well as what biblical scholars are saying that pastors dare not touch. More than this, I awakened and saw that the only books that helped describe my new state of being were the words of Jesus teaching his followers about the kingdom, which fit my experience perfectly….but also happened to have been deemed heresy. They had been cast aside and had never made it into canon.  The more that I read, the more it became clear that what we got was a version of the truth, but not the full truth.  I’m not even suggesting that this was some sort of conspiracy.  It may have been simply a conspiracy of ignorance acted upon by those who had less than the full story.  But even half the story is better than no story, and it wasn’t as if we weren’t getting truths.  We just didn’t get its heart, and this, dear readers, is the hardest one to swallow for some of us today.  It is covered over first by some 1700 years of tradition and then it includes a whole new dimension of thinking added, a great mystery that has been hidden from all of us (for whatever reason).

Since my experience in awakening is the same exact phenomenon as others who have awakened, and it’s all described in the same way by nearly everyone, and is being described in these cast-away texts, it begs the question; isn’t it possible that something very important was missed? And perhaps, then, might this missing piece be important to know the fullness of this man’s great insight and teaching? If you found out that the teaching of Jesus was incomplete, wouldn’t you, as a follower of Christ, want to know? I’m asking you to put your pride aside and get curious and be simple like children, ripe for hearing what might just be really big news.

Awakening, which is the kingdom, brings a renewed way of using the mind. If you can teach yourself to forgo mere rational thought, you can activate more and more of your capacity for understanding, which is truly liberating. It requires humility because there is so much to give up in order to see in this way. There is a blizzard of biases and beliefs that rage in such places, and the very religion that was created to support these teachings has essentially continued to demonize the concept of awakening in some quarters. Once these biases have been cleared, though, the mind becomes a luminous field of awareness in direct proportion to how much bias has been released. But it isn’t just that, it’s letting yourself be shown, led, taken by the presence of the indwelling divine and it’s child which is the Christ consciousness. Others call it Cosmic Consciousness, or Cosmic Mind. It is all the same and emerges in the same way in each tradition because this is what we ALL are, rather than the beliefs we hold. Remember how Jesus said the kingdom is within you? That might just be an important clue to all of us. It’s what’s inside-this does not happen outside of any of us. Where, then, do you think you will meet God?

This more asks me to continually to let go of my familiar moorings to here and as I do, new understanding floods in, mysteries become knowns, and the universe resolves into a greater and greater miracle. But no words can contain this more…you just have to go and see for yourself.

All of this is like a seed that grows into a sprout, then a plant, and then a flower. The flower opens more and more and this flower is awareness. This is how awakening proceeds; it is the smallest of seeds that grows in stages. More and more, it opens, revealing still-deeper layers of comprehension. To get there, I lay aside all rational thought and allow my mind to go blank. Yes, blank. It is here that absent thought a great and ineffable presence grows that is a love unlike any other. Everything I could ever wish to know becomes available in that “space.” If you believe you can’t, you probably won’t….but if you consider it possible, then it becomes possible. I wish this for everyone because it reveals our own foolishness and opens us to wonder and awe. The world so needs this right now.

Until next time….


So many admonishments made by old wise guys from centuries past telling us to eschew pleasure, ego, control, focus, desire…..


It isn’t the material that is the problem.  It is how the material can enslave us….how it can master us because we are ourselves unable to utilize the CREATION in a way that is positive.  Look at your life.  Are you creating separation or unity in your life?  In your work, do you knit people together or do you wind up penalizing and punishing people?  Look at it honestly.  Is your life running you or are you running your life from this one moment? 

Many who awaken wind up with a sense of grandeur at some point.  There is this belief they have a mission to save the world.  And in a sense, this is true….but the weight of the All is bearing into us in moments like this.  The experience of nonduality in awakening means that an experience with, say, making soup for lunch connects you to every bowl of soup every enjoyed….really.  You feel a grain of sand in your sandal and suddenly you feel the whole of the deserts rushing through your soft grasp…..this is HOW it is.  But the grandiose is there because….well….because of the sheer scope of it all.  Now connected into this vastness, you FEEL vast because you are by connection and definition.  No worries….but keep it in perspective.  We are all one.  We inherit so much in this.  For as hard as it can sometimes be, it can be the path to true liberation.  The “path” takes many turns.  For as alone as this has made me feel, I know now that I came here for this….to clean it up on my terms, to do it as my soul has sought to do it even if no one understands or can relate.  It will lead to something remarkable when you can surrender to your own truth.  Not doing so creates conflict and problems invariably.  Live your truth even if it means that others do not understand.  This is a giant leap off into the deep blue.  How could it be understandable by anyone who has not themselves awakened?  And yet, in being awake, does anyone really need to relate except to respect your path, perhaps?

This means a ripple of an wave can move through me and move through the entire Collective of humans on the planet.  I can sit and sing and ask the infinite to potentiate the vibrations of that song and it does….a steady gentle Ohm Padme….and then some other sounds meant to shake out the harder stuff from the Collective.  Have you ever tried this?  It is almost as though some larger part of you exists just beyond reach….you send it up like a prayer….a purposeful prayer and thread your awareness into it like one thread in this much larger tapestry that is this higher self. 

So its not grandiose to say we can change the world through intention.  For those who think this is all about sitting on the couch, you will miss the point that monks have been doing this for thousands of years.  A few years ago while in meditation one of my guides came and sat down next to me.  I was having a really hard time with some stuff and he said “All you have to do is step out of the old and into the new….it is hard for you to see how easy this can be…but the template has been prepared over centuries by the prayers of countless pilgrims and monks and aspirants from every religion imaginable….the blueprint has already been made.  Now step into it.”

So I will pray that this ripple through me spreads out into every silent night and between the cracks of each moment in a grandiose way.  I pray each day for the Christ, the Cosmic to become manifest.  It is why I am here.  Isn’t it why you are here?

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