The Yearning: Rewind To Preawakened State

My awakening came gradually. It came in somewhat measured steps. The first step clearly opened me to a strong flow of prana and my first experience of nonduality. Then, over five months, I began having innexplicable events occurring that led me deeper. A friend loaned me a hemisync cd for clearing emotional baggage. Another gave me a meditation technique I have detailed in the last post.

A Voice spoke in my mind telling me to close my eyes and focus on the center of my brow. Complying, I awakened my third eye, a process that expanded over several days once I focused my attention there and saw the fiery brightly lit eye emerge into my field of vision. Then I was taught or tutored in how to alter my consciousness to take advantage of the wave-form part of our consciousness, the part we call the feminine, the Shakti, the right brain and left side of the body. Everything was unfolding, gradually, carefully, as if by some plan. I wrote about it to close friends. I had no idea what it was leading to.

I had several events that all directed me along a path to awakening in a way that left me the last to know what all of these things were adding up to. Clearly, a higher intelligence was involved. This is not to say everyone must awaken the way I did. What is clear to me, because of my own experience, that at the base of awakening is an effort to break through a logjam of trapped energy to liberate or open a hole within us that will let the water of life stream in. First a trickle (for me), and growing stronger each day, each week, until my body was conditioned enough so the full rising event could come. A breaking through this logjam.

One of the events that took place in October of 2006 was a day-long acceleration of prana, which was a preview of what kundalini would bring. I had a vivid vision-a certainty in inner vision and through intensely felt feelings-about how all life feels prana or life force in the same way when it is felt abundantly (which is all kundalini really is—unusually high levels of pranic flow).

Getting ready to go home, this information nagged and pulled at me until I put it down on my computer starting at 7:30 pm and finishing at 7:34 pm (I had no idea why I should note the start and ending time but I did…now try and type what I typed in under four minutes).

This writing spoke of prana and how it was affecting both my body and mind. After writing this, I would find myself experiencing an odd synchronicity involving my finding the only magazine on a rack full of popular magazines whose content was uninteresting to me except one magazine I had to hunt for around a corner, blocked by a card rack placed in front of it. Without anything on its outside to suggest its contents, I would find that it had an article that read in bold: “When it comes to seeds, it’s all about sex.” Here is the piece I wrote to try and get that stuff out of my head, a first brush with a powerful burst of prana.

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The Yearning

The fields are wet from rain after the corn has been harvested. Trees slowly turn from green to yellow, then gold. The air cools and the mind thinks back on days when life was brimming over and the air was thick with the smell of pollen. The same corn, now nothing but stubble, stood gold and green with tassels swaying with the breeze, releasing its sweet nutty smell. To some it was just a delightful thing that marks the passage of seasons. To me, its more than that. It speaks of life seeking its own, making itself over; a new generation. A yearning, a leaning toward the wind in the hopes that Nature will take care of Nature, and carry its life giving sweetness on the air to waiting seeds, waiting for that breath of life, that germ of passion that makes the flowers grow, and makes life turn ‘round once more in the endless cycles this world is known for.

Seeds and plants and pollen, all lean into passion in ways we can scarcely imagine. For this is the glue that keeps life going. For them, it must be pleasurable, a passionate act of giving, a release, an immersion into a mystery far older than our own known seasons, our own individual lives and experiences. For this is the gravity that pulls them, moves them to continue. How can it be any other? Why then would life seek to replace itself through an act as perfunctory as the dropping of an apple from a tree? No, the drop of the apple is not perfunctory, or a second thought, but part of a yearning to become, a part of merging with some larger dance. If trees can’t feel this, then why continue? Why go on? Perhaps in measures we can only guess or imagine, there is some divine spark of wantonness, of passion and pleasure bound up within their shells of being. How can it be any other? Perhaps there is a secret life these rooted beings feel that is beyond our ken, beyond our too quickened ways. We have been “beyond” these beings for so long that they are now “just plants.” And yet, they are more. They will speak if only you will listen, and they yearn to tell of this ancient dance, this incredible desire and passion bound up within every cell of their being, so it pays if you will only listen.

I know that seeds seek and yearn and hope and dream; dreams perhaps that are so different I could never scarcely imagine or see them for what they are. And yet, it seems inescapable that these creatures, ancient as all of life here, yearn for the touch of pollen upon their seed pods and enclosures, waiting patiently for the bee to carry their spawn beyond them into other regions where others await the touch of the life giving sparks that enliven and awaken a new generation. Even the warming caress of sun and drenching rain is an act of divine providence, or giving in a wheel that knows no end and no beginning. Quiet and still, these beings mask their greater inner lives.

So even we do these same things, even we make this dance of longing and yearning, so old and ancient that its root can escape us as we are caught up as if in some whirlwind, some deeper dance both of passion and letting go as we give ourselves to life’s great mystery, to its passionate embrace, and longing that brings us to this place, this wonder filled state where our minds and bodies and hearts are excited beyond the normal trebling that life gives or provides.
To touch my eye with your eye, to touch smile to smile, or hand to hand, we join in this ancient dance, this passionate longing for life seeking to complete itself, and in so doing, complete ourselves. Round and round we turn, like stars upon an endless wheel that rolls and ducks and sways in the lost night of time. We are carried one by the other, some by our imaginings, some by the reality, but always by the same glue that keeps life turning turning back and forward at once, calling to the roots of what it was to the heavens of what it will become.

So as our hands embrace, our smiles merge, as face becomes face, and eye becomes eye; as flesh becomes flesh, we excite in this dance, this subtle movement first tentative, then more certain as we are gathered by the compass of its certainty, of its need to move as it moves, which is ever forward into endless days and tomorrows.

We came here as boundless beings who knew neither limit nor touch, and followed down into narrow pathways into minds of earthlings, like spirits on a cosmic voyage, we entered the world of limit and pain and loneliness, only to be called back by forces that were brought to bear in this world, moving us through realms of limit and bounding to that greater reminder that this is a dance of mystery, passion, and love. In this love we touch the infinite, wrapped in that which pulls and grabs us like hawk talons grasping talons in a spiral dance of yearning, moving us one step beyond this one, seeking the divine, seeking the infinite. 10/13/06 – 7:30-7:34 p.m.

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The Third Eye And The Pineal Gland

The third eye and the pineal gland. Nothing excites seekers more than the connection between these two things. Except, there is absolutely no connection between the two whatsoever. I know, huge buzz kill, right? But if you were really interested in spiritual growth, wouldn’t you want to get this stuff right? I know how cool the pineal sounds, but if you pay close attention to every single person talking and writing about this topic, none of them are able to explain any connection between the third eye and the pineal. At all. Instead they point to the pineal as photoreceptive…. because they think this must explain the connection. It doesn’t. It doesn’t because the third eye has always been an entirely nonphysical sense. Remember the term “the mind’s eye”? This is the eye that the ancients have referenced for millennia.

Glands are built out of physical matter for dealing with the physical.  Inner senses such as the third eye are not made out of physical matter, are instead part of an energetic system, and thus exhibit definite characteristics that are directly attributed to nonphysical or energetic senses.  Period.  No one confuses the sensory powers of any other chakra center like we do with the third eye and the pineal gland.
Anyone who has had a full-fledged awakening almost always experiences a third eye opening, and this experience is VASTLY different from the one so often described with activations prior to awakening. You might ask why awakening is so important, which is a very good question. The answer is prana or chi/qi.
The connection between the significant pranic flow during awakening serves to open the third eye in a way most never experience. To open a center in this way requires a stronger flow of this energy we call Chi or prana.  There is no way around this: you  need the additional energy to bring on a full opening. This activation on a permanent basis comes about as a result of years of practice and familiarity for most people as well as the secret to awakening, which is something that has been a closely-held secret for many centuries (and in our current era the cat is out of the bag). The action of prana is very important for full activation of the chakras and the sensory capabilities some of them have. Just like a radio running on low power will have trouble bringing in a signal, so too does the energy body have difficulty picking up and then translating the signal. With enough energy, your inner sensing is much clearer. Prana is what boosts that signal, which essentially allows one to tune into these subtle-body sensations, effectively bringing them into focus.

I’m telling you this as someone who went through this. I also know numerous others who have had the same experience. Somewhere along the line someone drew a connection and then no one ever bothered to question it. I know; the pineal sure sounds cool, but it’s job is as a gland and has no part in psychic ability.  And yet, almost universally, people pick up this idea that the pineal is the third eye and they run with it.  I assure you that the function of the pineal is very different than that of the real third eye.  It isn’t coincidental that the pineal is located in the center of the head near the brain where sleep chemistry is created (the pineal secretes melatonin which regulates our sleep cycles).

When you awaken, you do so with an awareness that shifts from the physical senses towards the inner senses. Even in the Hindu and Taoist texts related to awakening the writings are replete with description for how the mind turns to a world of awareness that is nonphysical in nature, an awareness of the forgotten “other side of the coin” of our experience. The energy current changes, according to certain Hindu texts and begins turning in the other direction so that one becomes more focused or aware of inner phenomenon instead of just what is outside and known through the physical senses.

In fact, this “turning” is described as a sudden awareness of self in light of the force now flowing in abundance which is called prana. Not entirely physical, but able to penetrate and nurture the physical body by virtue of its stimulating nature, this extremely fine vibrational energy straddles both physical matter and pure consciousness. The “body” that conducts awareness is our very consciousness. This body, which is nonphysical, has complimentary senses like those in the physical body. In truth, the physical senses are aspects of our so-called “inner senses.”

Who you are beyond your physical body includes the physical senses but are also so much more. Being an eternal soul means that you have all kinds of senses that are native to your consciousness. Any body you take will naturally reflect to some degree the senses that are native to you beyond the physical.

 

Prana, or chi, interpenetrates all matter and is an aspect of matter. Remember E=MC2? This means that matter and energy are equivalent with one another. Change the vibration of energy and you will wind up with matter. Change the vibration of matter, and you get energy (they took this theorem and built the atomic bomb with it, you see). As a result, you can read where prana has been in a very real sense, which makes it possible to pick up information from a distance (which those who tune in with their nonphysical senses are learning how to do). Prana, having no mass, is completely unrestrained by the physical world. This also means that it has “nonlocality” which means that you can detect things beyond your immediate environment as well as those phenomenon that are “beyond” the physical.  You can pick up on these things because prana or chi is everywhere and your consciousness is made up of prana. As you might have inferred by now, this provides a rather amazing capacity for sensory experience provided there is a sense that can detect these kinds of things which prana as energy makes possible. Now imagine physical senses being able to pick up on this kind of energetic phenomenon.  It is kind of laughable, right?  So when I was seeing a friends house who I had never met but only knew online and had never had described to me came through loud and clear as a series of rich and vivid inner visual sensory experiences that wound up being right on the mark were all possible not with my physical eyes (this person lived 1500 miles away after all—I don’t think my vision has the ability to see through the curvature of the earth let alone objects from that distance, do you?). And yet, when I sent my list of impressions which included the color of walls and lighting, where they were located, thelocation of the apartment within the larger building, the layout of the apartment, where the bathroom was, the two bedrooms, as well as the hidden kitchen, my impressions were all correct.  So too were my impressions about pretty granular details like the shape, size, and materials used for the windows in the apartment as well as where the windows were located in each room.  It turned out that I had 95% accuracy on all of my impressions.  This wasn’t just dumb luck, either.  I wasn’t just imagining it, I was tuning in to this person’s home and was able to do so as an amateur remote viewer because I was so engaged, focused, and willing to connect with this person.

If you have trouble with this idea, then imagine a vast network of energy that is in everything down to the smallest and largest of scales. Now imagine that your consciousness has the capacity to detect this network and “read” what is there, courtesy of the energy that is in all of matter. Oh, and one more thing; this energy is sentient, so it isn’t like the brute force of electrity, say, but of something that you can very much feel as alive. Since it is in everything and has an advanced form of consciousness, I think of it was belonging to a superconsciousness which might be what we want to think of as God or any one of the many gods that we have as humans have dreamed up over our storied past.

The third eye has long been known to be a powerful center linked to the arousal of kundalini. This etheric center is both energy vortex, or chakra, as well as an inner sensory channel. Called the ajna chakra by the Hindu, it is located along the brow between the two physical eyes. You can feel the third eye or ajna chakra activating when you feel a point of pressure in the third eye region.

Prior to the full “rising” of kundalini, I had a whole series of very unusual experiences that each, in turn, aided in my awakening process. I was aware of something within me that was guiding me step by step more deeply into the unfolding of my inner awareness that enabled the kindling of the force that is prana in abundance.i was careful to keep notes of my adventures in consciousness and was able to confirm my inner sensory information with things that were well beyond my physical capacity to have ever detected them (including subatomic phenomenon that has had a number of affirmations through the research done by quantum physicists over the years as well as recent discoveries being made).  It is hard to believe that there are senses so powerful and so far-reaching as the inner senses.  It is hard for most ordinary folks because the physical is all they have experinece with.  I am here, though, to tell you there is more, and that for each physical sense you have, you have a compliment of it in the nonphyiscal awareness or nonphysical self.

What needs to be understood by those who spread this idea that the third eye is somehow tied to the pineal gland is that the whole of the physical body, which is made up of matter, can only detect other material that is made out of it. Ears are designed to detect a very specific vibrational range of energy that is being expressed as sound. The eyes are designed to detect visible light. Taste is designed to detect the character of flavors in foods. All of this is physical.  What the chakra centers detect, though, is energetic. What I do when I sense something from a distance is I am able to feel how whatever I am sensing feels, be it a person or a rock.  When it comes to the energetic sensing, I tend to FEEL the inside of everything instead of seeing it or sensing it outwardly, which is the way we do with our physical senses.

The experience of inner sensory perception only seems physical because you are in a body and usually concerned with what is happening in the physical, but these senses are in no way limited to the physical, and can be turned to anything that you seek to inquire about. Your brain deftly turns psychic energy into recognizable patterns in the same way that it takes electrical signals and turns them into images or some other sensory experience. It does the exact same thing with inner imagery gleaned from the inner senses. It is pretty brilliant once you dig in and think about it for a while.

So a primer for what the pineal gland is about…
The pineal gland regulates sleep cycles and secretes melatonin. It does this by way of its photo receptivity. When the sun shines, melatonin is suppressed. However, in the presence of warm light, melatonin is steadily produced. This production of melatonin helps us to feel drowsy and to drop off to sleep. When the sun is at mid-day the light is a bluish white light.  This type of light is the light so many people have been having trouble with their electronic devices such as phones and flat screen t.v.’s which render whites as slightly bluish light.  This has had the effect of messing with a lot of people’s melatonin production at critical times in the evenining resulting in a rash of problems related to being able to get to sleep. The result was that by looking at white light sources so late in the day people’s melatonin production has been suppressed.  As a result of this many devices have an “evening” setting which shifts all whites into a warmer spectrum of color after about 7:00 p.m. or later, which is exactly what the pineal needs in order to be triggered to produce melatonin.
When you DO use your third eye, you are not looking outward, but inward in order to focus into that vibrational frequency that will allow you to detect objects and events at a considerable distance. This includes things taking place on the other side of the planet and even far out into space. And yes, this type of sensing is common once the third eye chakras has been properly opened, used, and understood. I doubt that when I was sensing the apartment of a friend 1500 miles away with pinpoint accuracy that I was using any form of a physical gland or organ at all. In fact, there is growing evidence to suggest that the world that we think as being so physically solid is in fact just an energetic construct and that there is a kind of energetic field of energy that helps to define everything that exists in our universe.  I have found Rupert Sheldrake’s work to be the most coincident with my own observations, and he has described what he thinks is a bank or field of energy that defines everything that exists in the physical universe, a kind of energetic blueprint that changes as situations change here on the ground, which makes it not monolithic but flexible and highly capable of change.

The wonderful thing is that you can do exactly as I have done, which is to  investigate all of this for yourself.  You can actually use your own consciousness to begin detecting this information on your own.  But until you do, try not to jump to any conclusions about pineal glands or any gland for that matter as somehow being tied to enlightenment.  The business of enlightnement has been clearly and positively located as being a part of the energy body.  This exists at a much simpler and far more perrennial positionw tihin the self than one could ever have imagined.  What I am encouraging you to do is to follow the trail set down by countless others who have awakened this inner sense and begin testing it to see for yourself. I also urge you not to just take my word for it. And if you want instruction on how to awaken, I am happy to oblige but with the caveat that it is an intense experience that will wreck your life and set it back right again.  it is difficult because the change is so rapid. If you are ready for such a seemingly disasterous situation, then you are ready to step on that road from which there is no return (I am joking because no one wants to return once they have stepped on this path).

I hope that this has served to help raise awareness about this subject.
In my next post I will provide a simple method for awakening both the third eye and consciousness. It is an ancient and extremely simple system that I employed that yielded results. I did not know at the time that this was an ancient technique, however.

~Nemaste~