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There appears to be a threshold that exists where subtle and dispersed effects from doing inner work aggregates or seems to trip a kind of “switch” within, all at various levels, that serves to bring on various forms of brain activity in the individual. What I mean is that there are effects that are achieved from merely sitting still and meditating. The range can actually be broad, all the way up to the elusive flash or bursting of the forces that will drive enlightenment. These can happen before awakening kundalini and they can happen in slightly more vivid ways after awakening, but these thresholds seem to be a function of what happens when we allow increasingly larger amounts of energy to flow through us. With more energy flowing through consciousness there naturally comes more awareness. The only difference is the quality and quantity.

These shifts are accelerations of consciousness. Consciousness, beyond the body, has no constraints whatsoever. Your body, however, might have any number of constraints. Your body, in this life, might be constrained by beliefs recorded in your brain that tell you that you have to BE a certain way or that you can only experience certain things or feel a certain way. Certainly your consciousness (which is beyond your body) carries this belief, but while you are in flesh, so does your body. Body follows mind. But at a certa in point when the divisions within the self fall away, so too do the artificial barriers that you, that all of us, have created, leading to a union with the higher self and the larger universe.

This is why, upon linking into the higher self, people describe the effortlessness that so often accompanies such states. Things come very fast, ideas resolve clearly, quickly, and the mind seems to have no need to reflect. So often answers are just “known.” I will tell you that for a self that lives outside of the physical, it is VERY handy to have all time at your fingertips. The problem, though, is that we are so focused in our limited brain/mind/consciousness that our belief literally determines what we will experience. Break out of that and wander far enough, and you could find yourself bumping up against your higher self. This self does not have the same kinds of limits that your consciousness here does. it is like you took a vast ocean of awareness and effectively built a small tidal pool and said that this tidal pool was your consciousness and all that you are…..right? So do you see how silly that could be? Well, this is what we all do in a manner of speaking. The trick is in breaking through those cognitive barriers.

A few days ago as I was doing inner work I came across something that was an example of how these kinds of things happen, how answers can come so fast, so easy, so clearly…..IF YOU LET THEM. I have been working for a while on the last center in my main seven chakra centers that needs clearing. The root chakra deals with nurture, abundance, and survival in all of its positive and negative potentials. It is also supposedly the first chakra to be cleared when kundalini moves. The truth is, the FORCE of awakening will “pierce” each of the seven chakras in one rather easy operation which I experienced in only moments. No problem. But the clearing of those centers was a different story. Each chakra is made up of multiple dimensions or levels, each “level” corresponding to an aspect of the self, from body, mental, emotional, and prannic bodies. For me, I guess I saved the best for last.

When I awoke, I was shown how the light body operates. I had been seeing energy before that time, so what I was was a much more refined and more detailed view into the lines of force in the light body that I had not seen before when I see the aura. In fact, I often helped to release blocks in the person I was connected to when I first awoke, what some call the Twin Soul, or Ray. These soul connections are not unusual for awakenings and are a growing phenomenon. I grew to know how these lines of energy responded by observing how what I was seeing some 1500 miles from the person I was connected to (and who I had not even met at the time) and was able to see how these lines responded from a manipulation of them from a distance. This was a “combing” which I did that I found had beneficial effects on the person I was sharing this space with. it was a crash course in energy body dynamics. That was in 2007. Ever since I seem able to follow intuition fairly well so that I either wind up in the perfect place for what I need or in the right level of awareness so that I can hear what needs to be conveyed to me in order to do the next step in the work. Usually. I wont say it has been perfect and I am sure there were times my guides would say that they had a few days where they were waiting on me to come back to earth so we could get to work.

It was about a month ago when I had a release from the Ida current, the line or naddis that travels upwards on the left side of the body in the area known as the root chakra. This was the result of an event that had perhaps either assisted or helped to trigger the release of some material. I had had someone in my family who had died the same day and I was lying down to meditate, not to make contact with them, but to check in to see how they were doing. I was not expecting to have a full brief from them about what had taken place immediately following their death. But that is what happened. As this person was leaving, she did something, almost in an off-handed way where she touched my side, which triggered an awareness in me all of a sudden, a series of images that I didn’t fully understand but sense was from something a long time ago….lifetimes ago. But after this happened, I began to feel the now-familiar sense of energy moving in me. By looking at whatever this scene was stored in my memory and my body (in my root) just the mere AWARENESS of its presence was enough to begin stirring and loosening the junk.

Normally, material is said to flow up and OUT in the Hindu chakra system. And for me in some cases, this is what has happened, but not always. In some cases, the energy has gone OUTWARD from the center. In some cases, it has sunk, in others it has lifted away and poof! Gone. I think getting hung up on the ROUTE energy takes can be itself a limiting thing. For example, when this energy lifted, it did not go UP the trunk of my body. I initially felt that my awareness was helping it to move beyond the vibrational frequency imposed by the root as it moved into the area associated with the sacral and then the solar plexus. As I was able to let it flow upwards in this way it was like shifting the vibratory frequency of something so that it simply no longer was what it was a few moments before. It was a literally transmutation. Voila! The energy kept going upwards and then it flowed down my arm. Thick and strong, I felt it running through me. I began to shake my left hand and arm vigorously. I had not heard that you should do this. it just kind of came to me. Made sense. So I did. Withing moments the energy was gone from my arm. I later learned that the arms and hands serve as an exit point in Chinese medicine. So there. In the moment, the knowing was there with me to just do it.

Then I was shown a new way to look at the energy body. Some of this is hard to articulate so I don’t know how well I will do. Normally when I think of my energy I visualize based on me being in my body and looking at it and feeling the area in question or I look at it from a distance as though I am looking straight on at myself. This is the same way that I usually see it when I would remote view the person I shared my soul connection with. But very recently, a few days ago in fact, as I was lying down thinking about releasing material on the other side of the meridians, in what is called the Pengali naddi, I felt my higher self telling me to look at this differently then I had ever before. None of it made any sense at the time and it was very much like showing someone who knows nothing about how to do something how to do it for the first time. I was shown to look down INTO my body like I have done before but now to look at the lines of energy from above as though I am staring DOWN into them like a tube. I had always looked at blocks at kind of clustering along certain routes along these lines. “Just do it this way because you wont get it unless you do it this way.” So I did. I simply imagined it in my head how it would look and as I did an image began to resolve. I began seeing one main line with one line that broke off from it, something I assume went down to the legs perhaps? It didn’t seem to be important. What was important was that I SEE whatever this next part was. So I looked at it. As I did this I felt myself saying to this other part of me, which I know is the higher self, “Okay, I am doing this thing you were telling me to do…now what?” Nothing happened. I began to wonder what the whole purpose was of this exercise until something DID happen….

I was lying there relaxed and seeing down into these lines of force, the on naddi or meridian that is near my right hip. They actually have several that all go upward….and these were all connected not so much by the energy going through them specifically but by the effect each one had on the other like radiant lines of force. Watching I was shown this cluster of….dark lines is all I can describe them, as running down the length of a section of the meridian. This line had several dots, indications that something was there, like a series of small blocks adding up to one big block. As soon as I saw this and connected the dots down the line, I felt a series of very sharp pains that shot down along this meridian or naddi. It went down, it went up. I was vaguelly aware of a smiling presence that then said, “THAT is what had to happen for you to move forward….THAT was the next step and you would not have gotten it by seeing it any other way.”

It is a bit like being awakened in the middle of the night, told to take part in a mysterious form of surgery and then not really fully told what it was for. Except there is a slip of my awareness that “has” it I just don’t know how to explain it. For some reason, the block had to be seen the way it was because of how it expressed itself. This has been THE single most difficult block I have EVER had to deal with. It is like lifting a twenty tone boulder with a small crowbar. I am actually at the point now where I am moving this mass but it has meant doing it smart and this is where the higher self, the accelerated mind comes in. This accelerated mind corresponds when a series of triggers are flipped both in consciousness and in the body. A shift in awareness changes the chemical balance in the body allowing for more endorphins and dopamine to be produced, which in turn allows the body to become even more relaxed, surrendering more to the energy in consciousness free from the constraints of limiting beliefs. Boom. Light bulb moment. Thing is, once you “get” the hang of it, you can cultivate these states for doing a heck of a lot of very valuable work. In times when I have no idea what on earth I am supposed to do, I am shown. “I” do not need to know. But beyond this 3-D mind focused so narrowly is a part of myself that has it. This is why I have no problem “imagining” what all of this stuff is because I know that imagination is itself merely the gateway for my awareness to become aware of more material. We here think its just fabricated when in truth its already been fabricated and is being presented through the faculties of the part of the mind that can “see” things and visualize stuff. So often we ask ourselves, “How did I know to do that?” But we DO know. It is actually all there and we here are just beginning to catch up to it. The only difference between something you really DID imagine and something already there that you tapped via the imagination is that the the thing you DID imagine wont be anywhere near as perfectly put together. it will seem more effort. The pre-prepared form will itself seem effortless most often. You will grow used to learning how to follow it. This works best for people who can suspend disbelief and who allow themselves broad range to “play” within their minds.

SO I have no idea what the next step is in all of this where the root chakra work is concerned. Each day there comes more material and it SEEMS as though its all in a given order. Almost every day. It is weird. if I was my old self, I would have ignored this and thought it was all just kind of crazy. But not anymore. I watch attentively at each and every happening. Yesterday I was gripped with a need to take a quick nap before taking an errand and when I awoke I was seized with a sudden realization that not only did I not know where I was, I didn’t know WHO I was. This was not some bout of memory loss, but served to do something that had been taking place within dreams, which seems to be attacking the core of something that has been very difficult for me and which has helped fuel this core root issue for so long. It was accompanied by a very different sense of awareness. It was like who I am without the self I am so directly focused. By doing feeling this I felt an amazing sense of freedom and peace. It also released something from my awareness the very issues that need to be released. It was like an incremental movement, seemingly inconsequential, but necessary.

This issue goes way back I sense, but here in this body I am doing all kinds of things to shift and lift and move that big old impossible boulder. Some days I feel like what I am doing is shooting water under the boulder just to get it to slide a few fractions of an inch to one side. Each movement leads to another, which leads to another. My higher self, I sense, is following what it knows is a prudent path towards healing given how I am composed down on this level. Crafty higher self. Truth is, ALL of this could have, in theory, been dropped in a moment….thousands and thousands of blocks both small and big, all gone like that. But is it really practical? Nope. In fact, it is more practical to expect that we go at this one step at a time.

And that is just what I am doing. Allowing this self to show me the way. It may not always make sense at the time, and I might be left hanging for a few days or even weeks, but invariably an event will come along in perfect timing that will serve to do something to shift the next part inside of me that will eventually lead up to one big release of this block. In truth, what some would call a block in the root has been a block that has shared a vibrational familiarity with both root AND sacral. It expressed itself in the beginning as being like a womb of sorts, which, if you have been following the blog, might remember me mentioning something about earlier in the summer (or spring?). Regardless, this blocked creative energy will express itself in a new way so that it no longer acts like a block and is gone.

So for anyone doing this kind of work, the process can be easy if you let it. For me, I have found I simply have to have faith in my imagination, my mind’s eye, which is in truth what we know to be the third eye. If it not meant to be there, it will go away quickly. If it persists, chances are that it serves a purpose and you should pay some attention to it in some way. But being open to seeing things differently is the central core theme in all of this. So your resistance to being able to change something in you could well be part of a central belief that is sabotaging you and keeping success from your reach. When you feel like you are all out of options, I suggest creating new ones.

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Every once in a while events, reacting quite literally from inner processes express and move things in fascinating ways for me that are difficult for me to even explain.  Most often, it takes months, even years, to get to a place where I can explain it.  Since so much of this is part of a process that is inward, sometimes talking about it while still in it can be tricky.  Plus, I am so visually oriented, verbal stuff is a task for me that requires a certain focus.  I am holographic  in my thinking.

But very recently I began work on a book on creativity.  If you go to any library, you will find loads and loads of books centered on understanding it.  What is so interesting is the divide that exists between the two camps that exist concerning this field as research.  One side describes it as an outgrowth of regular thought while the other describes it as….I am serious here….a mystical magical experience that borders on the religious that cannot be parsed, quantified, or even understood.  Now mind you, these are researchers, knobby-headed people who have had their pocket protectors in place studying books and the current research in their field.  Developmental psychologists, behaviorist, educators, etc., etc.  The truth is, folks, even the egg-heads are not the ones with all the answers.  They aren’t.  Like any good dogma, they can become stuck in reality tunnels of their own discipline.  Just as we can get caught in the tunnels of our own illusions, so too do we get trapped in these mazes of conceptualized reality that….well….isn’t based in too much reality.  Easy for me to say, right?

The problem is that there is a lack of understanding about creativity along certain lines, and what I have observed is that it is due to a bias that we have….and it is made worse by the divide in the field in regards to how people who are the experts approach this; normal outgrowth of thought or mystical magical mystery.  And here is where I jump into the breach.  I am not a researcher, I do not wish to be (shudders) but I have been an artist my whole life and got real serious with it in college and it has been with me ever since.  The nature of creativity, though, has suddenly crossed paths in unexpected ways with awakening, or kundalini in the last few days.  And it isn’t that creativity and kundalini aren’t related.  They are.  They are actually aspects of one another.  Creativity is itself the embodiment of life force, and life force IS what this kundalini (more a verb to my mind than anything), which is the arrival of a vast flow of life force.  So you would expect creativity to be trebled once you could deal with the goings on within and without you in this new world of yours.

But what is so bizarre is how all of this is unfolding, a kind of loop back to the beginning in some ways, tangentially, with some material that I was sent by someone who I was corresponding to before I awoke, as I awoke, and after I awoke.  This was material I did not read but found it in a file on my ipod that I installed months ago thinking I’d listen to it, but never did.  And it was there that an odd kind of synchronicity occurred which served to solidify some things about an emergent view about HOW to merge creativity and kundalini into a paradigm for people who want to be more creative.  Now if I tell you the two are linked, then it should be easy, right? My approach, though, is not merely philosophical, but gets into an aspect of the mechanics of the light body, the field of energy that surrounds us, how it emerges in the body and how it becomes literally the means of carrying information within us and beyond us. This also feeds into how the nervous system is involved and how the brain gets pulled in.  What blooms is this amazing realization about who and what we are that means, can ONLY mean that we are part of a living system so large that we do not always take notice.  Our bodies each have a way of interfacing with what seems like something separate from us, but in fact is not.  Science has been behind the eight-ball in regards to this and we have not good devices to delight the scientific minded that would be able to detect this energy.  We just don’t.  But those who have their “gear” updated enough CAN detect all of this (through the body).  Finding the way to put this all into a coherent framework has been the real challenge.  On the one hand, explaining it means reducing material down, a reductive process that naturally can leave out important information.  Knowing what to leave in and what to take out becomes the art of this.  And sometimes it does not come right away.  Today and yesterday, this was brewing and a chunk of it resolved.  the way it resolved, though, linked this current project, which I considered Soooo different from my previous efforts with the book Waking The Infinite, in ways that were surprising.  And then on the first day of a two-day process of this interesting synchronicity it unwound partly with a conversation with my neighbor who is also an artist.  For the first time I realized that those closest to awakening may well be our artists, at least those who have a close relationship to creativity.  There are a lot of very talented artists who don’t gush with creative juice.  Talent and creativity do not always go hand in hand.  Talent can itself be a result of years of discipline and practice, something that is cultivated (although some would argue against this).  We say talent is often a natural proclivity towards something (and yet I have seen talent develop in me over time so….).  At any rate, I am looking at a way to assist others to learn how to expand their creativity in significant ways using a method that places ones awareness on the reality of what is happening all around us.  And I am not even sure that it will work except my intuition is jumping all over the place saying yes yes yes!  So with all new ideas, it begins as a theory or hunch and goes from there. Which is why I am….gulp…..looking for people’s input on some aspects of the creative (and the gulp was for circling back into something that begins to look like research!).  I know it can seem awfully assuming, but I feel pretty certain that I am right on what I have been shown.  I sense that by simply being aware of it, by understanding how it works, it is going to itself have an effect on people.  This is the magical, mystical, mysterious part of all of this.

Somewhere, there is an intersecting of entirely practical non-woo-woo stuff with cosmic consciousness.  Something entirely normal coupled with something so off the wall incredible it changes the trajectory of your life.  When you can mange this, you have, hopefully, struck a balance in the way that is most needed.

Now I have to build this into something that can help people.  I am not interested in developing philosophical systems, or more dogma, but a careful balance of fact with experience.  By tapping the potential of the vast field of information all around us, we can actually help change the world, and teaching people how to tap this whether they are artists or not, is a big step forward.  Even if it is one person at a time.  And here I am, not someone for methods or techniques!  What I know for me is that this “method” as it is beginning to unfold is less method as it is simply being aware of how things are and placing your attention there in order to open the channels in awareness.  And for anyone doing work of this type, you will know how important awareness is, right?  I am working on how the world of quantum effects, the waveform awareness (as I described it) plays into learning, creativity, and change).

So the loom idea is something that is a bit of an inside thing.  One of the insights I was getting in my awakening when I learned I could “plug-in” and get this flow of information, was that of a vast loom. This was after the first year when I began to place my awareness on the knowing side of the equation and began peering out into this thing instead of merely feeling effected by it.  Maybe its me being a guy, but this seemed like it was so much more than JUST a feeling.  This was a kind of technology…..albeit one not made by human hands and consisting of energy and gateways and switches that bear little resemblance to anything we have here on earth (and yet it is!).   This loom consisted of three main sets of threads; the self, the other, and the divine/universe.  Each made up a thread in the loom process.  While we are many, just like the warp threads, the continuous thread that runs through everything is itself the Tao or the Universal Consciousness.    And for those who know looms, there are a set of threads that are separated in order to send a central thread (which was to me or for me the universe) and we become the threads that wrap around it.  In fact, there are types of weaving that entirely obscure this thread so all you see are the outer threads, those of us here in physical reality.  Given that, it’s no wonder people miss the miraculous in the moment (mundane) because it’s so well hidden.  You have to know how to see it, which has nothing to do with your physical eyes.  So the gathering effect that a loom has is that it draws in all this stuff, all the events and thoughts and things in our lives along with people and places, and wraps them into one another, and this becomes the weaving of our lives.  This is a kind of artifact seemingly solid yet pouring out of the present to become a part of the past.  It is not itself a tangible object, but neither is it merely an abstraction.  Anyway, I see your eyes glazing over so I will stop there and say that the loom got cranked up and began drawing all these disparate threads into a kind of design or continuity very recently.  It also showed how even in the beginning, I was corresponding with someone who was my friend in the lead-up to my awakening that provided me with a degree of insight and some information that I simply did not tap until just a few days ago just as a whole batch of material was congealing and beginning to make sense for this book on creativity.  Coincidence is a little meager for what took place, and reminds me that these are significant moments perhaps only for me.  The book, if I can wrestle it into the form I now suspect it needs to take, will be for everyone else.

And with that, it is a nice late-night nibble and slip into a full-moon bed where an eclipse is set to work its way over us just before dawn!

Gurus with grey beards, robes, incense, or suits and funny hats.  Priests.  Nuns. Imams.  Ancient tradition.  Spiritual knowledge.

If you know me you know that while I do care to peruse old documents for information, I always filter it through where I am now for any bullshit. I don’t take anything on face value.  Buddha cautioned about that.  We let lots of BS masquerade as something that it is not by not really taking a good look at it.  You thought a spiritual person does not say bullshit. Well they do. Words.  “Bullshit” is very apt as you will see….

This whole business of enlightenment I have chased since I was young.  I didn’t even know what I was seeking but I sensed it was something within and something that had been systematically hidden over vast time scales.  I sensed religion had sought to hide a part of the truth.  It had, it turned out….but that is another story, and is one I write about at length in other places on this and other blogs.

Come.  Walk with me.  Away from all tradition, beyond the incense burning and the temples and prayers to this goddess and that god.  I can tell you just what this whole enlightenment things is about without any dogma.  Hopefully we will reach a place where we can all do this so we can understand without any distortion.

Enlightenment is itself  the forward edge of what awakening is.  It is called many things in many cultures.  No one has a lock on it for the simple fact that it is a HUMAN thing.  It is not a guru thing.  It is not a Hindu or Pakistani thing.  If kundalini yoga works so well, we would all have awakened who tried it.  It doesn’t.  But there is something that does stir this power within you.  You do not need a system or guru.  You just need to be brave enough to cut through the bullshit. Your bullshit and the bullshit of others.  My bullshit, too. Now you might think to yourself “this guy he can’t be enlightened because he is saying “bullshit” a lot.”  But there you are, more dogma.  Long before any conventions existed on this earth or in any culture, the force that is responsible for awakening has existed.  Try to fit it into a box and it will quite naturally flow out of it.  Grasp it and define it and it becomes ten times more than what you say it is.  But we still try to explain it because at some point you WILL experience it.  In a fashion, you already ARE.

Awakening is simple; it is the activation of the light body, the energy body.  This activation is itself not an event that is confined to one system but is part of the entire body from energetic (light body) to nervous system to vascular and muscular and every organ and piece of your body. All of it.  And it isn’t a great mystery how it begins.  But that part, I will spare you and explain that the activation of the light body is merely activating the interior sensing of your etheric awareness through the increased flow of energy now in your system. More energy brings greater awareness (or the potential for it in some manner or another).

The activation of the light body includes a period of time where knots are cleared in the naddis or the energy currents in the nonphysical part of your body (as the Hindus say).  As the light body becomes more active there is a feeling of energy piercing into the deeper layers of the energy fields we call chakras.  As the flow of energy is increased, so is ones ability to sense beyond the individual self.  This acts as a bridge to higher forms of consciousness.  You do have a higher self.  You ARE connected to the All.  You CAN experience union with the deity.  Your very little earthly self can quite suddenly be carried along with the higher self into quite unusual and beautiful places.  But you are still your earthly self.  Now, though, it is as though you are being knitted or wedded to this larger part of yourself.  You now have a very big and capable swimming buddy to go on these excursions with.

You will be like a god or goddess suddenly in the body of a three year old. This is what we all are.  We have this sudden awakening to a part of ourselves that is literally existing outside of time.  When you experience this, you literally have access to all lifetimes, all lives all at once.  And some of it can get pretty wild for a local such as you.  In fact, being human in your body might suddenly feel strange for the lives you have experienced as other life forms….and forms of life that have never even entered into physical form.  Its a vast endless thing.  It takes getting used to.  And still, you are this three year old with all this juice and ability.

The whole issue of light body activation, its a bid deal.  Its big to the tube of millions of dollars and people a year who seek to learn how to awaken through yoga. In fact, it is a far more simple process than you might imagine and you don’t need a faith or a guru or anything like that to make it happen.  Yes, I was on a journey spiritually, and yes there were a few things I did, but none of them were terribly involved.  My awakening was spontaneous.  There are many more who are awakening in just this way.  They are everywhere.  A couple of years ago I was sitting across from an artist in my county who was describing what it was she was experiencing and I was kind of amazed that she was describing awakening.  But why should I?  It used to be rare.  Extremely rare.  As in a handful of people on the planet at any given time.

The energy has been expressed as ying/yang and Shakti/Shiva. The father and the mother, and the son. On an energetic level, though, it is merely the polarizing of an energy into two seemingly different fields of negative and positive, north and south poles. This is in everything and it is in your body as your iron rich blood pumps through your body creating a rich field of electromagnetic energy that is just like how the earth produces these same kinds of fields.  The field of energy itself has a different feel from one end of the spectrum to the other.  It also has had an effect on our neurology and brain patterning.  The energy itself makes for subtle changes in the body and how it looks. How it feels.  Your left and right brain are the result of these two currents.  Learning to balance them is key.  Letting the left and right brain work as a whole integrated brain is of vital importance.  In awakening.  In life. Being able to bring forward both sides of the universal in this is of critical importance.  For one, it helps the flow of energy within you.  Gopi Krishna in his first book described the hell he went through because he had not awakened kundalini properly.  What Gopi failed to do was to feel into his feminine side.  because he was not able to do this, he suffered greatly with his awakening until he did.  He essentially opened the channels within himself that was unknowingly choking off the part of the universal energy we would call the feminine or yin energy.  The negative pole on the magnet, battery, solar body, and physical body. Once he did, we found relief.  Of course!

But its just energy.

Does it lead you to enlightenment?  I really hate that word.  I do. It suggest a destination and you know, I am sorry, but after awakening it is clear that we are like a cell within a vast realm of being.  We will know and become so much more.  The infinite spread out before us.  It is dizzying in its vastness.  It can also make you just want to sit there and just LOOK at all of the vastness and wonder “what’s the use?”  It is here that many monks and followers have gotten caught up.  Its hypnotic.  Beautiful. And yet, it is a giant sea of pure potentiality.  Are we supposed to draw energy from that sea and use it? Its one use for it, yes.  But is it the only use or reason for its being there?  I cannot answer that for you because it could well have purposes beyond my own realization.  And I am but a speck on a speck floating in space on the outer edge of a spiral galaxy almost 100,000 light year across. And even as I say this, recognize this, the sheer vastness does not in any way mitigate the sense of everything being connected, intertwined and ONE.  ONE!  Breath calms and centers and also helps move energy, so that can help. Silencing thought sounds great but until you have a major shift, your head is a beehive of thoughts.  You really need significant work to cease the wild monkey-mind.  You do. But doing these things helps to bring peace, a very nice side effect.

Now here is where I stop.  I am not going to give you a lesson in should’s or all of that. YOU will have to find your way through that. I do think or feel, though, that THAT is the real core of awakening.  It isn’t the bells and whistles and cool things that take place, the miracles and amazement. It is the process of refining. Getting better.  Compassion.  Love. This is the hard work because its very easy for people to talk about it and not do it.  That includes me.  I got all the magic stuff down.  I can manifest, I can read energy, I can have the most amazing things take place or happen….and really, so what?  It is merely me living in an activated light body co-creating at a new level. I know people awakened who have been amazingly hard and mean and even cruel.  Untruthful and deceitful. So certainly awakening does NOT make you a better person.  In fact, it can turn you into an evil person as much as it can turn you into a saint.  Why?  Freewill. Makes all the difference in the world!

So think about your life and the regrets you carry around inside of you.  Clean those up first.  And then get to work on shame.  Shame is the killer.  It can turn something beautiful into something twisted and ugly real fast.  Being able to become more natural and easy with yourself without shame or guilt is huge.  The path to this place is subtle, nuanced, but leads to joy and wonder.

So activation of the light body is the first step.  Third eye allows you to SEE the divine cosmology, yes, but it is seeing only.  You can activate all the other centers in awakening, but it is the heart siting in the center of the entire being of YOU that seems the singularly most important part for balance and return…..

This is the first part.  The rest, follow…

With Solstice yesterday and a “supermoon” tonight, I hope you can soak up all the rays from this very special night!

 

It was 1985 and I was at this time interested in the phenomenon of astral projection.  I was 19 or 20 at the time and I sensed that if one could experience this state that it could serve to help erase our fear over death.  I had read some material on it from a few sources as they popped up here and there.  I bought a book by Robert Monroe who was able to project so predictably that he was a research subject at the University of Virginia’s Psychology department. Led by other academics such as Charles Tart and some of the work by Stanislov Groff and others who had gone to India, had dropped acid or eaten magic mushrooms, this 60’s era expansion of consciousness brought with it an awareness of still more experience, of larger dimensions to human experience. This was what came about as a result of some of the earliest East meets West experiences, a legacy that I think has helped to push an awareness of alternate forms of consciousness.  I grew up with some of these materials like East West Journal and Be Here Now, which was like a kids book for grownups.  Like my mother who seemed interested in this aspect of the counterculture, we both were into what the hippie scene conferred long after it had come and gone.

I had listened to an interview with a woman named Lynn Andrews on NPR who had written some books on the shamanic tradition as it related to women (Medicine Woman, Jaguar Woman, etc.) and she gave an example of how one could use dreaming as a jumping off point for doing spiritual work.  She described a method for doing this work that amounted to suggesting prior to sleep that when you fall asleep your  ego  would step aside while you did this work in dream.  The ego would move into the background as you used the dream state for more intentional work. Essentially what this meant was that you would “wake up” inside the dream using the dream state as a springboard.  This is called lucid dreaming.

I decided that I would do just this as a way to use dreaming as a jumping off point for a projection of consciousness.  Before going to bed, I simply said that I would wake up within the dream and would use this state as a way of projecting consciousness.

That night I dutifully awoke within dreaming.  I found that I felt a sense as though there were wheels of energy moving at ever greater speeds within me.  I felt as though there was an energy that was building speed inside of me, like a car whose engine was put in neutral while its engine revved to ever higher speeds. I had the distinct impression that some process was underway that would catapult me out of my body.

Just then, I saw in the distance of my vision the image of a coiled snake moving towards me. This snake floated through the air.  It had no wings.  It had a very Mayan looking face where the head of the snake should have been. As I looked at this form I felt something say to me that what I was supposed to do was to project my awareness into the form in front of me which was this serpent form with the human face on it.  As I looked at this dream form, old notions about the snake in the Garden of Eden cropped up.  I chided myself for falling for this fear.  I decided to ignore the fear and do as this inner voice was saying.  The wheels then dutifully sped up, the force increased to an incredible velocity, as I made this decision to just go with it.  This was building into something stronger than anything I had ever experienced before.  It felt as though the whole of the universe was moving through me as an incredible force gained speed. As the energy grew beyond anything I thought possible, I found myself feeling hesitant.  I decided that if I was falling for this fear, I needed to resolve the fear before going on such a journey as this.  The phenomenon began to subside and the snake disappeared into the distance as I slipped back into sleep.

In the wake of this experience, I kicked myself for falling for the fear.  Several years later, while in college, I took a course on PreColumbian art where I would see the same image in a traditional form of the Mayan and Aztec God Quetzalcoatl.  I did more reading on this God and found that the priests of Quetzalcoatl would encounter this form in their visions and dreams and that Quetzalcoatl would come in this way to take them  on soul journeys to other worlds.  Of all the Gods of the Aztec and Maya, Quetzalcoatl was the most peaceful. Quetzalcoatl did not ask nor seek blood sacrifice. Flowers and butterflies were instead offered to him.  As I read through this, I thought how perfect.  I wished I had not begged off from such an experience that I had had a few years previously.

I wondered where I would have gone, what would I have seen had I merged into the body of this snake form?  All through history and all across the world, the serpent was an ancient symbol for wisdom, and spiritual knowledge. The Hindus had the double form of the serpent fire of kundalini, the Egyptians had the serpent (some were even winged—I write about this in the post of the Kriyas and/Mudras and the Holy Ghost that shows up in a link at the bottom of this page for popular posts), the Chinese and Japanese had serpents in the form of dragons.   The Minoans, Cretans, and early pagan Europeans all had the serpent tied into spirituality and vital force. Within my own experience I had been visited by Quetzalcoatl having never known what this image even meant, but its purpose was perfectly expressed in my lucid dream from just a year or two previous.  Some part of us knows these larger forms as we connect into the Collective Consciousness of all traditions.  We dip into the pool of our larger knowing and wonder how on earth this could be.  By shifting awareness, by allowing ourselves to move into larger realms of awareness, we tap these seemingly archetypal forms resting within the collective awareness of humankind. Its “out there” to tap for the fact that the channel lies within.

The Coming of Quetzalcoatl is  symbolic of a deeper return of our own inner knowing, our own vital force and spiritual wisdom.  Its no surprise to me that so many have been connecting with the form of Quetzalcoatl in recent years. For people who are connecting to the Collective Consciousness, many today are left with few good ways for reaching into the divine in a way that makes sense.  Quetzalcoatl serves as a type of angel.  I know for a Christian this would be blasphemy, but this has never stopped me from pointing out the obvious.  Religious figures are propped up as though they have always been while we alone have been involved in creating them.  The Hindus refer to this as our being the “ancestor” to the gods.  This is expressed this way because, well, we DID create them.  Anyway, so we are basically short good spiritual agents that we will need in the time upcoming.  This is not hard to pin down, to know.  Its very much in the air and it leads to a lot of fascination with those same forms that wind up speaking to us about all kinds of qualities that we need that we may never have known existed.  Call it an ability to sense through the Collective Subconscious. I was not able to know that Quetzalcoatl did not have wings.  I in fact imagined him this way, yet when he did arrive, he arrived in a very traditional way, which was much more like the image of the mans face emerging out of the mouth of the snake than anything else.   And if I was merely guessing about Quetzalcoatl’s connection to astral projection and “spiritual journeys” I’d say my subconscious pretty well nailed that one on the head.  Quetzalcoatl fits the bill for some because of this uncommonly peaceful character who did not demand blood sacrifices and was the epitome of peacefulness.

Quetzalcoatl and serpents go far back into the record in Meso America. Quetzalcoatl has gone through some changes over time, but has been connected to death and resurrection,as well as taking on the elements of the sky, rain, and the winds (not unlike the Thunder Bird of Northern America).  He was in the pantheon of gods in Teotihuacan, and it is believed that it was from there that his presence spread to the Maya who adopted him as Kukulkan.  Quetzalcoatl and the snake image dates back to the Olmec Preclassic period, as far back as 1150 B.C.  He has also been associated with Venus.  There are a number of stories over the long period of time that he has been worshipped. Some rulers have taken his name, perhaps in a bid to raise themselves to the level of gods themselves.   In the 10th century a ruler closely associated with Quetzalcoatl ruled the Toltecs; his name was Topiltzin Ce Acatl Quetzalcoatl. This ruler was said to be the son of either the great Chichimeca warrior, Mixcoatl and the Culhuacano woman Chimalman.

Quetzalcoatl was also said to have made humankind out of his blood and earth.  What is interesting is that the Olmecs, Aztecs and Maya all attribute our current era as belonging to the “fifth sun” which is the result of four major catastrophes that have befallen earth and have meant the humankind had to rebound or be recreated each time, something that is very similar to the Hopi concept of the four worlds, with the fifth being the one we are soon to enter. On that note, perhaps we bear some connection in the collective of Quetzalcoatl having to do with our destiny at this higher order of our consciousness?

From the  Codex Telleriano-Remensis.

It has certainly been “in the air” in a sense that many have been looking for ways to fill the need for spiritual agency, or connection to the divine cosmos.

In literal and figurative ways, we are unearthing what these potent forms represent for us.  Quetzalcoatl is interesting in that its very likely that there was a man who lived who bore the same name.  It is said that he presided over a kind of golden era which are now ruins. What gets many Westerners so interested is that he cam from the East and returned there by making a boat to sail.  He was also said to have had a beard, a very unusual thing for the Aztec and Mayans.  So often, myths mixes with legend as legend often has rooting in actual fact with myth expressing the spiritual aspects that transcend both.

In the historical account, Quetzalcoatl had a sister whose name was Quetzalpetlatl.  If we consider how these two forms of myth and legend might flow and merge, it is certainly possible that Quetzalcoatl and Quetzalpetlatl express the masculine and feminine aspects of a still larger realm of spiritual experience.  We then have a masculine serpent and a feminine one as well.  Just as in the Hindu story of kundalini as two serpents, we have a full form that expresses the totality of creative potential in physical and spiritual form.  In this way, we all have access to those forms that align more closely to our own inner masculine or feminine selves. The coming of Quetzalcoatl can also herald the coming of his feminine aspect, Quetzalpetlatl.  The wisdom of what this myth represents is open to all.

If you can consider that we know more than we consciously realize, that there is a much broader realm of experience available to us in what Jung called the Collective Subconscious, then all of these things can make more sense in how we might encounter these archetypal beings without any present knowledge.  The resonance from a past life, or merely tapping a broader range of inner knowing can bring us into contact with those elements which can serve us in our own inner alchemy.  If you can approach all of this in the form of a very creative activity without a lot of structure, your higher self can suggest new possibilities that simply were not possible previously.  This material can be given a new life and old forms rewound through our own present experience. Its as though we take clippings from another time and make new art forms from the images and ideas contained in them.  As long as we don’t get hung up on what is supposed to be, experience is less limited.  Your being is innately creative, and you will be amazed at the insight that these forms can provide you if you allow things to flow more and be less controlled by any rules about their structure or older traditional material.

it was this process that has led me to a greater understanding of my own process as I come into contact with these archetypes.  Even removing the need to know WHY they show up will allow you focus in the moment to create anew.  I suspect that this is what all of this work with archetypes is all about; a creative enterprise where the old is made new again.  Don’t be afraid to go at this like an artist.  This is how new worlds are formed, ideas birthed, new resources uncovered.  There is a lot more to know and to become.  Even the Plains Indians had a process where the old forms were brought out, shown, then new ones put in their place.  These became the great sacred bundle that helped to direct spiritual understanding.  Like a snake shedding its skin, none of this was static, but ever-changing. Don’t be afraid to move with change and see what great promise it may yield to you!

NOTE:  Now just a few weeks after having first posted this entry, I notice that this post has an unusual number of views.  I first asked myself what was it that was drawing so much attention to this? The answer is simple I think. People have been finding the post often through searches FOR Quetzalcoatl. People are already looking for information on this mythical being.  People are focused, drawn by him. Is it because of all the Mayan 2012 stuff?  Perhaps. But I also tend to feel this goes even deeper.  I suspect that we sense that Quetzalcoatl serves as a medium for self transformation, a “Way Shower” of sorts.  We FEEL like h is somehow helping to usher something in.  I suspect that he is, in a way, but I also think that “he” also leads to the “she” as well, which is one of the great things about this age, the return of the divine feminine (there is a lot about this on this blog–use search tags to find them).  He holds a vibration which is a truth that we can sense from a vast distance.  How was it that I experienced Quetzalcoatl in such a way that was so close to his role in a culture that wasn’t even my own?  Somewhere in the space beyond our thinking lies a knowing about things. We see a distant light and feel a yearning to be there, to go nearer it, never knowing that it leads to some larger world that is within.  How do salmon know to swim upstream? Why do Monarchs find South America after thousands of miles?  We say it is instinct.  Perhaps instinct ties us into a more vast field of knowing…..even when we think we are not aware.  We hunger for a new path, I think.  A brilliant light to show us the way…..Even as I completed this addendum to the post, I noticed that on my popular blog entries section at the bottom of the page that this entry is now showing up there.  This is just how rapidly this post has gained popularity. We are looking for a light that we know exists….

Update:  8/20/2012

In a recent discovery of some old documents, I am pouring through a rather interesting tie-in with the Seraphim of the bible and how these beings were also called winged serpents.  These winged serpents took the shape of heavenly beings that brought illumination to humankind.  Either we have a collective awareness of these beings as serpent-like or it was part of a very ancient and wide-spread symbology that was used in most every culture in one form or another.

The Coming of Quetzalcoatl first appeared on the blog Divine Alignment.  To read more there, find D.A. HERE.

 

I grew up with altered states of awareness.  Later in life when I left home to go to college, I experienced an expansion of these abilities which included seeing auras and some unusual energy effects.  I have observed over many years the development of abilities in this vein and have watched what one thing led to after years of experience.  I am not an expert, I am a participant.  I am also a very careful observer and my sense is that utilizing the scientific method is a sound way to wards a better understanding of just what is happening.  I say use whatever tool you have.  It isn’t going to suddenly make an ability evaporate.  But there are some things that will assist with them.

 

There may be a physiological basis for psychic ability, since my sense is that psi is not JUST some etheric woo-woo energy but is based most likely in our body’s ability to pick up on weak signals and translate them so that they make sense enough for us to interpret them in a meaningful way.  To do this, the brain has to do some pretty amazing work for us in order to create a picture that we can relate to and that has enough of the original information within it to generate the right kind of picture.  I will explain more about this when I touch on seeing auras in a little bit.

 

My own gut sense based on what I have observed is that the mind actually goes through a shift in how it is used and how noisy it is.  This reduction in inner noise can help to boost awareness of the subtle field of energy that is all around us, and it is this subtle or low level energy that I feel contains a wealth of information.  Further, I feel that our bodies are perfect biological machines for picking this energy up.  It is not coincidence that electrical currents conduct with the help of certain metals like sodium, and sodium is moving all through our bodies.  I just think that on balance, it is far easier to filter out these signals than to pay attention to them, and this is what most people do.  But for the person who has psi ability, these filters are not in place, or it may just seem so.

 

I know that I have been and continue to be someone who spends a lot of time in what others would call a spacey kind of state of mind.  I have used this tendency to my advantage in my creative work as an artist, and I very much feel that this is in no way a detrimental state in any way, but our culture has a leaning in the other direction.  We do not see such “daydreaming” as productive because if we are doing that, we are forgetting to do the things that need doing like taking out the trash and feeding the dog.  And yet, it was Einstein who was riding on a trolley car who had a great discovery all as a result of his daydream of pretending to be a point of light moving at the speed of light away from a central point.  In that moment, Einstein had allowed himself to drift and engage in imaginative play when this great idea struck him.  Now I know that we aren’t talking psi ability here, but I know that for myself, all of my altered states, out of body experiences, and energetic experiences all had one thing in common; I allowed myself to drift away from the rational into what I now know to be a more whole-brained state.  It just SEEMS like we are being dreamy when we live in a world that is so left brained dominant. But I think that the two hemispheres of the brain are the two vital mirrors for our reality and if we are going to sense beyond our own physical senses, we have to first be at the root level in all of this and this means the brain and how it cooperates in signal processing.  Sound hi-faluting?  It’s not.

 

It’s just that the left brain is very good at sequential information while the right brain is more holistic, and I think, able to deal with things as a whole.  Considering the aura is a good example; the aura is made up of a series of “layers” of information all existing at once and being presented in the field we call the aura.  There is definite biological information being presented, emotional, mental, and for lack of a better word “spiritual” material.  And this is being presented all at once.  This is the kind of thing the left brain isn’t very good at.  It is very good at taking things one particle at a time, identifying it in a linear fashion and then developing a strategy for acting on that information in some way.  It is the right brain that leads us to those far-out places where anything is possible.  the right brain is the dreamer in this sense (not to say you can’t have a great dream in the left brain, it is just going to be different in some important ways).

 

Being able to dissociate is a big hallmark for many psychics.  this does not always mean being “spacey” but this aspect may help lead to it.  What is interesting to note is that I have had some psi experiences that were smack dab in the realm of spaced-out states of mind while others, like seeing auras, were triggered when I was powerfully present, focused, but devoid of mind chatter.  One of the most powerful experiences I have had was a past life experience that involved huge amounts of energy that fueled my ability to see and be present in multiple perspectives all at once.  In this state of mind, I was at once slightly dissociated, but also powerfully present.  It was a kind of balance that had been struck, but I was not tuned out, I was tuned IN.  I think that this is important to recognize.

 

I think there is a level of dissociation that may be necessary in psi experience, and yet, within that “place” or space there is also a great deal of focus.  This is, I believe, simply a different type of focus.  I think we tend to want to define focus based on what we know from our mean level of focus, or what we know to be focus in most instances.  However, this precludes the possibility for other very valid forms of focus that are simply not the focus we use to get through our day in the usual way. This focus involves becoming more aware of the self and the body.  In doing this, I am aware that I am tuning into my own energy more.  As I focus on that energy, I am also tuning into  those subtle frequencies that are normally lost or filtered out or not noticed.  I think that for me, it is simply bringing in a very weak signal instead of being overcome by all the stronger ones, such as the vivid visual signals streaming in from my eyes, or auditory sensory stimuli from my ears.  I shift focus from those inputs and I feel as though I am tuning an inner radio to a distant signal from somewhere around Jupiter.  I turn the nob ever so slightly in my awareness and I get something….barely something…..but I just keep tuning it in….boosting the signal through awareness….and suddenly….there it is.  As a result of this, I have found that as my energy capacity has increased, so have the vividness of my psi abilities and inner experiences.  I think it’s a matter of focus and then signal boosting by learning to bring in more energy which acts in the same way as an amplifier does when taking a weak signal from something like an i-Pod or CD player.

 

Now, if you know how I write, you know that I do not normally write like this.  I am having to go about this in a much drier and more left brained way in order to make sense of this.  Some of this material, I just know, and in truth, I don’t think that I have ever given the signal boosting idea much thought, but it has always been there and obvious to me all along.  Really, I don’t think psi is woo-woo.  I think it is merely energy that carries information (like any energy does for us from radio waves to microwave transmissions in our commercial communications networks) and that is that.  What the “psychic” has been able to do is to locate that focus within themselves to tune in and then boost the signal.  The stronger the boost, the more complete the information in my experience.  As a result, I do think we all can do this, we just don’t have a good empirical way to explain it or identify it.  The problem here is that instead of turning on a phone to speak to a friend, we are having to access hardware and software in our own bodies in order to do this, and there are no on buttons to be found, or any of the familiar navigation buttons that we might find on electronics hardware to help us to find our way.

 

The issue of auras is an interesting one because I was able to observe what happened to me when I first began seeing them.  It was a set of very specific circumstances that took place and I am going to recount them here for what it is worth.  I was in college, I was late to class and this meant I had to run across campus in order to get to class on time.  The teacher was very clear about late arrivals; don’t bother if you are coming late to class.  As I sprinted across campus, all of my focus and energy was put into keeping my legs moving.  By the time I was nearly to the art building, I was huffing and puffing.  My body was starved for oxygen and all of my focus was on getting myself oxygenated and up those final two flights of stairs and into class just as the bell was beginning to toll.

 

I felt like I was about to pass out from all of this.  Within a few short minutes, I was seeing a brilliant haze around people in class and I considered that what I was experiencing was the aura (I had read up on it a good bit because I was fascinated with these kinds of things).  What I know took place was that my focus was placed in my body with few distractions.  I was very singular in my approach to all of this.  I also suspect that the awareness of energy was triggered by my awareness of my own energy field by being so focused on my body.  My mind was relatively free from mind chatter.  I was anxious, yes, but I my mind was not going a mile a minute.  My body was!

 

What I will share with you is that about a year after all of this happened, a somewhat skeptical friend of mine who I told this story to reported back to me that he had a friend who had begun to see auras after she had sprinted across campus in much the same way as I had.  My friend had not spoken to this person about my experience and was just relaying an interesting “coincidence” to me.

 

By being more focused on our bodies I think we are more focused on our own energy, which is connected to the body.  It is not some “overlay” that is coincident with the body.  they are of a piece.  for as much as the left brain wants to slice and dice all of this up into neat piles, all of these systems are part of an integrated whole.  By placing your focus on one, you are by necessity placing your focus on the other.  The linkage was quite easily created in that moment when I was focused on my body in that way.  In a sense, this experience began to relate me to my own energy field which I contend plays a vital role in “seeing” auras.  Now to make matters worse, I am going to tell you that you DO NOT actually SEE auras.  I know you think you do.  I know it seems like you do, but the truth here is that your eyes simply cannot pick up on the wavelength of energy where the aura resides.  Seeing energy?  No?  So what gives?

 

I have talked to physiological psychologists about this issue and they all have agreed when I asked them that if the brain were presented with stimuli that does not come from the five main senses, the brain will do its best to shoe-horn that information into a sensory portion of the brain so that it can make sense of it all. I don’t know for sure that the brain is even trying to make sense of ANYTHING.  It may just be doing its job as best it can.  If you are aware of information streaming in from a different source, then it seems the brain is duty-bound to try to make sense out of it.  So seeing them is itself a kind of neat trick.  It is also a very useful one since it creates a kind of hologram that is extremely useful for how much information it includes.  I resisted this idea initially, but I came to the conclusion that yes, my energy field DOES tune into the energy of others.  I am like a big antenna picking up these signals and then making sense of them in some way.  I knew this all came from my solar plexus.  But that is me.  I could feel how my own energy acted like a radio receiver, beaming in and allowing itself to be effected by the energy around it in a much more conscious way. Somehow the information was being flawlessly translated to my “eyes” for review.  After I made this realization I ceased being able to see auras for a couple of years.   But don’t worry: I kind of psyched myself out for a while—my inner vision returned and all is well.

 

Now all of this gets down to what I like which is the nitty gritty of psi ability.  It is itself a cautionary tale in how we are walking around in a sea of energy and it is important I think to realize that we do a lot to tune these waves out.  Perhaps we have to just to keep sane.  There is a lot said about psychic defense, and most of it is, to put it bluntly, misguided in some important ways.  So for the price of how much it costs to keep your computer running these next few moments, I will explain this to you, and bear with me because I know its a pretty big claim and is at odds with a lot that we know about psychic defense.

 

Psychic defense is very limited for the reason that you cannot keep energy at bay.  You can keep your awareness OFF the energy, but not the energy itself.  If you think about what you do when you create a barrier to defend yourself, what really do you think you are doing?  Have you observed closely enough to tell?  You will have to decide for yourself,  but I know what the answer is for me.  When we set up a defensive barrier what we are doing is creating  a way for our minds not to focus on something.  We are in effect creating a symbolic wall for awareness.  And yet, in all truth, our awareness has not limit once we are using the etheric or light body. the physical body certainly has limits.  You can only jump so high, you can only see so far, you can only process so much information at a time or squeeze someones hand only so hard before the muscles quit.  the etheric or energy body is not so limited.  What limits you in truth is your AWARENESS of what is going on around you, and a defensive barrier is a kind of hypnotic suggestion you make to yourself NOT to pay attention to something.  If you see how people set up walls of protection it is all the same whether it is white light or a brick wall.  It serve the same purpose.  You think you are keeping things out but what you really are doing is you are keeping it out of your current awareness.

 

Here is the other thing to realize which is that like energy attracts like energy.  Until YOU change your own energy, you will maintain an attracting effect to certain types of energy.  To understand this means some pretty thorough analysis of the people or their energy involved.  This is normally noted over a long period of time or from someone like me who is telling you about it so you can be more aware of it in the future.  The things that will hang you up the most will tend to reside within a cluster of things that will tend to repeat.  To see the repeat might take some observation on your part, but it is there.  I know a healer who explained to me that she had clients come to her who all were dealing with the same sorts of issues, all issues that she was dealing with also.  As she progressed through her life, there were different issues that would come up and so the clients who came in to see her would likewise shift and change in similar fashion.  Something happens when energy vibrates in sympathy; we take notice most often.  This is just as easily done with negative as positive energy.  What can be weird is how attracted we will be to someone even when the underlying energy is itself negative in nature!  Soul connections are very much like this but most people do not seem to get past the “Vibrating in sympathy” part to see the underlying issues involved.  It is really a big kind of trick in a way, and it is a trick we can overcome and understand better by learning a little about how sympathetic energy works.  it can go positive or negative, and regardless, it is the sympathetic vibration that feels so good to us!  I know this might be hard to take, but it is true, and if you are able to integrate this awareness, you can develop a level of understanding about what used to move and affect you and ascend into a still finer understanding.

 

So the best place to be is one where the chaos of someone else’s energy just does not matter.   The way through this is by healing the issue in you that is causing the sympathetic vibe to begin with. So often the sympathetic vibe has to do with an issue we have with other people.  Maybe someone’s manner is annoying to you, or they are abrasive, perhaps they are jealous, full of envy, or chaotic emotionally.  See, you would not have a problem with such people if you yourself was not at peace with what all of this is about.  When you are, you understand that the person is merely dealing with a lot of emotional baggage and you let them go through their machinations without it affecting you.  It is simply a non-issue.  Yes, they could be annoying, but they are not heart-rending.  You are more neutral.  In this neutral place you are also, perhaps paradoxically, more capable of anchoring compassion in the moment instead of getting upset.

 

All of this is energy 101.  I know it all sound behavioral, but energy IS feeling, so out of what you pick up from people is itself feeling, but feeling that is held at something of a distance from your own feeling awareness.  But it is there.  As you become more neutral, far more slides off your back and does not affect you.   THIS is the true nature of psychic defense. You can set up walls all you want, and yes you will keep things out, but it will be a limited form of exclusion. It is a good place to start, though, until you have mastered the refined art of healing yourself in order to be clear enough to not be affected by that sea of energy.  Most often we put up walls out of fear or anxiety, and fear and anxiety only breeds more of itself.  Putting up a wall against what we fear only delays dealing with the issue in ourselves.  I know this may not be what you wanted to hear, or maybe it is in fact just what you needed to hear.  Use mainstream defensive skills, but know that the ultimate “defense” is where it simply no longer affects you.

 

Now having said that, I will also say that I have had to set up very clear boundaries with some people in my life simply because of the chaos that the brought.  I also know that in that moment, I still have an issue with it myself, but I have also learned that I cannot heal chaos by staying in chaos.  I have to get to a different place in myself that is capable of healing that weird attraction to the drama that created the attraction in the first place.  It has been a real trap to try and fix it by going down into the mire.  That never works unless you are perfectly clear, and most often when we descend into the depths, we just simply aren’t clear by definition.

 

All of this is a work in progress for all of us, and some of these ideas will take a while to mature in you.  For now, as you look at auras, it is helpful that you just SEE them until it is time that you feel them.  In feeling them, you may receive more information and more directly, and yet it will also be something that will feel more like an empathic response or experience.  This places you much closer into the field of awareness of the energy, so you do need to develop some skill in being able to be more neutral.  It can be difficult to be neutral when you suddenly sense someone’s deep state off anxiety, for example, but it can be done by not allowing yourself to take it on as if it is yours.  There was a time when I was swept away by this sea of energy until I learned to stop and ask myself if what I was feeling was really me.  Once I did that, I was able to discern who this was coming from and realize it wasn’t mine.  Once I did this, I no longer identified with it.  I didn’t NEED to make it mine.  I could understand that this was simply what another was going through and I could let it go and focus on other things, or perhaps tell a story that would get that person’s anxiety into a little more lighthearted space.  It is methods like this that can keep you from taking on the woes of the world.  We each have free will and sometimes it is not up to us to fix everything that someone is going through.  It is a curious fact that pain exists to help us to learn to no longer feel it.  Without that feedback, the pain can continue. This is one reason why anti-anxiety drugs most often do nothing to fix the underlying anxiety which is best fixed by no longer having a fixation on the hurt or fear that is bringing on the anxiety.  Numbing it takes out the one necessary catalyst within the self that can propel someone out of just such a state. I know that this might seem cold, but it is true that most people will not change until they are at the end of their rope.  Sometimes we just need a powerful enough incentive for change.  Until then, we tend our wounds probably long past their expiration date.

Learning how to navigate through all of this in a healthy way is one important step towards developing abilities in this arena.  I also know that what I have passed on to you may seem unconventional, but I suspect it does not get much press for the simple fact that it takes substantive change, and this is no easy task!  But it is worth it, I think.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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