I was searching kundalini awakening on Youtube today, a first for me in quite some time. I didn’t know what I would find or even what I was looking for. Then I found her there in India….she has this hard unyielding way, but she is also able to express what I might need to thrash about in a poetic trance to spit out. Any insight is always appreciated. More about her in a moment.
The questioner asks her how to deal with the issue of having the feeling of the other within…even though it has been a lot of time since they parted ways. I am reminded of how these “twin” or soul connections work and how people I know even years later are still affected by their other. I know how I have been affected.
So I came across the work of Maharishikaa on kundalini. She helped a man who was really having a hard time in one video. Then quite by surprise there was this touching video about a woman who was trying to move on when her soul connection abruptly moved on without her. She came trying to find a way through this. The response I found to be unique, novel, and beautiful. Watch what she says. I think maybe the way through is not to go away but to go through. Step into the fire, do not run around it, ask what remains and be ready for what might come. For me, the answer was so simple, really. So much fuss over such a little hitch in my heart and ego.
Some put so much on these connections. More than they deserve, in my experience. At the same time, though, they help to show us what love can be, how we are the love instead of that moment of dissatisfaction that then fuels a connection later, in another life.
I find the arrangement to be paradoxical once you see what happened (in another life). It is like bread dough left to rise too long; it winds up much bigger than it ever was in that last life. Perhaps it is the effect of letting karma go for a single life – it grows bigger than it was when first minted.
Except no one seems to know this. That, or all my searching has somehow led me astray. Aren’t we passionate about getting it right? Could that be enough to open such a vibrant portal to the soul and it’s love?
We only see the large loaf and surmise it is more than it is. The paradox is…..that it is more than it should seem. Perhaps that is what these connections do; they open us to the love shining in the soul. For the soul, it seems that this is an everyday thing, completely common. But here on Earth, it seems singularly unique (which of course it is). It remains enigmatic to me. I wish I could go back to those simpler days of believing that it was a twin. It is, tbough, more mysterious than that. Perhaps it is enough that it moves us as it does. For what else makes us examine so much over something we might not have ever known that much about?
I know it may not make sense, but I think there is something here for those who need it. We let go of our need for it to be a certain way. When we do that, there is a greater peace and this cosmic presence expands and it’s one less thing that creates pain. We think it is about them when it’s just about our reaction to something that we think fell short of expectations. This is, I think, the genesis of these soul connections.
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It’s fascinating to see my process done differently, with different language, yet accomplishing soul reconnection (dissipation of pain). All of my inner reconnection has been accomplished by going through painful emotions. They are the door in. I’d be interested to see, when this woman heals her pain, if she’s still interested in this man who in my opinion disrespected her. She very well may heal the desire altogether.
My experience is that it does. Given the deceit that one “twin” engaged in such a public way, I am led to see this just as it is; the mixing of very messed up personal junk with an experience in nonduality. And yet, the mythology surrounding the concept of the twin soul or twin flame persists despite all of the evidence to the contrary….and I will admit that the story as told is very compelling and seems t make sense in the front-view, it just dos not in the rear-view (or near-rear-view). It is a lovely myth, sprinkled with truths, but a myth to me all the same. That said, I think it could be an opportunity to heal in some cases, and to hold up a mirror in some cases in others (still, I did almost all of my healing work independent of what was taking place in such a relationship). If we are lucky it can lead us to resolving this innermost pain.
Hey, I hope you are doing good! It was a simple, thoughtful reply. On another note, I found this treasure chest on YT a while ago and have been listening every day when I am out running or walking. Thought I’d share, maybe it is of use for you and others who are like me, and work on the computer all day and try to avoid more sitting/reading as much as possible. Not everything is to be digested there, but I found so many gems https://www.youtube.com/c/GivingVoicetotheWisdomoftheAges/playlists
I am doing great, Eve. Thank-you, that is very thoughtful of you to include that material. I always like to have things to listen to while I am doing production work in the studio. I am sure others will benefit too.
I am happy, if it helps, it gave me lots of answers and it has become my favourite way to unwind or do creative work, while I process through listening. Your posts always arrive exactly when something is getting worked out in me, too, so I hope this gives back.
As much as we want God, we want compabionship/love.
I am happy, if it helps, it gave me lots of answers and it has become my favourite way to unwind or do creative work, while I process through listening. Your posts always arrive exactly when something is getting worked out in me, too, so I hope this gives back.
I am glad that you want to share, especially in these times that seem to be trying our souls. ☺