I started a project yesterday that has been nagging at me for years that involves my encounter with early Christian texts and what I have found was an effort to change the teachings of Jesus in order to appeal to a specific group of believers. While I’d love nothing more than to have a real cloak and dagger story for the sake of excitement, what we have as historical documents is scant. But the fix was in even during the life of Jesus in terms of who would tell the story of this man’s teachings and what that story was going to look like.
I know I am going against 1600 years of ingrained belief and programming, but it is a story that deserves to be told. Jesus was deep into the forces of awakening and taught about them, but either those in power wanted to hide them away, or they simply could not understand what a certain strand of his teachings even meant. Having said this, those who had these deeper teachings were hunted relentlessly in an effort to not allow these most important of his teachings to see the light of day. Whether by design or by ignorance, this was the result. And this, I now know, is a fact.
For me, the story begins when I was young and had trouble with the church and its teachings. For me, my trouble wasn’t as vague as some people’s problems with the church often tend to be. In my experience, I had this very strange and unexplainable sense that the church had hidden something of great importance from the public. It is this hidden element within Christianity that made all the difference in knowing God intimately, directly. The only problem was I didn’t know why I had this sense growing up. But like so many people I knew who were church goers or grew up in a family who went to church, something just didn’t add up.
The story gets interesting when I began looking at early Christian documents that had not been a part of the canon of the church. I did this after a friend saw a piece of my writing and suggested I look at a certain book because, as he explained, what I had written bore similarities to this early book.
I was at this time going through a six month period that was for me, the time that I was waking up. For me, it was a gradual process with a number of steps. Clearly, I knew something was up and that I was somehow being prepared for something. What it was, I didn’t really have a clue.
When I first read those passages in a book that stretched back into antiquity two thousand years, I felt a familiar stirring inside of me and wanted to know more. It would take going through a full awakening, though, for me to be able to pick out the passages that were clearly talking about awakening. Scholars, though, described these passages as “strange teachings” and this showed clearly to me that even they didn’t understand what Jesus was getting at. How could it be, I wondered, that I could see these for what they were and no one else could?
In writings by a follower of Jesus, a church developed in the second century called the Valentinian church or school. They explained that only those who had attained the light would be able to understand the teachings. Otherwise, they would seem like strange incomprehensible teachings. Could it be, I wondered? How could someone without a deep background in scholarly study of the Bible like me identify what they were talking about was related directly to awakening?
Because of how the church and our world has evolved, we tend to look to learned authorities for confirmation about what is true or not true. But these authorities are part of a system of being and thought that is part of the problem, which is of course the same problem that the early church had to begin with when they suppressed the teachings to begin with.
At the center of this story is a Wild spirit that if known, brings about revelation, self knowing, secret knowledge, and healing. This is the story that should have been told.Now that the beginning work has been done, the rest is going to be more scholarly work with research and historical accounts. Dry stuff for me, but the story is so compelling and so interesting that I think that it will turn into an interesting read once I am done with it. Finger crossed!
This is ultimately a work of devotion in the hopes that it can help bring a paradigm shift in thinking by placing something wonderful and wild back in a central role in an understanding of the forces of awakening that are redemptive in nature.