Its been five years to the day that I began writing on WordPress, and my how time flies! It is also a date that is very close (within days) to the day of the full rise of kundalini five years prior to my incept date on Waking The Infinite. No, that wasn’t planned, it’s just how it happened (the blog and awakening). Since then, it’s been my pleasure to share with you the many insights I have been blessed with in my journey, as it’s been my sincere desire that some of it may help you in your own journey by being aware of what is possible.
With there never being a dull moment, I will share with you something that took place last night that I have not experienced before that took me by surprise. But first, a little back story….
Recently I posted about how the use of binaural beats can aid in inducing deep brain states. I even included a link to one such video that has resulted in some rather startling results. The audio I have been using has been tuned into the brain wave range of Delta and Theta brain wave activity and has helped me to quickly enter those states while still awake. Let me know if you want a copy, I am happy to send you the links.
This is the post link: https://wakingtheinfinite.wordpress.com/2016/12/28/binaural-beats-self-improvement-through-technology/
I am doing this work to aid in the healing of the last remaining block in my body. As I have written before, these blocks can be places where entities can attach to feed on the lower vibrational energy that these blocks create (we are actually creating this energy in the block). But once the light body is healed, the attraction ceases, the moths go elsewhere, and the light body is returned to a more pristine state. Energy goes from intense to smooth. Emotions are less disrupted. I have been keen to root out this last presence and heal the wound.
In the last meditation with this a few weeks ago, I had inner light activity that I associate with other consciousnesses entering my field. I used to experience them whenever I would think about another person such as the one who I thought was my soul twin. She would have a consistent color to her light as she would wink in with a brilliant star-light flash signaling “hi!”
This time, though, as part of my awareness was out of my body looking down through my light body, I saw a red flash that flared deep down in the lower core of my body. Inner mind said calmly, “That was the entity.” As soon as that happened, I felt it move for the first time….ever. It’s an odd sensation, much like how it might feel when something moves on top of the blankets; there is no sense of feeling movement except by way of the vibrations it makes. It has a hollow indirectness to it that feels so….curious. I hadn’t felt that since 2008 when I released from my body several entities who had took up shop in my field since who knows when. I knew they had all gone, all but one that remained too hard to see. “Huh?” I thought. I kind of shrugged and figured that I would root it out once I was ready. But it has remained very hard to see. I only became aware of it once I had cleared away all but one small area of blocks, which is where this little devil is. Interestingly, I have become increasingly aware of it in a variety of new ways. It isn’t that I don’t know, it’s that I think it doesn’t want me to know or think about it….and it seems try to be as hidden as possible. I have seen how healers, even people who know how to remove entities will miss these because they are so dug in. Something is happening though; something is clarifying more and more.
Right after I saw its dim red flash indicating it’s presence on my right side down in my hip, I saw another light come in from about my heart chakra that was unlike any other light I have seen before. Normally when I close my eyes and see the flash of light of someone either feeling me or checking in, it’s a single well defined burst of light. I see them as being like starlight. some are big, some are small, but they always appear like that as thought reaches thought. I have learned to know who each light is over the years. I have known three such lights like this well, and they are all very different. Sometimes I can figure out who looks like what by simply sending a thought in a person’s direction and seconds later I see their colored light burst into view. The color reveals their soul’s essential vibratory rate. It is a lot like reading an aura. To see them I need to be relaxed, in the dark, and usually lying down. And no, this is not the effect that happens when you go into a darkened room where phosphene in the eyes shoot off creating bursts of light. These are different and most often happen up to an hour after going to bed. Plus, the lights are consistent in that they are the same size and color when I am thinking of that person. It’s like a projection of their thought energy and I’m just getting the end if the thread as this little burst that tells me who it is.
This “new” light was very different, though. It was larger, and it looked like it was composed of many smaller lights. I had never seen that before, so I watched it as it dove down towards the red light. It had the effect of seeing a light through a window screen with your face close to the screen. It created this effect of a tight cluster of golden light which, as I watched it, also looked like a distant candelabra in a cold room. Candles lit in cold conditions often quiver and pulse instead of being languid in their movement. As I gazed on it I knew what this was!
It was a seraph. A seraph means “fiery one” and the Seraphim are an ancient form of angelic being that has been described in Judaic thought as beings who surround God in their wings.And you might wonder how I made that connection. Well, when I looked at the many lights the movement and light spoke to me. It told me directly what it was. It was a direct transmission of energy.
For those of you who have followed my writing, you might recall my encounter with a being who revealed himself to me after what seemed to have been a 20 year absence, and who explained that he was a Seraphim. During my awakening, he had become visible to me again. The flash of pulsating fiery gold light was my angelic guide and protector emerging into my field of awareness again. As long as I had a certain person in my life, I was completely unable to see or feel him. But with my field clearing, he has begun making appearances again. To be honest, he has explained to me that he is with me all the time, I am his charge; it is I who does not always have the ability to feel him even though he is ever-present.
I watched his light as he plunged deep into my field and winked out. And then nothing. Huh. I continued with the meditation and drifted into sleep. Sometimes these events take place and then, boom, nothing. What I find is some kind of work is taking place just out of my range of awareness. Sometimes it becomes clear days, weeks, or months later.
And then there was last night.
I plugged in my headphones to my player and eased under my down comforter. I could feel it’s weight on my body, pushing me gently down. With the binaural beats coming in, I moved quickly into a deep state. I felt really relaxed, and happy. I have been getting so much done on my house getting it spruced up. I just felt very satisfied. And within seconds I began to feel it; the house began to shake. “Holy shit!” I thought, “there’s an earthquake!!” I laid in bed for what felt was thirty seconds as I felt the whole house vibrating in a trending vibration! I laid there, still deeply relaxed, waiting for plaster to begin breaking free from the ceiling, but there was not even the slightest whiff of dust.
I studied the vibration as it happened and I noticed how incredibly regular the tremors were. “My God, these vibrations are so perfectly spaced!” I had this thought rise in my mind that, you know, I probably ought to get up and try to get outside because I didn’t need to have my life end right then and there! I mean, I have been doing this exercise that has released so much of my fear over death, a practice or technique where I have literally purged fear of death from my cellular memory, with the perhaps unfortunate effect that I don’t feel very alarmed when “bad” things happen like oh, say, an earthquake!
As I lay there my guidance pointed out, “It’s too regular to be an earthquake…you are having a body quake…” And the joke was on me this time because for as real as that earthquake felt, as I studied it I realized that the source of the vibration was coming within me!
Was my body shaking? Was this like those early experiences in awakening when my body felt like it was being rung like a giant bell that had these deep repeating vibrations that shot through my whole being?
So it seems that something is unfolding, but I begin teaching again tomorrow, so who knows if my work will pause any of this very interesting work taking place.
As I lay there thinking about this and whether having this shady person no longer in my life has been allowing the veils to lift in my awareness I hear his voice explain, “Even when it’s someone else’s deceit in them, you can take it into yourself as if it is your own….but it is poison to all who dare drink of it!”
Live and learn…live and learn.
P.S. I’m all ready for school tomorrow and it’s time to get to bed, so it’s clothes out of the dryer and my things together for the big day. I’ll put the headphones on again and see where it takes me tonight. Fingers crossed!
Waking The Infinite 
Happy anniversary! 🙂 So cool that you felt your vibration and I like the way you describe seeing other’s light. I personally love the vibrations. Have felt them for years but just yesterday I experienced them in a totally new way – very rhythmic and they came with sound. I know the vibrations are me, always have, but can’t recall hearing them.
Thank you, Dayna!
What was different about these vibrations were how they felt like they were IN the environment. I am used to all sorts of vibrations (why, I am used to vibrating all the time!) but this….this was…..well…..it was like the house was blowing up. Which of course was a horse of a different color. For me at least.
So….do you feel like the house is shaking? that kind of crazy vibration? Well, I feel late to the party…
You hear things, though, right? You just haven’t heard pure energy translated into sound? Now if I am on the mark, then that is a pretty interesting eventuality!
Yes, I’ve felt that many times It is an indicator for me that I am in the trance state and about to go OOB. Recently (the morning of the 16th) the vibrations were so crazy high that they followed me OOB even which is unusual. And yeah, I hear things all the time (call me crazy lol) but hearing the vibrations like I did, that was way cool and a first. I have heard color but never vibrations. There are always more firsts on this journey, though, right?
The vibrations, even in an OOB run-up has always felt absolutely internal…but this was…well.
Hear colors? I have read about this type of sensory cross over. Was this present at all before awakening, or did it manifest only after? …Do tell!
Well I’ve felt the external ones as well. The way I look at it, it is all a matter of perception anyway. I have had my entire bed shake violently while I was also vibrating. I have had the room do the same but eventually I realized I was also vibrating and once I did that, the vibrations of the external environment and even my own vibrations became unnoticeable for the most part. I remember asking for them to go away actually because they were so distracting, and then, of course they did. Why they came back now, who knows.
Yeah I’ve heard colors but this was while OOB. I’ve not done this in the body. It only recently manifested. I was recently reviewing my blog and found that I had a classic K rising even in 2005. Why I keep forgetting this stuff, who knows, but I do. Prior to 2004 I had never had OBE. Prior to 2003 I was mostly “asleep”. Always had vivid dreams, premonitions that I ignored and empathy that I suppressed.
Here’s a link to the 2005 post. At the time I wrote in a Word document and I’m glad I wrote out all that happened in that time otherwise I would have lost it all.
https://livinglifeinbetween.wordpress.com/2015/02/16/2005/
I kept this post on my desktop so I’m a little late to the party…Happy Anniversary x 2!
I’ve been told three times by two different energy healers that they can sense something around my right hip / 1st/2nd chakra – one described an entity/being that is ‘freezing up a lot of stuff in my space,’ and that once I remove the being (by self-forgiveness?) I can be self-sufficient.
I didn’t realize until I read this post that the glow of light I see during meditation – coming from my right hip and quickly disappears when I acknowledge it – could very well be that entity/being/energy the healers were able to see. Any tips on how to talk to it or how to ask for guidance to clear the blockages?
Id ask yourself whether you feel the light is from the entity or not. I only had this phenomenon happen with an entity like this happen twice, once with the entity and with my guardian…and all within seconds of each other. But for me it was a visual that was clearly communicating that all of this that was happening was non-standard. It got my attention and helped to focus me enough to see what was happening. Plus the star flash for the entity was a dull red and not brilliant like the others…which was my clue. Plus, where this thing is normally creates a range of energy effects that range from a physical feeling of rawness, to pain, tightness, to co-opting my energy to drive it in a way that doesnt feel altogether me…or clear.
I feel after doing this work for years is that its something that can be affected by a slew of “techniques” if you want to call them that.
One is to focus awareness on the location and imagine the higher self or universal field flowing through your attention to heal the block or “wound.” This is very hands off and requires faith on your part. If that isnt possible, then do breath work, with nice long deep breathing into that location, feeling your breath filling that place. Do daily. Also imagery in your mind of feeling it loosen and be healed can help. Another method is to imagine the block being brought up along the side of the body, and as it does, its vibrating at a different rate in, say, the solar plexus or heart. This can feel almost like a fluid rising etherically up along the meridian line that this block is on. This has happened a number of times for me and it vibrates or shifts the block just enough that its gone.
But this is more than a block. There is something tending to the wound, and not in a good way. When I cleared entities from my field, there was a rapid leap forward in healing. All but that one little demon!
So I do talk to it. I have explained that it will need to be moving on. Its like how you might talk to a child who doesn’t want to get out of bed. When I removed an entity from someone, I taljed to it and explained it had a conbection to Source and thst it needed to seek that connection so it coukd know that it, like everything else, is limitless. And I have also said to this one that its days are numbered as a leech in my body.
I have also begun to see it and feel it more vividly in my mind lately. Its a bit strange, but I try not to let it freak me out. I just observe it and learn what I can. I let whatever impressions I get inform me and I might begin trying to use those impressions to build imagery to make its leaving easier. This is stuff probably outside of a mere comments section, but I will try every angle I can to at least loosen it up. And it is loosening as of late…which is very good news.
One thing that helped me was a binaural beats audio that….its hard to explain…vut has put me in mind of my own “underworld.” Maybe its just me, but it just does it for me. I can send you the link if you want. Its a theta beat so it takes me kind of deep. Its a little…spooky….Another technique is TRE and there are videos about this on Youtube. The method induces core body shaking, now known to release teauma and stored energy…which can heal the wound or loosen it up. Ny experience is that with this thing in the mix, it has made healing it noticably harder….like chipping away at rock…but I am doing it. Some issues have centered around childhood nurture, love, and fearing being hurt by others there again (which attracts the very ones who do)
Ultimately, your healer is right; forgiving yourself is the key. Everytime I have ever released major blocks, the event that caused them involved me not being in my highest, with a self inflicted wound I then saddled myself with for lifetimes, even!
My block is in the same place as yours. I have done deep tissue massage on myself to get at the area where it hurts. Do you feel any physical-like effects of tightness or others like I mentioned earlier? These are actually really good things to feel because its helped me tell body workers where to focus. I went to a lady who does massage and energy work in the kahuna tradition. Oh my goodness, it was really wonderful! I could stare into my body and see what she was working on and guide her to the exact spot…which hurts like nothing else, but as she massaged the block, the energy just bled out.
I have considered doing hypnotic regression to gp back to the genesis of the wound. Healers are doing this a lot these days, it can be incredible. I have a friend who does it and I witnessed how a lady was able to become unstuck from something she had been laboring under her whole life. Miracles like these are commonplace in work like this.
I have considered for the first time using aya for this block. When I read accounts, I see that what people go through is a variant of what those who release blocks are doing sans dmt. It is like visiting hell in order to acknowledge and then vibrate it out. No more storing it! But I dont know how events will conspire to make that happen. Life has a way of putting all of the events that I need in my path at just the right time. I have since stopped trying to push the river and try to let it show me its brilliance.
So as I ponder this, I can feel the presence of the wound shifting just with these thoughts. It rises, as if its getting ready to go, like a bird poking its head out of the nest.
I know this has been long….wp would be more useful if it had a messaging function. But more than anything, the core practice for me has been to allow myself to feel as deeply as I can. I dont mean emotions….I mean a natural ability often muffled and numbed in us to feel…to be sensitive, receptive to our insides and what flows through us. Some are afraid to feel this deeply for fear of pain, but its the fear that often builds the scar in us that constitutes so much of the wound in the first place. By feeling deeply, I have been able to feel how an emotion is actially twisted around in me, sometimes its enough for the witness self to see and begin straightening it out by letting go of the cord or wound….because thats what we are doing all along….we TELL ourselves we are this way because….look at that wound! In reality, we form and keep that wound by the fact that we are really just holdin on to it. Forgiveness comes for feekibg so foolish for not realizing how easy it is to let it fall away. Afterall, our wounds have defined us, haven’t they? We get sympathy from others for them and how they degrade our bodies over time. My concern to be honest with you is over these issues triggering a physical mallady in my body. Im working to see that this doesnt happen.
Sorry this was so long! I hope this helps you. Id be interested in seeing if our situations are similar because of how the condition is the same in the same area (between first and second chakras on the right side).
Thank you for this response. I wasn’t into binaural beats in the past but I’m looking back into it thanks to your recent posts. My email jasminesvision@icloud.com
I do feel the tightness/pain you mentioned in my right hip, which thanks to scoliosis (or more than likely originating due to something metaphysical) sits a little more forward than my left hip.
I do have childhood traumas that have resurfaced, triggered by my divorce. And have been going deep emotionally in an effort to feel, make sense of and process abandonment and rejection that occurred before I could even speak.
Please send me the theta link you mentioned and I’ll research TRE tomorrow. Good night and many thanks.
So I have been working at this for days, and I am satisfied with the answers that came just a few minutes ago while meditating. As I spoke with one particular entity/blockage in the hip not only did I feel a twinge of pain in acknowledgement, there was also a similar twinge within the left side of my neck.
I asked that my guides and any healing spirits surrounding me help me clear these blockages, but I got a sense/answer that they cannot – that it was up to me. The very next thought/realization that came to mind was that my neck (throat chakra) blockages/entities will not clear until I speak with integrity (without fearing how others may respond or what they might think).
And that the right hip blockage will not budge until I honor the sexual fire within (a flame that was dimmed many years ago through a sex- and intimacy-deprived marriage), and practice sacred sexuality on my own and once the right partner with matching or higher vibration surfaces in my life.
Fantastic, Jasmine!! Being open enough to get this kind of guidance is huge!
Interestingly, the biggest or hardest blocks for me in the clearing process have been the hip and throat. True. It leads me to wonder how certain centers might have complimentary effects or relationships…
Thank-you for checking in and being willing to share your insight into your process.
-Parker
My pleasure. And thank you Parker for inspiring this quest.
You are most welcome, Jasmine. And who knows, someone reading this might be inspired to heed those thoughts, those inner promptings that they have been wondering whether they ought to follow or not.
The white’ish light that appears lower right side during deep meditation could also be a healing energy, doing the work for me. And I definitely don’t want to clear that.
I think so.