You might think that my words on the sacred two are about tantra and are thus sexual in nature. I have had friends make comments about my poetry and writing as being about sex. But that would be a mistake.
Most often, when I write about the “two” I am actually writing about the twin forces contained within awakening. This was what Jesus spoke about when he said “I am one with the father and the mother.” Problem is, mainstream Christian dogma wrote the “mother” part out so that the religious experience became an all-male club. The Hindu, though, along with the Taosists, recorded it rightly: kundalini, or life force, the Tao, is known as twin forces that move through the body and awareness as a potentiating force of both healing and radical change. To show how powerful this force is, it is possible to do more healing work in ten minutes with this force alive in your than in ten years of standard talk therapy. Part of the energy is said to be sexual. And here is what is so important, right along with the twin-thing; the force of awakening is like a carefully controlled stream of water being so carefully tended, is allowed to overflow its tight bounds and allows for other water and other new bounds to enter in. The flow grows, the flow breaks down old barriers. It is sexual, yes, but it is creative, it is mental, it is physical, it is emotional, it is ego, it is intellect, it is all that we ARE. By allowing our energy to flow as one varied current, we can actually catch a glimpse of what we can be if we become less compartmentalized and controlled. We return to a primordial state which I describe as a return to the Garden. This is us, you see….
All that we ARE. So my poetry? It is about THIS. And yes, it is cast in the form of pure adoration. This is significant and important because the “two” are not themselves really separate. They are in truth ONE, when you experience them within your awareness, but they pull apart to form what seems to be two in the etheric body structure of the Ida and Pengala channels, and in so doing, they become a powerful creative force. This force exists in every single person on the planet. So when this force is liberated deep within ourselves, the twin force of kundalini releases, it is said, the Shakti and Shiva currents through the body.
Like a plug into the cosmic, we plug into the universe with a blast up the spine. Never are we ever the same after this. And I make them adore one another like lovers because of HOW closely they work with each other in the body when you become aware of them. You cannot have one without the other. I found that I could allow the “two” to grow in strength by allowing them to come closer and closer to one another through nothing except my own focus and awareness on my own process of energetic flow through my body and upward through the chakras and my spine. Out of these two, there is birthed an even finer form of energy that is the core of the Christ, or Cosmic Consciousness. Awakening is akin to conception, what the early Christians mention as “begetting” as a spiritual practice (the only remnants we have of this teaching are extant in the gnostic writings of the Nag Hammadi). For the bulk of Christianity, the subtlety of what Jesus had to say was largely lost where his core apex teachings were concerned. He was a man who spoke in pictures and parables to people who were drop-dead literal in their understanding and approach. But you think I feel the Christ? I feel what HE felt in his life and what he sought to get his followers to know. This is also the same force that all yogis and pilgrims have felt down through time. This is a HUMAN experience, you see, not religious or dogmatic.
I pay homage to these things. I pray, I look, I long, I breath, and I find healing through them. Always always, as they turn turn around the other. And yes, I am here to state emphatically that you cannot have God the Father without Goddess The Mother. Anything less is ignoring the truth that will one day stare straight at you like looking down the barrel of a cosmic gun ready to shoot you through and through with truth, murdering your lies and your false belief. We all hold lies in ourselves, and most of us do not know they are lies.
Strong words, I know. But I am through pussy-footing around.
Time to bring back the Her to the Him. And that is what I am doing. My words. they are about the She as much as the He. they are at once religious in feeling but shunning dogma and false belief. They are also fanciful, playful, fun, and passionate. Just like every good love story should be. So there you go. Sexual energy, along with the REST of your energy is healing. Subsume or hide your sexual energy out of some feeling of shame or guilt and you lose a strand of your own healing. And what does that get you? More repression and sickness.
So why did we strip the man-god from his woman? Why do you think we did that? I mean, really, what do you think was beneath all of that? Fear? Short-sightedness? There may be many reasons, but in a moment we can change all of that by choosing differently.
The Goddess joins with her God right here inside of me. It informs me, heals, and innervates. It is for me the way Home. And what is this? It is merely a joining of all the opposite ends of things in the universe using a glorious and beautiful form of cosmic short-hand. ALL opposites are thus strung along the invisible string of the Creator….IN OUR AWARENESS. And that is the core of all religious feeling. So back to the poetry….
Waking The Infinite 