Recently….less than 24 hours ago, I mentioned how I had sought to make contact with some people with whom I had been connected through awakening. I walked away from them in the hopes of clearing the karma that existed between us and which was fueling the draw.
Last night after coming home from a nice evening talking with friends and reflecting on what I have been working on, I continued my conversation with this person whom I have been out of touch with for so long. I had been asking her what it was that she felt, deep down, it was that she needed from me. The assumption was that most of these connections are fueled by karma. If you talk to people who have had spontaneous memories concerning their soul connection (twin, etc.,) so often it centers around a relationship being cut short or something that happens that leaves the two feeling as though things were not finished.
So much of this material isn’t rational so its not something that you can resolve using the rational mind. People do try. I have, and it doesn’t work. In fact, the best way to navigate through all of this is by way of feeling. When you consider that this all happened as a result of feeling at odds with your feelings, then touching deep into your well of feelings is the way to resolve this. This can be a little slippery to some people, but what I can tell you is that feeling is not emotion. Feeling is like a sensory ability. And so, the fear is that you will feel pain. But this is not true. Feelings may be bittersweet, they might even hurt, but they are experienced in order that the old material is allowed to go. Imagine if you were to just bottle a feeling up and stick it deep down inside of you. When we don’t face our feelings completely what was a small issue looms big. Mice become dragons. they really do. They have for me.
I had three central connections that I felt I need to clear karma with. I have asked each of these people the same question as a way to frame the conversation. All but one have been willing to engage in some thoughtful dialog about all of this. With so much healing having taken place these last six or seven years, it has meant that there has been some pleasant surprises for healing.
So I got to ask this person this question. Following my intuition I began to speak the words I FELT she needed to hear. I asked myself what was it that I resisted the most saying? What was it that I had held back from this person? How could I help her in moving forward? Instead of seeking to go back down into the old energy, I sought, through intention, to touch the surface of the feeling and, acting as a mirror, disturb its surface enough so that it might help her to feel whatever it was she needed to feel. The only reason why I took this approach was because it FELT right. I went into this with the intent of clearing this up, so I had to have some chance of it being successful, I reasoned.
There was a pause after I had said what I had said. It turned into a longer pause and the words came back that a dam had burst. Then a flurry of words…..exclamations of relief….thankfulness. It seemed that what I said had helped dislodge something that had somehow caught this person in an old snag.
The interesting thing is that in healing, as we heal, we open up the room for others to heal also. I was discussing the way all of this has appeared to me to a friend recently, which is that instead of the idea of a cluster of worlds, which scientists are calling “strings” I think that we have an infinite number of them. Instead of our living in a world that is set, we move through different worlds non-spatially depending on each and every act and choice we make. As I heal myself in one of these, I find the world where this healing exists….and the people there? They also reflect a slightly different state of healing, too. It all corresponds to a vibratory state. Endless worlds all based on our focus and belief of what we feel we are capable of. The events in this new world actually happen differently because it is a slightly different version…..
So here I am. What will this change press or change in me? I don’t know. I prefer not to know. I prefer, instead, to ask for the highest. I will let the multiverse bring it. So many want to make karma into a punishment, a way that people “get theirs.” But this view of the world is a human one. This is the same attitude that religious extremists carry that have to do with people burning in hell because they believe a god would cast them into a pit of fire. Silently gloating in the process. We actually WANT people to suffer as we have suffered. It is a kink in us that is best worked out of us so we can see that the world was not built with such limiting terms of punishment and reward. The world is as we are. Don’t like it? We each can change it!
Be the change.
Waking The Infinite 