I have no doubt moved into a period where I am much quieter these days as it relates to blogging. Truth is, as I have gotten deeper into this thing it has simply been less of a need to pass on things….I continue to be utterly fascinated with how the world bloomed and continues to do so on a daily basis….but the steps being made now have been ones that had previously tripped me up in my life. So many assumptions that I had made, in fear, are evaporating as what I was unsure of before resolve into certainty. With this has come a great desire to do my work in a quieter way.
Book work has been intense lately as I have been wrestling with a manuscript that keeps wanting to get away from me. There is just so much I feel needs to be said, said well, and….well….the truth is, I was not born a writer. I have to work at it. But when it works, its a perfect window into this amazing world that dwells in each of us. With work on the manuscript finally getting into a manageable size, I feel that finally things are looking they way they should. It has meant that I have had to codify in my editing what others had been telling me for a number of years, “Parker, you don’t have one book, but more like three.” I wish I could have just snipped their perspective out and patched it into my own. This book has been like a 600 foot long painting where you get lost in the details. Or, like a house with 500 rooms, it is hard to keep tabs on each one of them. Like that.
The other has been a slew of new things that have been pushing my process forward, including a new chakra. I say “new” because hardly anyone ever talks about it. I think there is a reason for this, but for me, energetically, I have only recently begun to feel its energetic presence until just a few months ago. I honestly don’t know what this represents or what it will mean later, but in a general way it suggests to me, energetically that centers are clearing out and energy is flowing into new regions. To give you a hint, I will ask you if you hear what I hear? 😉
New releases of old energy have shifted my perspective significantly. And honestly, it could not come a moment too soon. With it has come an increased sense of autonomy and freedom. It has brought a greater silence as I grow curious just what will happen when the whole dustbin is emptied out entirely. Having been at this for about seven years, I have seen this energy in awakening sweep from one level of the chakras to the next level, a term the Hindu’s call the koshas. Its been quite a trip and reaching down to what I sense is a more substantive emptying out of the old, I feel an odd calm that I have not felt before in quite the same way. It takes some getting used to and as with all of these releases is a bit like that moment when you shift a manual transmission from one gear to another. There is this momentary wonder about what lies ahead. But whatever it is, I signed up for it!
So that’s the news from these Blue Ridge mountains. For now.
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Waking The Infinite 
Glad you are finally finding the inner peace. I am a long way behind and feeling the emotional baggage coming up. Have to say feeling a little lost at the moment. I feel like I am treading water which seems rather ungrateful. Don’t get me wrong, I feel connected, but sometimes feel that I cant measure up to the expectations of myself. Still Kundalini goes through different phases and I am just surrendering to the process.
Take care of you.
Dar x
I feel an opening out of the landscape. This takes form accordingly for all of us uniquely.
Darlene….as my students say, “I feel ya!” Been there, and done just that! Being able to accept the world as it is….can be hard to do….and even harder when trying to accept ourselves as we are. But the one thing that has removed the limiting beliefs I have held has been just this…acceptance….and surrender to what is. It is one of the greatest gifts we can grant ourselves, I think! In the meantime, take care of yourself, and feel into the depths that always, for me at least, bring that wonderful sense of awe and enthusiasm that THIS is all so worth it! K is hard enough as it is on our poor bods! Thank you for sharing.
Yes, Jane, indeed it is like that! I would read about all these old “wise guys” and how they’d talk about this emptiness and I’d resist….”we aren’t empty!” I would think, and yet, we do empty out all that old rubbish, right? It changes all that we see. How can I ever know what things will look like until I do just that?