Someone recently wrote to me and described a harrowing process he is going through in awakening. No doubt, he is caught in this tight vice of an experience and is having trouble getting to the other side of it. And yet, the process he is locked in is what kundalini does to us. It rewires us, remakes us. It really does. Its easy for me to forget what it was like before awakening. Its getting easy now for me to forget what it was like that first year when I felt awakening stirring in me. It was so obvious how I had changed. I write in my book, which is based on many journal entries during the awakening that it was as though I woke up one day speaking a different language. From another planet. Just like that. Boom. Transformation underway. Bye-bye Kansas! But what my friend helped to remind me about is how we can get caught up in others’ feelings without realizing its them that we are feeling.
There is a curious capacity we develop when we awaken which is the ability to feel a person’s emotions and feelings so strongly that they feel like they are our own. It is disorienting sometimes to have this happen, but the key to coping with this part of the experience is with awareness. Having the ability to stop and ask yourself a few simple questions is all that you will need to begin to discern between what is truly yours and what is someone else’s. Or perhaps, your engagement with another’s energy whether conscious or not….
People whom I know who have had this happen to them, most often speak of it as though it is now what they must do, that they are now suddenly more empathic. But this is not correct. It isn’t. If you are feeling others’ feelings around you, I want you to try an experiment in awareness and next time it happens, I want you to stop for a moment and ask yourself if you are feeling EVERYONES energy in that moment or if it is just one or two people. You see, the experience of feeling this is so powerful and often overwhelming that it distracts us from what is actually happening, which is that we aren’t feeling EVERYONE, we are just feeling certain people. And there is a reason for this, and it goes straight to the work that kundalini does in us, that is, if you are ready for this level of awareness to come into your experience. What I am talking about is that in every case, we feel another early on in the kundalini process because we share something in common with them. We are harmonized along a specific range of experience or karma. Our energy is the same, but most often, it is about the things that remain in us that (we hope) kundalini will help to purify or release in us. I actually had a family friend react incredibly harshly to my suggestion that she wasn’t just channeling everyone as she thought she was, but that she was in fact, in each moment, channeling those people’s energy who shared something in common with her energeticaly and karmicaly. I say this because I went through the exact same thing and I now know, I was not channeling everyone in the room. I was channeling one or two people. It was when I identified this fact that I was able to take this experience from being one where I had no control to one where I did have control or a choice. Not only that, but after my decisive experience with examining what was at work and being honest with myself, I not longer was “captured’ by the experience like this again. This was an experience that was different from that of the karmically joined “twin” experience, whatever you choose to call it (twin flame, twin soul, etc.) which can have a more enduring aspect and appears to also be karmic but with a sense of mission and self-work involved where feeling others randomly in public can be just…weird or off-putting.
In awakening you go through a whole range of new sensory experiences. If you think that it’s all in your head, you will need to realize that this is simply not so. It IS in your head, but it’s also in all things. And the power that is now alive in your head now has the capacity to move the power latent in all things….which is to say that by connecting into the energy in all things you can more effectively get things done that need doing. this is a radically different approach to anything most people know about. It touches on the idea of manifesting but it’s also different in how immediate and strong that it is. Jesus, the Gnostic Jesus, described this phenomenon. He said that “once you are destroyed [ego death], when you say mountain move, it will move.” [Gospel of Phillip] These are the siddhis or powers written about in the old Vedic texts. It is what anyone who awakens discovers they have. It is also what many say should be ignored, lest they seduce you. Well, yes, you do need to be careful with this stuff, but if you can approach it all with the innocence of a child, you can direct this power in the same way you direct an arm or your voice in order to get what you want or need. I suppose that some feel its wrong or bad because it is an unfair advantage, but really all it is, is what you gain when you finally grow up, go through this spiritual puberty we call awakening. Thus, everyone can inherit it. It is an ability that is of a higher order, and so with this power comes great responsibility, most certainly. I have always asked for what I needed the most and most often in the eleventh hour.
One of the experiences is how you can feel others around you, near you emotionally, or who are connected to you spiritually, or people who are complete strangers who happen to mirror something in you. Some of these senses are so strong that the experience is that you are yourself experiencing something as though it was your own when in fact it is from someone else. Let me explain that for a time I would pass people on the street and I would feel their buried sense of sadness, broken-hearted feeling, their depression, their sorrow, their anxiety. I would walk by someone on the street and I would double over from the heart pain. Why? Because I was more sensitive. I was a vibrating tuning fork. There was also another reason why I was feeling some things over others; I was not yet finished with something that was present also in these people. So for example, a man who had been injured by his spouse in his heart I would feel because he and I had the same pain in us. I didn’t JUST feel EVERYONE. I felt certain people. There was a rhyme and reason. It was about mirroring. Why hadn’t I felt the lady who was walking down the street with her kids, why hadn’t I felt the old man who was walking with his wife? Why hadn’t I felt the college student’s energy? I had to realize I was not feeling EVERYONE. Just certain people. Sure, I may have had the potential to feel or read everyone the same way I read auras, but I would not ever read or feel them as deeply or as closely as what this kundalini conferred. The events in our lives are no accidents. They follow an inner directive from us. And if that seems impossible to you, consider that I have watched and observed this and have seen so many correlations with this that I can no longer dismiss it. This is not a need for me to dwell in magical thinking. It is a realization that either the world is chaos rendered into order by way of natural forces and its all just chemistry and nothing else, or everything is here because of consciousness and that everything IS consciousness. This would be on par with what some have called this world; A Dream. It also suggests that consciousness is engaged in our physics and our world in helping to bring about certain events in our lives. Accidental or miracle?
So it came to pass that I was at a dinner party. As I was talking with some new people I had met I began to be seized by a feeling of desperate anxiety. I have been anxious before like this in the past. I knew what that felt like. It felt entirely as though it were my own. I was feeling an energy within my own cocoon of awareness, within my own etheric sheath or auric field. It was mine, no? Something in me said that maybe this wasn’t mine. I thought about it. It made no sense that it would be mine. For one, there was no reason why I should be feeling so incredibly anxious. None. So I let my reasoning mind take some rope and try to lasso this thing some. This is one instance where the rational does well! So I sat there and took stock of myself. Instead of JUST reacting. If this wasn’t mine, then whose was it? I asked the energy in me to show me the way. And by golly, it did. In a room with about seven people, the energy in me pointed me toward a man who was sitting in a chair off to the side. He had been talking to my mother and he wasn’t someone I knew. I decided to just be bold and speak to the man about this.
“Excuse me, but do you have a problem with feeling anxiety?” The man pulled back in his chair, like a turtle pulling in its head. He was entirely taken off guard by my very forward question. He had stiffened. But as I looked at him, it was clear that I did not mean it in a hard or mean way. I was more like a kid. His face softened and he replied, “Well, yes, I have had some issues with anxiety.” We both paused for a moment and he looked at me, something clearly on his mind. He added, “In fact, I have had so much of a problem with anxiety that I have gone to therapy for it and have taken medication.” He stopped for a third time and did the same thing; he looked at me like he was pondering something else and he said the magic words: “In fact, I was feeling very anxious the moment that you asked me about it!” I smiled and thanked him. I explained that I seemed to be picking up on stuff like this for some reason. This interaction was the first case where I began the process of discerning between what was mine and what was others’ feelings.
After that incidence, the tendency to feel people like this waned somewhat. Part of it was that I tended to limit my focus more. For some reason I had to be as open as a parking lot I think in order to begin a process of clearing, which began in earnest around that time. As I Have cleared these old blocks, the things that I have mirrored or attracted have also changed substantially. I once had students that were of a certain character and they have, largely, changed. My behavior has also changed. This results in a different kind of day and life for me. It’s an incremental process, this, but worth it because what it does is it gives me an energetic vehicle that I am in command of instead of being in command of a mass of karmic blocks and knots in my energy field….serving to distort the energy coming into me and also distorting the events that get manifested because of all those competing knots that send out bits of competing code signals to the universe. They are me, but they are parts of me I wish I was not….but that I have not fully released.
When people say things like “She is haunted by her demons” you can know now that they are old blocks that are doing it. These blocks act like subroutines in your psyche causing you to behave in ways you really wish you hadn’t. Some people are entirely governed by these things. In the Gospel of Philip in the Nag Hammadi, this is what Philip describes as being the evil that must be pulled out entirely by the roots if it is to be freed from our being. It is also said in the same gospel that It is [the evil] that keeps us from doing what we want to do and it makes us do what we do not want to do. Substitute “evil” for karma, and I think you can begin to understand not just the root of evil, but also how to remove it. which requires going deep down into the very source of it. “You say I have to go deep within myself to root this all out, but how do I do this?” Everyone wants a method, right? Everyone wants a way to just do it, maybe an incantation or something. In everything I say here on this blog, it is the same; learn to feel deeply within yourself. When you can feel deeply, you have actually begun to activate your inner sensory awareness. Got that? You need this awareness and you will find that the deeper you go inside of yourself, the more this sensory awareness will open up. It is in truth, the axiom that the Greeks used to say in the temples: “Know thyself.”
You may not believe it, but once you learn how to look beyond the curtain of your own denied emotion, you will be given power over all your demons. Until you do, you will be tempted by them. Until you are the master and no longer the slave. If you want to know about releasing blocks from your own field, I suggest you search the blog using those terms. A lot has been written about it here. It is, in every case, based in learning how to feel deeply. THe reason why this is so important is because the deeper you can feel, the more aware you are of the occulted or hidden emotion that has been shoved down. It is this emotion that forms the basis of so much of our karma, our difficulty in relationships, as well as our reactions an even our personal (non-religious) belief systems. With something that has such widespread influence over you, you would think that people would want to get a better handle on it, right? One of the hardest things that we as humans do, is to be honest about those things that we have shoved down and do not want to face. Carl Jung once famously said in effect that the self will run from facing the source of its own pain and resist changing it at the same time. In this way, so many people become like graveyards for their cast-offs. Search this blog using “healing blocks” and you will get many posts on this topic, from exercises that can help release stored material (like TRE for example) to ways to meditate using breathwork as the entry into the field.
Yes. Self observation sometimes reaps profound and unexpected human connections. Once I walked past my neighbour’s house, and the old man (dying of emphysema) was sitting on his doorstep with his baby granddaughter, who was making bright sounds. Suddenly, I was THEM. As I passed them, I was both of them, and the keys of the Universe opened.
Naturally, on other occasions, I am intensely affected by others’ fear and anxiety. Sometimes it comes over me at night, like a panic. I know it is probably not mine, but I still host it; it doesn’t go away. It is a thought machine, a Karmic installation which reacts and goes on cranking. The other – the revelation, the humanness – has no thought of that kind. It blew my mind. It came after I had been swimming deep down into my sea.
So keep practicing! It is all rock-the-boat management.
Hello friend. I really like this post alot. Its funny because that night I was very off. I had sincere thoughts, I sure hope that he is protected and shielded because I’m being very negative. I’m thankful that it was used for good and to help others through this post.
Also, because of you and your peaceful presence I decided its time to get to work on this and move towards what God has been trying to hand me. However, I don’t believe this is an issue of ego death. I’ve questioned that for some time and now that I’ve applied myself. My shield is already built and getting stronger. I’m also using the law of attraction for designing a shield mentally. I want to sincerely apologize to you and I’m sorry that I affected you.
I know it was a negative but you are the ONE who helped me so much. I know being empath that so many people’s energy has hurt me, but even if God said to me “would you rather go back and not help them and something bad happen?”. i would say no. just like with you friend. I may have hurt you but the outcome is I’m so much better even over 2 days.
I’ve been studying and learning so much. Its already working. Please forgive me. I AM sorry. Take care. Thank you for helping me! I also cut out meat and dairy which drop my frequency a good bit. Peace.
Hey, really, no worries, there. I appreciate your feedback and contributions! I know that this experience has its challenges, so I know. I can relate.
One thing I can say or suggest is that instead of being shielded, I dropped all of the emotional armoring that kept me separated from the world. Like an onion. It can be very hard for people like us humans, but I learned step by step that by allowing myself to be vulnerable, I was able to feel deeper and deeper (there is a deeper wave than this….that song was playing recently…) and curiously, as I do this, my own energy field changes and I attract less and less of what I was. The problem at least for me WAS all of the things that made me want to shield myself but only served to separate myself from life. It is curiously fear that creates the energy that draws more trouble instead of a simple knowing that I am alright, will always be alright, and as I think this, it becomes so. Clouds go away and the sun comes out. We create our own reality and feelings are the language of the universe.
This awakening process can sometimes take place quickly, but it sure seems to be a process for most of us. However, we each go at in a way that we each feel comfy with. I’m just here to add my voice and voives such as yours are just as valuable for adding to the base of experience. So hang in there, and no worries. My one discovery is that when I have to shield myself, its because I am attracting something. All I need to do is to let go of the thing in me that is attracting it and then the energy is completely different. Energy then flows right through me instead of creating turbulence. I just don’t feel it or react to it. Somehow acceptance is a big part of this and before trying this method, I suggest doing it in small ways first to get a hang for it. Everything else strikes me as being resistance and resistance is something like denial I have found. But anyway….we each find what works for us, and best of luck on your journey!
I’ve decided to take a another approach. I’ve been using the law of attraction with the affirmation “I am always shield from all negative energy.” Its definitely forming and also I’m doing a meditation video with this indian guy. He does a guided meditation for shielding as he is also an empath.
I also bought boji stones which are good for grounding, good luck, money and shielding. I actually felt the boji’s took away from the shield that was quickly forming but now I’m grounded and feeling very happy. I’m releasing alot of guilt and shame from my past.
Thank you very much because you’ve made a big impact on my life pretty dang quick. So, commend yourself and give yourself credit for getting me moving forward when it comes to shielding and my divine life purpose. I was extremely bad off when we first spoke and Source used you to give me hope. Thank you again bro! Peace to you and all your loved ones.
I wish I could say that I can take the credit, but in truth, I think I was the fuel for your own inspiration. Thank you for your kind words, and it really is amazing what we can each do when we allow, surrender, or give ourselves permission to see things differently. I know that I used to have a very definite idea of what it was I wanted and I wished and focused based on that. Then I realized that my own inner source seemed to always know what was best and perfect and would arrange things in amazing ways. I now just ask “for the highest” and then I am free not to worry about what that might be. We can each move mountains through this even though we might seem ourselves a grain of sand.
I am glad that you found the stones to work for you…and you know, the feeling of not being shielded may have been a big clue….maybe our shielding is of a different order….the shielding that we sometimes seek may be a limited kind while the larger form of the universe protecting us might be a bigger kind. A more fluid and inclusive kind. Just a thought. Being able to change what I attract based on my vibration seems the most durable methods I have been able to find so far of offering protection. Fewer and fewer hooks on me to snag others….etheric and physical.
Blessings to you brother, and stop by when you get a chance. Good luck with the music!
Thank you for your presence and encouragement. Oh you’ll be hearing my music and messages my friend. My name will be “The Blaze Mordecai” in the music biz. I just secured the domain pointing to a blog at http://www.theblazemordecai.com. Keep your eyes on it. Soon, I’m beginning a blog / youtube video channel teaching.
I’ve been studying so much on shielding and have learned so much so fast. One girl taught when you feel others energy smile as that raises our frequency from within’ and change our focus. My focus now in public will be to encourage or compliment one person at every place I go to. That way I’m focused on finding someone to encourage or compliment. Also, I’m using NLP (nuero linguistic programming) to make new word associations with crowds and the public. I’ll be teaching this online as well. I know more therapy techniques than some therapists. I’m doing EFT too, affirmations, and also subliminal mindset video’s. Lol. Busy busy.
Bro, you fueled me right to a new level of intensity and passion. I will not fail. I already know I’m a millionaire. I just don’t have the money just yet.
I would love to hear your testimony sometime as I can tell its pretty awesome. I know it needs to be told. All of ours do for sure. The ascension is not easy but its so worth it as we reach the top of the mountain. I wouldn’t ever take it back. All of the ascension pioneers will be moving mountains on this earth in due time. I can feel it. Something HUGE is coming and we’ll make a world that works! 🙂 Peace to you dude.
Recently while having reiki therapy one of the therapists commented that sometimes when healing old stuff we can continue to identify with the old pattern even though it has been released. Being able to identify in our minds that this is all old stuff and can no go can often be just the trigger for moving past it. Certainly my being able to stop in the midst of feeling gripping anxiety and ask myself if THAT anxiety was really mine was what did it for me. When I did that I had the necessary awareness to know that it was NOT me and to then realize that I was just picking up on it because it felt familiar. But familiar need not be part of my pattern. There are so many ways we can move beyond things so we can feel free. Sometimes we can feel overwhelmed by how amplified everything feels when awakening comes along. On the one hand it helps us to identify things that maybe need the heave-ho, but it can also trip us up sometimes. Luckily, we are smart creatures who do learn!
Good luck to your endeavors, and never be afraid to speak from your truth. I think its awesome when I see people who have gone through this getting creative and expressing their experience. Thing is, while your experience might seem like to you to be outside of some people’s own reference or perspective, you can be an incredible inspiration to others to reach for the higher. I look forward to seeing what you are up to!
@staffrdartglass: hey bro, its jericho aka blaze. how are you man? i wanted to update you and let you know im completely shielded and ego has passed away in my life. i do believe it dies now honestly. thank you because you were the one who encouraged me and i really needed that during those times. i am alive and wel. thank you for your kindness and love towards me. now i can help so many others. i do appreciate it.
if you want more money you may want to buy the audiobook “the abundance paradigm” because it teaches us how to always be in the abundance paradigm which is egoless consciousness. i’m moving deeper and deeper into it and i can feel a huge influx of divine love into my being each day.
are you still making music? take care my friend!
Hey Blaze! So glad to hear you are doing so well. I KNEW you were just going to take off! I appreciate the book resource and will look into it! I am not doing as much music as I’d like to, but I did recently buy a new music instrument for my daughter which pleases me no end that she wants to pursue this (all on her own, which is even better because she isn’t just trying to please her dear old Dad 😉 Be well!
Hey bro! Which instrument did you buy for your daughter? Thats so awesome for sure. Thats awesome she’s doing it on her own. (I did that too. I think it was more fun that way!) I want a daughter and I hope she will play, but I want whatever she wants, not what I want.
Yes, truly I really am taking off. I feel no one’s energy now. I’m in full control. Working out like a mad man now haha. My blog is getting pretty popular already. I will be the launching the official site in the near future.
Take care man!
She surprised me. A ukelele! Funny because when I was maybe ten I got one and it led me to the guitar. And if it leads her the same way, great, and if not, that is perfectly fine, too. I always have wanted what my children have wanted, which has meant setting aside my own pride so they can soar in their own way on their own wings. Not always easy! But its the best.
I am glad you are feeling like you are getting some traction. There is a time for slipping a little to cause us to look deeper to see what isn’t working and a time for soaring ahead. It all has its place in our lives. So glad to hear your blog is doing well and I look forward to giving it a read!
All my Hopes!
Wow, haha hey bro she’s following in your footsteps it seems. She will most likely move to guitar later because school mates will nudge her to do that i’m sure. I think thats a great quality in a parent is wanting what the kid wants. To think in terms of whats best for others really takes us a long way in life.
One day, I hope to have children and I’m sure I will. They all flock to me. I’m like you though I want what my child wants. Not to say I won’t do my best performances with my child in attendance. Thats a little subsconscious nudge for her or him. lol.
Thank you and I recently found my root chakra is closed. So, this explains so much. I did a 3 minute chakra test online and it all matches up. I only have 3 left to open and yoga and listening to healing freqeuncies is opening them very quickly. We all make mistakes. We just need to learn from them because I dont like repeating mistakes haha. I spent many years doing that. Its not me anymore. I’m going to heal fully so I can heal others. Thank you my friend! I’ll be opening the official music site sometime in the near future. I’m starting my music and speaking career when I move to Florida. Peace.
I found reading this so helpful. Thank you. : )
I feel I’m on the recieving end of anothers directed desire… Its strong…yet I know I’m drawing it to me at the same time. Have a certain amount of fear of penetrating the depths with another person who’s energy is as strong as mine. If I surrender is this simply someones will over mine or vice versa? What is a clear indication that i should walk away?
Thanks for reaching out–so glad it was helpful!
I can only say what I would do based on my experience…which is that with a draw like you are describing, it’s very likely a karmic connection. If it is, it might require an equal footing for both of you in the willingness to work on both of yourselves department. Most often, though, people get caught on the high of the chemistry that the karma creates. On the one hand, it can help clear things, but on the other it can keep people a little stuck in just wanting to feel that tantalizing electricity. The trick is in moving forward together. And my question to you would be if you feel like surrender is placing yourself under another person’s will, is that the nucleus of the karma? I ask because only you will know. If it were me, I always see this as an inside job; I am surrendering to a force not outside myself, but a universal force within me. I’m there with the other in order to bring connection and togetherness in our evolution…which requires a lot of vulnerability and self honesty for it to be more than business as usual. And sometimes, if two people have a lot of trust, they can each become parts in the universal energies of the yin and yang. Just a thought. It’s like cosmic role playing…we each have both in us, but in relationship, sometimes accenting one side can be a powerful means to healing….if healing is what you are there for. And when I say “healing” what I really mean is being more clear or uncluttered with emotional hitches.
I think time will tell. I wouldn’t be in a rush—this was always my own downfall in the past; perhaps I’m overly passionate and impatient, even if it’s true.
A clear indication is behavior that shows s/he does not embody the talk. This is why I say give it time because many things will most likely be clearer once they get comfortable and let their guard down. You’ll know better if you do this, I think. But that’s just what I would do. Striking a good balance will be very important, and it should come naturally, not forced. If it feels like it is forced or chaotic, it’s most often a block that needs tending/clearing. I wish I could say you can do that work together, but that hasn’t been my experience. I’ve always had to settle it first within me before moving forward. Blocks in each tend to reinforce each other. I have always cleared these on my own much easier than with another. That’s just my own experience!
Best of luck to you!
This has been happening to me this past year and a few months; resonating with another person, and having a specific unconscious belief (I believe you refer to it as karma – I refer to these energetic blocks as patterns of energy which are beliefs) brought to my conscious awareness in a moment of epiphany that often coincides with its energetic release.
One day when my husband was emotionally triggered (his belief became activated) because he thought I was upset, I tried to explain to him that I wasn’t upset (so he could let it go). The next thing I knew, thoughts went through my head that he wasn’t hearing me, he didn’t understand. I suddenly started raising my voice in fear because he wasn’t hearing me. He stood there, very upset, and asked me why I was yelling at him. Like a bolt of lightning, the phrase “We always hurt the ones we love” came into my awareness, immediately followed by my doubling over and bawling like a baby and profusely apologizing, as the energy within me shifted and released. I had channeled this belief (with the emotion of fear) from my husband, but it also resonated deeply with me.
Along with this belief coming to my conscious awareness and being healed, the wisdom of why we do this came to me. We let our guard down around those we love and trust because we know in time they’ll accept us again, when they move through the hurt.
I’ve had this same sort of thing happen a number of times with people I’m very close to. The challenge has been dealing with the exhaustion (and brain rewiring) that such deep and sudden healing shifts create in the body and mind.
My son, who lives with sometimes debilitating anxiety, has been a challenge for me because I notice I’m still channeling his anxiety from time to time – which is not helpful especially when we’re sitting in his therapist’s office and I’m trying to make decisions about his course of treatment. But just being aware is helping. As my inner awareness about anxiety is shifting and changing (healing), I’m able to recognize it in others, and not be so anxious myself (my level of anxiety was never debilitating like my son’s). I suddenly understand some of my husband’s challenges in life as anxiety too. Instead of wondering what’s wrong with him, or why can’t he do this or that, I see the “why” now.
How interesting that you went through that! Well, difficult I am sure, but all of the real growth comes with a little pain on the side sometimes, right? Thanks for reaching out and telling that story.