Just before I had my awakening experience I was in the process of resolving some overhanging issues which I mention a little about in my first post.  What I did not mention was a concern I had about some close encounters and dreams I had had about ET’s.  Up until I began to read into the ET literature, I knew next to nothing except for what was in the mainstream media concerning U.F.O’s.  I knew that Project Blue Book had supposedly lain a host of questions to rest.  There was even a television series that aired that chronicled many of the cases that had been researched by the government body tasked with looking into the issue.  As time has rolled by, however, cracks in the facade of the BLue Book era have emerged and what we are learning is that Blue Book was an attempt to make U.F.O.’s much ado about nothing from the government perspective.  Regardless of what we know now, I knew little about it, but had some sightings in my adolescent years that turned out to be the forward edge of what would become known as a U.F.O wave in our region that was so dramatic and so well observed that there was a piece dedicated to it on Unsolved Mysteries.

I will say up front that I do not think that we know the full story on what we consider ET phenomenon.  It has baffled me for years why such consistent experiences have been had and yet not a shred of physical evidence has ever been taken away from an abductee scenario where someone is taken aboard a craft.  I think there are very good reasons for this and I think it is very reasonable to suspect that this is because at least part of the ET phenomenon is simply not happening on our physical plane, but is playing out in what some would call “nonordinary reality” (which really clears things up!)  The sense I have is that the abduction phenomenon is not entirely physical.  We may indeed be visited by very physical beings, but I also feel that we are being visited by beings that are either from another reality or access our reality not physically but through the etheric level of energy or reality.  So much of what I have read since awakening now strikes me as very much etheric, a kind of out of body experience that has a form of assisting form surrounding it that creates the appearance of something very real but is in fact fabricated in the same way a dream is fabricated.  By saying “fabricate” though I am not suggesting that it is not real.  I am perhaps only suggesting that the desk you see or the craft that you see is simply not there physically even though it appears vividly there.  And yes, people do describe having marks and even scars on their bodies after such encounters.  Burn marks are not uncommon.  But having said this, I will also say that not long after me and a sibling saw a rather dramatic aerial display near our home in 1978, this sibling had a burn mark that could not be accounted for.  It was a series of circular marks on the abdomen.  It looked very much like a shower drain pattern.  This burn or irritated mark went away after a few short days.  Now this might all sound strange, and we might point to a possible point of contact, but consider for a moment that when I awoke I developed a burn mark on my right hip that was in the shape of a crescent moon.  The curious thing about this experience was that I had not burned myself.  It simply had not happened.  The burn mark did not hurt, and it did not feel irritated.  I woke up one morning and it was simply there.

Now since writing about this on another blog, I have had another person who has come forward who has had an awakening experience who has also had the same kind of burn mark on her right shoulder.  A perfect crescent moon.  I have also since had a burn mark on my heart chakra that emerged during my awakening.  I have clear photos taken of both marks.  Looking into this, I discovered that during awakening or religious ecstasies, saints have been known to present similar effects but with a slightly different thematic subject matter.  They have marks on their bodies that are the same as what Jesus was said to endure during his crucifixion.  These marks are called stigmata, and what I would suggest to you right here and right now is that this phenomenon is the way in which the body can manifest psychic and spiritual “truth” as a very physical symptom.  Some forms of stigmata are well documented.  People have been known to develop physical holes in the skin that do not fester or become infected.  There is a great deal of suspicion about the people presenting stigmata as having done this to themselves despite eyewitness accounts to the contrary.  I suspect, regardless of the religion involved, we do indeed have the capacity to manifest these kinds of marks.  This might explain why my burn mark did not leave a scar and only faded once I made conscious notice of it.  No burn in my life went away as quickly as this.  It was gone within three days.  Nothing was left to even hint that it had ever been there.  A normal burn of this kind would have left a discoloration at the very least on my skin for a year or two.  I know.  I am a glassblower and I am accustomed to getting burns in my work.  You could say I know their behavior very well, how quickly one type will heal over another.  I can look at a burn and know whether and for about how long it will leave a mark.  What I had should have left a mark for at least six months.

So what I am suggesting is that it is entirely possible that even in the cases where abductees have had burn marks (which are one of the most common marks post abduction) that this is a psychic imprint or expression of some information that is present in awareness but is being expressed in an unusual, but perhaps not uncommon nor as impossible way as we might think.  It may be that for those who are close to awakening or who have more energy flowing through them, that it makes these people more likely to manifest these effects than other people.  The curious thing about most abductees is their tendency to be psychic or intuitive.  This, I feel, also lends some credence to the possibility that what they are experiencing isn’t physical but is psychic information or experiences.  I know that you might think that surely one would know the difference between a dream and waking, but I will offer up this one observation that I have made as a result of my research into out of body states as well as my own experiences in this area, which is that there are people who sometimes take their out of body experiences for being real.  Many times people have projected out of their bodies at night, woke up to go to the bathroom only to find that their hand would go right through the wall.  The television would appear to be on, and some things that were not normally seen would be present.  One man was approached by someone carrying a rifle and was shot in the chest and felt very physical pain and saw what he took to be very real blood coming out of his chest.  For what he took to be about an hour, he ran around yelling his head off until it occurred to him that he had in fact projected earlier and that this was a very real and believable event, but not one that was affecting his physical body in any way.  It was happening at a different layer or vibration of energy.

It is curious, too, that there are accounts in the Nag Hammadi, early Christian texts that were found in the desert of Egypt in 1945, which describes the ET abduction scenario perfectly.  These descriptions of beings called Archons are identical to their modern ET counterparts.  When I first awoke I suspected that there HAD to be something out there that would help to illuminate my experience, and it was in the Nag Hammadi that I found my first pieces of the puzzle.  They were talking about awakening.  They simply used a different vocabulary and had a slightly different knowledge set from the Hindus (who weren’t that far away), but it was all the same stuff.  Somehow, or for some reason, this material was deemed heretical and was shown the burn pile that took place in the wake of the forming of the church under Emperor Constantine.  Many texts were deemed outside of doctrine and were considered heretical.  It may have been why the Nag Hammadi cache was spirited away to Egypt to begin with, so they could lie in the sands of the desert for a time when people might be ready to read them with new eyes.  I also discovered that Gnostic scholar John Lash had gotten on the sent of the Archons and a possible new explanation for at least part of the E.T. mystery.  So back to my early experience and why I had looked into it to try and clear up some overhanging issues….

I was also seeking to clear up an issue concerning a dream I had had about being on board an extra terrestrial craft as a young teen. This was experienced as a dream, and it was also in the wake of some sightings of craft in our area. In the dream,  I was being taken on a tour, I was told, and was with a bunch of other people who all looked like they had been taken out of their living rooms for a sudden look around.  Children, adults, nothing stood out except the striped red and blue shirt on a boy slightly younger than me.  As we were being taken through a door into another part of the craft, I noticed that there was a hole in the floor where there was a giant set if turbines that moved.  I stepped out of line and took a look at this device.  I noticed how it worked and thinking in terms of ordinary jet technology I thought that it could never work.  A being which was standing next to me explained simply that that was not how the device worked.  The key lay in an entirely different method which struck me as exotic technologically.  The dream, though, was incredibly vivid, and after having stepped out of line, I went back into the line as we went into another part of the craft and thus ended any recall that I had about the rest of the dream.

Perhaps because of this dream, which took place on the forward edge of what would become known as a U.F.O. wave so large in our area that it would later be noted on an episode of Unsolved Mysteries, that I began to have a lingering curiosity or wondering about what it all meant.  During this same time I had two sightings, one with a sibling of things in our night sky that defied normal explanation, and another several months later with a craft that was so close its outline could be seen against the night sky and looked like it was strung up with Christmas lights.  When I read about UFO sightings where they use “Christmas lights” I smile; I saw the same thing on that night.  In the first encounter or sighting, we watched as two very brilliant balls of light merged in the sky.  Some have offered that this was ball lightening.  The only thing about this explanation is that what we observed was a very slow process that took over half an hour to complete whereby two large brilliant objects very slowly moved across the ridge of the next row of hills until they merged.  The two objects also pulsed in a rhythmic and coordinated way.  That is, they both were pulsing in the same repetitive series many many times over.  One brilliant pulse followed by three smaller pulses, with one much dimmer pulse and a slightly larger pulse, all repeating over and over perfectly for the twenty minute encounter.  The two objects moved slowly across the sky and emitted not total silence but what I can only describe as the sound similar to a rocket without the Doppler effect.  This light was brighter than the full moon.  You could read a newspaper by it.  Once the objects merged and grew brighter, I walked into the house.  My sibling who had remained outside came into the house explaining that soon after I had left that the light went entirely silent and then shot across the sky at a very high rate of speed.

Years after the incident, I would read about close encounters and the very odd world of the people who see things in the night sky.  It quite frankly raised more questions than it answered.  It was a kind of cosmic rabbit hole of sorts that led me to read such books as Communion by Whitley Strieber among others.  Instead of answering questions, it raised others, and they were of the kind that I did not like.  All of this actually made me feel spooked.  I had met a man who had had an encounter where he had details of a device “downloaded” into his mind for possible use later.  His and my notes were curious in how they matched.  I would read about devices that many abductees would feel urged to build that operated on the same set of principles I saw at work in my dream.  The thing that bothered me was that abductees most often learned of their past “missing time” as the result of dreams that were described as being “screen memories” for more involved encounters with nonhuman beings.

I held strong to my sense that I had simply not had any physical encounters, but I was a little freaked out to be honest.  I was freaked out because these encounters were not enjoyable.  People described feeling like they were like lab rats, or were held against their will.  So during this same period of time, I went to an online community to read up on other peoples’ experiences to see if there was anything that could help me to settle this nagging uncertainty once and for all.  Once I mentioned my own experience, I didn’t get curious looks but people who stepped forward and described similar things.  It left me more in the dark for a bit.  What was the nature of all of this? Something was telling me that all of this was within the realm of dream.  I had no memories of being taken.  None of what I had seen was the least bit troubling to me.  As the first pieces of awakening began to trickle in, I began to sense something about a large part of this group of people; they were all experiencing a realm of energetic experience that verged on awakening.  There were instances of time slips, odd anomalies concerning time.  Other had a stronger than usual sense of precognition and intuitive abilities. This was a group of people I sensed were all in some way on the verge of something, and as awakening slowly trickled in, I began to sense this more clearly and began to understand that this phenomenon of the visitors may well be one that is not entirely physical, but which occupies a different class of space or reality.  This would explain why not a single person has had a single physical artifact taken from their many encounters aboard ships.  This could explain why so many of the encounters happen at night (although not always).  this might explain why so many encounters mirrored vivid out of body experiences wherein people were floated out of bed on blue beams of light into what seemed to be ships in the air with beings that seemed to be from another planet or world.  Experiencers, as they are called, often described how they would see ghostly apparitions, or step into future events through unknown means.  Some of the encounters were more like astral projection than anything physical.  Some sported scars or marks made during their abductions.  Some described marks that would appear.  I had a couple of these marks appear on my own body during awakening and it got me to thinking.  Isn’t it just as possible that all of this is powerful psychic phenomenon being translated into very specific terms, i.e. extraterrestrial encounters?  I am not here to somehow seek to downplay any one’s feelings in regards to their own experiences, and I am not one who plays the hysteria card (which is to say I do not think this is all just hysteria).  But my own intuition tells me that many people that were part of this community were on the verge of awakening.  Is it possible that their experience was in some way co opted or interpreted in a way that focused the phenomenon in a given manner much like how a dream can change in relation to how we feel about the imagery that it contains?  When we overcome certain fears, for example, in dream, the images that most often emerge as emblems of that fear, or symbols of those fears often change forever as a result of this emotional and cognitive shift.

There is another reason for my wondering this, but it is one that did not come until I was digging into awakening trying to find some explanation for the phenomenon.  I had not yet hit upon kundalini as the explanation and was instead reading the Gnostic texts in the Nag Hammadi when I came across a couple of books that dealt with a curious constellation of phenomenon that were identical to the modern abduction phenomenon.  This phenomenon was being described by Jesus to one of his disciples and it outlined how a certain type of being called an Archon normally appears to humans.  The Archons come in threes.  They appear and strike terror into their human subjects due to their countenance being like a lion (they are actually described as looking like an “aborted fetus”).  Once they strike terror in their subjects, the humans become paralyzed and are unable to move.  It is then that they are “taken by theft.”   These beings, it is explained, try to appear as though they are like gods, but are not.  They utilize a form of synthetic reality that was called “HAL” that seems to create the appearance of events that are not entirely real.  These same beings have tried to interbreed with female humans in creating a hybrid race of the two.  All of this, by the way, is in the Nag Hammadi, particularly the Hypostasis of the Archons and the Apocryphon of John.  If you are the least bit familiar with how the abduction scenario, you know by now that all of these phenomenon are entirely coincident with the Archons of Jesus’ day.  In fact, there is an interesting article written about how all of these phenomenon mesh together by the Gnostic scholar John Lash HERE.

What I have inferred since then is that the experience of the bridal chamber, which is awakening, is itself a powerful protective force that keeps such intrusions at bay. This is the bliss that is felt when one awakens.  Yes, it is sexual and sensual in nature, which is why it is referred to as the bridal chamber. Kundalini is called the “libidinous” force, which includes all centers of the body in a “release” of a vibration of energy that moves all through the body.  It is as though the entire energy field is now swathed in this potent creative and sexual energy.  The challenge is in not taming it as much as learning to lose all shame and ride its wave with shamelesness and innocence (which was precisely what Jesus spoke to in the Nag Hammadi).   It seems that as one awakens, ones susceptibility to beings such as the Archons goes away or fades.  I do note that within a years time of my own awakening, I knew of four other people who were going through awakenings who were visitors to this online community.  All of them I suspect were having phenomenon taking place over years that may have seemed like “visitations” but had all the hallmarks of etheric, rather than physical encounters.  Is it possible that before awakening we might move through a territory where our own growing field of energy is in some way co-opted by others in some way, but that upon awakening serves as a kind of protective field from additional intrusions?  Is it that we are like children with new perceptual powers, but just don’t know how to deal with them, do not know how to break out of the old conceptual barriers and thus remain in a kind of hinterland half way between awake and asleep?  is it possible that these transition points are ideal locations for anything that feeds off human energy?  One person who had been a lifelong abductee said to me about a year before her awakening took place (which was after she told me this) that the ET’s were leaving her, that she was progressing nicely and that they were activating something in her DNA that they described in terms of using light.  They claimed that they had made a change in her DNA using the technology of light, they said, and it meant that they would be leaving her alone.  And they did.  A year after she explained this to me, she described how she suddenly had these odd synchronicities that involved a man she had never met, but knew online.  She wrote of her sense that it was as though they were suddenly on the same wavelength and seemed to begin to communicate without words.  This developed more and resulted in their coming together as a couple.  Her description of all of these symptoms as well as others that were presenting themselves but were flying under the radar at the time (as they were for me), were all awakening symptoms.

I used to be a little freaked out by all of this, to be quite honest. However, over time, it has become clear to me that all of this adheres perfectly to the Law of Attraction.  Whatever we have not resolved in ourselves, persists energetically and like attracts like.  Something begins to happen, though, once awakening reaches a certain level.  I am not of the mind that there is a clear point of awakening, even though there are all points where we all feel the movement that feels serpentine up the spine, I simply do not buy that this is IT.  I exhibited all manner of symptoms directly tied to awakening that presaged the more obvious awakening.  It is why, I insist that our understanding of awakening is not as complete as we would like to think.  We approach awakening in the same way that we spiral through our lives.  Life is not a point A to point B experience but a series of cycles within cycles within still larger cycles.  We exist in eternity wound within the appearance of time.  As such, there is not one point where awakening is, but rather, I suspect, we approach it and certain symptoms occur when the necessary thresholds are met that will incur other phenomenon such as rising of one force or another, or hearing things, feeling flushes of intense heat, tingling on the skin, in the energy centers, vivid dreams, loss of appetite, increase in appetite, change in the production of bodily fluids, hormonal changes, and a long list of other symptoms anyone can read about on a site dealing with the symptoms of kundalini.

My earlier sense was that these folks experiencing all of this unusual phenomenon were all “preawakened,” or in a place where with the right threshold or experience, awakening could dawn quite easily.  It is a sense that you can pick up on quite easily and there are plenty of symptoms to support such an intuition.  But until that time comes, it seems that people are caught in a middle land of sorts.  Lash explains how the Gnostics were themselves involved in awakening kundalini in this quote from his site:

The lion-headed serpent of the Gnostics is called by magical names such as Ophis, Knuphis, and Abrasax. In the occult anatomy of Asian mysticism and Yoga, this reptile is known asKundalini, the serpent power. Gnostics who practiced Kundalini yoga were called Ophites, from the Greek ophis, “snake.” This cult was condemned by early Christians as pagan “snake-worshippers.” To the mundane and uninitiated mind, the Kundalini serpent can only be conceived by crude literalization. To Gnostics, the lion-headed serpent crowned with solar rays was not only the image of the Lord Archon, but also of the source of spiritual power that allows human beings to resist that entity.

Until one comes into full embodiment of the kundalini force, one can be susceptible to forces that may approach such forces in a similar manner.  In my own experience I noted that an entity had been associated with someone I was aware of and had a connection to.  through the awareness brought on by the force of kundalini, super normal vision made it possible to be aware of just what was going on.  All of this defied normal reason, and I often thought I was going crazy, even though I KNEW without a doubt on one side of the equation that everything I was seeing and experiencing inwardly was in fact the case.  What is worthwhile noting was how the being or entity that had been associated with this person was not able to approach me or come close in anyway due to a field of protective energy that I seemed to be endowed with.  Within this energy, there was simply no fear.  Even as the creature attempted to menace me, I was unaffected.  I felt a powerful field of energy propagate outward from my body that gently pushed this being away as I prayed to this being that it needed to learn to create its own energy, to know its place in the universe, and its connection to the Source.  As a result of that experience I learned that while we may have something on our side that aids in creating protective effects, we can also wind up side stepping the necessary inner work that is also necessary to fully embody awakening.  Yes, it is present, yes it has its effects, but like anything, we still remain subject to those aspects of ourselves that remain unhealed and which leave openings to other intrusions into our own inner etheric sheaths, which I suspect is the entry point for these beings.  they do so through those openings where fear resides, or some past hurt or some other trauma that serves to tear our own inner fabric and keep us divided within ourselves.  When we heal these divisions, nothing matching the energy of that division may enter.  Period.

What is hopeful to me is what Lash has dug up about the Gnostics, which include Jesus, in terms of the protective nature of awakening:

Gnostics taught that nous, the spiritual intelligence endowed in humanity, could be blocked by the Archons. This occurs through Archontic intrusion affected by a kind of subliminal invasion at the level of thought and language (i.e., mental syntax). But nous could be reinforced through accessing the power of Kundalini, an ecstatic current that normally rests dormant in the human body. In his monograph on the Archons, I. S. Gilhus notes that “the erotic strategy is the most important means used by the pneumatics to save the lost light.” (p. 51) Pneumatics is the Gnostic terms for humans who pursue the path of psychosomatic illumination, the key method of Gnostic religion. Pneuma, “spiritual force,” is developed by cultvation ofnous, “higher intelligence.” But the Archons present a blind field of resistance to this process: in short, they rely on humans remaining ignorant of their inherent spiritual potential.
When Kundalini is raised from its dormant state, higher intelligence blossoms, and there are other effects as well. Gnostic sects such as the Ophites practiced the communal raising of Kundalini to produce an protective envelope against Archontic intrusion. In effect, they held Kundalini, the sexual-spiritual energy locked in the body structure, to be the main instrument of defense against the Archons. The Dialogue of the Savior, NHC III, 5 (85), contains this exchange:

      Judas said, “Behold, The authorities (Archons) dwell above us, so it is they who will rule over us.”
      The savior said, “It is you who will rule over them. But only when you rid yourselves of jealousy, and take on the protection of the Light, and enter the nymphion (bridal chamber).”

The savior-teacher is emphatic that we have power over the Archons, but he also makes it clear that some human failings impede the use of our power. The Greek word phthonos may be translated as “jealousy” or “envy.” Gnostics considered envy to be the signature of the Archons, as well as the key human failing that makes us vulnerable to their intrusion. “The protection of the Light” comes through activated Kundalini, often described as a lightning-like tide of electrified light that pours through the body. “Nymphion” is a code word for the ambient cell of psychophysical protection generated by high levels of Kundalini. Sir John Woodruffe, the great transmitter of Hindu Tantric wisdom to the West, directly identified the practice of Kundalini yoga (raising the serpent power through the channels of the spine) with Gnostic rites of “serpent worship.” (Shakti and Shakta, p. 191 ff.) Buddhist scholars such as E. A. Evans-Wentz, J. M. Reynolds, and H. V. Guenther have made similar observations, but Gnostic scholars have not reciprocated because they do not look outside their genre to understand the theory and practice of Gnosis.

We are all on the spiraling path, all each in our own way in our own timing.  We are all approaching our own greater becoming each and every moment, and yet in each moment there lies the potential for it all along, which means that choice is there, rather than some destiny; we move moment by moment by virtue of freewill just as our own soul essence whispers what we surely have known all along but have kept at the periphery of our waking awareness.  What happens today bears on tomorrow, and as we reach those clusters of events that help us to reflect in just the right way and to resolve the old barriers to held us divided (which the Gnostics write about!) then the door is increasingly opened to the channels opening in our awareness that allow us to realize who and what we are in still broader dimension; we awaken.

I don’t have a fascination of these Archonic beings, though.  I have a fascination with what brings us closer to our divine natures, what breaks the bonds of our limitations, and old awareness.  Do we do this through a perfunctory understanding of what awakening is and its protective nature?  No.  I don’t feel that awakening can in any way be brought about as a result of a rational process at all.  Just as emotion is often perceived as irrational, so too does the awakening force transcend our habituated tendency towards resting in our left brains and sparks both hemispheres into action in awakening.  Latent portions of the brain begin to mirror the phenomenon now taking place as it happens.  We would like to think its all JUST energy, but everything I have experienced so far has shown that everything happens together; body and soul are married and thus one is experienced because the other is capable of experiencing it also.  It isn’t that we are JUST spiritual beings, but that we are here wedded to duality for  a PURPOSE which is to bring heaven and earth together.  Married.  Just as we marry soul to body, we marry heaven and earth together.  Father Sky, Mother Earth.  Shakti is often seen as the world of the physical, the manifesting of creation, the great womb of creation.  She is filled to the brim with her consort, the initiating force, and they cycle one into the other in a harmonious circuit of creation that is the very essence of bliss.  This is the bridal chamber, the nymphion as the Gnostics term it.  All of these things are themselves images that seek to put to word and into analogous form what exists in a more primordial manner, a pre-existent state, which just so happens to be where both the “father” and the “mother” exist.  They are not begotten, but are the unbegotten begetters, which is to say they are before form and manifestation, the deities if there ever were any.

My interest in our reaching a place as a race where we can get beyond the veils of our own ignorance to see and know what is.  As the dross is removed, as the force of awakening clears and cleanses, we have the opportunity to live a life unlike anything we may have known previously.  We emerge as if out of dream, an old dream with many nightmares, ones which we began to question. Is this all there is?  Is this as good as it gets?  Is there something I am somehow missing?  How do I resolve this nagging sense of uncertainty about these events in my life?  How is it that I can reach a state of greater peace within?  Do I just accept how things have gone, or is there a better way?  What IS that way?  These are the fateful words of a seeker turning within and setting free the chains that hold her and him to what was illusory.

Perhaps there is something more waiting for you on the other side of all of this.  We will each find it in our own time, in the moment when the choice is made, when the turning of the soul shines brighter than our rational mind and our limiting beliefs do.  I remain hopeful for our clan of humans here.  We ache too much for a better world for it to be anything except that.